What do you want in life

Chapter 34 Can the Oath of the Past Become Forever (13)
"Stop talking." He stood up quickly, with his left hand on the box pole, with a tired expression on his face, "Thank you for raising me all these years, but I am very tired now, I just want to be a Jane A simple person, I... want to be myself."

Shocked by his words, Shen Nanzhang couldn't say anything for a moment, he watched Shen Juncheng walking towards the door, and then saw him stop by the door.

Shen Juncheng turned slightly sideways, but his eyes did not turn to Shen Nanzhang, but fixed on a ground outside the door, "I'm sorry, Dad...I will repay your kindness in the future when I have a chance."

Shen Nanzhang really wanted to ask him, how far is this future?What kind of chance will he give them?
However, he didn't ask anything in the end, he could understand Shen Juncheng's mood at this time, and he understood his current situation better - don't say that Shen Juncheng was adopted by them, even if he was really born by himself and Qiuyue, he is now an adult, Even if the parents disagreed, how could they stop it, and what could they do—Qiuyue tried her best but failed to keep her son, and went to the hospital instead.

The figure of Shen Juncheng dragging his suitcase quickly disappeared into the twilight. Shen Nanzhang stared blankly at the direction he was leaving, forgot to chase him out, and even forgot to speak out to stop him.

In the same twilight, Xiaoying was cooking peacefully in the kitchen. She had just received a call from Shen Juncheng that he would come over for dinner tonight.

Xiaoying went to work after only a day's rest at home. Apart from being a little frightened, her body did not suffer much damage.

Naturally, she didn't want to mention the attack, but the station was very close to the company, and there were many employees of neighboring companies nearby when the accident happened. It was easy to locate the person who was splashed during the discussion.

Facing the concerned inquiries from colleagues, Xiaoying only prevaricates them by accident. The party's cautious words and indifference quickly cool down the enthusiasm for attention. On the contrary, her ultra-short hair has become a fashion that others talk about. Everyone praised her for her beautiful hairstyle. Xiaoying didn't know whether to laugh or cry, but there was no sarcasm in the eyes of those who praised her, and she laughed at herself as a blessing in disguise.

When the aroma wafted from the stewed casserole, the doorbell rang at the right time.Xiaoying's face lit up like a light, she hurriedly washed her hands and ran out to open the door.

It was indeed Shen Juncheng standing outside the door, carrying a big black box in his hand. Seeing Xiaoying staring at him in astonishment, he smiled back at her, "I ran away from home, would you take me in?" ?”

Xiaoying frowned and smiled, "Are you kidding me!"

"It's true." His tone was extremely flat, but his expression was extremely serious.

Xiaoying was stunned, and Shen Juncheng had already stepped into the door with a suitcase in his hand, he bent his head and kissed her on the cheek, pursed his lips and entered with a smile.

His words, deeds and expression were a little weird, as if he was deliberately hiding some kind of emotion, not as coordinated and calm as before.

Seeing that he didn't seem to be teasing her, Xiaoying immediately felt uneasy, "You... quarreled with your mother?"

Shen Juncheng casually placed the box under the window sill, and when he straightened up, he stood facing the window and did not turn around for a long time.

"What's going on?" Xiaoying realized the seriousness, and asked anxiously behind him while taking off her apron.

"Will you believe it?" Shen Juncheng had a mocking smile on his lips, "I... am an adopted child of the Shen family."

Holding the apron in her hands, Xiaoying froze on the spot with her mouth half open. She was completely stunned, as if in a dream, and couldn't connect what he just said with reality.

Shen Juncheng turned around slowly, and it was no accident that he came into contact with Xiaoying's expression of extreme astonishment, but his eyes at this time made Xiaoying's heart hurt suddenly. This was the first time she saw Xiaoying on Shen Juncheng's face. Seeing such painful confusion, how proud and confident he was in the past.

"They kept it from me for so long," the muscles on his face trembled slightly, and finally there was a vivid expression on his face, but it was extremely painful, "I didn't think of anything at all, I always thought that I..." He no longer I can't go on.

"Don't you..." Xiaoying stepped forward a few steps, moved her lips and tried to say something to comfort him, but her own mind was also in a mess, and she couldn't understand it as if she had been forced into a ball of numbness. clear.

Shen Juncheng slowly hugged her into his arms, and then hugged her tightly, without saying a word, just cuddling her wholeheartedly.

He hugged her so tightly, as if she was the only one he had in this world.

