I loved you so deeply

Chapter 9 First Acquaintance (4)
Chen Zhanbei, who was behind him, just stepped forward and put his shoulders on Pang Zheng's shoulders, squinting his eyes to see the direction Gu Jin was going away: "The beauty is not shallow, Bai Ziqing just left and found another one so soon?"

Pang Zheng was displeased and kicked him: "Get lost."

Pang Zheng drank a lot that day, and he was in the worst mood in the past year.Several friends knew that he was unhappy, and no one persuaded him. Some even specially found some young girls to sit beside him in order to please him. Holding the phone with his head down, he didn't know what he was thinking.

After we broke up, Chen Zhanbei proposed to start a fight, but Pang Zheng also flatly refused. He obviously didn't mean to get drunk at all, so he left them alone and left.

"What's wrong with him? The old man is not well anymore?"

"Small crow's mouth! Looking back, I heard that there is no good fruit for you." Chen Zhanbei knew about Pangzheng, and greeted everyone, "Leave him alone, who knows what's going on, just go and play with us."

It was past twelve o'clock in the evening when Gu Jin received Pang Zheng's call, and she had already packed up and went to bed.

She sat up from her sleep, rubbed her eyes, and woke up quickly when she saw the phone.That string of numbers was something she had memorized countless times by heart, but it still didn't show up in the address book.

"Hello?" Gu Jin answered hesitantly, feeling too nervous to speak.

The breathing sound of the other party was clearly audible in the earpiece, followed by continuous silence.Gu Jin's hand holding the phone became tighter and tighter. For a moment, she even wondered if he made a mistake.

A hoarse and deep voice finally sounded slowly: "I am the political party."

"I know." Gu Jin listened quietly, his breathing seemed to be a little heavier than before, probably because he had been drinking.

Another moment of silence.

"I'm downstairs with you."

Gu Jin got up from the bed, and there was a window in her small bedroom facing the downstairs door, through the gap in the curtains, she could clearly see the people standing under the street lamp.

In Gu Jin's almost blank emotional world, words like "I'm downstairs with you" are enough to make her daydream.She didn't know if this was a hint, but Gu Jin knew that on such a night, the indifference and unfamiliarity she had always pretended to be towards Pang Zheng finally fell apart at this second.

She didn't care about any woman's reserve, grabbed the coat beside the bed, and tiptoed out of the house in order not to wake up her mother.

Pang Zheng was standing under the sensor light in front of the unit door, and Gu Jin saw it as soon as he opened the door. The two of them were a few steps away, and Pang Zheng looked at her.

She should have sneaked out of the house, wearing cartoon cotton slippers on her feet, and a light-colored pajamas with a thick coat. She took off her makeup, and she was different from when I saw it in the hotel a few hours ago, thick and thick. Her jet-black hair fell to her shoulders, clean without makeup.

He took a step forward, and the slanting shadow enveloped her.Gu Jin looked at him, but didn't back down: "Have you been drinking?"

"Well, I drank a lot." He was honest, "But what I said next, I was sober."

Pang Zheng lowered his head slightly, met her gaze, and said calmly, "I'll ask you one last time, do you have a boyfriend?"

In the silent early morning, a man came to a woman's downstairs and asked her if she had a boyfriend. No matter how stupid Gu Jin was, she understood what Pang Zheng meant.

"No." Gu Jin's clear eyes reflected Pang Zheng's figure, and she did not dodge, "What about you, do you have a girlfriend? The past and the present all count."

He looked at her, his gaze deepening.Gu Jin felt that she was in front of him, as if she could see the end at a glance, but to her, Pangzheng was like a black hole, unfathomable, once she stepped into it, she would be lost forever.

Gu Jin's heart beat faster under such eyes, her face turned pale with cold, she was waiting.

"No."

Then, in Gu Jin's anticipation, when she was a little nervous and apprehensive about what happened next, Pang Zheng suddenly stretched out his hand and gently pressed it on the back of her head, letting Gu Jin approach him.

Her forehead just touched the place a little below his shoulder, and Pang Zheng stroked her thick hair, as if to comfort her, but also as if to pamper her.

He hugged her, his deep and slightly hoarse voice caught Gu Jin off guard this night: "Think about it, try it with me."

That was the first hug between Gu Jin and Pang Zheng, and also the only one so far.

