Abandoned woman's glory

Chapter 165 Heartbroken Chu Feng abdicates

Chu Feng has never been so gentle and sensual as he is now.

In the past, even when he was the most gentle, he would restrain his feelings, and let me know clearly that what I married was not an ordinary man, but the monarch of the largest country in the East, a mature and stable man who made everyone feel happy. People worship and adore the King.

But now, he is just an ordinary man.

This man can laugh, make trouble, shake his fan triumphantly when he wins the chess game with me, and get drunk after the water is flowing, and sing "Xiaoyaoyou"; I never knew that he likes Zhuangzi and dances swords , when he dances under the moon, he looks like a loose fairy, which makes me unable to move my eyes away, and I don’t know, in fact, he, like me, is used to putting a green salt when cooking tea, to taste the faint salty taste, The ancient rhyme is long.

Toasting under the moon, facing each other, he and I can see ourselves in each other's pupils.

So happy, so sweet.

The next day, he still took me to play around. Although Dongling Mountain is the place where the imperial mausoleum was built, there are still many beautiful scenery. We spent most of the day playing outside, riding horses and hunting, and I even made it for him. After a meal of roasted venison, the two of them got charcoal ashes on their hands and faces, and they returned to the side hall in a state of embarrassment, leaving the serving ladies and eunuchs stunned.

Never, ever have I been this happy.

After finally cleaning up, we played chess for a while, and someone came to report that "it's ready", and I looked at Chu Feng suspiciously: "What have you prepared?"

Chu Feng smiled without saying a word, and led me over. It turned out that he had someone set up a copper pot in the pavilion, and the red soup was boiling inside. Before he got close, he could smell a strong aroma.

This is--

He said with a smile: "You have a bad appetite recently, and you haven't eaten well. I heard that you like spicy food. Come and try this."

Looking at the steaming spicy hot pot on the table, I felt a sense of warmth in my heart. I didn't expect him to even notice this. He glanced at him with a smile, and followed him to his seat without saying anything.

Pick up a piece of white jade-like fish meat, the fish bones are all lifted, put it in your mouth and chew it, the meat is tender and melts in your mouth, and it is served with a spicy and spicy soup.

I ate several slices of fish and bamboo shoots in a row. The temperature here in Dongling Mountain is relatively cold. Eating such a hot soup pot makes people feel comfortable. But at this time, I heard a strange "hissing" sound There was a sound of inhalation, and when I looked up, I saw that Chu Feng was already sweating profusely, the corners of his eyes and nose were red, he was sucking in air desperately, staring at the contents of the pot, as if he saw some terrible monster.

That's right, Qinglong Kingdom is located in the east, and the food is relatively light. Maybe he has never eaten such a spicy food.

However, looking at his appearance is quite interesting, I didn't even bother to eat, so I saw him waving in a hurry: "Nei, Internal Supervisor, quickly bring me some tea, hurry!"

The internal steward immediately offered a cup of tea, and he raised his cup to drink it, but I hurriedly stopped him: "Oh, I can't help it. If you drink tea after eating spicy soup, the spicy smell will go straight to your heart, making it even more uncomfortable. .”

"Ah?" He looked at me with wide eyes: "Then what should I do?"

Tomorrow is his 45th birthday. He is usually calm and introverted, but he was so embarrassed by a pot of hot pot that he even asked me for help. It doesn't feel spicy anymore."

"..."

His eyes turned to the hot pot covered with red peppers, with a troubled expression on his face.

I looked down at my own bowl, tried my best to hold back my laugh, but I couldn't hold it back, and laughed out a "puchi", and then he realized that I had teased him, and gave me a reproachful look: "You girl." And said , I couldn't help laughing.

Smiling and laughing, feeling his eyes focused on me, he asked, "What are you looking at?"

"Look at you." He smiled and said, "It's rare for you to do this."

I laughed: "Why, do you like me to tease you?"

"No, it's not to tease me," he said with a serious expression on his face, "I hope you don't suppress yourself, even if you wanton and vindictive, you are still happy."

I froze for a moment.

No one has ever pampered me like this. I have always been the one who suppresses and endures, but no one told me that I want me to indulge in indulgence and vindictiveness...

But why did he suddenly say that?It feels a little weird.

I frowned slightly: "You—"

Before she could say anything, she saw Yu Sui'er rushing over from the side suddenly, kneeling on the ground: "Your Majesty, Empress Defei."

"What is so urgent?"

"The privy envoys, Mr. Nan Gong and Mr. Lu, led civil and military officials to Dongling to celebrate the emperor's birthday."

The expressions of Chu Feng and I changed slightly, but—we were not surprised.

"Okay, I understand, you go down."

Yu Sui'er bowed and then backed away. Chu Feng and I were still sitting there, but the atmosphere was completely different. He silently put down the bowl, looked up at me, and I looked at him too.

And they did.

From the very beginning, he and I both understood that the emperor's birthday couldn't really be just a family feast, especially him, especially in this current situation, even if he "hid" in the imperial mausoleum, the civil and military officials would definitely not Just let it go, but——Nangong Yu is here too?
He didn't say much, just said softly: "I've passed."

