I loved you so deeply

Chapter 34 A Dilemma (1)
Gu Jin felt hot tears seep into the sweater on her chest, and the temperature was scorching.Pang Zheng tightened his arms around her even more, and she heard his determined voice, like a naive child: "No. You can't go anywhere, you belong to me."

When Gu Jin woke up, the surroundings were quiet, the blackout curtains were drawn tightly, and only a warm yellow wall lamp was turned on in the ward. She was changed into a hospital gown at some point, and she was still very fashionable. Striped wind, I don't know how many times it has been washed, and there is a strong smell of disinfectant on it.

Maybe she slept for too long, at this moment she slowly felt a little headache, the quilt was tightly covering her body, but her hands and feet were still cold.

Yin Bailu was sitting under the dim yellow wall lamp, holding the hand that she was quietly pricking the needle, sobbing silently.

She has no makeup, wears the most ordinary sweater, and has a charming big curly hair loose, looking as if she hasn't been taken care of for a long time.That appearance reminded Gu Jin of the time when she and her first met.

She rented a house by herself, and Gu Jin went to help. The two of them were disheartened after cleaning up for a whole day. After finishing their work, each of them sat on the ground with a bucket of instant noodles and ate them. Exquisite makeup, and no relationship, there are not so many things to hide from each other.Gu Jin thought that Yin Bailu was her best friend in this life.

Even if she doesn't have any relatives in the world, she will comfort herself and say, don't be afraid, I have Yin Bailu, and there is a Yin Bailu who can bargain with others without changing his expression on the knife rest on his neck.

But now, Yin Bailu was sitting by the bed, holding her hand, just crying silently, tears streaming from those big eyes, it was apology, distress, and helplessness.

"Are you awake? I don't feel any better..."

Gu Jin stared blankly at the ceiling, opened his mouth, his voice was hoarse, and he couldn't utter a word.

Yin Bailu let go of her, nervously went to the coffee table and poured a cup of warm water, then put his hand behind Gu Jin's head to help her up: "Come, drink some water."

In fact, Gu Jin is very resistant to her like this, she always feels that no matter what she does now, it is so hypocritical.

She took a sip of water from the rim of the glass, and her throat cleared up: "When did you come?"

Gu Jin remembered that after the person in charge of the insurance company came, she got out of the car, gave the car keys to him, and asked the young man to help her into the ambulance with a calm face.

The insurance company came from a salesman who had just graduated from college. Looking at Gu Jin's pale face, he thought she was using the car accident to cheat the insurance company.

People said: "Sister, don't scare me, what's wrong with you? This is the opposite of Mr. Hai. If you are really injured, I will take you there immediately. Why call an ambulance?"

Gu Jin bent down in pain, she was very thankful for the black clothes she was wearing today.She gritted her teeth and threatened the young man: "Stop talking nonsense, I don't want to go to Mr. Hai for treatment. Even if I die, I won't die in this hospital."

Later, someone put her on a stretcher and dragged her to the Second City Hospital. A nurse asked her, "Why are you bleeding so much? Did you hurt your leg?"

She had a little impression of what happened later, she was pushed into a very quiet place, with shadowless lights installed above her head, and then messy instruments shone on her body, and a woman about the age of her mother gave her When she was undergoing surgery, when she was pushed out, the insurance guy at the door was still waiting with lingering fear.

He said: "Sister, I called the scene of the accident just now. You are fully responsible for this. Our insurance can also reimburse you for medical expenses, hospitalization expenses, road repairs and so on. You still have to bear part of it yourself."

After speaking, the young man couldn't bear to see Gu Jin lying on the hospital bed with such a thin appearance.

He said: "Sister, do you have any family members? I'll call you and ask your family members to take care of you."

Gu Jin originally wanted to ask him why I couldn't reimburse all the insurance I bought, and she wanted to ask him who do you call eldest sister, but when he mentioned the word "family", she felt weak He waved his hand to drive people away.

It's been a whole afternoon, and people don't want to go through this muddy water in the hospital. Now that the victim has spoken, the young man left in a hurry.

