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Chapter 1052 Fanwai: If I Can’t Live Together, I Will Die With You (3)

But the hardest thing is to separate.

I didn't want to drag her down, but I was reluctant to part with her.

The greed in my heart makes me feel happy even if I stay with her and breathe the air of the same place.

It's just that she probably never will know.

How should I put it, I just want her to be happy.

So much so that I really want to ask her shamelessly: Can I make a deal and ask for one...

But after all, the person I love the most.

I hope she will be happy.

Her life is still very long, and she shouldn't waste it on a blind person like me.

I thought that for her I could become very free and easy.

But when the real parting came, I didn't dare...to look her in the eyes.

I'm afraid that if I look into her eyes, I can't help but want to hold her in my arms.

Maybe, I just have no perseverance.

Maybe, I just can't not respond to her.

But I have to do this...

We were in the music club when we first met, and we were still in the music club when we parted.

It was a warm afternoon, and a faint light shone on me and her.

I couldn't even look her in the eye.

It seems that the only thing left in my mind is the sentence she said, the last sentence——

It's just a dream, who will never forget a dream...

After the music club met for the last time that day, we never saw each other again.

Because in less than three days, I was completely blind.

I dare not go to school, I am afraid that I will be seen by her when I go to school.

I used to always protect her behind me, but now I can't do it at all...

Will she detest, despise me like this...

Sometimes such strange thoughts will appear in my mind, but such thoughts are abruptly interrupted by reality.

I don't want, I don't want her to go through this with me.

Not at all.

But in the end, the ending told me that I was a big fool from the beginning to the end...

It turned out that the final outcome was just that I didn't even see her for the last time.

Yeah...the last...haven't seen...

Self-blame, remorse, panic, helplessness, despair...

All the emotions came rushing through me at the same time, I felt like I was being pushed into the sea, not even a single piece of driftwood.

That is the person I love the most!
But I didn't stay by her side when she was most helpless and painful.

Who am I, why should I say I love her, why...

After the music club, meeting again is her graveyard.

On the tombstone is a picture of her wearing a school uniform, with a ponytail, and the corners of her mouth slightly raised, with two shallow pear dimples.

I once told her that no matter how long it takes, I will hold her hand for the rest of my life.

Now, if she breaks her promise and takes the first step, I naturally want to accompany her.

Actually, I'm too selfish...

I selfishly want to be with her life and death, but I don't know if she really wants to.

But for this answer, I can only go to Huangquan Road and ask her.

But does her answer really matter?
Whether she wants to be with me or not, I stalk and stay by her side.

What's the big deal?It is enough for me to love her, I can... keep pestering her all the time, so that she can't get rid of me no matter what...

happy……
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On the seventh day after Chu Nian died, all kinds of flowers were placed in front of her tombstone.

A teenager in school uniform leaned against her tombstone, took an overdose of sleeping pills, and fell asleep quietly.

As he was dying, he slowly said a word, which was always in his heart.

——Baby, if our encounter is a dream, not only will I never forget it, but I also want to stay awake all year round.

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