What do you want in life

Chapter 59 Don't Want to Lose Your Smile (10)
A few days later in the evening, Shen Juncheng accompanied his mother for a walk in the community. In the evening of early spring, the sun set early, but fortunately there was no wind. Smelling the cool air in the lush forest felt extraordinarily fresh.

The doctor told them to ask Wu Qiuyue to take a walk outside more often to get some fresh air. Moreover, it is best to be accompanied by family members. Caring only ends in depression.

Shen Nanzhang and his son kept these instructions in mind. No matter how busy they are, there will always be one of them who will go home early to accompany Wu Qiuyue.

Wu Qiuyue was weak and wanted to find a place to sit and rest after walking a few steps. Shen Juncheng helped her to sit on the bench by the tennis court to rest for a while.

"Xiaocheng, are you 31 this year?" Qiuyue asked him leisurely.

"According to your calculation, it should be 31." Shen Juncheng replied with a smile, Wu Qiuyue always calculates her age according to her false years.

"Yiyun is one year younger than you, right?" Qiuyue pondered, "He's finally married...how about you?"

Shen Juncheng still just smiled, "This kind of thing can only be done slowly, there is no need to rush it."

Ever since Wu Qiuyue asked his age, Shen Juncheng vaguely realized what she wanted to say.

Regarding his lifelong events, Wu Qiuyue has always been the most important issue. Even if her physical condition is so poor, as long as she has information about this, she will be keen to inquire about it, and recommend suitable candidates to Shen Juncheng several times.

Shen Juncheng couldn't bear to brush her off, so he went to see her every time perfunctorily, but there was always a reason to refuse afterwards, which made Wu Qiuyue always very disappointed.

She also suspected that Shen Juncheng might still be thinking about that girl named Han Xiaoying. The son she raised knows best that Shen Juncheng doesn't seem to care about anything, but in fact he is very affectionate. Then after he ran away from home back then, it was impossible for him to be persuaded by Shen Nanzhang to come back and confess his mistakes before her bed.

But everything has two sides. He can succumb to his kindness in nurturing him, and of course he won't forget a relationship so easily.He is kind, filial, and stubborn at the same time. Wu Qiuyue has no good plan for this.

"But I'm in a hurry! Mom has nothing else to look forward to. She just wants to see you get married and start a business before she leaves." Qiuyue sighed, "Your dad said you work hard and don't need him to worry about it, so I'm going to start a business with you." I'm not worried about you at all."

After a brief pause, she quietly continued, "Xiaocheng, you may not want to hear some words, but I still want to tell you, I'm afraid my days are numbered."

"mom--"

"In the past two years, you have played crazy outside. I heard many people mention it. I haven't said anything to your father. You are young, so it's understandable to be playful, but you should always take care of yourself. Don’t you want to give up the family? You have to give Mom some hope. I, oh, I’m really afraid that I won’t be able to wait for that day.”

"Mom, don't talk nonsense, your days are still long!" Shen Juncheng held his mother's hand tightly, "My father and I will not let you leave early."

"Fate is hard to break. I know how my own body is." After this serious illness, Wu Qiuyue has seen many things, "Actually, there is nothing in this world worth worrying about, except you and your father. .”

She also took Shen Juncheng's hand back, staring at him kindly and intently, "Xiao Cheng, can you tell me the truth?"

"What?" Shen Juncheng smiled puzzled, "Just ask, Mom."

"Do you... hate your mother?" Wu Qiuyue's eyes were firmly fixed on her son's face. This was a question she had buried in her heart for a long time but could not answer, but she was really unwilling to bring this mystery into the coffin. .

Shen Juncheng laughed, "How could it be, Mom, you are overthinking."

Wu Qiuyue sighed secretly, "Even if you don't hate me, you must be blaming me. Back then I insisted not to let you be with Han Xiaoying."

Shen Juncheng lowered his head speechlessly.

"Do you know why I don't like her?"

"..."

"I'm scared." Wu Qiuyue turned her eyes away from Shen Juncheng's face, "She is very similar to your biological mother, she has a quiet personality, but there is a power in her bones that scares me. They all want to Take you away from me."

The smile on Shen Juncheng's face gradually disappeared, and he heard a trace of trembling in Wu Qiuyue's voice.

"Xiaocheng, you don't know the expression on your mother's face when she begged me to return you to her when she came to me, as if I took her life away. Even if she didn't speak, those eyes I can also express it for her, I am really afraid to see her...It was your father who came forward to dispel her idea of ​​getting you back."

