Jin Tingjiao

Chapter 483 Inside the Chamber of Secrets ([-])

"I faintly sensed that the inner house of Prince Cheng's Mansion began to have cracks that were difficult for outsiders to detect, and the apparent balance of the inner house was broken.

"Liu side concubine wants me to return to the clan, because none of them, including the son, the concubine, and Qi Ziyu, are likely to accept marriage with the Tuoba people. To avoid sacrificing Qi Weifeng, I can only let my surname be Qi.

"But this matter has little to do with Princess Cheng, the eldest son and Qi Ziyu are engaged, and no one of the second son dares to make such an idea.

"As long as her fundamentals cannot be shaken, she doesn't want many people in the mansion to block her eyes.

"She also doesn't want me, a bastard who descended from the sky, to be able to share a portion of the property of the palace, to be able to sit on an equal footing with her children, and to have another qualification to open a mansion in the future.

"But the other side concubine Hu Shi is not an idle person. She also vaguely saw her own situation from the plight that Liu side concubine faced, so she joined hands with Liu side concubine overtly and secretly. There is nothing they can do.

"Then my aunt died."

Having said that, he paused for a while, looking forward with some deep eyes.

Shen Xi couldn't feel what he was thinking, for a person who had experienced decades of ups and downs, he was already superior in the ability to hide his emotions and anger.

"Afterwards, I was left alone to survive in the palace.

"The cause of my aunt's death was not widely publicized, but Princess Cheng compromised because of it.

"Sometimes I see the people in the palace who are often struggling for a few dollars, and I envy them very much, because I am not short of money.

"My maternal grandfather's family is well-off, and my aunt is also a decent rich lady.

"It's just that having money doesn't equal status.

"I think that the peace of mind that can be bought with money is such a simple and happy thing.

"But I have money, but I can't buy what I want."

The room fell silent.

Shen Xi glanced at Xiao Huai and Huo Jiu, Xiao Huai signaled her to continue, and Huo Jiu secretly signaled the guards something.

She nodded slightly, and then said: "How did you live in the palace? Why didn't I hear about you in the next few years? Where did you go?"

"How I'm doing in the palace, even if you haven't seen it with your own eyes, you should be able to guess it. Otherwise, there wouldn't be this picture of Sui Han's three friends, right?"

But after a while, Bi Shangyun's expression returned to normal.

"Do you know why I said that I can't express your feelings in a few words?"

Shen Xi didn't say anything, but he vaguely noticed something.

He said: "Because even myself, it took a long time to gradually understand.

"The most annoying thing about you so-called Helian nobles is that ubiquitous arrogance.

"Look at you, even if you are no longer the Miss Zhang family, it seems that this style and posture have been engraved in your bones.

"Your Zhang family has had several ups and downs for hundreds of years, and under Zhang Jie's hands, it has become so popular that the royal family has to curry favor with you.

"At that time, in my eyes, Princess Cheng, who was as majestic as a queen mother, and Qi Ziyu, Qi Weifeng, who was arrogant in the palace, were all trying to please you without leaving a trace. It was difficult for you to appear. I'm not curious."

Shen Xi frowned.

In the past, the Zhang family held great power, and the grandfather was in charge of the world. The Zhang family Daqin indeed had the potential to respond to everyone.

Although Chengqin Prince's Mansion is a clan, after all, it only controls a clan's mansion, and it has been a generation away from Emperor Yongding. In front of the Zhang family who is in charge of the wind and rain, how can they really put on the airs of princesses and princesses?
She didn't think deeply about these principles back then, but as she got older, the pros and cons of them gradually became clearer.

Wasn't the painting that Princess Cheng asked her to make at the beginning to curry favor with Mrs. Xiao?

What he said is not an exaggeration.

"And after that?" she said.

"I see you often, but you may not see me." Bi Shangyun said, "At first I just wanted to see who you are?

"Later, when I found out that you were born so noble that I looked up to you, I began to have a mentality that I couldn't even explain myself.

"—I hate you very much, but I hate anyone who, like Concubine Liu, shed the pure blood of the Helian people.

"The world says you are beautiful and that you are a real lady, but I want to tear your face that never hides your emotions and never reveals the dark side of your heart.

"How can there be anyone who is truly pure-hearted? How can anyone really want to help the weak?
"Everyone is supposed to be evil, it's just that some people pretend it's good and some people don't.

"What's funny is that you brought back Wen Chan, obviously just to add luster to your face, but people praised you like a holy ice jade.

"But I know that I hate you, and I know that your existence reminds me of my identity to a greater extent, so I pay more and more attention to you——

"This is not a feeling of admiration, let alone the feeling of becoming a son and daughter. I am just using you to stimulate myself. I am far from true freedom and dignity.

"Your aloofness, your many moons holding the moon, your free will and whatever you want, seem to be the benchmark for my progress. It always reminds me how hard I have to work and what I have to do in order to be able to live like you.

"There is no doubt that what you have has had a greater impact on me than those princesses, kings and princes in the palace.

"Because what they have is only wealth and honor, but you possess the honor by relying on a person with great ability.

"From you, I vaguely know what I want, which is a desire for extreme power that is above everyone else.

"I began to understand that the only thing that can really dominate the balance of this world is power!"

Having said this, his eyes gradually became brighter, and he was even a little excited.

He looked at Shen Xi and the others in a good mood: "Can you understand the feeling of dancing on the tip of a knife?

"On the one hand, I was stabbed all over by reality, but on the other hand, there was a kind of secret happiness, because I found the key point to change my destiny."

Shen Xi and the others were all silent.

He stood up, said in front of Xiao Huai, looked at him and said: "No one will succumb to power, not only me, but also Xiao Fang, your father is the same.

"Even Li Ding, there's nothing special about it. Even if it's you, Zhang Ying, you too. If you didn't have the power to possess you, you wouldn't be able to live now, let alone walk in front of me tonight."

Shen Ximerton smiled: "You are right. Power is very important. But power does not mean that killing is right."

"No no," he stretched out his finger and shook it, "with power, everything you do will be right.

"When you live to my age, you will know the so-called right and wrong, it just depends on how many people you can conquer."

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