the seventh bride

Chapter 124 The Child Passed Away

That's right, the hair has been cut. Although the cut is very concealed, it can be seen because the baby has little hair.She looked up at the babysitter and asked, "Has anyone touched the baby's hair?"

"No." The nurse came over suspiciously, looked at the baby on the crib and asked, "What happened to the child's hair? Young Madam?"

Bai Ying'an came back to his senses, and responded indiscriminately: "It's nothing, I just feel that the baby's hair seems to have changed."

The nurse looked at it again and again, and shook his head: "It's nothing different."

"Well, maybe I got it wrong." Bai Ying'an said to her almost unable to hold back, "You take care of the child, I'll go back to the room and change my clothes."

"Okay, young lady." The babysitter nodded.

Bai Ying'an struggled to stabilize her body, and walked towards her bedroom. Her steps were so light that she could hardly support her body.

Back in the bedroom, she closed the door casually, leaned her body behind the door, her legs gave way, and finally slid to the ground exhausted.

The child's hair was obviously cut with scissors. Others might not be able to see it, but she was always guilty because she was afraid that Pu Lianyao would mess with her, so she always paid more attention to every change of the child, so she could see it at a glance .

According to the traditional customs, children are not allowed to cut their hair within a hundred days, and it cannot be done by the Nangong family.Besides, the child's hair is so short, there is no reason for others to cut it.

It was Pu Lianyao who volunteered to help her babysit this morning, so she must have cut the hair!It must be!
And she cut off the baby's hair... She must have gone to the hospital for a paternity test, there is no other possibility!

How to do?What should she do?
The more she thought about it, the more flustered she became, the more flustered she became, the more she didn't know what to do. After a long while, she found some sense out of the panic, and began to fumble in her pocket to find the phone, and then dialed Xu Yarong's number.

Before Xu Yarong on the other end of the phone could speak, Bai Yingan anxiously said, "Mom, come and help me..."

These days, what Xu Yarong is most afraid of is receiving a call from Bai Yingan asking for help, because it indicates that something will happen.After hearing her cry for help, her heart tightened suddenly, and she rushed out: "What's wrong? What happened last night didn't work out?"

Bai Ying'an wiped away the tears that came out of her eyes, her voice trembling: "Mom, I'm done for this time, that Pu Lianyao is really hateful, she...she..."

"She ruined your good business last night?" Xu Yarong's voice became cold.

"She didn't just spoil my good deeds last night, but she also cut off the child's hair today. Mom, do you think she took the child and my hair to the hospital for an appraisal? Has she been suspicious of me? ah."

"Ying'an, don't panic."

"How could I not panic? If I find out that the child has no blood relationship with me, wouldn't I be finished? The old lady and Nangong Chen will definitely find out our secret." Just think of being discovered by the Nangong family. , Bai Yingan's face turned pale with fright.

She thought that as long as she came to Nangong's house, the plan would be a success, but she never thought that such a scheming woman as Pu Lianyao lived in Nangong's house.

Xu Yarong thought for a while and asked, "Where is Pu Lianyao now?"

"In the morning, I was kind enough to help me look after the child. After I cut my hair, I have already gone out. I said that I have something to go out, and I probably went to the hospital." He only asked Xu Yarong what to do.

"That means she just went to the hospital now, right?"

"Ah."

After Xu Yarong pondered for a while, she said solemnly: "Ying'an, listen, she just took the hair to the hospital for appraisal today, and the hospital usually takes three days to get the result, even if it is urgent, it will take at least two days." days, that is to say, it will take at least two or three days for her to get the appraisal report."

"But if she gets the appraisal report two days later, wouldn't I be finished?" Bai Ying'an said with tears.

"So now I need you to do one thing."

"What is it?"

Xu Yarong's tone darkened: "Let her die without proof after getting the certificate."

"What do you mean?"

"Now, immediately... smother the child to death." Xu Yarong uttered these words almost word for word.

