Indus so hurt

Chapter 34 Chapter Seven (9)
Small, small rouge box.

At that moment, my heart was completely torn.

This should be a birthday present he secretly prepared for me, right?This little box, beautiful box, that blush I told McLean about once on the phone.

It just rolled down at my feet weakly and helplessly, just like little Mo Fan, helpless.It was soaked in Mo Fan's blood.How can I rub my face with such rouge?
I beat those policemen like crazy, using my hands and teeth to accuse them of their indifference. Finally, Zhang Zhichuang waved his hand, and they let go of their restraining hand.

I scrambled and ran to Mo Fan's side, howling in pain!I looked at his thin body, lying in the cold and rainy ground, looked at his eyes that could never be closed, and my hands were desperate to plug the wound on his forehead!I think those forensic doctors must have made a mistake. He called my sister just now, how could he stop breathing now?
But until my hands were covered with his cold blood, until I felt his body was cold and stiff, my heart finally withered in this heavy rain.

Huh?
Mo Fan, why do you wear such a big red flower on your head?Little boys will be laughed at for wearing flowers, pick them off quickly.If Hu Weile laughed at you, you are not allowed to go home and cry to me!If you dare to cry, I will beat you into a flower of seven colors!

Huh?
Mo Fan, sister is talking to you!Did you hear that?You little lazy pig, stop sleeping!Do not sleep!get up!Ha ha.Sister knows, you must be pretending to sleep!Sister knows, I just said that you don't look good wearing flowers, you must be angry!You are really narrow-minded.

Huh?
Mo Fan, what kind of dye did you use for this big red flower?It's too bad.The color fades so fast, look, look, they all fade from your head, one by one, under the washing of the rain, they meander to my sister's feet.

Mo Fan, wake up!
Please, wake up!
From now on, my sister will never hit you again, and my sister will never scold you again, so wake up!

I beg you.

OK!You pretended to be asleep so I wouldn't wake you up!

I carefully touched Mo Fan's face one by one, waiting for him to wake up suddenly, looked at me very dissatisfied, and said, sister, don't disturb me, I haven't woken up yet!
I smiled foolishly and said, Mo Fan, wake up, my sister is taking you to get your teeth filled.My sister is no longer calculating, no longer stingy.My sister will fill you with the best tooth, so I don't need quack doctors to make do for you.Wake up quickly, let's go when we wake up.

Ji Rongge looked at everything in front of him, and the pain in his eyes was like a burning fire, raging endlessly.He walked up to me, hugged me tightly, and tried to erase all the cruel things in front of me from my heart.

I raised my face, looked at this man, and said with a smile, look, look, how beautiful the big red flower you put on Mo Fan is, look, how beautiful it is.

Ji Rongge hugged me tightly.He said, Mo Chun, everything will be fine, everything will be fine.You don't do this!

I lightly put my index finger on my mouth and said to Ji Rongge, shhh——

Then I broke free from his embrace and crawled back to Mo Fan's side.The blood on his head flowed all over the ground, intertwined with the rain.

Suddenly, lightning flashed again.

I gently covered his ears and murmured, Mo Fan, when you were young you were most afraid of thunder and lightning.Now, you don't have to be afraid anymore.However, if you are still afraid, who will protect you?

At this time, a dull wail tore my eardrum.

this sound?

This voice!

Oh, how familiar this voice was to me!It just disappeared when I was eight years old.how?How did it suddenly appear?
So I turned around.

I saw a middle-aged man, old and thin, wearing handcuffs and shackles.At this time, under the heavy rain, he knelt down in this vast world, crying and howling!

In front of me is——

His comatose gray-haired old mother!

His dead 17-year-old son!
His bewildered 19-year-old daughter!
Or, he has been waiting in prison for so many years, always thinking, now, his six-year-old boy should have grown into a handsome boy, and he should have inherited his eyebrows and eyes.

Maybe he had thought about the reunion of father and son thousands of times, but he didn't expect that what he saw on this day was a cold corpse!

Zhang Zhichuang told those escorting him that the task had been completed, so let's take him away!
At that moment, countless strange thoughts flashed through my brain.

if!

If there is no Yu Yuanfang, then Mo Fan and I would not live so hard!Without such hard work, Mo Fan would not be in such a miserable situation today!
Yes!

Yes!

