What do you want in life

Chapter 29 Can the Oath of the Past Become Forever (8)
"In the first few years, she made several friends of the opposite sex. Of course, heck, so did I...but they all ended in failure."

Xiaoying ignored the slight embarrassment in his tone, slowly put a already peeled grape into the bowl, and said softly: "Maybe she is looking for a boyfriend to annoy you."

A long time ago, the "meeting in arms" between her and Huang Yiyun on the top floor of Huatai is still fresh in her memory. Xiaoying believes that Huang Yiyun must have never really given up on Shen Juncheng over the years.

"I don't know." Shen Juncheng took a long breath, Xiaoying's indifferent attitude made him a little elusive, as if she could really keep her out of it, but he was still determined to tell her everything he needed to say.

"About two years ago, she came to me suddenly drunk... She said, since we have failed so much in terms of relationships, why don't we just get together, so that at least one of us can be happy... ...I looked at her at the time, and for some reason... I agreed to her..."

Xiaoying was silent again.

Shen Juncheng turned his head and looked away, "Actually, after a while, I discovered that everything can be done, except for feelings... In the past two years, we often quarreled over some very trivial things, I know, this is not entirely true It's her fault, it's me..." He lowered his head and didn't continue.

Xiaoying glanced at him, the atmosphere seemed to hint at her saying something, but she couldn't find the right words to say, the missing eight years, she lived an ordinary life, although there was no shortage of suitors, but she never Not responding, as if locking herself into a bottle, she didn't know if she was subconsciously waiting for something by doing that.

But when this day finally came, she felt no joy, but more confusion and doubts.

"Actually, I often think of you after returning to China, but I dare not go to you..." After a while, Shen Juncheng said again: "I'm afraid to hear that you are in love or married, and so on... I really I didn't expect to meet you in my company."

"If you hadn't met me, wouldn't you have thought of breaking up with her?" Xiaoying raised her face at this moment, stared at him seriously and asked.

"No, don't make such assumptions." Shen Juncheng closed his eyes, "I'd rather be like this."

He stared at Xiaoying again, with the same solemnity in his eyes, "I would rather meet you, I think it's fate at work, I... am very grateful for this arrangement." He held her hand.

Xiaoying bit her lip, looking a little embarrassed, after a moment's pause, she took her hand out of his palm, got up and walked to the window, looking out at the dark and quiet night outside, but there seemed to be dozens of little things in her heart. People were fighting and it was a mess.

Who has no selfishness?Why is she not, but where will this selfishness lead her, and Shen Juncheng?She was not at all sure about it.

She finally broke free from the accident eight years ago and regained her tranquility. She never thought that eight years later, everything would have a chance to repeat itself.

At that time, they were both young, and she used this as an excuse to reject him, but now, are the obstacles that prevented them from coming together really gone?
Shen Juncheng walked to her side, his hands and eyes lingered on the top of her head and hairline, and finally, he stretched out his arms, encircling her whole body.

"I know what you're worried about." He whispered slowly by her earlobe, "Over the years, I often think of the words you said when you left me. The more I recall, the more I regret it. Say it Going is just a decision."

He turned her body around and pressed his forehead against hers, they could see themselves in each other's eyes, he smiled slightly but firmly, "This time, I won't Let you go again."

Xiaoying has mixed feelings, but she still can't make up her mind like Shen Juncheng. She has always lived cautiously. calm again.

"When I sent you home that day, I said, I hope we will still be friends in the future." Shen Juncheng took a deep breath, and the smile on his face was unpredictable, "Actually, I lied—I never hope that we are just friends."

Xiaoying's face flushed slightly in his soft tone.

"You may not know," Shen Juncheng pressed her tightly against his chest, "I think about you secretly every day, and want to see you every day, but I can't find you. Sometimes I see people in the crowd You, I really want to put down everything in my hands and rush over to talk to you, no, even if I don’t say anything, it’s good for me to take a good look at you, but I can’t, I can only watch you pass by me Walk by like a stranger!"

His expression gradually became agitated, "Although there is nothing between you and Li Zhen, every time I hear someone making fun of you and him, I will be so jealous! I don't want to torture myself anymore!"

Xiaoying looked up at him in surprise and moved, she always thought that he had forgotten her long ago, if it wasn't because of Jiang Fang's matter, he would not feel pity for her again.And she had to admit that what she was worried about was actually nothing more than his determination.

