give me years of peace

Chapter 140 Love and Trust
Du Anran didn't care that she was only wearing a nightdress and nothing on her feet, she only knew to run down the stairs.

There was a soft and smooth carpet under her feet, and when she stepped on it, it was like stepping on the tip of a needle.

Inappropriately, Xie Chenjin's voice came to her ears. Xie Chenjin once warned her: "He treats you better, so you just pretend nothing happened?"

Her heart was in a mess, why, why she panicked the moment he jumped into the sea, why she was ecstatic when he came back after four days and four nights, why she gave herself to him willingly just now...

Did he treat her on a whim, or was he just coaxing her, treating her as one of many women... After all, the best is what you can't get.

"An Ran!" Xin Zimo accidentally bumped into the table while chasing down the stairs, and his leg immediately went numb from the pain.

Du Anran slapped the password button hard, the door opened, and she ran into the snow like crazy again.

The snow swirled with the wind, and when the cold wind blew, Du Anran immediately woke up a lot.

The snowflakes fell on her body, stayed on her smooth arms for a moment, then turned into cold water and penetrated into her skin.

She ran to the iron gate and wanted to unlock it, but Xin Zimo hugged her from behind: "Don't be impulsive! Come back with me! I'll explain it to you!"

Xin Zimo was only wearing slippers, and it was really cold outside, bitingly cold.

"I don't know which of your words is the truth and which is a lie..." Du Anran cried. It turned out that this was where she felt the most insecure.

It's not that I don't love, it's not that I don't dare to trust.

She never knew why what he did and what he said were always inconsistent. After so many inconsistencies, could she still trust him?Can you still believe what he said?

"Ever since I knew I was in love with you, I have never lied to you again!" Xin Zimo hugged her tightly. After so many disasters, he was afraid that she would disappear again by accident.

He just got her, and he hasn't had time to give her happiness yet.

"You let me go..." Du Anran was powerless to speak anymore, she just wanted him to let her go, she just wanted to go outside for a walk, she just wanted to run in the snow...

"I won't let go!" Xin Zimo didn't learn Sanda in vain for many years, he quickly restrained Du Anran, with a force, he hugged her, and carried her into the room.

Du Anran bit his arm: "Let go, let go!"

Xin Zimo frowned in pain, this time Du Anran was really angry, he felt the pain on his arm, more painful than the gunshot wound on his chest.

Xin Zimo closed the door of the room and threw her on the big bed.

As soon as Du Anran touched this bed, her mind was filled with the scene of their lingering love just now, she squeezed the velvet bed sheet uncomfortably.

"An Ran, why do you still not believe me after so long?" Xin Zimo looked at her, his heart hurting, "How can you believe that every word of my promise to you is serious?" ?”

Du Anran turned his face away and stopped looking at him: "Maybe there will be a day, but not now."

Xin Zimo laughed at herself severely. Although she said she loved him, she couldn't even give him the most basic trust.He took a big step forward, grabbed her jaw, and forced her to look at him.

"Since you don't believe me so much, why did you give yourself to me? Hmm? Is it just because you're lonely, hungry, and want a man?"

"Xin Zimo, what are you talking about!" Du An was trembling with anger, she pushed him away and slapped him.

It turned out that all she got was just his malicious ridicule.

But Xin Zimo was good at it, so he still held the hand she slapped.He looked at her and grabbed her wrist firmly.

He was probably driven mad by her to say such words, which are enough to break a woman's entire self-esteem.

Du Anran's eyes suddenly darkened, as if a sea of ​​stars was suddenly obliterated by dark clouds, and there was no anger in those eyes, only despair...

She looked at him and couldn't even cry.

He seemed to be a stranger in front of her, so strange that she was afraid.

This is the man she has been waiting for for four days and four nights?This is the man who once made her want to jump into the sea to be with him?When she gave him all of herself, he mercilessly gave her a knife.

Xin Zimo was stunned when he saw the despair in her eyes. He let go of her red wrist.

"I'm sorry. We'd better stay calm!" Xin Zimo turned his head and walked out of the room, closing the door with a "bang".

Du Anran couldn't even hear the slight movement of the second hand, and his mind went blank.

It's because she thinks highly of herself. She thought she loved him, so there would be no difference between them.It turned out that she was just one of his many women, and had always been.

The bed sheet was wrinkled by her, and the plaid photo album on the side hurt her eyes.

She sneered and picked up the album again.

The album is very thick, each one is full of photos of Xin Zimo and Chi Xue, there is no third person.

The scene is the scene of London, from near the Straits House, to the coffee shop, to the playground, to the riverside, they are all there, and the photo was taken more than ten days ago.

Xin Zimo in the photo didn't seem to have any scruples, even Chi Xue held his hand, he didn't refuse, there were many ambiguous actions in the photo, Du Anran didn't know if they were like her and him tonight, lingering...

She didn't dare to think about it anymore, when she thought of this, she felt the desire to vomit.

