What do you want in life

Chapter 69 Don't Want to Lose Your Smile (20)
Of course he understood that Xiaoying was changing ways to drive him away, but he was very sure, sitting on the edge of the bed, facing her, and continued to smile and say, "In fact, it is best to be the general manager, and let others do the specific affairs." Yes, I just need to approve and sign the documents every day! It’s something that I can do alone!”

Xiaoying burst out laughing, how could she not know that he was joking.

Time moved forward silently, and what settled down was Xiaoying's unbearable past. She didn't want to be silent with him, as if she might be dragged back by memories at any time.

"I didn't resign from Ke Lan because of Fan Zhijun." She took the initiative to bring up the interrupted remarks before, and turned her eyes to Xiao Zhi who was sleeping soundly, "If Li Zhen and I both go out to do errands, no one will take care of the children. Always entrusting others to others is not good for his growth, so..." She lowered her head and smiled, feeling a little helpless, "Maybe I am really only suitable to be a housewife."

Shen Juncheng was silent for a long time before asking: "What are your plans in the future? You can't be bored at home forever, can you?"

"I haven't thought about it that much, let's wait until Xiaozhi grows up." Her tone was completely hopeless.

Shen Juncheng pursed his lips forcefully, "I will be stationed in City H in recent years, if you have any ideas in the future, you might as well..."

"No," Xiaoying was most afraid of hearing him mention this, she turned her head and glanced at Shen Juncheng's eyes staring at her, but she didn't dare to pay more attention, "You have helped me a lot, I can't always bother you."

The key words had already flowed to her lips, but she swallowed them back forcefully, how could she make such a request in front of Shen Juncheng's focused and sincere eyes, what right and position did she have to ask him!

"I know you don't want me to appear in your life." Shen Juncheng seemed to read her subtext, and he stopped looking at her, "I have no other intentions, I just want to exist as a friend of yours, that's not okay Is it?"

Xiaoying lowered her head in embarrassment.

"Well, we've known each other since we were students." Shen Juncheng tried to smile, pretending to be relaxed and said, "Now that we happen to be in the same city, even if we meet occasionally to say hello like ordinary friends, it won't matter." Is it too much?"

What he said was impeccable, but Xiaoying knew it was not the case, and he had put a lot of thought into her, but at this moment he dismissed it lightly, and she really didn't know how to respond.

What she couldn't tell him was that her biggest scruple was Li Zhen, and his suspicion was so heavy that even if what Shen Juncheng said just now was the truth from the bottom of his heart, as long as there was a little bit of sympathy between them Contact, Li Zhen will not be at peace.

While she was still thinking wildly, Shen Juncheng intentionally or unintentionally brought up the interesting things that happened to the two of them when they were teenagers, such as when he ate beans in a hurry and got slapped by her, little by little, unexpectedly, he still remembered them all.

That was the happiest time in Xiaoying's life. Even if it was as short as a meteor flashing across the sky, it was enough to make her feel warm and smile the most genuinely when she recalled it.

That was also a good memory shared by her and Shen Juncheng. No matter who it was or what details were mentioned, there was no need to repeat it, it was easy to understand.

However, amidst a series of slightly knowing laughter, Xiaoying realized very clearly that the more things remained in the memory, the greater the threat to reality.

The request she rejected just now swam back like a floating ball on the water.Her mind was wandering, looking for an opportunity to speak.

And the atmosphere was so warm and harmonious, Shen Juncheng had a long-lost innocent smile on his face, and no one around him must have had the chance to see such a smile.

Xiaoying was in a trance under such a smiling face. She didn't have the courage to destroy the gentle atmosphere in front of her eyes, and she didn't even have the courage to erase the innocent smile on his cheek that maybe even he didn't know it.

The sun turned golden unknowingly, Xiaozhi woke up from the dream, got up suddenly, and looked in the ward, only his mother was there.

"Where's Uncle?" Xiaozhi asked ignorantly.

"He left beforehand."

In fact, Shen Juncheng was "chased away" by Xiaoying in a disguised form. When she mentioned in a bit of embarrassment, "Li Zhen might leave work early and come to the hospital", within 5 minutes, Shen Juncheng got up and said goodbye.

There seemed to be nothing wrong with his expression, but Xiaoying still felt very awkward. She didn't like the feeling of being entangled between two men. The words that were always difficult to say became more determined after Shen Juncheng left.

"Then will he come tomorrow?" Xiaozhi stared at his mother expectantly.

Xiaoying couldn't bear to destroy his hope, "Not necessarily."

She wasn't lying either, because she could almost predict that Shen Juncheng would definitely come back tomorrow.