But now, after hearing his passionate confession, she suddenly realized that she hadn't faded from his heart in these years.

His eyes were sincere and warm, without any adulteration, Xiaoying felt warm in her heart, and she didn't know how to deal with it.

Shen Juncheng hugged her tightly, like hugging a lost and found treasure, with a tyrannical stubbornness in his tone, "I will never let you become someone else's, even if it's just a joke!"

"But..." Xiaoying was a little out of breath when he hugged her. Even so, her mind was still calmer than his. "What should she do?" There was always lingering hesitation and worry in her eyes.

The eagerness in Shen Juncheng's eyes faded a little, he let go of her slowly, and finally rubbed some seriousness into his expression, "I figured it out, breaking up with her and being with you again are two different things. Even if you don't show up, I will There will be no results with her. She is too possessive, and she is very similar to my mother in this regard. "

He bowed his head and smiled mockingly, "I don't want my life to be spent dealing with two equally exhausting women."

Xiaoying stared at him without relief.

"Yes, of course this cannot be a reason for me to get rid of her confidently." Shen Juncheng continued, "I just want you to know that the fact that I broke up with her has nothing to do with you."

Xiaoying grinned, feeling a little helpless.

Shen Juncheng turned his gaze out of the window, and said in a low tone, "No matter how difficult it is, I will handle it well."

The pitch-black night outside the window seemed to herald a difficult road ahead for them, but Shen Juncheng just smiled silently at the endless blackness after all.

No matter how dark the night is, it cannot stop the light of the stars, even if there are only one or two, it is enough to ignite the light of hope.

When she left Xiaoying's house, she told Shen Juncheng worriedly, "You offended Jiang Fang, be careful in everything in the future, he is a gangster with a bit of influence, maybe..."

"Don't worry." Shen Juncheng interrupted her with a gentle smile, "No matter how courageous he is, he still needs to weigh it carefully when he touches me, but you, don't go out when it's late, and you must call me if you have any questions." After a pause, he pondered: "Why don't I pick you up from work later on."

"Don't be so ostentatious." Xiaoying always felt uneasy and shook her head resolutely, "I will be careful myself."

As soon as he stepped out the door, Shen Juncheng couldn't help turning his face to look at her, his eyes showed nostalgia, and suddenly he stepped back, hugging her hard, reluctant to let go.

His childish behavior suddenly opened Xiaoying's long-sealed memory, allowing her to regain the temperament she was familiar with many years ago in Shen Juncheng. Her melancholy heart was provoked by him, and her face was pressed against his Over his shoulder, he smiled lightly.

A few days later, Guo Jia suddenly called Xiaoying and complained, "Well, you Han Xiaoying, you are not generous enough! You are not the first to inform me of such important news as that bastard Jiang Fang is gone" of!"

How did she know that Jiang Fang's matter was nothing more than a nightmare to Xiaoying.

Xiaoying forced a smile on the phone when she heard the words, "It's not a good thing, there's nothing to show off."

"It's a good thing for me! It's a great thing! Finally, God has eyes and avenged me! By the way, do you know why I was fired?"

"It seems to be a false report."

"I heard people say that it's not that simple. It seems that he offended Mr. Shen. This time, Mr. Shen's people took the knife to get rid of him..."

"I don't know the specific situation." Xiaoying didn't want to continue talking with her about this matter, so she interrupted her and said, "You haven't called me for a long time, can we stop mentioning that person? By the way, when will you be there?" Kong, come to my house to have a meal, how about we shabu-shabu?"

"Okay, okay!" Guo Jia was full of energy, "I haven't eaten hot pot for a long time!"

The two discussed the date, and Guo Jia came to the door as scheduled.

Xiaoying was washing vegetables in the kitchen, Guo Jia stared at her in amazement, put on her apron, and said, "Hey, you don't want to cook at home, do you?"

"Of course!" Xiaoying also stared back at her, "Otherwise, why would I buy so many things?"

"Is there a mistake?" Guo Jia yelled, dancing and dancing, "Of course the hot pot must be eaten in a hot pot restaurant to have an atmosphere! Stop busying yourself, let's go! I'm treating you!"

Can't help but say that pulling Xiaoying is about to run outside.

"But I..." Xiaoying staggered and was dragged out by her, her gaze reluctantly swept over the table full of vegetables.