Whether it was the relationship between the two before marriage, or the cohabitation between the two after marriage, there was only that one time of such warm and throbbing embrace. Gu Jin even suspected for a while that Pang Zheng might not remember what he did that night at all.

If it is said that before agreeing to associate with Pang Zheng, the two people's way of getting along was unfamiliar and occasionally ambiguous, then after dating him, their style of painting has completely changed.

The Pang Zheng that Gu Jin thought of, took off that layer of personable appearance, but in fact he was poisonous and annoying.

He took her out to eat, and in front of the waiter, he could sign the bill slowly and ask Gu Jin thoughtfully, "Is there really no need to add anything?" The plate on the table teased Yoyo: "How can you, a woman, eat so much?"

Occasionally, when the mood came, he accompanied her to the shopping mall. When Gu Jin was confused about whether to buy black or blue shoes, he could give constructive advice on buying both pairs and pay the bill. While holding the paper bag full of joy, he hit her unhurriedly: "It's terrible that you can like two of such ugly styles at the same time."

Looking at the back of him leaving arrogantly, Gu Jin felt that there seemed to be nothing that could interest this man.She also asked him: "Pang Zheng, do you think there is anything in life that interests you particularly, or that deserves your effort and attention?"

He frowned and thought about it seriously, and then said two words: "No."

Gu Jin didn't give up: "Is there really nothing at all?" He backed the car into the garage and only focused on the world reflected on the rear glass.Gu Jin was frustrated.

Even when he proposed, he was calm and without any emotional turmoil.

During the Qingming Festival of that year, Pang Zheng's grandfather had been in the hospital for half a month. The doctors and experts who participated in the consultation said that the old man's physical condition was not good, and there was little hope of recovery.Gu Jin accompanied him out of the hospital, no matter it was the weather or the expression on Poon Zheng's face, the air pressure was so low that Gu Jin had goose bumps all over his body for no reason.

She knew that Pang Zheng was brought up by the old man since he was a child. The grandparents and grandchildren have a deep relationship. The doctors and nurses in the hospital had sad faces, but they always smiled when they saw her and Pang Zheng, and never said that they were uncomfortable. The thin old man was lying there, and anyone who saw it felt sad.

In the evening, Pang Zheng drove her home, and Gu Jin didn't know what to say to him to make him feel better, so he could only comfort him sincerely: "Grandpa will be fine, it's normal for elderly people to have thrombosis." , auspicious people have their own appearance, so don't be too sad."

He was driving the car, as if he hadn't heard what Gu Jin said, and it took him a long time before he said a word: "When this month passes, let's get married on May [-]st."

Gu Jin was taken aback.

Pang Zheng parked the car on the side of the road and took out a cigarette to smoke: "Grandpa was shot at sea in his early years. At that time, the medical conditions were not good, and half of the shrapnel remained in his brain. It's just a cerebral infarction. So, I want to see me get married while he is still awake."

Seeing his only grandson get married and start a business is the wish that Grandpa Pang had decades ago.

He looked back at Gu Jin who was silent, and felt a little helpless for the first time: "I know this may be unfair to you, but Gu Jin, I can't find a more suitable marriage partner than you, of course , this is not forcing you."

His narrow, dark eyes stared at her with a strong sense of oppression, as if he was eager for an answer.

Gu Jin should have feelings for him, which Pang Zheng could confirm from the very beginning.But this is also what Gu Jin has been scrupulous about during the relationship between the two of them. Pang Zheng knows how much emotion he has invested, but from the beginning to the end, he has the leading power. Even for such an important matter as marriage, he always underestimates it. One sentence makes a decision.

Gu Jin knew that it wasn't that he didn't value himself enough, but that he was too confident.

Gu Jin also knew that she was definitely not the most ideal person in Pang Zheng's mind who could enter the marriage hall with him, including when he proposed to her to try that night.Perhaps to him, he was just the person standing beside him under the pressure of his family and the coercion of family affection.

Gu Jin knew it was unfair, whether it was for herself or him, but there was no such thing as fairness in a relationship.

So for the request made by Pang Zheng, Gu Jin finally chose to put all his eggs in one basket.

The two of them were going to get married, and the Pang family was naturally ecstatic. After hearing the news of the marriage, Pang's grandfather's condition improved for a while, and he even took the initiative to cooperate with the doctor to successfully remove the shrapnel left in his brain after two major operations.