But Bai Ying'an was immediately dumbfounded when he heard it, and after a while he whispered: "Mom, what are you kidding?"

"I'm not joking." Xu Yarong said: "If you don't smother the child to death now, then you will die in two or three days, and our Bai family will be buried with you. Are you willing to let our family of three be buried with a sick child? .”

"Of course I don't want to, but..." Bai Ying'an shook her head, tears streaming down her face: "Mom, this is too cruel, I can't do it..."

Although this child is not hers, and although she hates him every time she sees him, it is a human life after all. If he is strangled to death, wouldn't she be a murderer?

She couldn't do it, and she couldn't do it at all.

But Xu Yarong's warning echoed in my ears: "You have to do it if you can't do it. Now it's not about whether you can be the young wife of the Nangong family, but to save your life, do you understand?"

"I don't want...I can't do it...."

"Ying'an, listen to me." Xu Yarong was more anxious than her: "This child has no ventricle, it is impossible for him to survive. Didn't the doctor say that he only has one month to live at most? Now he Can't drink milk, can't breathe, every minute of his life is painful. You are not hurting him, but helping him, helping him to get rid of this painful life, understand?"

"He won't blame you. If he wants to blame it, he will blame his own mother, Bai Muqing. It was Bai Muqing, that bitch, who insisted on bringing him into this world. Did you hear me clearly? You are helping him, not harming him. .”

"I...I see." Bai Ying'an agreed sadly.

Xu Yarong took a deep breath, and continued: "Ying'an, stop, the life of our Bai family is in your hands now, I believe you will make a decision, right?"

Bai Ying'an nodded with tears in his eyes, and hung up the phone regardless of whether Xu Yarong saw it or not.

After hanging up the phone, she sat on the ground for a long time to calm down her emotions, but she couldn't calm down in her heart.

Although this child was originally a sick child who couldn't live, and I smothered him to death to help him end the pain early, but this is a murder after all, she needs to calm down, and she needs enough courage to dare to walk out of this room go out.

At this time, she even regretted her original decision. She insisted on becoming Mrs. Nangong, who was not a good Mrs. Lin. Only then did she find that the Lin family was much deeper in the water here, and she couldn't control it at all.

But, what's the use of regretting?She has already rushed the ducks to the shelves, and there is no way out.

Right now, she can only grit her teeth and continue to walk down this road ruthlessly, otherwise there will be only a dead end!
After sitting on the floor for a long time, Bai Ying'an finally recovered the emotion on his face, then opened the door and walked to the nursery.

Seeing her coming back, the babysitter called out politely.

Bai Ying'an gave an 'hmm', looked at the child on the small bed and asked, "Did the baby just nurse?"

"I ate ten milliliters and vomited half of it." The baby nurse said.

"You go and make some milk, I'll feed him." She raised her head and smiled bitterly at the babysitter: "Maybe the baby needs to be fed by mother."

"Okay, I'll go now." The babysitter walked towards the door.

After the babysitter left, the bedroom instantly became quiet, so quiet that the baby's rapid breathing could be heard.This inexplicable silence made Bai Yingan start to panic again after she finally calmed down. She took a deep breath, bent down and picked up the baby from the crib.

She began to look at him carefully, small face, small mouth, small nose... .

"Baby, don't blame me, and don't hate me..." Her trembling palm gently stroked the child's mouth and nose, and she murmured with tears in her eyes, "Please believe me, if it wasn't because of you being sick, I would have loved you no matter what." You can’t even let it go. Baby...you have suffered these days, but don’t worry, your mother will let you go soon. There is no pain in heaven, and you must be a healthy and happy baby in your next life, and grow up healthy and happy big……."

Bai Ying'an's tears flowed down, sorry that no matter how bad she is, she has never personally killed a life like this, let alone a newborn child.

******
The babysitter came out of the kitchen to make milk, just as the old lady woke up from her lunch break, she stopped and called out politely: "Old lady."

The old lady looked at the milk that had already been soaked in her hand and asked, "Isn't the child unwilling to eat it?"