Guo Jia didn't allow her to hesitate, so he stretched out his hand and untied the apron for her, "Oh, can you stop being so petty! Keep those for yourself and eat slowly."

In the hot pot restaurant, Guo Jia’s complaints began to spread like the steaming hot mutton while eating the delicious mutton. It’s just that the boss favored one another, and the company’s treatment was not fair enough. Jun, say a thousand words and ten thousand words, only one sentence is the truth - people live in comparison.

"It seems that crows are as black as the world!" Xiaoying smiled and helped her conclude, "Then have you ever thought about changing jobs again?"

Guo Jia shook his head immediately, "That won't work, you have to work for two or three years before you think about it, just think of it as gold-plated in a foreign company! And let me tell you, you are always jumping around, and the boss of a good company will also I don't mind, I feel like you can't sit still like a monkey's butt, you don't have a long-term stamina, you might have a good opportunity, and you just lost it. So do you know what is the most important thing in a person? The most important thing is character and reputation!"

"You are much more mature in thinking about things now than before." Xiaoying nodded approvingly.

"Hey!" Guo Jia sighed, "I was also forced to come out. Actually, after staying in this company for a while, I found that it is not as good as Nanxiang! Think about how comfortable we were together in the past! I Now, there is no one who can speak his mind!"

"Han Xiaoying," she suddenly stared at Xiaoying affectionately, and said delicately, "It seems that you are unique."

Xiaoying waved her chopsticks at her, "Go! I don't want to play with you!"

Guo Jiafu smiled again, "I hear what you mean, you have already found someone you like in the opposite sex? Tell me, who is it, is it Li Zhen? By the way, has he confessed to you? It is said that he has long been Sima Zhaozhi. Xin, passers-by know, why haven’t you broken the window paper with you? It’s a bit unreasonable! Look at him, he doesn’t look like such a useless person!”

Xiaoying pursed her lips, glanced at her reproachfully, and then put a few large pieces of mutton into her bowl, "Eat it, so many delicious things can't stop your mouth!"

"Hey, Han Xiaoying! I care about you! I care about you more than I care about myself..." Guo Jia's mouth was full of food, but he was still muttering.

The pent-up over the past few days gradually dissipated under the steaming heat of the hot pot and Guo Jia's crisp voice, Xiaoying finally had a long-lost bright smile on her face.

After dinner, Xiaoying wanted to go back, but Guo Jia refused, "It's rare for me to go to the city once, and I haven't had a good time shopping yet! You don't know that the northern suburbs are deserted, similar to Liaozhai! Yes, the place where I live now It is said that the place used to be a cemetery, it is scary enough!"

Xiaoying laughed and said, "Then you have to be careful! Don't have ghosts knocking on the door in the middle of the night!"

"Ha! I haven't done anything wrong, I'm afraid of a ball!" Guo Jia shouted happily. She is a materialist and never believes in ghosts and gods.

"Han Xiaoying, I live so far away, it's rare for me to go out for a walk in a month." Guo Jia suddenly turned his finger on her again, looked her up and down, frowned, and mentioned the half-worn dress she was wearing. Overcoat, "What's the matter with you? You've become so reclusive that you can't even afford to buy decent clothes! If this continues, you'll become more and more like a nun in a nunnery. Be careful not to get married!"

Guo Jia's coaxing ability has always been top-notch, she coaxed with a few words, and Xiaoying obeyed if she didn't.The two went to the clothing and accessories stores on Fuxing Street to shop side by side.Guo Jia likes everything, and when the seller says something good, even if she is not ready to buy, she will take off her clothes and try them on tirelessly, while Xiaoying will carry her bag for her, like a little follower.

By the time we had a good time shopping, it was getting dark.

The two returned with a full load and walked all the way to the station.Guo Jia turned her head to check several times, and said to Xiaoying in doubt, "Why do I feel that someone is always following us?"

When Xiaoying heard this, her face turned pale, and she suddenly turned her head to look, but there was no one there.

"Where is it?" She asked Guo Jia in a panic.

Guo Jia turned his head again, and the person he noticed just now disappeared again.

"Maybe it's nervousness." She shrugged and didn't feel relieved.

The trace of whiteness on Xiaoying's face never faded.

Back home, Xiaoying was still thinking about the person who Guo Jia found was stalking her, feeling more and more uneasy.In fact, long before Guo Jia, she herself had discovered some clues.For this reason, she reduced the number of times she went out, and she also kept deceiving herself to comfort herself, maybe she was wrong, because that person seemed to be just following her and showed no signs of harming her.

