box of hearts

Chapter 179
Qingtian thought about his words for a moment, then smiled, "To be honest, I have tasted this taste in the past few months in Soyue Nunnery. Every time I recite the Sutra of Peace, I will think that you must be by Wang Hao's side these days , the beautiful family is like flowers, beautiful and rich, and I am in this ancient temple in the mountains, the years are like water, and there is no limit. But it was also at this time that I realized the state of mind of the princess: every day I dreamed of my husband being gentle in front of others On the wedding night, you abandoned her and came back to Ruyuan to accompany me. I was so moved and happy at that time that I had no time to care about the humiliation and sadness of another woman. So how did the princess treat her? I, I have no resentment at all, all of this was originally my sin, but now she and the little prince in her belly—" Qingtian lost the end of the sentence, and sighed slightly, "It actually made my sin even deeper. The deceased It’s over, the living are like this, all the concubines in your mansion are women at the right age, if I make them complain for many years because of me alone, even if I go to hell, I will not be able to atone for my sins.”

Qingtian took the blame and blamed himself, which also made Qi She quite sad, but he only showed an artificial displeasure on his face, "You are a monk, and your heart is so vicious."

"what?"

"My concubine had an accident, and I was the culprit. As I told you, it was I who spoke evil words and deeds against her regardless of her having an heir, which caused her to do such a stupid thing. What has it to do with you? Even yourself Isn’t it because I didn’t distinguish between right and wrong and acted impulsively that caused you to suffer this ordeal? As for the many concubines in my mansion, naturally I should be responsible. According to what you said, since I made each of you suffer Anle, after death, you will definitely not be able to go to rebirth, and you will go straight to hell."

"No no," Qingtian panicked, "I am the one going to hell, and I am the one going to hell!"

Qi She caught her swinging hands and put them in his palms, with a deep smile on his eyes, "It's still the same sentence, which princes and lords don't have wives and concubines in groups? They just ask for a fairy, and they will forget it after three days and five nights." It's in the back of my head, I'm ruthless, and everyone else is as ruthless. Behind every rich gate there are a group of grudges. The princess is an accident, and it is irreparable. For the afterlife. As for this life, I can only say that I am not worse than other men for my Ji family, but for you, I think I am better than all men, from the beginning. separate."

Qingtian stared at Qi She intently, and saw his own reflection in his eyes: a thin woman with a bare head and a thin head, her hands held tightly by him were covered with scars, rough and deformed.She suddenly felt terrified, so she grabbed Qian Fanguo's sleeve and said earnestly: "No, don't say that. In the past, you spoiled me so much that I got carried away. "Leaving" is just Zhuo Wenjun's lament after hearing that Sima Changqing intends to leave his wife and take concubines. Even if she is as talented, status and family as she is, he can't make his lover determined for life. For a person like me, what virtue can I do? I beg you for the whole life of a person like you! Being able to walk hand in hand for a distance is a blessing I have cultivated in several lifetimes, and I will go wherever I go. If you are not satisfied, you will be greedy. If you are so greedy, you will really go to hell .”

Qi She had a dumbfounding face, and sighed loudly: "My darling, your house has really gone wrong this time, and you have become a very good little nun. How can you talk about heaven and hell when you talk about it? You can't use it." Don't look at Zhuo Wenjun, according to me, Sima Changqing's "Phoenix Seeking the Phoenix" does not ask for "handover as mandarin ducks". Lovesickness, "I'm poisoned to my stomach"? I'm a man, and I assure you, men are definitely not like this. This kid just knows that Zhuo Wangsun will never let his daughter sell wine with him, and sooner or later he will recognize him as a son-in-law, Donate money and help each other. This kidnapping and elopement is naked political speculation, cheating sex and money, um, when it comes to cheating sex and money, did it poke your sore spot?"

Qingtian couldn't stop laughing, and pushed away Qi She's provocative hand, "Go!"

Qi She also smiled, and wiped his nose with his hand back, "So you don't have to worry about 'how can you be', because you're 'no virtue and incompetence', I don't want anything from you, I The picture is of you. In the past few months, I have tried more excessive debauchery and drunkenness than ever before, but overseas delicacies, heavenly nectar, feasts of singing and dancing, stunning views of red buildings... everything I have always liked Hates me to the core. I can't find a single thing that makes me happy from the bottom of my heart even for a moment, hates the sight, hates the scene. So let's just say, even if this cabin underfoot is ripped open right now If you are swallowed, the lower end is truly Avici Hell, where ten thousand deaths and ten thousand lives are connected with suffering[6]. I can’t even blink, and I just jump down after you. A place with you, even hell, is a bliss for me. "