"Young Madam said she wanted to breastfeed herself." The baby nurse said with a smile, "Maybe the baby likes to drink some of the milk that mother feeds."

"The child has a small appetite and keeps throwing up after eating. What if he chokes again?" The old lady said, "Wait a little longer, wait until the child is hungry before feeding him."

Sister He winked at the baby nurse: "Go, pour out the milk."

In this family, the old lady's words are the imperial decree, so the baby nurse naturally didn't dare to say anything, and obediently walked back to the kitchen to pour the freshly soaked milk into the sink.

After coming out of the kitchen, seeing that the old lady was still standing there, the baby nurse lowered her head: "Old lady, I'll go up first."

"Go, take good care of the child." Sister He said
"I will." The baby nurse replied, and when she was about to step up the stairs, there was a sharp cry from upstairs.

The three present were all taken aback, and after looking at each other, Sister He asked anxiously: "What's wrong with Young Madam? What happened?"

"I don't know, I was fine just now." The baby nurse took the lead and ran upstairs, and the old lady hurriedly followed with the support of Sister He.

When the elders rushed to the nursery, they saw Bai Yingan sitting on the ground with the baby in her arms, screaming with tears streaming down her face: "My child, my child... Dr. Huang! Where is Dr. Huang?!"

We only experienced this kind of blah-blah thing at night, and the old lady reprimanded angrily: "Put the child down quickly! Are you holding her so tightly that you want to strangle her to death?"

The baby nurse hurriedly ran to call Dr. Huang, while Sister He went up and shook her hand and urged, "Young Madam, let me put the baby back on the bed quickly, let go!"

"My child is out of breath. He really can't survive this time!" Bai Ying'an cried out in grief, and then pointed the finger at the baby nurse: "Why don't you even know that the child is not breathing? You Why are you so careless! Return my child...!"

"I...Young Madam, the baby is obviously fine just now..." The baby nurse panicked, shaking her head and waving her hands, suddenly being forced to bear such a big crime, how could she not panic?
"I thought he was still breathing, but look at him now...you see for yourself..."

"Young Madam, please put the child on the bed first, please." The baby nurse came over and together with Sister He snatched the child back to the bed from Bai Ying'an's arms.

The child on the crib had a purple face and was not breathing.

"Ah...how did this happen? He was obviously fine just now, and he was still drinking milk..." The baby nurse was also frightened, and frantically picked up the itchy air bag and hung it on the child's face.

But Bai Ying'an pushed her away from the bed and screamed: "What's the use of hanging up now? Why didn't you hang up just now? Why...!"

"I...I don't know...just now the child was breathing well, so I..."

"Excuses! It's all excuses!" Bai Ying'an yelled, hugged the child into his arms again, and yelled at her: "Get out! Get out of here! Don't touch my child!"

"Old madam..." Sister He hurriedly supported the old madam whose body was weakening little by little, and said anxiously: "Old madam, don't worry, let's sit down first."

The old lady nodded in a daze, and sat down on the sofa with the support of Sister He.

Dr. Huang rushed over quickly, and Bai Yingan held the child in one hand and pulled the corner of Dr. Huang's clothes with the other, crying and begging: "Doctor Huang, you must save my child, I don't want to lose him, please save him." ...."

"Young Madam, put the child down first." Dr. Huang said.

Reluctantly, Bai Ying'an put the child back on the crib. Doctor Huang examined it carefully, his face became serious, and he continued to carry out a series of rescue measures without giving up, but the child never woke up again.

In the end, he could only turn around, and said to the old lady and Bai Yingan: "Old lady, young lady, I'm sorry...the child cannot be saved."

The sharp crying sounded again, and Bai Ying'an also hugged the child into his arms again.

Although she was already mentally prepared to lose her child, the old lady was still so sad that she shed tears, but she was not as exaggerated as Bai Yingan.She glanced at the crying Bai Ying'an, put her palm on Sister He's arm, and said in a trembling voice: "Help me back to the room, and tell Chen to come back to deal with the child's funeral."