"Xiaozhi," Xiaoying sat down beside her son's bed, with a trace of embarrassment in her voice, she asked in a low voice, "When I see daddy later, don't talk about uncle's visit, okay?"

"Why?" Xiaozhi asked her curiously with his big eyes blinking.

"Uh," Xiaoying bit her lips, but she was determined not to teach her son to lie, "Anyway, if you mention it, uncle will definitely not come to see you again."

Xiaozhi asked several times in a row, Xiaoying only said the result and did not mention the reason, Xiaozhi frowned in embarrassment and thought about it for a while, finally, the desire to see his uncle overwhelmed everything, and he agreed to his mother's "inexplicable" request.

Xiaozhi stayed in the hospital for five days in a row. Xiaoying naturally took care of him during the day. Li Zhen would come directly after get off work and stay until late at night. Once he came, Xiaoying could free up her hands to do other things.

After eleven o'clock in the evening, Li Zhen usually leaves first because he has to go to work the next day.He felt sorry for Xiaoying, and once insisted on staying to accompany his son for one night, but the next day he was out of spirits and had a bad complexion. After that, Xiaoying insisted on not letting him accompany him anymore.

During Xiaozhi's hospitalization, except for the fact that Shen Juncheng didn't come over on the second day, he could see this amiable uncle almost every day for the remaining four days.

Sometimes when Shen Juncheng goes late, Xiaozhi still misses him, which makes Xiaoying feel quite emotional. It is really worthwhile to invest in children, because the rewards are immediate.

What surprised Xiaoying even more was that Xiaozhi would still flirt with Shen Juncheng - he had never been so intimate with Li Zhen before!
Whenever Li Zhen and Xiaozhi were alone, Xiaoying would inevitably be distracted, worried that Xiaozhi would accidentally tell about Shen Juncheng, but fortunately Xiaozhi remembered her advice and never brought it up, and Li Zhen did not have the slightest suspicion.

Sometimes she also thought that instead of being so wary and wary, she might as well explain to Li Zhen frankly, but when she thought about his uncertain face, she felt that it would be better to save one thing, since the two of them would never meet anyway.

The night before he was discharged from the hospital, Li Zhen asked Xiaoying, "Do you want me to pick you up tomorrow?"

"Whatever you want, see if you can arrange it."

Li Zhen went through the plan for the next day in his mind, "There are not too many things to do in the morning, but there is a more important meeting, how long will it be delayed?"

Xiaoying said indifferently: "Forget it, Xiaozhi and I can take a taxi back, since we don't have many things anyway."

Li Zhen glanced at the large and small items on the cabinet and at the end of the bed with a smile, "Not many, Xiaozhi lives in a hospital, and you are going to decorate the ward as a children's room for him."

Xiaoying couldn't speak, so she could only smile dryly.

"Then I won't come here." Li Zhen finally decided, "I don't know when the meeting will end, lest you wait for me—I can only work hard for you." He put his hands on Xiaoying's shoulders.

Xiaoying turned her back to him, looked at her sleeping son, and grinned silently.

The next morning, while Xiaoying was still feeding Xiaozhi breakfast, Shen Juncheng came in. He had learned from the doctor that Xiaozhi could be discharged from the hospital today.

"I have arranged everything in my hand, and I will take you home in a while."

Xiaoying didn't refuse, "Alright then, let's go out for lunch together, I... have something to tell you."

Shen Juncheng glanced at her in surprise, Xiaoying's face was calm, and he couldn't see anything unusual, so he smiled and said, "Okay! It's rare for you to treat me."

For the rest of the time, Shen Juncheng was in charge of accompanying Xiaozhi in the ward, while Xiaoying went through the discharge procedures.

Coming out of the ward, she was not at all in a good mood - because of the upcoming lunch and what she had to say during the meal.

But she had to do this again, and she didn't want to procrastinate indefinitely day by day.

However, what made her uncomfortable was not just the unreasonable request she made, but she was almost sure that as long as she insisted, Shen Juncheng would agree in all likelihood.

Standing on her own ground, she constantly challenged his bottom line, pushing him further and further away from her, but she had to do so.

After all the formalities were completed, it was almost noon.Shen Juncheng hugged Xiaozhi, while Xiaoying carried Xiaozhi's daily necessities and toys in both hands. When she went out, she happened to meet a mother and daughter who lived in the next room at about the same time as Xiaozhi. The girl was a few years older than Xiaozhi. , who often came to visit Xiaozhi's ward, Xiaoying said goodbye to them by the way.

The little girl stared curiously at the backs of these three people, and whispered to her mother, "Mom, isn't that uncle the little brother's father?"

"No."

"Look at the truth."

"Don't talk nonsense, be careful people hear..."