After dinner, Shen Juncheng told Xiaoying all the stories that should be told.

Humans are animals that need to express themselves. No matter how great the pain is vented through words, the heart will feel a lot easier.

The same is true for Shen Juncheng, not to mention calming down and thinking about it, this matter may not be extremely bad for him. When he heard it for the first time, what he couldn't bear was just a huge psychological gap, but it was because of this that he was able to let go of the original The responsibilities and burdens I have always carried on my shoulders are now logically staying with the girl I love.

Xiaoying filled his empty bowl with a bowl of soup and asked him, "What do you plan to do in the future?"

Shen Juncheng liked her indifferent attitude, no matter what happened, she would not make a fuss.

"I want to resign from Nanxiang's job." He pondered, his mind had calmed down, "Leave after handing over the work at hand, and then... see if I can find another job."

This was the result of his thinking for a day. After learning the truth about his life experience, he could no longer stay in the Shen family calmly like before.

"Your parents... cough, I mean, can they... agree?" Xiaoying felt that things were not that simple.

Shen Juncheng lowered his head and drank a few sips of soup, and when he raised his head, he said softly: "I won't go back again." His tone was very light, but there was an unshakable stubbornness.

Xiaoying studied his expression for a while, and then asked, "Don't you think it's a pity?" She knew he had always been very ambitious.

Shen Juncheng smiled silently, "No, I don't think so. The former Shen Juncheng was actually not Shen Juncheng himself, but the son of Shen Nanzhang and Wu Qiuyue, that's all."

At this time, apart from the shock that the incident itself brought him, the rest of his thoughts were eager to smash the image of the "model son" he had worked so hard to create over the past 20 years. He suddenly found that he subconsciously hated this man The identity has been around for a long time, how desperately he wants to escape from his past life.

There was still a bit of sadness in his eyes that couldn't be eliminated, "I'm not Shen Juncheng, I... don't even know who I am."

A hand quietly stretched out from the table and held his tightly. He raised his eyes and saw Xiaoying's eyes were as quiet as before. pregnancy.

Although he doesn't know who he used to be, but in Xiaoying's place, he at least has a clear identity - he is someone who loves her and is loved by her.

On the night of early spring, the chill is still there, but it is not as cold as winter after all.Shen Juncheng sat on a low stool on the balcony, breathed in the cool air, and slowly considered his plans for the future.

Xiaoying came out with a cup of tea and handed it to him. The cup was lukewarm, just enough to warm her hands.

"Thank you!" He smiled at her, feeling that the two of them are like an old married couple who cooperate with each other tacitly.

If you can really grow old in such a flash, it is a good life. At least, you can stay with the person you love and worry less.

"This is also for you." Xiaoying shook the key in her hand to him a few times, and said with a smile: "From now on, half of the property in this family will belong to you, but you have to work hard!"

Shen Juncheng narrowed his eyes and took it with a smile, "Boss, aren't you afraid that I'll pack up and run away?"

"Don't be afraid!" Xiaoying sat down on his lap, "I'm holding a string that can tie you up. If you run too far, I'll take up the string and pull you back, and then..."

"And then what?" He put the teacup on the ground, put his arms around her wholeheartedly, and rocked slightly back and forth, as if they were both in a cradle.

"Of course I will teach you a good lesson!" Xiaoying said, turning her head and pinching his nose.

Shen Juncheng laughed, and suddenly bowed his head and kissed her.

This sudden accident broke the barrier that had been entrenched in Shen Juncheng's heart for a long time - he no longer had to restrain his love for Xiaoying because of family reasons, once the turbulent emotions broke through the waves, all the blocking dams were washed to pieces .

From now on, he can finally put aside all worries and love the girl in his arms, and do everything he can to keep her and make her happy, because he has the conditions to promise her.

The two were lingering in the dark night, like a raging flame, igniting each other and even lighting up the night.

"Then you have to hold on to the thread in your hand, and don't let go..." He kissed her earlobe until she was in a daze, "Never let go...I want you, forever...hold on to me..."

The night was dark, and the lights in Xiaoying's small bedroom were dark, and the outdoor light poured in through the half-drawn curtains, vaguely illuminating the fiery two people on the bed.

Shen Juncheng's kiss meandered down Xiaoying's neck, and she felt her skin trembling. She really wanted to take a closer look at his expression at this time, but her eyes were still half-closed because of shyness.When his hot lips touched her sensitive parts, she couldn't help but groan slightly, and instinctively stretched out her hand to push him away, "No."