It was he who ruined Mo Fan's happiness, Mo Fan's happiness!All of this now is the cause he planted 11 years ago, so today, he bears the painful fruit on Mo Fan's body!
Then the raging anger ignited in my eyes!

11 years of pain and humiliation finally broke out at the moment of Mo Fan's death!
I walked towards him, slowly towards him.This man, my father, is far away!While weeping, he saw me, his eyes full of hopeless love and compassion.

But I bumped into him with great humiliation!I roared, all these years, it's you who deserves to be damned!Why don't you die? !While cursing wildly, I used my greatest strength to punch and kick this man kneeling in front of his son's corpse!
He held his head and continued to wail!

No man's dignity!
My heart aches.

But there is no reason to forgive!

Ji Rongge rushed forward and pulled me away from my father, and the policemen hurriedly dragged me away from the distance, like dragging animals, leaving him squatting on the ground, trying to see himself lying in a pool of blood again. son in!None of them would give the old man this last chance.

Howling, he was dragged downstairs.

lightning--

thunderbolt--

Ji Rongge hugged me tightly, and I saw the police put Mo Fan into a black bag and rushed up like crazy, but Ji Rongge held me tightly.

After pain comes madness.

I smiled, smiled wryly, and wiped the blood of Mo Fan remaining on my hands onto Ji Rongge's clothes!Then bite down on his shoulder fiercely!

Bite hard!

I didn't let go until there was a fishy-sweet feeling in my mouth, until his blood slowly seeped into his clothes and blended with Mo Fan's blood that I wiped on his clothes.

My mouth was red and I grinned at him.

It seems that this mingled blood is a poisonous curse!
The curse is upon him!

Let him bear Mo Fan's death and Mo Chun's despair all his life!
However, when he looked at me with painful and heavy eyes, my originally crazy and hard heart suddenly ached.

It hurts.

55 I beat him, scolded him, told him to die, but I never called him: Dad.

In this world, there are two men.

Makes me feel bad.

But can not forgive.

One is in the distance.

One is Ji Rongge.

Grandma grew old overnight, and sat on the bed foolishly holding the calendar all day long, pointing to those dates and muttering, Mo Fan will come back on this day; your father will come back on this day.

However, the word "Dad" ignited all the fires in my heart!
I knocked the calendar out of her hand, and I said, Mo Fan will never come back!Yu Yuanfang is not my father!I hate him!He ruined our family!
Grandma didn't talk to me, and staggered, trying to jump off the bed, picked up the calendar, and continued to count.

However, because of her old age, her hands and feet were no longer agile enough, so she fell heavily to the ground.The piercing pain combined with the injuries a few days ago finally made her cry like a child.Years of forbearance and bitterness finally broke out.

She said, Mo Chun, everyone hates your father, but you are not qualified!

She said, Mo Chun, do you still remember?Back then, when you were eight years old, you had a serious illness. Our family was poor, and your father could not save your life by selling blood!In the desperate situation, he went to take the blame for others!Just for money, for your little life!Mo Chun, your father traded his life for yours.You can't scold him like that anymore!After finishing speaking, grandma hugged the calendar and cried, just like a child who has been greatly wronged.

The moment my grandma finished speaking, I was completely dumbfounded.

I suddenly remembered that rainy night, my fist fell on my father's face, and the painful eyes he looked at me.

Yes, a father who has no money, no status, and no power can only risk his life for the happiness of his own children!But his child misunderstood him for 11 years!
These 11 years!

The kid abused him with impunity, thinking he had brought all the misfortune to his family!To think that he brought all the misery to his fate!

And in the 11 years that her life was preserved, which year was not his pain, his torture, his heartache!
I suddenly remembered that day, I beat him, scolded him, told him to die, but I never called him "Daddy".

dad.

my dad.

On that rainy day, my father faced the sudden death of his young son, the unconscious death of his elderly mother, and the insult of being punched and kicked by his daughter who was always misunderstood!He could only howl, cry, and despair, but he could not defend himself!
How big a bloody hole did the world leave in my dad's heart that day?

When he was dragged away by the police like an animal, I still hated him so much. I never thought that after this short and sad meeting, he would face eternal life imprisonment!

But I am so stubborn, arrogant, and self-righteous!Did not call him: Dad.

56 days, so dark down.