"Okay, old lady." Sister He wiped away the tears from her eyes, and helped the old lady leave the nursery.

*****
Just after finishing an emergency meeting, Nangong Chen was about to go back to the office. Shen Ke walked over with a smile and said, "Cousin, today is the weekend."

Nangong Chen raised his head and glanced at him: "What do you want?"

"I'm in love now, so of course I need some weekend time to manage my love." Shen Ke smiled slightly: "There is a big American movie coming out tonight, and Lian Yao and I have made an appointment to watch it together. Do you want to bring your cousin along with you? go?"

Nangong Chen thought for a while, then nodded: "Okay."

Bai Ying'an was so frightened last night, she must have felt very uncomfortable, it would be good to take her to watch a movie to make her feel better.

"But I have a ticket for eight o'clock, so you probably won't be able to buy tickets that early."

"It's okay, let's watch it first." As soon as Nangong Chen finished speaking, the phone rang, and he picked up the phone to glance at it and immediately connected the call.

When he heard the news that the child had passed away from Sister He, the expression on his face froze instantly, and he was not particularly surprised, but his heart seemed to be stabbed severely by a needle, and the pain was unbearable.

Gone, his child actually just left...

Shen Ke saw his face change instantly, and asked with concern: "What happened? Cousin?"

Nangong Chen came back to his senses, took a deep breath and shook his head: "It's nothing, let's go."

He didn't show too much excitement, nor did he get up and rush home immediately, but slowly put away the meeting documents on the desktop and walked back to his office.

"Young Master Chen, are you alright?" Sensing his grief, Assistant Yan asked with concern, "Is... something happened to the child?"

When Nangongchen's phone rang just now, she inadvertently caught a glimpse of the call from Nangong's family, and the only thing that could make him lose his mind was the young lady besides the child.

Nan Gongchen just nodded his head lightly, then staggered from her side and walked in the direction of the elevator.

Assistant Yan was taken aback for a moment, she didn't dare to ask more questions, so she chased after Nangong Chen and said, "Young Master Chen, let me take you back."

"No need, I'm not even able to drive a car." Nangong Chen refused without looking back.

Nangong Chen parked the car in front of the main house, and Sister He immediately came up to her and said with a sad face, "Young Master, please express your condolences."

"How is grandma?" Nan Gongchen asked as he walked into the room.

"The old lady is overly sad and lying in the room, but the young lady is like crazy, holding the child tightly and refusing to let go, no one can persuade her." Sister He said.

Nan Gongchen walked upstairs quickly and entered the baby room, and she saw Bai Yingan sitting on the floor with the baby in her arms and weeping.

Seeing him coming in, Bai Ying'an murmured: "Eldest young master..." Then more tears came out, and she looked at her with aggrieved eyes.

Nangong Chen stopped in his tracks, then walked up to her and squatted down, stretching out his hand to her: "Ying'an, the child is dead, give the child to me, be good."

Instinctively, Bai Ying'an hugged the child even tighter, and shook her head with tears in her eyes: "No...no one can take my child away, no one else."

"Don't be stupid, the child has left us, we should let him go to the ground as soon as possible."

"I don't want... the child won't die, he must not be dead yet..." Bai Yingan took his hand and cried, "Eldest young master, shall we send him to the biggest hospital for treatment? He must Will come alive like last night."

"It's useless." Nangong Chen had a sore nose, and said with a wry smile, "Ying'an, you should know that as long as there is a glimmer of hope, I will not give up just like you, but Doctor Huang said that if the child dies, it is dead. "

"No, Eldest Young Master, you hug him, he is still warm, he is not dead at all." Bai Yingan handed the child to him, Nangong Chen took the child from her arms, looked at the child's purple face, and said With the hands that would never wriggle again, I finally couldn't help but shed two tears.

He looked at the child carefully, as if he wanted to engrave his face in his heart and never forget it.

