First marriage and love: hello, Mrs. Lu

Chapter 1016
"Do you have to think about a dead person?" Eric asked after seeing Mo Qian's face completely changed.

"Yes, I just want to think about a dead person. What do you want? In my heart, no one can replace him." Mo Qian sneered, yes, there is no one in her heart. People can replace Alan, even Arthur, who has the same face as Alan, cannot. Alan is unique in her heart and cannot be replaced by anyone.

"But it's impossible for him to come back to life." Eric also said with a cold face. "Even if you think about him again, he has already turned into ashes and disappeared into this world."

"But so what? I still miss him, and I still can't forget him in my heart." Mo Qian stared at Eric and said, the scars in her heart were pierced open together, and once again blood seeped out.

"You..." Eric looked at Mo Qian as if he really hated iron and steel. Why was there something good about that Allen that made her so unable to forget him? He didn't go to those things before her To pursue, I have never pursued, what kind of things are there that make her unable to let him go like this.

"You go out, I don't want to see you right now." Mo Qian turned her face away directly.

"Do you really have to do this?" Eric also felt a heavy blow in his heart. Did talking about these things touch her bottom line?Don't even want to see him anymore.

"I said just now that I don't want to see you, so get out of here." Mo Qian raised her voice again.

"Okay, I'll go out, but I still have to say, are you really going to live with the memory of that man? Are you really going to be so cruel to me?" Eric said again.

"Forget it, if you want to go out, I'll just go." Mo Qian said and walked out of the room directly.After rushing out of the hotel all the way, the night wind blew on her face, bringing a trace of coolness, Mo Qian felt that there was no such irritability and anger in her heart, why did she mention Alan again, really , The scar in her heart was opened again, and now it feels like it is dripping with blood.

She doesn't need others to remind her again and again that Alan is no longer by her side, she doesn't need it.In a blink of an eye, Alan has been away from her for more than three years, more than three years, more than 1000 **** every night, God knows how she survived, and she even pretended to be indifferent, but who knows What is in her heart, no one can know.Because no one else can be like Allen, no matter what kind of irony she says, no matter what she shows, he can know exactly what she is thinking, and then use the way she can accept to deal with.

In fact, she is really like a cactus. Most people just see the thorns on her body, and then stay away from her, fearing that they will be hurt. No one wants to really get close to her and understand her. Knowing that the heart of a cactus is also soft juice, I don’t know that she also has a soft heart. Most people think she is very brave and fearless, but in fact she also has a lot of fear, but these things are only Alan Knowing that she can be fearless and undisguised in front of him, and can expose her true self like this, because he will tolerate her and tolerate her unconditionally.

She has always shown a very strong side on the outside, whether it is the same for the people around her or the people under her hands, she always shows a very rational side, but in reality?She is not really that rational, she is not really that strong, she just wants to use such a hard exterior to cover up her soft heart, she is really afraid of getting hurt and losing.

Since she was a child, she has really lost enough. When she thought she was a very happy person, the reality slapped her mercilessly and broke her family. Then her mother and her father Divorce, leaving the house directly, leaving her alone.

Then she always thought that she was her father's only little princess, and then she found out that her father had so many illegitimate children outside, both older and younger than her.Her whole world was dark then.Why did she play so well with An Ruoyu?In fact, it was because she and An Ruoyu were very similar, even if she did not reveal the sadness in her heart, she could still secretly have a feeling of sympathy with An Ruoyu.

In fact, when she first came to Paris, she was really unfamiliar with people, and she didn't have much money in her hand. If An Ruoyu hadn't been supporting her all the time, it would have been really difficult for her to live in Paris. go down.

At that time, I was busy studying, painting, and working part-time. I felt like a spinning top, and there were many people around me who were already in love, but she was always busy. , her idea is that she should not rely on any man, both materially and spiritually, she just wants to live a good life for herself.And falling in love is a very time-consuming thing. Instead of spending time on men, she might as well spend it on professionalism and making money, because no matter what, money and what she has learned will never abandon her, but It was at this time that she met Ellen.

At that time, there were quite a few people chasing her, but many of them gave up because of her cold face. Only Allen persisted. No matter what she said or how disgusted she was, Allen would always Sticking to her with a dead skin and shame, it is somewhat similar to Eric.Then I will remember to bring her all kinds of delicious food, accompany her to work, and wait for her to send her back to her place of residence after work at night.

When she occasionally mentioned that she wanted to eat Chinese food, she deliberately went to Chinatown to buy ingredients and food from China.He is working hard to learn Chinese, and even went to a Chinese restaurant to learn how to cook Chinese food for several months, just to cook a few dishes for her on her birthday and make her feel at home.

In fact, until now, she herself still can't tell whether she loves Allen, or a kind of attachment, an attachment to home, and a kind of attachment to human emotions.She is very tired sometimes, and only he feels that he can give her a sense of support, making her feel that she is not alone in bearing all this.

(End of this chapter)