It was as if something stuffed Qingtian's chest in an instant, and she could barely breathe.Without knowing it, she suddenly remembered that one day, she carried a load of dung on her shoulders and splashed curses in the Buddhist temple.Nothing that has been contaminated with feces can emit the fragrance of flowers. It is my previous sin karma, and I should fall into the evil realm.I was trampled by misery, I was despised by all living beings, I crawled on the bottom, did dirty things, made ridiculous mistakes, I was not pure, I was not good, and I was not even beautiful.I am dust, I am an ant, I am a monstrous Asura, I live in the Infernal Realm under my skin, for thousands of billions of kalpas, there is no time to come out.I love you with such low self-esteem, I pray for you day and night, and I offer everything to support you, but I can never stand by your side, and dare not look directly into your eyes.You are a god, you are the way of heaven, if you don’t go to hell, whoever goes to hell, accompany me to fall, and save me from the sea of ​​suffering.It is you who come to recite the real scriptures for me. Your love words are my Tripitaka. Poisonous animals and wicked people, evil gods, ghosts and evil winds, all difficulties and afflictions should be eliminated.

I deeply understand the righteousness, weeping and weeping.

Qi She embraced Qingtian who was lying in his shoulder, and patted it with a smile, "What kind of world is this? I want to keep my chastity for you, but I have to use my old nose to convince you. Don't worry, let's part this time. No matter when you think of me, I would never hug another person like this."

She buried deep in his slightly hot skin, sniffing the deep sweetness enough to be sad.After the long tears, she opened her eyes and looked up at the starlight, "I am ashamed of the love of a thousand pieces of gold. [7]"

Then they kissed, his tongue walking on her tongue, his characteristic, deep and shallow steps.She tactfully undertakes, divisively swells, floats, with grandeur and relaxed pleasure.

Qingtian licked his lower lip, hugged his neck and narrowed his eyes, "Extra..."

"Ok?"

"Sing me a song."

Qi Shetao Taoran's expression was shocked, and he said suddenly and sternly: "Don't push yourself endlessly, don't sing."

"Sing one—"

"Don't sing."

"Sing a—"

"Don't sing."

"Sing--"

"Don't sing."

"Well, sing—"

"No! Sing!"

Qing Tian raised his eyebrows, blinked his eyes wide open, and put his hand on his half-glowed skull to touch it around, "Everyone is like this, why don't you just sing one."

The enamel Pisces Ear Stove on the high stand emits a snow-coloured fragrance of agarwood, and there is a pretentious and delicate appearance in front of you, breathing and breathing, lingering on the five internal organs.Qi She coughed helplessly, coughed again, and was about to speak, but saw Qing Tian's hand suddenly crossed, and he pressed back the breath that had reached his throat.

"Tell me first, what is this song about?" Qing Tian put his fingers against his teeth, giggling.

Qi She stared at her with hatred and hatred in his eyes, and then smiled at himself, "Say——, I miss you, how much I miss you, the sandalwood prayer beads have infiltrated my love and meaning. I miss you, the pain is unbearable, and I wake up in the moonlight night , to comb my white horse. No matter how steep the rock peak is, there is always a path to walk. The heartfelt words you both agreed on are engraved in my heart."

Qingtian's white teeth were slightly exposed, and he smiled sweetly, "Singing things and singing aspirations, there is nothing good about it, let's sing."

Qi She wiped her hands on her face, exhausted all her strength and sighed fiercely: "This is hell!"

Qingtian smiled ripplingly, inserted one hand into his armpit to cuddle, and stroked a brocade hem on his western cloth shirt with the other hand, looking up at the clear blue sky.Qi She scratched the tip of her nose with his hand, rolled her Adam's apple twice, and began to sing softly.This is another kiss, for the ear.Qingtian's ears were wrapped, licked, and slurped by his deep and affectionate voice, she thumped in every bump of the melody, and shuddered for every trembling Mongolian word.She saw the beads rolling between her fingers, and saw him washing the white horse under the moonlight. She listened to the promised intimate words, and engraved them in her heart with every stroke.Her heart was in pain, and the pain of parting surged in her heart, and she couldn't stop the sadness from it.She wrapped her arms around Qi She's back, put her arms around his neck, and pressed against his face.Qi She stopped Qingqu with a smile, and gave her all that Qingtian needed, including her mouth, her eyelids, and her eyebrows, without a single word from her, he already fully understood her sadness.

"Don't feel bad, I'll see you soon, it's okay, it's not uncomfortable, my little girl is obedient, it's not uncomfortable anymore. Okay, my little girl is good, let's talk about something else. By the way, you say big Monk, what Dharma name should I choose? Don’t be happy, don’t be happy, I’m telling the truth, little master Jinghui. How about Master Junyi, ah? Don’t be happy, I’m asking for your opinion. Or , Master Yingzi? Tsk, say something, Master Jinghui."

(End of this chapter)