This is his first child, and maybe it will be the last. He is reluctant to let him go, but he has no ability to keep him.For the first time, he felt so powerless.

Bai Ying'an was flustered by his seriousness, and hurriedly reached out and snatched the child back from his hands, holding the child in her arms and blaming herself remorsefully: "Baby...it's all mother's fault, it's mother who hurt you, If it wasn't for your mother's insistence on giving birth to you, you wouldn't have suffered so much... baby, forgive mom..."

"Ying'an, don't cry." Nan Gongchen hugged her into his arms, patted her on the shoulder and comforted her: "Give me the child."

"Where are you taking him?" Bai Ying'an asked abruptly.

"Send him where he should go, leave Nangong's house, maybe this is also the child's dream."

Bai Ying'an raised her small face and said with tears, "I want to go with you, and I want to see him off personally."

"No, you'd better rest at home." Nan Gongchen was afraid that she couldn't bear it, so he couldn't bear to let her go with him.

Bai Ying'an didn't know when Pu Lianyao would come back, and the child had to be sent away before Pu Lianyao came back, so she didn't continue to act, but let Nangong Chen go out with the child in her arms.

******
Because I arrived at the cinema early, Shen Ke and Pu Lianyao were sitting on the lounge chair drinking milk tea and eating popcorn. Pu Lianyao suddenly raised her head and stared at Shen Ke and said, "Why do my eyelids start to twitch from the moment I came in? Could something be wrong?"

"What could happen here?" Shen Ke asked with a smile.

"Fire? Earthquake? Or was your car stolen?"

"Nonsense, thank you for graduating from medical school." Shen Ke stood up from the chair, raised his watch and glanced at the time: "Let's go, the movie will start soon."

"Hey, I'm serious, shall we..."

"I'm also serious, the movie is about to start." Shen Ke pulled her up from the chair and walked towards the ticket gate.

It was already past ten o'clock after watching the movie of more than two hours.

The two went down to the underground garage together, and Shen Ke pressed the car lock. After hearing the sound of the car responding, he smiled and said: "Look, there is no earthquake or fire, and no one wants my car."

Pu Lianyao smiled and got into the car from the co-pilot side, and fastened her seat belt: "I hope nothing will happen."

"Absolutely not, trust me." Shen Ke backed the car out with a smile and drove to the entrance of the parking lot.

On the way home, Pu Lianyao suddenly turned her head to look at Shen Ke and said, "Ke, let me ask you something, do you think your cousin is different from before?"

"Well, it's really a little different. I'm a mother now."

"You also think it's different? What's the difference?" Pu Lianyao asked.

"It's a bit fatter than before, but it is said that every woman who has given birth will be fat." Shen Ke suddenly turned his head with a smile, stared at her and joked: "You will also gain weight in the future, so be careful not to lose weight. "

Pu Lianyao was not in the mood to joke with him, and then asked: "Apart from getting fatter, is there any other difference? For example...in terms of personality."

"Honey, I can see her for breakfast and dinner a day, and it's also when she is confinement and I don't work overtime. I haven't even said a word. What do you think I can see?" Shen Ke rolled his eyes speechlessly, and as soon as he finished speaking, he immediately changed his tone: "But there is one thing, she was more easy-going before, and she could laugh with me a few times, but now she is more... cold."

He turned his face and smiled at Pu Lianyao: "Probably because she has become a mother and has a more mature personality."

Pu Lianyao looked at him and smiled: "You really think so."

"Yeah." Shen Ke asked in bewilderment, "Why are you asking her all of a sudden?"

"It's nothing, I just asked casually." Pu Lianyao smiled and turned her head to look out the window.

As soon as the car drove into the yard, the two felt an unusual atmosphere. Shen Ke stopped the car and asked unconsciously, "What happened?"

"I don't know, let's get out of the car first." Pu Lianyao almost couldn't wait to open the door and get out of the car.