"Yeah." I nodded and watched him get up and walk towards the lobby where all civil and military officials gathered.

Looking at his back, I feel a little lost in my heart.

It's clearly a world of two people, but there are so many people and things that we have no choice but to join. He and I can live peacefully and happily, after all, it won't last long, but—as long as we can have him by our side, no matter how difficult it is , I am also happy.

As soon as he left, the delicious and spicy hot pot tasted like chewing wax. I ate a few tasteless mouthfuls, then someone came to clean up the place, and then I was bored in the backyard garden. Walking slowly, unconsciously, walked out the back door.

As soon as you exit the back door, you will see a wide pasture, stretching into the distance, is the towering Dongling Mountain.

The royal mausoleum, like a dragon and a tiger, is hidden in the steaming clouds and is faintly visible.

But at this moment, at the end of this pasture, I saw a thin figure, looking up at the front. I walked over slowly, walked to his side, and saw his eyes, which were cold and sad and a little bit hidden. Faint and imperceptible—hate?
He, too, is helpless.

Yunzhou used to be the imperial mausoleum of the Murong family, but at this moment, all the imperial power and hegemony represented here belong to others.

Hearing my footsteps, he didn't look back, just looked ahead.

I stood behind him, the two of them were silent like this, and I don't know how long it took before I heard his voice faintly: "Actually, after a hundred years, who will belong to this place, and who knows?"

"Yeah, who knows."

"However, the world still has to do everything for it."

A faint sorrow rose in my heart.

What he said, is it not himself? Perhaps looking at the long river of history, it is very common for a country to change hands, but only when you are in it, you will know the helplessness of the past, and the heart that is almost out of breath by the burden on your shoulders. Injury, I know he has struggled, but in the end, he couldn't get rid of the blood flowing in his body and everything carried in this blood.

"Nangong..." I said softly, "I know you have tried your best, so don't blame yourself anymore."

He turned to look at me: "What about you?"

"Ok?"

"You tell me not to blame myself anymore, what about you? If one day we inevitably confront each other and hurt each other, will you blame me?"

Listening to his words, I felt a faint feeling of uneasiness in my heart, but I still shook my head and said, "No."

"why?"

"Because I know that's not your original intention. Nangong, if one day you really want to hurt me, I won't be the one who hurts the most, right?"

He looked at me and smiled shyly.

"Xingsi, no wonder your fate is so rough... Whether it's amnesia or predicament, you have never changed."

"..."

"If, one day, I remember what you said."

After saying that, he turned to leave.

I stood where I was, my heart was getting heavier and heavier, and I couldn't help but take a step forward: "Nangong, do you already know something, tell me!"

He stopped and looked back, and in the gradually rising mist, I couldn't tell whether his eyes were looking at me or at the imperial mausoleum behind me. In the end, his face revealed With a faint, almost unfathomable smile, he turned and left.

Instead of catching up, I turned around slowly and looked at the imperial mausoleum in the clouds.

The royal mausoleum is where the dragon spirit is, and the root of the royal family.

Here, what the hell is going to happen?

.

This night was another sleepless night.

I was lying on the bed alone, hugging Chu Feng's pillow until very late, while Nangong's last words kept echoing in my ears, and all kinds of unbearable imaginations came out of my mind, but I didn't... I don't know what the worst ending will be.

Where will we go.

The room was very quiet, except for more subtle sounds. I didn't light a candle, and my bright eyes sank into the boundless darkness. After an unknown amount of time, I finally closed them sleepily.

A sleepless night.

The next morning, I was awakened by the crisp calls of birds in the forest. When I opened my eyes, the room was already bright.

But the surroundings were still cold, and Chu Feng did not come back.

Could it be that he spent the whole night outside without rest?

I was a little worried, so I hurriedly got up, put on my clothes, pushed the door and walked out. As soon as I opened the door, a gust of cool wind came, and I saw a figure standing in the corridor outside the door.

Chu Feng...

As I was about to walk over, I heard him whisper softly: "When will you stop fighting for fame and fortune? Getting up early and sleeping late is not free. Riding a donkey and mule thinks about a horse, and the official residence looks at the prince. I only worry about food and clothing and work, so why worry about Yan? The king will take the hook. Step-sons and grandchildren want to be rich, and none of them is willing to turn back."

I was slightly startled.

This poem sounds so detached, as if it could only be written by a person who watches the world with a cold eye, but Chu Feng—he is definitely not such a person.

I walked over, he heard my footsteps, looked back at me, and smiled faintly: "Are you awake?"

"Yeah." I nodded and asked, "Who wrote the poem you sang just now?"

"An ancestor."

oh?An ancestor?
I thought that generations of the Ling family were fighting for fame and fortune for the sake of imperial power, but I didn't expect that his ancestors could write such poems, which is really surprising.

Looking at his side face, he must have stayed up all night, otherwise I would definitely wake up, but his spirit seemed to be very good, his eyes were clear and bright, looking forward.

"looking at what?"

"Look at all this." He smiled slightly: "It turns out that the scenery is so beautiful."