When everyone was enthusiastically preparing for their wedding, on the eve of the wedding, Gu Jin had such a conversation with Pang Zheng.

In the coffee shop on the first floor of Maobai, during the lunch break, Pang Zheng came to see her, and Gu Jin was sitting by the window with a cup of hot coffee in a daze, with the work card hanging around his neck that he hadn't taken off in time.

"Why is it so urgent?" Pang Zheng sat down facing her, very hastily.Recently, my grandfather was sent to a nursing home in Hainan for rehabilitation. There are many things that need to be handled by the sidelines at home and in the company.

Gu Jin sat up: "I have something to tell you."

Pang Zheng put on a posture of listening attentively, and it could be seen that he should have rushed over from the company or some meeting, and he was still wearing a neat formal suit.

"Pang Zheng, I'm not a marriage partner you're really willing to accept, am I?"

It was rare for Gu Jin to be so serious, Pang Zheng was startled: "Why do you say that?"

"You married me only because of your grandfather's illness and the pressure from your uncles and aunts. You had a deeply impressed lover before, but for some reason you couldn't be together, and you still can't let it go. "

"Gu Jin." He called her name aloud, his expression became serious, "I don't like others to speculate on me."

"But you don't like me either." Gu Jin looked at him almost paranoidly, "Pang Zheng, now that grandpa's illness has recovered, if you don't want to get married, I can go to your house and tell you that I don't want us..."

Pang Zheng suddenly put his hand on Gu Jin's and stopped her next words.He leaned over, looked at her and said word by word: "Don't question the purpose of my marriage with you."

His eyes are narrow and deep, and Gu Jin can see the inner double eyelids hidden when he frowns slightly.

"Gu Jin, my past has nothing to do with you, and I promise it won't affect the future with you. As for grandpa's illness, it may just be a reason that catalyzed the progress of our marriage. No matter what happened to him, the result between us , will not change."

Is there a future between me and you?Gu Jin was thinking ecstatically, her eyes were full of bewilderment about the future.

Probably because he realized that he was too serious, Pang Zheng let her go and smiled at her easily: "I will treat you as a premarital phobia. Of course, if you really don't want to, there is still time. At worst, you will give up your wedding dress to Others wear it."

The wedding dress was made by Mrs. Pang and Gu Jin on a special trip to Shanghai to find an old craftsman, and it was priceless.

He purposely spoke to provoke her, Gu Jin was annoyed, as if angry: "How dare you?"

"What am I afraid of?"

Frustrated, Gu Jin thought for a while and said, "Then sleep separately after getting married!"

Pang Zheng laughed: "Why are you so hypocritical?"

"I'm ready to marry you, but I'm not ready to live with you. God knows if you have any quirks."

After finishing speaking, Gu Jin raised his head and looked wary: "Pang Zheng, don't take advantage of me."

"You women always have a mysterious confidence in yourself." Pang Zheng sighed, "Do whatever you want."

He raised his hand and looked at his watch, and got up: "I have something to do in the afternoon, and I will take you home for dinner tonight."

Passing by Gu Jin, Pang Zheng gave her a serious look.It was the first time he saw Gu Jin wearing work clothes at work, she was very capable, he touched her face frivolously, and praised her: "It's kind of like that."

Gu Jin turned back to stare at him ferociously, and Pang Zheng took away the hot coffee she was holding: "I got paid for accompanying you at noon, so I didn't eat it in the morning."

Gu Jin's heart softened again: "Then I'll buy you a sandwich."

"No need." Pang Zheng pressed her shoulders, without any hesitation, took a sip from where she drank, opened the door and left.

Looking at the back of Pang Zheng leaving, Gu Jin thought to himself for a moment, maybe Pang Zheng really planned to spend a lifetime with her seriously, and she shouldn't speculate about him so maliciously.

That was the pre-marital negotiation between her and him, which ended in Gu Jin's failure.

With a ding, the water heater in the tea room made a crisp sound indicating that the water cup was full, which brought Gu Jin back to his senses.

She doesn't know what's wrong with herself recently, she always thinks of the past events before she married Pang Zheng for no reason, it's the past events, but it's not too long ago, and the scenes that happened are still clearly printed in her mind.Side affairs, side affairs, this person has occupied so much space during this period that he would even be in a daze when fetching water.

(End of this chapter)