Although the Nangong family didn't plan to hold a big funeral for the child, they still hung black and white cloth strips above the gate symbolically.

Pu Lianyao entered the room, immediately pulled Xiaolu who came out from inside and asked, "What happened?"

A bad premonition floated in her heart. In fact, she had already guessed a bit, but she still couldn't help asking.

Xiaolu looked at her and said, "Miss Pu, the baby is gone."

Pu Lianyao's mind was blank, and she instinctively asked: "I was fine at noon today, why did I leave all of a sudden?"

"I don't know." Xiaolu shook her head.

Shen Ke pulled the excited Pu Lianyao over: "Let's go up and have a look."

The two of them went up to the baby's room on the second floor. Nuo Da's baby room had been cleaned up, and Pu Lianyao turned to Bai Ying'an's bedroom.

At this time, Bai Ying'an was sitting on the edge of the bed blankly, holding in his arms the toy bear that usually accompanied the child to sleep, looking haggard.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, she quietly raised her head, her eyes fell on Pu Lianyao's face through the mist of tears, their eyes met in mid-air, and there was a strange emotion in each other.

Seeing the shock and sadness on Pu Lianyao's face, Bai Ying'an sneered secretly in her heart, and the guilt and fear for the child also faded a lot.

Mother was right, if she didn't do this, then she would be the one who was shocked at this moment!
Pu Lianyao came back to her senses a little, walked over and squatted in front of her, held her palm and said, "Cousin-in-law, what's the matter? What happened?"

Bai Ying'an looked at her, with a hard-to-find sharpness surging in his eyes, and choked with tears, he said, "The child is dead, Lian Yao, do you think the child was killed by someone? She is still fine at noon. .”

It was Pu Lianyao who killed the child!It's not her Bai Ying'an!

If she hadn't been too aggressive, she wouldn't have done it.

"What's going on?" Pu Lianyao was about to die of anxiety.

"When I came to see the child at noon, the child was already out of breath. The babysitter must have hated me for scolding her for killing my child on purpose last night. What should I do? My child is dead..." She suddenly groaned burst into tears.

"How could a babysitter kill a baby? How dare she?"

"I don't know, my child just died inexplicably, Lianyao... I can't bear him, I'm so sad!" Her body gradually leaned forward, leaning on Pu Lianyao's shoulder superior.

Pu Lianyao raised her hand and patted her on the shoulder, and comforted her softly: "Sister-in-law, don't be sad, isn't this coming sooner or later? You should have been prepared for it long ago."

"I know, but I still can't accept the fact that the child is gone." Bai Ying'an raised his hand to wipe the tears off his face.

Pu Lianyao patiently comforted Bai Ying'an, finally managed to calm her down, stood up from the ground and said, "Sister-in-law, you should lie down on the bed quickly, I'll go see grandma."

After Pu Lianyao left, Bai Ying'an was about to get up from the ground when there was another sound of footsteps at the door, and she sat down on the ground again.

The bedroom door was opened, and it was Nangong Chen who came in this time.

He stood by the door and looked at the tearful Bai Ying'an, then walked over, pulled her from the ground to sit on the bed, and said distressedly: "Have you been crying?"

Bai Ying'an wiped away the tears from his face, stared at him and asked, "Where's the child? Was he cremated?"

"It's still in the funeral home. The cremation can only be done tomorrow." Nan Gongchen took her hands and found that her fingertips were cold.

Tomorrow, the cremation is usually in the morning, and Pu Lianyao's report will be too soon, Bai Ying'an secretly heaves a sigh of relief.

"Ying'an..." Nangong Chen gasped heavily suddenly, and said in a low voice, "Tell me, why did you do this?"

Bai Ying'an didn't realize the seriousness of this sentence, and was still immersed in the atmosphere of acting, sobbing with tears in his eyes, "What did you say?"

"Why do you do this?" Nangong Chen asked again.

Bai Ying'an finally came to his senses, his mind was blank, and he looked at him in surprise.