In his eyes, she was just a lonely and hungry woman, and he happened to have a need too.So, they spent the night together.

It's that simple.

When he gave her the bracelet, he said that he had to take good care of Chi Xue, so he asked her to sacrifice... He said that he would trust her for the rest of his life.

Taking care of... Indeed, really taking care of...

Du Anran laughed at herself, she was too naive...

Finally, she covered her heart and cried until she couldn't make a sound.

Xin Zimo has been standing on the roof since he came out of his room. He saw the small candle that had burned out on the roof.

He never thought that this meeting after a narrow escape would turn into the current situation.

He didn't turn on the light, and lit a cigarette irritably. In the darkness, the sporadic light spots on the cigarette butt danced, and he also landed a fist on the glass of the roof.

When it was dawn the next day, the snow finally stopped, and the sun came out, shining on the white snow, reflecting a dazzling light.

A thick layer of snow had already accumulated on the ground, the snow was smooth and flat, without any marks, and the air was so cold that not even a bird could be seen in the sky.

It was already nine o'clock in the morning when the butler came to the villa. She came late on purpose. If it wasn't for the fear that the two of them would be hungry, she would not have planned to come.

After she arrived at the villa, she went into the kitchen. She thought about making some snacks and then leaving. It would be good to let them go out for lunch.

But as soon as she walked into the yard, she realized that something was wrong with the atmosphere. When she looked up, she was frightened. Xin Zimo was standing on the roof and looking out the window.The eyes are lax and the expression is gloomy.

She ran up quickly, and the moment she opened the roof door, she was choked by the smell of tobacco.

"Ahem." The butler coughed again and again, and quickly opened the windows on the roof to ventilate.

But the cigarette butts all over the place still frightened her. She took two steps back and looked at Xin Zimo, who was only wearing pajamas, a little confused.

"Mr. Xin, are you okay?" When they left yesterday, they were still inseparable. Why did they spend the night, but...

"fine."

Xin Zimo's voice was hoarse, and the housekeeper was even more frightened, for fear that he would catch a cold.

"Mr. Xin, go and change your clothes. Guozi told me to take good care of you. How about I take you to the hospital later..." The housekeeper didn't know what happened, and he spoke very carefully.

"Need not."

The housekeeper didn't know what to say, so she nodded, "Okay... I'll go prepare breakfast..."

The housekeeper didn't dare to tidy up the roof, so she retreated awkwardly.When she just walked down the stairs, Du Anran just happened to come out of Xin Zimo's room.

"Ms. Du, good morning!" The housekeeper noticed the tear stains on Du Anran's face, her eyes were still red and swollen like peaches.

"morning."

The housekeeper saw the deliberate avoidance in Du Anran's eyes, and the desolation in her voice.

The housekeeper didn't know what happened last night, so she didn't dare to ask more questions, she just smiled and said to Du Anran: "Miss Du, what do you want to eat today? I'll make it for you."

"No need." Du Anran shook his head and walked into his room.

The housekeeper stood downstairs at a loss, and she didn't stand or walk.

Just when Du Anran pushed open the door of her room, she suddenly turned around: "Housekeeper, is there a pharmacy nearby?"

"Drugstore?" The housekeeper couldn't react immediately, "Miss Du, are you feeling unwell? What do you want, I'll buy it for you."

"I'll go by myself." Du Anran said lightly.

"Oh, oh." The housekeeper nodded, "Go out and go to the right, it's a bit far away, or I'll ask Lao Chen to take you there..."

"I see, thanks."

Du Anran closed the door of his room, but no one noticed that Xin Zimo's eyes darkened on the rooftop, and he ruthlessly stubbed out the cigarette butt in his hand.

After Du Anran changed his clothes, he hurried out the door. The snow had stopped, but the road was still difficult to walk. Every step on the snow-covered road seemed to take away all the strength from his body.

She was wrapped in a thick scarf, and the temperature outside was incomparable with that in the villa, one was winter and the other was spring.However, if she stays in spring all the time, she will gradually forget that winter also comes very quickly.

After walking for half an hour, Du Anran finally realized how far the butler was talking about.

She stepped on the snow with one deep foot and one shallow foot. The winter in London is very quiet, but the sunshine after the snow is very warm.She raised her head slightly and stretched out her hand, wanting to feel the warmth.

An hour later, she finally found a pharmacy.

"Emergency contraception pills." Du Anran stepped forward and said immediately.

"OK." The clerk nodded, then turned around to look for the medicine Du Anran wanted.

After a while, the medicine was found, and Du Anran expressed his gratitude. After paying the money, he immediately tore open the package, and swallowed one without asking for a glass of water.

The medicine was very bitter, and the bitter taste filled the throat immediately.She frowned and gritted her teeth without saying a word.

She didn't want to go back to the villa anymore, she walked aimlessly on the streets of London.If, if she had flown away four days ago, nothing would have happened again.

She asked for it, and no one will sympathize with her.

(End of this chapter)