However, when a certain doubt in my heart is raised by someone else, it turns out to be only a faint trace, and it will immediately become as real as it is reliable.

Now, she can be sure that someone is indeed following her!
She circled the room a few times anxiously, hesitating whether to report to Shen Juncheng, if one day she disappears for no reason, at least he can have a bottom line in his heart, so he won't be at a loss...

She suddenly woke up from her wild thoughts, and she couldn't help laughing. Recently, she was really worried about gains and losses. Whenever she encountered a little situation, she would think of the worst. It was undeniable that she was suffering from mild anxiety disorder.

In the end, she still decided to call Shen Juncheng. Only he knew her worries and fears best, and only he could resolve them.

The phone was connected quickly, Xiaoying told him all the worries of the past few days, Shen Juncheng was silent for a moment, and said quickly: "I see, I will talk to you later."

With just one sentence, Xiaoying was dismissed, and she stood in the middle of the living room holding the cold mobile phone and was stunned for a while.

At this time, Shen Juncheng was sitting in an elegant western-style restaurant, opposite him was Huang Yiyun who was full of anger and folded his arms on his chest.

On the table, the two western dishes remained untouched, but all the heat had disappeared, and the bright colors exuded a cold atmosphere, which was lifeless and made people lose their appetite.

There are a few photos beside the dinner plate. Shen Juncheng has just finished viewing them. The quality of this group of photos is extremely poor, but it is not a problem to distinguish the male and female protagonists. There is no doubt that he is the male protagonist in these photos, and the female protagonist is naturally Han Xiaoying.

"Jiang Fang sold it to you?" He glanced at Huang Yiyun who was full of anger.

"No!" she yelled in a rough voice, and added a little angry, "Can I hire a private detective to secretly take pictures?"

Shen Juncheng smiled, "You seem to have never had such an elegant mood before."

He glanced at the photos on the table, and he didn't even need to move his brain to understand who made these crude things.

"Jiang Fang really spared no effort for that little compensation! He even asked someone to come to my uncle twice... You are probably the last trump card in his hand. But, I didn't expect him to use such a way to use you." He said with a faint grunt.

In fact, from the moment he beat Jiang Fang to the ground, he knew Jiang Fang's character. This kind of person always prefers softness and fears hard work, and only uses some dirty tricks. If he really wants to get serious with him, He might not dare to confront him head-on, seeing Huang Yiyun in a rage at this moment, Shen Juncheng became more aware of his judgment.It seems that Jiang Fang was really desperate, so he threw out his so-called handle regardless.

"I said that Jiang Fang didn't give it to me!" Huang Yiyun said to him again, but she obviously lacked confidence.

Shen Juncheng leaned back in his chair, ignoring her excuse, "I guess, the price you paid for these photos from him is almost worth the compensation he wants from me for dismissal. "Shen Juncheng said to Huang Yiyun with a self-deprecating smile at the corner of his mouth, "Do you think it's worth it? Just for these few incomprehensible photos?"

In the photos, Shen Juncheng and Han Xiaoying are all talking or facing each other. There is no intimacy, and there is no movement of holding hands. Of course, if the camera is good enough, Shen Juncheng believes that something can be read from their eyes, but Based on the few photos in front of me, there is really no content.

"It's up to me to judge whether it's worth it or not!" Huang Yiyun retorted sharply, "I wouldn't guess randomly if it were any other woman, but if it was her, I couldn't help but doubt it!"

She then made an expression of sudden realization, "No wonder I felt a little familiar when I saw her in Nanxiang last time! Shen Juncheng, I really admire you. You are quick enough to find her as soon as you return to China! You even took her Pull into your company!"

Shen Juncheng shook his head, "I can't stop you from thinking like this, even though what you said is not true." He felt that it would be futile to continue the debate, so he slightly shrugged his shoulders as a compromise, "Okay, you say, you What do you want?"

He picked up the stack of photos on the table, "Do you want me to buy them from you again or..."

"Shen Juncheng!" Huang Yiyun said angrily, "Stop flirting with me! How dare you deny me? Can you admit without blushing that you have no ambitions for her?"

Shen Juncheng watched her quietly, his cold eyes no longer had the usual gentleness and indifference, as if a stormy sea was heaving dangerously there.

(End of this chapter)