Through the weak light, Shen Juncheng saw her uncomfortable expression, her cheeks must have been flushed, but he couldn't stop, leaned forward, leaned against her earlobe, and comforted her in a hoarse voice, "Baby , don't be afraid."

In the dark, her sense of touch became extremely sensitive. Gradually, Xiaoying felt as if a ball of fire had sprung up in her body, rolling wantonly wherever her lips and hands touched.She heard his gradually heavy breathing, sometimes in her ear, sometimes in front of her chest...

She tried to let go of herself and let her body accept his baptism calmly—she loved him, and she was willing to dedicate herself to him.

However, a sudden stab of pain still tore apart her already blurred consciousness, concentrated all her thoughts on a certain point, and clearly transformed it into an uncontrollable cry, which was sent out directly from her throat ,"ah--"

Before the tears flowed, Shen Juncheng's kisses had already been densely woven, and his consciousness once again turned into hazy smoke and drifted away.She stretched out her arms, clung to his neck like a driftwood in the sea, and heard him confiding intermittently in her earlobe, "Han Xiaoying, Xiaoying...I love you..."

He's been trying to soften her, he can feel her nervousness, and it's only because it's her first time.

In the meantime, Shen Juncheng didn't have similar extravagant hopes, because he couldn't demand her with the rules that he couldn't abide by. No matter what her past was, this was the girl he wanted to love forever, and he just wanted to have her well. enough.

But at this moment, when he found that she was still as pure as a blank sheet of paper, as a man, he couldn't help being shocked and moved.He tried his best to alleviate her first pain, caring for her and cherishing her like a fragile flower or a fragile jade.

Xiaoying's heart gradually felt safe, and the pain gradually receded like a tide after the initial sharpness. She felt that she was slowly entering a brand new realm, and the sea breeze enveloped her like a dream, making her relax involuntarily... …

At the peak of passion, Shen Juncheng's murmur of pain and happiness could be faintly heard in Xiaoying's ear, "Han Xiaoying...I finally...have you..."

The tone and tone of his speech were very similar to the proud and somewhat young boy in Xiaoying's memory.

Scenes of the past flashed before Xiaoying's eyes: he took her hand and walked towards the station at dusk, he hugged her tightly to comfort her not to cry, he made a loud promise to her, and his voice was choked up and he wanted to use Shang Her immature strength kept her...

But at this time, Shen Juncheng, who was holding her, sighed with pious satisfaction, and Xiaoying's eyes became moist in an instant.

After the passion was over, the two hugged each other and lay on the bed, Xiaoying lay on Shen Juncheng's chest, and gently drew circles on his half-open chest with her fingers, with embarrassment still in her voice, "How do I feel... like It's like a dream."

Maybe it was because she had seen him in dreams many times, and when she really reunited with him and had him, reality became unreal like a dream.

"Silly girl." Shen Juncheng lowered his head and kissed her on the cheek, and hugged her tighter, "Okay, I license you to stay in my dream, but the premise is that you can't wake up again in this life, huh?"

Xiaoying was amused by him, and she closed her eyes comfortably.When she embraced Shen Juncheng with both hands, her heart suddenly felt at ease, as if she had found a long-awaited home.

In the middle of the night, Xiaoying was suddenly awakened by a muffled hum. She rubbed her sleepy eyes, turned on the desk lamp, and saw Shen Juncheng lying beside her, covered in sweat and moving slightly, but unable to wake up from the nightmare.

"Shen Juncheng, what's wrong with you, wake up!" Xiaoying hurriedly shook him awake, "Are you having a nightmare?"

Shen Juncheng suddenly came back to reality from the dream, still a little scared, looked around in a daze, and when he came into contact with Xiaoying's anxious face, he smiled weakly at her, stretched out his hand and pulled her into his arms In, "I dreamed that you ran away again, and I couldn't catch up no matter how hard I tried."

Xiaoying lay on his chest, her ears just pressed against his chest, she could clearly hear his heart beating violently.

"Don't worry, I won't leave you." Xiaoying comforted softly, and pressed her palms tightly against his palms, and then entangled them.

"It's impossible for me to let you leave me." Shen Juncheng pursed his lips and smiled slightly, his face was a little vacant.

Xiaoying gradually realized that his fear and uneasiness might not be due to her.

"Are...are you worrying about other things?" She finally expressed her doubts.

"What?" Shen Juncheng looked at her, pretending to be puzzled.