Shen Juncheng lowered his head and remained silent for a long time.Wu Qiuyue noticed it, she glanced at him, with an apologetic smile on her face, "Forgive me for saying that about your biological mother, now that I think about it, she is actually quite pitiful, if it were me , probably... I will be like her too." She really imagined for herself, feeling a pain in her heart, she smiled wryly and shook her head.

"People are selfish. At that time, I only thought about my own misfortune. How could I think about others!" Her thin fingers rubbed the back of Shen Juncheng's hand a few times. That pain, so I have never been able to get rid of it, and I have never trusted others, I feel like I am always competing with others for you, your biological mother, even your father, and... Han Xiaoying."

"When I saw her at your grandma's house for the first time, I felt a certain threat. Before that, Aunt Wang, who took care of your grandma, also made insinuations to me, and what she looked like made me wonder Can you not suspect her motives? She is just a little girl from an ordinary background, but she wants to hold you back with her appearance, of course I will not tolerate such a thing happening! So I..."

"Mom!" Shen Juncheng called her with restraint, "It's all over, don't mention it again." He didn't want to hear any words that slandered Xiaoying from his mother, for him, it was a kind of viciousness torture.

Wu Qiuyue looked at him deliberately avoiding her expression, and couldn't help laughing bitterly, "Up to now, you really still think about her."

Shen Juncheng took a deep breath, let go of his mother's hand, his eyes looking into the distance faintly showed irritability.

As the twilight deepened, he adjusted his breathing and calmly said to Wu Qiuyue again: "Mom, it's getting late, let's go back."

"No, I still haven't finished talking." Wu Qiuyue pushed away his outstretched arm, with a persistent expression.

Shen Juncheng was taken aback for a moment, and could only sit down again, but he no longer met her gaze.

"Xiaocheng, do you still like her now?" Wu Qiuyue's question really returned to Han Xiaoying.

Shen Juncheng just kept silent. He didn't want to make his mother unhappy, nor did he want to tell lies against his will. In this case, silence is the best answer.

"Because you still like her, you always look down on others, am I right?"

Shen Juncheng couldn't bear it anymore, and turned to look at Wu Qiuyue. The excitement in the latter's eyes had long since faded, replaced by tranquility and peace. Such eyes were hard to see in Wu Qiuyue's eyes before.

"Mom, what exactly do you want to say?" Shen Juncheng was a little helpless.

"What I mean is...if you really like that girl...go find her." Wu Qiuyue said these words slowly, and at the same time, a knot in her heart seemed to loosen in an instant , she felt relieved that this grievance was finally resolved by herself.

In any case, she believed that Shen Juncheng would be grateful to herself for this, although she needed more than his gratitude.

After calming down, Wu Qiuyue did not have no regrets for her aggressive actions in the past years, but people are often like this, and they will never bow their heads to admit their mistakes until the last step, and her character is even stronger. Now, even if she earns a living, she may not necessarily admit defeat.

Only now, when the dust has settled, and she has become indifferent to everything in the world because of the lingering illness, can the heart of forgiveness and compassion get rid of the shackles of pride and stubbornness, and return to its true nature.

As for Han Xiaoying, she also did her own ideological work for a long time before she was gradually willing to accept the girl she didn't like very much.

Because she also just realized that to truly love her son is not only to open up a so-called sunny road for him, but also to take into account his feelings at certain times to make him truly happy and satisfied.

If Han Xiaoying could indeed bring him happiness, why would she stop them from getting close to each other?

She waited for a long time, but Shen Juncheng did not make a sound of surprise or gratitude as she expected. His silence made Wu Qiuyue feel terrible.

Shen Juncheng lowered his head and buried his face in his palm. Wu Qiuyue couldn't see the expression on his face, but could only feel that his whole body was trembling slightly. She put her arm on his shoulder uneasily.

"Xiaocheng, what's wrong with you? You... don't want to?"

"It's too late, Mom." He still didn't raise his head, and the dull voice flowed out intermittently from between his fingers, "She...was...married a long time ago."

In the clean and clear evening sky, as if a thunderbolt had passed by, Wu Qiuyue's hand on Shen Juncheng's shoulder dropped feebly, and she closed her eyes forcefully.

Good fortune tricks people, people in the past can't be chased, the heart can't be at ease now, the future can't be known, and all living beings are suffering.