The hospital ward was tense, and Gu Jin came in from the emergency room. The doctor pushed the bed to discuss with her: "It stands to reason that you should stay in the gynecology department for one night to observe and observe, but there are many pregnant women now, and your condition is relatively stable. Just pay attention to hygiene and nutrition in the future, there are really no wards now, and the car accident you reported is also worried that you may have internal bleeding, concussion, etc., so you will live in the internal medicine department."

Gu Jin understands what they mean, it is difficult to see a doctor in the hospital now, and it is normal for the beds to be tight.Just like that, she was sent in. After the nurse gave her anti-inflammatory drugs and nutritional injections, she fell asleep and now she is here.

Yin Bailu saw that Gu Jin's expression was normal, and felt even more uncomfortable: "I just came here for a while, Jin Jin, are you hungry, what do you want to eat?"

She had never talked to herself so softly before, Gu Jin lay down, unwilling to look at her, and covered herself with the quilt.

After a long time, Gu Jin muffled, "Where's Bai Ziqing?"

Thinking of Bai Ziqing, Yin Bailu's expression became a little downcast: "I'm in the hospital, my right hand is broken, my ankle is contused, and I have a concussion."

Fortunately.

Gu Jin breathed a sigh of relief, she thought she would bear this life for the rest of her life.

"Jinjin..." Yin Bailu called her tremblingly, and buried his face in his hands, "Her father died, and when she died, she was undergoing surgery, and she didn't see her for the last time."

She couldn't forget Bai Ziqing's grief-stricken expression and heart-piercing wailing when she woke up, and all the doctors and nurses present were moved.

"It's also your father, right?" Gu Jin opened her eyes without any ups and downs, "You and Bai Ziqing are sisters, you have lived together since you were seven or eight years old, you are a family."

Finally, the thorn in Yin Bailu's heart was mentioned.

She was still sitting there, suppressing a faint trembling in her words: "I didn't mean to lie to you, jinjin, really. I didn't have much contact with her. She was sent to school to learn dancing when she was 12 years old. Back, when I was in high school, she was competing for exams in Beijing, and when I was in college, she was in Sydney. After she returned to China, I only met Pang Zheng once. Jinjin, I really never thought that I would know you... "

Gu Jin grinned: "It's unfortunate to know me."

"No!" Yin Bailu spoke incoherently, feeling so helpless for the first time, "I never thought that you would know Pang Zheng, let alone marry him. I didn't know at first, but later you Introduced him to me, I didn't know until we had dinner together. At that time, I had known him for three or four years. I called him and threatened that if he couldn't treat you well, he would let you go as soon as possible, or I would kill you. Let me tell you about him and Bai Ziqing."

Yin Bailu choked up: "But I didn't expect Pang Zheng to be serious. He said he didn't care. I saw that you liked him so much that you wanted to plunge into him, so you hesitated. I thought you would be together well. After all, he and Bai Ziqing We've broken up. But..."

Gu Jin's heart was ashamed: "But you underestimated your sister."

Yes, but she underestimated Bai Ziqing.Yin Bailu didn't expect that she would still have such a strong purpose towards Pang Zheng after returning from abroad.Yin Bailu only found out when she called Pang Zheng behind her back.Later her father was hospitalized, and Bai Ziqing had this opportunity to justifiably ask him for help, and Yin Bailu began to fall deeply into a quagmire of dilemma.

She told Gu Jin about the past between the two of them, what hurt was a marriage, it was Gu Jin; she didn't tell, what she protected was the integrity of a family, Bai Ziqing's face.

If her stepfather hadn't been hospitalized, she could stand in the perspective of Gu Jin's good friend and attack and threaten Bai Ziqing every time she was up to no good. Watching Bai Ziqing look for Pang Zheng.Seeing her look on the phone, Yin Bailu knew it was over.

She also tried to persuade Bai Ziqing to stop in moderation, and also tried to sidestep Gu Jin, but every time at this time, she was like a waste in exchange for ridicule.

Yin Bailu was lucky, she thought that if she kept the secret like this, everything would be calm, but she didn't expect that the day of the explosion would finally come.