In those days, Xi Lan fell into an endless coma, and Bai Chu was always by her side.And I was by his side with all these heartbreaks.

One day, Ji Rongge came to see me, and after he left, Baichu suddenly felt very sad in front of me.He looked at me, lonely and insecure, and said, Mo Chun, will Xilan never wake up again?If she is gone and you leave me, I will never be happy.

I looked at this man and suddenly wanted to smile wryly. He was like a child, saying to his mother, Mom, I want to eat this big white rabbit toffee, and I also want to eat that oooh toffee!
Fate is always a cycle.I feel that Mo Fan owes Xi Lan, and naturally owes Bai Chu, so I want to repay it for him!

Bai Chu.Oh, yes, Bai Chu.

I hypnotized myself over and over again, told myself, and gave myself psychological hints.

Bai Chu is still the man who makes me laugh and cry in my sleep, I can't forget, I can't let go.

So, I looked down at Bai Chu, feeling the unforgivable pain for Ji Rongge in my heart, and gently said to him, I will never leave you!I will always be with you!
Baichu just stared at me blankly, with the light of hope in his eyes!
Many times, I stayed by his side to take care of Xilan.

However, my eyes would slip away from him for no reason, and then I would be in a daze, with a tearing pain in my chest.Only then did I remember that I was still wearing the ring that Ji Rongge gave me on my chest.So, I tore off the red thread abruptly!There is a red mark on my neck, it was he who gave me an irreparable scar!

And my chest still hurts.

Ji Rongge still comes to me often, trying to untangle the knot left on the roof of the building that day.

But how can I forget?

Forget that huge and coquettish flower bloomed on Mo Fan's head.

How can I accept, accept the embrace of a man whose hands are covered with Mo Fan's blood?How to accept Mo Fan's salty tears in a man's kiss?How to tell our children in the future that your uncle died at the hands of your father?
One day, I filled my cheeks with the box of rouge that Mo Fan left me, and smiled coldly at Ji Rongge who came to see me.

He looked at me with guilt and distress in his eyes, trying to wipe the red marks off my face with his hand.

I just smiled at him faintly, and I said, don't move, it's Mo Fan's blood!

His hands fell in the air, his eyes full of pain.

I laughed and laughed, and wept.I returned the ring and the red silk thread that he had worn on my chest with such tenderness and care.

At that moment, his eyes darkened, and my world also darkened.

Ji Rongge couldn't see me, so he stayed with Mai Le all day.He made her laugh, expecting to see my old appearance from her smile.So, one day, when he was pushing Milo, I had a very weird thought in my mind.

In this world, is there any man who can give Mai Le happiness?
She used to bet all her future and all her happiness on me; but now, what can I give back to her?Since it was my mistake that caused her to lose her happiness, then let me leave the person I love the most to her, let him replace me, and return her happiness!

So, I hung the cufflink of the peace charm that has been hanging on my chest on Mai Le's chest. I think it will protect the most important girl in my life for me.

So, that day, I kissed Bai Chu in the garden, and as I kissed myself, I thought that I was so in love with this man that it was hard to get back.

Then, I turned around and smiled at Ji Rongge with a flowery smile.I said, after walking for so long, I realized that this man is a happiness that I can never let go of.This is my choice, not for anything, just because I met him before you.

Ji Rongge's eyes were filled with pain, but he was speechless.How he didn't know, it was just an excuse.Mo Fan's death is like a curse that can never be shaken off, stabbed between him and me, even if we escape to any place in the world, we can't escape the punishment of this curse!

So, he said, ok Mo Chun, I got it.

He said, I see.

As smart as him, as sharp as him, as calm as him, as rational as him, why don't you know what kind of heart I have?
Finally, he said, Mo Chun, I will give you happiness!I give happiness to anyone around you!This is what I owe you, what I owe your family!After speaking, he looked at Mai Le, who was counting his fingers at that time.

Ji Rongge bowed his head and said flatly, from today onwards, I will buy you the best clothes, eat the best food, and live in the best house!

Then, he looked back at me and said, I will give her all the happiness I can give you!I want you to live by Baichu's side with peace of mind and never worry about anything!Mo Chun, is this what you want? !
After speaking, he pushed her away.

It only left me with a back that I can never let go of.

God, it's getting dark like this.

(End of this chapter)