This sentence is a bit strange, the scenery is of course beautiful, but when he said this, I couldn't help but turn my head to look at the misty mountain peaks, the rising sun bringing the brilliance of light, and hearing the scenery in the forest. The birds sang sweetly and smelled the faint fragrance from the vegetation in the garden...

And his face, under the light of the rising sun, looked extraordinarily radiant, and his eyes revealed a dazzling look.

"Really, it's beautiful." I looked at him and murmured.

"It's a pity that in the past, I could only see the carved railings and jade bricks on the temples, and the beauty of artistic conception on famous poems and paintings, but I never looked at them carefully."

I laughed: "As long as you want to, open your eyes, can't you see it?"

He also laughed: "Yeah."

The two looked at each other and smiled, without saying anything else, holding on to the railing of the corridor silently looking at the natural beauty in front of them, which could be seen by opening eyes, but at this moment it seems a little precious, even I, it seems No matter what kind of infection I get, I have a reluctant attachment to this kind of scenery.

The two of them stood there quietly, and after an unknown amount of time, I heard his voice softly——

"Xingsi, I want to abdicate."

At this moment, I lost my reaction. I stared blankly at the scenery in front of me. After a long time, I slowly turned my head to look at him—what did he say? !

His gaze was still on the far side, looking pale, and he said softly, "I'm tired of distinguishing right from wrong in the past 20 years. If I were willing to let go earlier, maybe many things would not be as they are now, and neither would you— "

I have already grabbed his hand: "What you said is true?!"

Is he really willing to abdicate?

Meeting my nervous and expectant eyes, he nodded.

"why?"

How could he give up everything about himself, Huangtu Baye, give up everything, how could he?

Chu Feng lowered his head and thought for a while, the slender eyelash feathers covered his eyes, entwined slightly, and also blocked his flickering eyes, and after a while, he slowly said: "Perhaps, people only know when they get it. What is really good. After yesterday, I really know what the life I want is just—”

He looked at me and smiled: "I wonder if it's too late?"

"Chu Feng!"

I rushed forward and hugged his neck tightly.

Tears almost came out of his eyes, dyed his neck, brought a warm feeling, and he, standing quietly for a long time, finally stretched out his hand, encircled my body, and hugged me tightly in his arms.

"Sorry, did I keep you waiting too long?"

"..."

"Sorry for keeping you waiting."

"..."

I shook my head desperately. At this moment, I feel that all the past, all the pain, all the sorrow, are completely gone at this moment. He and I can finally calm down, and all worries and worries can be eliminated. , He is willing to leave all that, is willing to grow old with me, is there anything in the world that makes me happier than this?
I have been holding him tightly all the time, immersing myself in the ecstasy of this moment, but I have never seen what kind of expression Chu Feng, who made the promise for me, has.

The two hugged each other for an unknown amount of time before slowly releasing them. He sighed softly again and said, "Originally, I wanted to announce the decree today, but it seems that it's too late."

"why?"

"The imperial decree has been drawn up, but it is still in the imperial study. There is nothing I can do about it today."

I was so anxious that I didn't have time to think about anything else, so I hurriedly said, "But, why don't you go and get it?"

"Silly girl," he laughed, "it takes a day from Yunzhou to Zhaoye, so how can we make it in time?"

I thought about it, and hurriedly said: "By the way, Nangong Yu sent Zhaoyebai, which can travel thousands of miles a day, and it will definitely work!"

He glanced at me, still shaking his head.

My heart became more and more anxious, and I was about to ask something, but at this moment, a light flashed in my mind——

By the way, what I went to get this time was not an ordinary thing, but an imperial decree. If an unreliable person gets it, it is a big deal and should not be underestimated; I'm afraid nothing will cause trouble.

But, just give up like this?
Seeing that he already has the intention to abdicate, I really hope he can do it immediately, otherwise the night will be long and dreamy, and I am afraid that he will give up at some point.

Thinking of this, I made up my mind, walked up to him and said, "I'll go."

Chu Feng raised his eyebrows slightly: "You?"

"Well. As long as you give me an edict, I will go back now and bring you the edict!"

"You have to know that it is very hard to travel thousands of miles in one day."

I smiled bitterly: "Chu Feng, what is more difficult than waiting for you but not being able to wait?"

I have been through so long, persevering for him, and finally got the chance to stay with him forever without being disturbed by anyone or anything, how could I just give up like this?
He looked into my eyes and seemed to understand, he was silent for a while, then nodded: "Okay."

I quickly changed into a set of light riding clothes, and he also handed me the Azure Dragon Token. I looked at him and said softly: "I will be back soon."

After speaking, he turned to go out.

But as soon as I turned around, a hand suddenly reached out and grabbed my wrist.

Before I had time to react, he had already pulled hard, and I was caught off guard, pulled back into his arms by him, and hugged me tightly again.

At this moment, I was also a little lost.

He hugged me tightly, his arms were so strong, as if he wanted to integrate me into the flesh and blood, I could even hear his disordered heartbeat and breathing, everything seemed to be in chaos.

"Chu Feng...?"

(End of this chapter)