After waiting at the elevator entrance for a long time, the elevator kept going slowly, but there were more and more people waiting for the elevator. Seeing that Shen Juncheng was holding Xiaozhi all the time, Xiaoying felt a little sorry, and said, "Why don't you take the stairs, anyway, it's only four Floors."

Shen Juncheng smiled and said: "That's right, you must take the elevator when you go out, it's really the fixed thinking of modern people!"

The staircase is located in the center of the building, with a wide view and many pedestrians.

Shen Juncheng walked in front with Xiaozhi in his arms, walked to the platform of the corner stairs on the first floor, and met Li Zhen who was walking up in a hurry.

Shen Juncheng's feet sluggish in an instant, Xiaoying followed closely, and when she noticed his strangeness, she glanced forward and her face immediately turned pale.

"Father!" Only Xiaozhi shouted joyfully.

The stiffness on Li Chen's face flashed away, and he slowly approached with a calm smile, "Boss Shen, I'm so excited today!"

Shen Juncheng was a little embarrassed, and smiled covertly, "I called Xiaoying and learned that Xiaozhi was hospitalized, so I stopped by to have a look."

"Oh? You have something to do with her?" Li Zhen said, taking Xiao Zhi from his hand without showing any signs of expression.

Shen Juncheng quickly regained his composure, "Yes! I want to find her...ask about Ke Lan's situation."

"She resigned a long time ago." Li Zhen said, looking at Xiaoying, the familiar anxiety appeared on her face again.

"I just knew." Shen Juncheng answered with a dry cough.

"I called you, why didn't you answer?" Li Zhen ignored him, turned to look at Xiaoying, and asked a little coldly.

Xiaoying showed a surprised expression, and quickly put down the sundries in her hand to look in her handbag, then frowned, "My phone is missing." She turned back hastily, "It may have been left in the ward, I will look for it."

"Don't look for it!" Li Zhen called her, "It's better to lose it, I'll buy you a new one."

Xiaoying glanced at Shen Juncheng quickly. He stood sideways, giving way to passers-by from time to time, as if he didn't pay attention to her conversation with Li Zhen.

"I'll come as soon as I go, you wait for me at the gate." Xiaoying told Li Zhen like a murmur, and ran upstairs.

There was no one in the ward, and the cleaning staff probably hadn't had time to deal with the hygiene. Xiaoying searched carefully around the two beds, and finally found the pink mobile phone in the crack of the bed she was sleeping on.

When she ran to the entrance of the hospital, she only saw Li Zhen waiting outside the glass door with Xiaozhi in his arms, and Shen Juncheng had disappeared.

"He... left?" Xiaoying bit the bullet and asked Li Zhen.

"Yeah." Li Zhen snorted lightly, without explaining, walked straight ahead, and headed for the parking lot.

After getting in the car, as Xiaoying expected, Li Zhen didn't take the initiative to speak, and the questions to her were simple and simple.Knowing that he cared about Shen Juncheng, Xiaoying secretly sighed, "Shen Juncheng also happened to send us off by the way..."

He just started, but was stopped by Li Zhen, "We'll talk about it when we go home."

Xiaoying could only remain silent.

Xiaozhi couldn't sit still, and whispered to his mother worriedly, "Uncle said he would take me to the amusement park tomorrow, will he come to see us tomorrow?"

Xiaoying was a little nervous, and stroked his head, "Uncle is joking with you! Mom will take you tomorrow, okay?"

"Uncle never lied to me!" Xiaozhi's face was serious, "He said that day that he would give me an Ultraman, and then he really did!"

Xiaoying couldn't cover her mouth in time, and quickly glanced at the back of Li Zhen's stiff head, feeling powerless, knowing that today's test will be extremely sad, but such things are really easy for Li Zhen to misunderstand, and he also has reasons own anger.

The days when she had finally calmed down seemed to be in jeopardy, and Xiaoying was troubled thinking about how to convince Li Zhen to believe in herself.

She turned her gaze out of the window, and originally planned to settle this matter with Shen Juncheng at the dinner table, but now it seemed impossible again.

Anything, if you procrastinate when you should do it, you will have endless troubles.

When she got home, Xiaoying was busy cooking for Xiaozhi. Seeing that Li Zhen didn't intend to leave immediately, she asked, "I'm going to cook the noodles. Do you want to eat some before going back to the company?"

Li Zhen snorted out of his nose, "I'm not hungry, you take care of Xiaozhi first." He took the briefcase with the laptop into the study, and closed the door casually.

Xiaoying bit her lip and said nothing, first made some food for Xiaozhi, coaxed him to feed him, placed him on the jigsaw puzzle rug in the living room, then hurried back to the kitchen and ordered two bowls of noodles , One bowl for Li Zhen and one bowl for myself.