Xiaoying sat up straight on the bed, "Do you think this is appropriate? I mean... just leave them like this... After all, they raised you so much."

The traces of concealment on Shen Juncheng's face gradually faded away. He understood that he couldn't hide his emotions from Xiaoying. After a moment of silence, he asked back, "What do you think I should do?"

He looked at the gray-white ceiling, with confusion and emptiness intertwined in his eyes, "Go back? Continue to be the general manager of Nanxiang? Just because I have an identity as the adopted son of the Shen family? No, I can't do it."

"In the past, I took the Shen family's career as my own responsibility, so even if I didn't like it, I would accept it. But it's different now, not only because it's not the life I want, but more importantly, , I don’t want someone to point at me one day and say that he made a compromise just to get the property of the Shen family.”

Xiaoying gently leaned her head back against his chest, Shen Juncheng stretched out his hand, and slowly stroked her short fluffy hair.

"As for the grace of upbringing," he paused, and walked his fingers over Xiaoying's smooth skin, "If one day they are willing to admit your existence, I will be with you and do my best like ordinary people treat their parents." filial piety."

His fingers wandered across her arm, and finally became entangled with her palm. Xiaoying didn't say anything, and sighed in her heart, a little helpless and a little hesitant.

Shen Juncheng turned over, pressed Xiaoying under him, and kissed her all over delicately, the sultry heat immediately brought back the memory that made her blush a few hours ago, Xiaoying wanted to stop her, but he couldn't help but say The enthusiasm was swallowed up again, and in his slightly urgent movements, she was sensitively aware that he seemed to be eager to use this to cover up a certain emotion that was gradually steaming up. Is it guilt or bewilderment?

In the ward late at night, Shen Nanzhang was still accompanying Wu Qiuyue, who had been unable to fall asleep for a long time. The pain and the shocking news brought by her husband tormented her both physically and mentally.

"How could he treat me like this? It's been 26 years, and I've raised him for 26 years! Why don't you ask him for me, what is his heart made of? He, does he have a conscience?"

Shen Nanzhang sat by the bed, lowered his head, and said nothing.

Wu Qiuyue, who was furious, searched her brains to enumerate all the wrong things about her son, and then she discovered that all Shen Juncheng's rebellious behaviors were all caused by Han Xiaoying.

"That little vixen is simply a monster!" She gritted her teeth and cursed Xiaoying, "Not only did she harm her parents and my mother, but now she wants to take my son away! Nanzhang, you just have to bear it." Watch her drag Xiaocheng away?"

"Qiuyue!" Shen Nanzhang had to persuade her: "It's useless for you to just complain. Can't you see that Xiaocheng really likes her, why don't you just..."

"I won't agree!" Wu Qiuyue's eyes showed a look of resentment, but she came directly at Shen Nanzhang, "Don't do this with me! I will do my best not to want this son, and I will not compromise with them !"

She yelled too excitedly, causing a series of violent coughs, and it didn't take long to hear the nurse knocking on the door outside.

Shen Nanzhang hurried over and opened the door to explain, "It's all right." He sent the nurse away with a few words.

When he came back, he found that Wu Qiuyue was staring at him with eyes full of deep meaning, and there was something inexplicably afraid in those eyes.Shen Nanzhang's heart skipped a beat for no reason, and he quickly looked away.

But Wu Qiuyue leaned back on the bed wearily, her face was full of resentment, "I have been the villain since I was a child, and you always help him! But what time is it now, he just walked away like this , you are still speaking for him!"

Shen Nanzhang sighed in embarrassment, "It's not a bad thing to let him practice outside. Maybe it won't be long before he can't bear the hardship and come back! Any experience has to be experienced by himself to be convincing."

His self-comforting words got Wu Qiuyue a few sneers, "Hmph, I figured it out, it doesn't matter if he comes back or not, for example, I never raised this son!"

Shen Nanzhang didn't say a word anymore, just glanced at her secretly, but saw that she still had a troubled expression on her face.

The next day, Shen Juncheng came to the company on time as usual.

Before he stepped into the office, he saw Cao Wenyu hurried over from the other end of the corridor. When he saw him, joy flashed in his eyes, "Chairman Shen is here, in your office."

Shen Juncheng was not surprised, his father was a top-notch businessman, and he could always keep a calm head to deal with all kinds of situations that might reverse at any time, even for his son—he probably guessed that Shen Juncheng had the intention of leaving early in the morning.

(End of this chapter)