What does he mean?He knows?He found out?Found out that the child was smothered to death by her?
what to do?Keep playing dumb?Yes, continue to install.

"Eldest young master, what are you talking about?" She tried to squeeze out more tears.

Nangong Chen stared at her steadfastly, his eyes full of pain: "When I was cleaning and changing the child's clothes today, I saw a bloody fingernail mark behind his ear, Ying'an, it was you who smothered the child to death Right? Why would you do that?"

Bai Ying'an was completely stunned, and even forgot to shed tears.

Nangong Chen took a deep breath and continued: "At the beginning you were the one who insisted on giving birth to the child, and you said that you would raise him no matter what price you paid, even if it cost your life, but..."

"Eldest young master, what are you talking about? I didn't..." Bai Yingan shook his head desperately: "Eldest young master, how could I smother our son to death? I tried my best to keep him alive... .”

"At first I didn't think it was you, but..." Nan Gongchen held her left hand, and raised her bloodshot middle finger in front of her: "The child's injury is behind the right ear, not deep or not. Qian, just follow the gesture of your left hand."

After what he said, Bai Ying'an finally found out that there were blood stains in the crevices of her nameless nails that had been dried and discolored. She hadn't noticed it before, and she hadn't noticed it at all!
Did she muffle the child?how so?How could she be so careless?how come……?
"Ah...!" She whispered and withdrew her left hand, hid behind her back, and stared at Nangong Chen with a look of fear.

There seemed to be 1 voices in her heart asking her: What should I do?what to do?
Yes, what should I do?What should she do?
In desperation, she suddenly burst into tears with a 'wow', and then she plopped and knelt under Nangong Chen's legs, holding his knees with both hands and crying heartbrokenly: "I'm sorry, Chen, I can't support you any longer. I can't go on anymore, I broke my promise, I'm sorry for the child..."

"I thought that if I gave birth to him and hired the best doctor for him, he would definitely survive like you, but I didn't expect reality to play such a big joke on me. The baby is different from you, he is alone Ventricular deformity, every doctor said he couldn't survive. I watched him eat a little bit every day and vomit a little bit, watched him flushed because of being out of breath, and watched him lose weight bit by bit, my heart felt like He was cut by a knife! Today he only ate ten milliliters of milk, but he spit out five milliliters. I saw it and it hurt in my heart. I wish I was the one who couldn’t eat it. I would rather bear all the pain on his behalf. It's painful, but I can't replace him, I can only watch him anxiously, I..."

Bai Ying'an couldn't continue, she lowered her head and covered her mouth with one hand, crying bitterly.

"So you smothered him to death." Nan Gongchen said sadly.

"That's right, I smothered him to death, because I didn't want to see him in pain again. I thought to myself that instead of letting him live in pain every day, it would be better to give him a happy life and let him get rid of it earlier. Chen, I was wrong , I should have listened to you and knocked him out, and I shouldn't have decided to keep him with the mentality of winning, I'm sorry... I was wrong..."

Nangong Chen shook his head: "What's the use of saying this now? Don't say any more."

"I know it's useless, but the child has already been born, and the matter has reached this stage. If possible, I would rather use my life to exchange for his health, but God won't give me this chance!" Bai Ying'an held Nangong Chen's hand, shook his head and said bitterly: "Chen, I know you won't agree with me to do this, so I dare not tell you, and I dare not ask for your opinion, please forgive me, please? I think my son already hates me very much. Now, if you don't forgive me, I will have no meaning to live anymore."

Nangong Chen made a little effort to free his palm from her palm, and stared at her: "This is a life, a person, how can you use your own feelings to decide his fate over and over again?" Stay? You are too selfish."

"I'm sorry... I was forced to do this too. I thought I would feel better by doing this, but I didn't expect that losing my child would be even more painful. Not only did I suffer, but I also regretted and blamed myself...I... "The more Bai Ying'an spoke, the sadder he became, and the weaker he became, until his body weakened and he passed out.

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