She stopped and knocked at the door of the study room, but there was no response from inside, so Xiaoying pressed the handle and opened the door, and a choking smell of smoke came over her face immediately.

Li Chen was sitting at the desk by the window and was puffing, the window was not open at all, and the briefcase was casually thrown on the single bed against the wall.

"Let's eat." Xiaoying said softly, "Should I go back to the company after dinner?"

"Not hungry." Li Zhen's voice was hoarse.

"Eat a little even if you're not hungry, or you'll get a stomachache."

"I do not want to eat!"

Xiaoying withdrew and sat on the sofa blankly. If he didn't come out to eat, she also lost her appetite.

Xiaozhi raised his head to look at his mother, then glanced at the open study door, the smell of smoke rushed into the living room along the huge gap.

"Mom." He called his mother a little nervously.

With a pale face, Xiaoying smiled at him in relief, but didn't speak.

Xiaozhi lowered his head and played with the Ultraman in his hand again. Today's atmosphere is unusual, and he has already noticed it.

After a while, Xiaoying regained her spirits and stepped into the study again with the bowl of noodles in her hand. She didn't want to continue the cold war, so it would be best if she had something to say.

Li Zhen stopped smoking, but his blue-gray face was tense. When he heard Xiaoying approaching, he ignored him and just sat there blindly.

"If you don't eat any more, you'll be dry." Xiaoying said nicely, and put the bowl on the table in front of him. She sat down in the chair beside him, and subconsciously glanced at the door. Slightly closed, she didn't want Xiaozhi to hear the two quarreling.

"Shen Juncheng did come to the hospital to see the child a few times," she cleared her throat, and explained straight to the point, "I didn't tell you because I was worried that you were thinking too much... At noon today, I wanted to treat him to a meal, by the way Make it clear, he and I...we can't get too close after all...I hope this is the last meeting between me and him. "

Shen Juncheng stared at her eyes in pain in the office, her eyes suddenly flashed past her, her heart felt as if a knife had been drawn across it, she felt a sharp pain, she hurriedly cut off that fatal memory, and ordered herself to return to reality.

Li Zhen turned around slowly, and glanced at her coldly, "You think I'm as old as Xiaozhi? I can obediently believe you just say a few words?"

Xiaoying's heart sank, and she realized that her explanations were just stones thrown at the lake, and they had no effect. Sometimes, changing a person's mind is indeed harder than reaching the sky.

"I didn't lie to you, I will make it clear to him, in the future we..."

Li Zhen swept the bowl of noodles to the floor with a "crash". The sound of the porcelain bowl breaking and the steaming noodles broke the string that was getting tighter and tighter between the two.

"Han Xiaoying, stop making excuses!" He stood up abruptly, looking down at Xiaoying condescendingly, "We have been together for three years, but I find that I don't understand you less and less!"

He slowly approached her, with confusion and resentment really piling up in his eyes, "What kind of woman are you? Is your lovely and pitiful expression really yourself?"

He pinched Xiaoying's chin with his hand, and there was fascination and disgust in his eyes, but his tone was aggressive, "You meet him again and again, and you treat me as a fool again and again! You think I will fall for your trick again Is it? You are really a... watery woman!"

The last few words he uttered made Xiaoying shocked and angry, and at the same time fell into deep despair, "Why do you say that about me? I didn't apologize to you!"

"I know you didn't have sex with him!" Li Zhen gritted his teeth, "But I want to tell you, don't think it's cheating if you haven't slept with him! Do you two flirt with each other and think I can't see? I just find it strange that he Why do you, a married woman, always miss you, a married woman? Is it because you knew each other before? Or because you had a good time? If you didn’t take the initiative to hook up, would he still remember you? Huh? "

His hand pushed her chin to the side heavily, and Xiaoying lay down on the edge of the bed next to the chair. When she got up, she lost the desire to make peace in her eyes, and smiled coldly, "Li Zhen, I finally I know, so that’s how you see me. You say you don’t know me, but how can I know you! Is that gentle and polite Li Zhen really you? Is it true that Li Zhen who ran all the way to G county to find me? What about you?"

Li Zhen's face changed drastically, "You—" He instinctively raised his right hand high in the air, as if he wanted to slap Xiaoying.

Xiaoying smiled sadly, "And now you, who use violence and are suspicious all the time, I don't know which you are the real one!"

The palm was slumped and frustrated in the air.

"I never said how perfect I am, and I don't ask how perfect you are." Xiaoying's nose turned sore instantly, "I just hope that there is more trust between you and me, and we can live a good life Go down... raise Xiaozhi up..."

(End of this chapter)