At this moment, she truly felt Shen Juncheng's pain.

At one o'clock in the afternoon, Fan Zhijun's secretary informed the project team members to come to his office for a meeting.Xiaoying happened to be with Xiao Jiang, and on the way to Fan Zhijun's office together, Xiao Jiang grumbled, "I don't know what to say, there are too many people staring at this piece of fat right now, I don't want to Make wedding clothes for others."

After entering the office, Xiaoying found that Fan Zhijun looked normal, and he assigned tasks one by one according to the new project schedule that he sent to everyone in the morning.

Although he was skeptical, Xiaoying's personality made it impossible for him to say much about it, while Wang Kai had no plans for the city, so he did as the leader said.Only Xiao Jiang, who harbored dissatisfaction in his heart, kept silent when seeing everyone, which made him uncomfortable.

After one topic was finished and before the next topic could be picked up, Xiao Jiang couldn't hold back, "Mr. Fan, I have a question that I want to clarify first."

"Tell me." Fan Zhijun stopped what he was doing and looked at him with a pleasing expression.

Xiao Jiang scratched his scalp, "Who will decide on this project? Don't let us make it so hot now, but in the end it will be a waste of time to shave your head, what can you say!"

When Wang Kai heard him questioning the project so openly, he frowned and wanted to stop him from continuing. Even Xiaoying felt embarrassed for Fan Zhijun, who clearly doubted his status in this project.

The stiff look on Fan Zhijun's face flashed past, so quickly that several subordinates didn't have time to see it clearly, he quickly smiled and said: "Who told you that your work would be in vain? Aren't all the people here here are the main managers of this project?" person?"

"Then..." Xiao Jiang still hesitated, "At the end of the quarter assessment, can we count the results obtained in this project on our own? No one will jump out and grab us?"

Fan Zhijun laughed loudly, pointed at Xiaojiang with the pen in his hand, and teased: "Your abacus is really shrewd! Is it true that you are not going to work hard when I say it is not certain?"

"Of course you can't say that, but..." Xiao Jiang was sincere, scratching his scalp and trying to pick out the most important words.

"You can rest assured!" Fan Zhijun waved the pen in his hand, wanting to give his team a reassurance, "Mr. Qiao talked to me this morning, and he told me with certainty that the Shen project was brought in by us." , will be unswervingly pressed on our heads. It is progressing smoothly, but after all, it has not yet reached the final conclusion! As long as we can win the bid, let alone the end-of-quarter assessment, Mr. Qiao also promised to give you extra rewards! In short We will not let our efforts be in vain!"

Only then did Xiao Jiang heave a sigh of relief, "President Fan, I'm relieved to hear you say that, yes! We all listen to you, whether you want us to go to the mountain of swords or the sea of ​​fire, I will do it!"

Wang Kai interjected: "Yes, Mr. Fan, Ms. Xiao from Shen's called us this morning to ask us for information on some special products. I heard that there are no less than five companies that have been in constant contact with Shen's, and there are several of them. It's because Shen heard the news before coming to H City and started to act in advance, but the progress seems not as fast as Ke Lan's. We should be regarded as catching up from behind, I think our chances of winning are great!"

"Well, Ms. Xiao is a character. Once she decides to do something, the rhythm is so real that I can't keep up with it." Xiao Jiang was very impressed with Xiao Yuxin, probably because she was rejected too many times before, and the sudden turn of events made her a little flattered. I can't digest it.

"There is a reason why they are so anxious." Fan Zhijun said, "Shen is preparing a program interview recently. They want to create momentum before the opening of the bid. Of course, this is also a good thing for Ke Lan. It is equal to a free live advertisement. You must To cooperate with them, follow closely."

"President Fan, when will they open the bid?" Xiaoying asked.

"The specific time has not been announced yet, but I guess it will be this month." Fan Zhijun said, looking at each of the subordinates present one by one, "Anything else is false, the key is to see if we can put it in the end." Take it down!"

While talking excitedly, Xiaoying's cell phone kept vibrating in her pocket. She took it out and glanced at it. It was a call from the kindergarten. Her heart tightened, she hurriedly got up and said hello to Fan Zhijun, and went outside to answer the call. .

The call was from Mr. Qin, Xiaozhi's class teacher, and the voice was very rude, "Is it Li Zhi's mother? Li Zhi got into trouble in the kindergarten! He grabbed toys from the children, and if he couldn't grab them, he used a small shovel for playing with sand Smash someone's face and scratch the faces of other children!"