Still in such a tragic way.

Yin Bailu grabbed Gu Jin's hand and burst into tears: "Jin Jin, Bai Ziqing paid the price... Can you forgive us..."

Bai Ziqing has paid the price.

What about the price she paid for herself?

Gu Jin felt Yin Bailu's slight trembling and temperature, and said dully: "Bailu, between me and your sister, you once leaned towards her for a moment, right?"

Yin Bailu said nothing, but looked at Gu Jin with eyes full of tears.Gu Jin licked her lips, her tone was very calm: "I don't blame you, really."

After all, they are family members who have lived together for many years. If she were, she might do the same, not to mention Yin Bailu who has lost a lot of family affection since she was a child.

Putting everything aside, she believed that Bai Ziqing would be a very qualified stepsister.

"I always thought you were my best friend. You wouldn't hurt me if anyone in this world hurt me. I always regarded you as my last straw." Gu Jin said, "But Bai Lu, this time I really love you." I can't make it through."

She withdrew the hand held by Yin Bailu: "Maybe I will slowly figure it out in the future, but now, I really don't need you."

Her stepfather had just passed away, and Bai Ziqing was seriously injured and hospitalized. Her mother was alone in the hospital, and there were so many funeral affairs to be dealt with, she definitely needed her help.

Gu Jin closed her eyes, because of a cold, she said in a husky voice, "Let's go."

"Gu Jin..."

"Let's go, I'm sleepy." She repeated.

Yin Bailu stood by the bed and looked at her with sadness between his brows. After waiting for a while, he closed the door lightly and left.

Chen Zhanbei stood in the corridor of the hospital and waited, holding a cigarette in his mouth without lighting it. Seeing Yin Bailu's appearance, he hurriedly took out the cigarette and walked towards Yin Bailu: "What's wrong?"

"Chen Zhanbei." Yin Bailu looked at him with red eyes, and burst into tears, "She won't forgive me...she won't forgive me no matter what...I almost hate myself..."

Yin Bailu was out of breath from crying, it was really uncomfortable.

Chen Zhanbei patted her on the back helplessly, he was clumsy, he didn't know what to say to comfort her, he didn't understand and couldn't understand the friendship between women.

After the warm voice coaxed Yin Bailu to stabilize his emotions, he led her slowly outside the hospital and stuffed her into the sports car. The space in the car was cramped and dull. He wrapped Yin Bailu in his jacket and put down the hood breathable.

"Is Gu Jin okay?"

"Not good." Yin Bailu shook her head with tears on her eyelashes, "It doesn't look like there is any injury, I went to ask the nurse, the nurse only said that she came from the scene of the car accident to observe, but she felt that she was seriously ill , lying there, not at all angry."

"Alas—" Chen Zhanbei sighed.

This time, the couple really had enough.

Yin Bailu looked sleepy: "How is Pang Zheng's grandfather?"

Chen Zhanbei also shook his head: "I don't know, maybe it's not too bad."

It happened that the house was leaking in the rain all night, not to mention that there was no one lying in the hospital here, and such a thing happened at home, the old man was so old, and it took him a long time to be found in a coma of cerebral hemorrhage, it was really dangerous.

The two sat in the car, speechless for a while, feeling very heavy.Chen Zhanbei thought, this March is really not a good season, it is gloomy.

There was a car roaring in at the gate of the hospital, its speed was so fast that even if it saw the sensor bar blocking the road, it didn't slow down at all, it just broke in so abruptly.

The black off-road vehicle slanted to park in the parking space, and Pang Zheng opened the door and got out.

Chen Zhanbei picked up the document bag on the back of the car seat and got out of the car quickly.

Pang Zheng was still wearing the gray sportswear he wore yesterday, standing on the steps, his brows were gloomy and tired.

Chen Zhanbei asked him anxiously: "What's the matter?"

Pang Zheng pursed his lips, his mood was very low: "The second bleeding occurred and the skull was opened again. Whether you can survive it is up to fate."

I don't know if he was dazzled, but Chen Zhanbei always looked at the corners of Pang Zheng's mouth a bit swollen, took a closer look, and really said: "You... have you been beaten?"

Pang Zheng didn't answer, and put one hand in his trouser pocket: "Did you ask me clearly?"

Chen Zhanbei handed him the file bag: "I see. Then what, let me tell you first, her father left at two o'clock in the afternoon, and now she is waiting for cremation in Nanpingyuan. She suffered a little. The injury is neither serious nor minor, one arm is broken, and the ankle is sprained, whether I can dance in the future depends on the doctor's recovery."

When Chen Zhanbei said "Her father is gone", Pang Zheng frowned slightly, and quickly asked, "Where's Gu Jin?"

"I live upstairs. The doctor is afraid of concussion and internal bleeding, so I have to observe." Chen Zhanbei scratched his head, "The traffic police towed the car away, saying it was for accident trace identification. They also left the insurance, and someone followed over there."

Pang Zheng frowned: "She didn't hit anyone, why did she need an accident appraisal?"

"I know she didn't hit the person, but no matter what, it has affected public transportation. After watching the video a few times, I can't be sure that it has nothing to do with her."

Pang Zheng's expression became more and more bad, and his tone was unquestionable: "She is not responsible for the accident."

Chen Zhanbei was afraid that he would get angry, so he quickly added a few sentences: "Yes, this matter is not big or small, and that buddy is also very good. He is a supermarket delivery guy, and now he is under custody. Bai Lu said that Bai Zi Qing doesn't want to hold the other party accountable, and she doesn't care, so I'll go to the traffic police later, and deal with them as a private matter."

Pang Zheng looked down at the photos of the scene of the accident, the front of the car was smashed into pieces, and there was such a big movement at that time, he really thought the car was going to explode at that moment.

He threw the things to Chen Zhanbei and said "thank you" to him from the bottom of his heart.

After Chen Zhanbei left, Pang Zheng took the elevator all the way up to the seventeenth floor, and went straight to the outside of the small ward. He stood at the door and waited for a while, then opened the door silently and entered.

Gu Jin was sleeping, her breathing was very shallow, reflecting the light on the wall, one could see a large bruise on her forehead.

The needle had been pulled out, and the slender hand was outside the quilt, still covered with glaring white tape.

Pang Zheng's silent gaze swept over her forehead, eyes, nose, lips, and finally her body. He couldn't figure out how such a thin body always seemed to hide a huge fearless power.

She is not even afraid of death.

Pang Zheng went to get the medical record card hanging at the end of her bed, and took a serious look at it.Gu Jin was still breathing lightly, lying upright on the bed with a straight sleeping posture.

Pang Zheng put down the medical record card, and suddenly walked to the bed and opened the blackout curtains with a swipe.Sunlight came in from all directions, causing Gu Jin to narrow her eyes.

She always had her head tilted to one side when she slept, and he was well aware of her habit.

Pang Zheng turned his back to her, and his voice was cold and indifferent: "Gu Jin, let's talk."

Pang Zheng hadn't closed his eyes all day and night. Bai Ziqing was in a car accident and within 10 minutes of being sent to the operating room, he was stopped by a phone call just as he was about to go out to check on Gu Jin's condition.

On the other end of the phone was the aunt who had been taking care of the old man next to him, panicking.

The old man wanted to go out for a walk in the afternoon, and when the time came, my aunt went to the study to call him, who knew that when he opened the door, he was lying on the ground with his eyes closed, and he didn't respond to how he called.The aunt put the father in place according to the first aid measures learned during the training, and told the doctor in charge of his condition at the Naval General Academy about the situation, and then he became confused.

Because of Pang Lei's heavy work, no one dared to disturb him on weekdays, and it happened that Mrs. Pang was not at home, and now he was in complete chaos.

Grandpa Pang was sent upstairs to the special ward for emergency treatment. After a few minutes of examination, he was told that he had a cerebral hemorrhage and needed a second craniotomy. People from all sides came to the hospital to visit him after hearing the news. He signed two critical illness notices within an hour, and for a moment he completely forgot about Gu Jin, let alone the troubles at Bai Ziqing's family.

(End of this chapter)