Xiaoying was terrified when she heard it, she couldn't believe her ears, "You mean Li Zhi hit someone? He's not that courageous, how could he..."

"Oh, stop arguing with me. Come here quickly. The parents of the child who was scratched by him will be here soon. You can handle this matter yourself!"

By now, Xiaoying could no longer care about her attitude with the teacher, she returned to Fan Zhijun's office with a pale face, and asked him for leave with great regret.

"What's going on?" Fan Zhijun was surprised, she rarely asked for leave at this hour.

Xiaoying had no choice but to briefly explain the whole story to him, while Xiao Jiang and Wang Kai listened with frowns.

Fan Zhijun immediately expressed his understanding, "Then hurry up, I still have a few things I want to talk to you about, and we can talk about it tomorrow."

Xiaoying hurried to the kindergarten, and as soon as she arrived at the door of the classroom, she saw Xiaozhi standing by the wall with her head held down by Teacher Qin. Opposite Xiaozhi was a fat boy who was half a head taller than him. At this time, his mother He was squatting in front of him, painstakingly inspecting his son's injuries carefully, and kept making tsk-tsk sounds.

There were only two adults and two children in the empty classroom, and the other children were all taken to take a nap.

"I've asked the school doctor to sterilize his wound. The school doctor said that the child's strength is weak, and he just hurt a little flesh, so there shouldn't be any major problems." Teacher Qin explained in a soft voice, and she caught sight of Sao Mei from the corner of her eye. He aimed at Li Zhi, but he didn't get angry, "Li Zhi, this kid just has no sense, and he doesn't know how the adults at home usually teach him!"

"Teacher Qin." Xiaoying stepped in.

Teacher Qin turned to look at her, the anger in her eyes had not dissipated, she raised her hand and pointed at the fat boy, "Look at what Li Zhi has done! If he moves his hand a little bit, he will blind him , who will take the responsibility then?"

The teacher's words were harsh, but Xiaoying couldn't explain it. She hurriedly moved to the side of the fat boy's mother with a nervous expression on her face, and inspected his injuries together. Apart from the obvious bleeding scratch, there was also a small piece of blood. The skin tissue festered, probably because it was hit by the sharp tip of a sand shovel. Fortunately, the area was not large, only about the size of a soybean, and it had already been sprayed with disinfectant. The large red patch was particularly eye-catching on the chubby face. , she had to apologize to the other mother repeatedly.

"Do you want to go to the hospital? I'll go with you, and I'll pay for the medical expenses."

The fat boy's mother was quite kind, and she sighed forbearance and said, "Since the school doctor said it was all right, there is no need to go to the hospital. It is common for children to fight, but your son seems to have a bit of a temper. He is only three years old. Why are you so ruthless? You are his mother, so you have to discipline him!"

Xiaoying felt ashamed, "I will, I'm really embarrassed today!"

After the fat boy's mother led her son away, Teacher Qin was still angry and dragged Xiaoying to a corner of the corridor to continue to complain.

"I might as well tell you the truth, I really can't control this kid Li Zhi. Other children always sit in their seats obediently in class, but he is fine. He comes down and walks around the classroom by himself, and disturbs other children's class. He ignores what the teacher said to him. Today’s children are the treasures of their parents. As teachers, we can’t hit or scold. What do you tell us to do? That’s fine, he doesn’t It's time to fight with someone. Look at the kid, he's taller and stronger than him, but you Li Zhi is really desperate to fight. Today's luck is not hurting the vital parts, but in the future What about it? You can’t just throw your child to the kindergarten and leave it alone, your parents are also responsible for the child’s education, don’t you think, Mother Li Zhi?”

Xiaoying was speechless, and had no choice but to listen to the teacher's teachings with an open mind.She glanced at the absent-minded son standing in the corner of the classroom, with an indifferent expression on his face, not knowing what he was thinking, Xiaoying felt that he was annoying and pitiful.

And Teacher Qin's chattering words in front of her also made Xiaoying upset and worried - the teacher was already quite rude to Xiaozhi in front of her, what if she wasn't there?
"Teacher Qin, why don't I think so..." Xiaoying interrupted Teacher Qin only after she made a lot of determination, "Li Zhi won't come to class for the time being this week, I will teach him well at home .”

(End of this chapter)