God is here

Chapter 384 I Don't Hate Him
Originally he was lonely, but because of her company, he also became active and happy in those days.

She was his friend, and even if he and her ended up on opposite sides, he never thought of fighting her to the death.

True love is a luxury for him, he only has such a trace of warmth in his life, how can he want to destroy her reason.

He was absent-minded for a while, and finally turned his face away, and said: "Don't think of me so innocently, there was a purpose for me to approach you at that time."

"What does it matter if you have a purpose?" Mu Jiu smiled, "I really needed someone to rescue me at the time. And you appeared." She said, looking at him again: "I'm not that stupid, if you have both The purpose is to plot against me, and I will not get so close to you. Do you know what I think is the most rare trait in you?"

He frowns silently.

"Your frankness and persistence." Mu Jiudao, "I have a simple mind, and I don't like intrigue, nor do I like to make calculations, so your frankness and non-concealment make me feel very relaxed to make friends with you. If I want to Beware of people, it's not that you can't, it's just that you are too tired. I'm not that stupid, if you approach me just to calculate and rob me of any benefits, I won't give you a chance. "

After all, she is an immortal cultivator, and the greatest benefit of becoming an immortal is that she can live freely.

She doesn't have to be locked in a certain circle, subject to certain rules to complete her daily life.

So beware, you have to be careful, and it's not impossible to spend a little thought, but you just think it's not worth the effort.

Lin Jianru was silent for a while, then suddenly raised his eyes to look ahead, and said mockingly: "After you say that, I don't seem to be at the point where everyone can kill me."

"What do you think?" Mu Jiu sipped the wine, and gave him a piece of crystal cake.

"I think?" Lin Jianru snorted, raised his glass and drank the wine, holding the wine glass in his hand, and said quietly: "I don't know how to evaluate my life. Regarding the grievances between me and Mingyuan, what is said It's already too much. I don't regret it, I just hate it. If I could control my own destiny, I would not choose to be Lin Xie's son in the first place.

"I hate him the most. All the evils are caused by him. Compared to him, I don't have such feelings for Ji Minjun's mother and daughter. Because they are not my parents, and my birth is not caused by them either. Only Lin Xie. As my biological father, he can completely decide what path I will take in the future and what kind of situation I will face.

"It's because he doesn't care about me at all, that's why everyone treats me like a dog.

"Although I haven't read many books, I understand many truths. I understand what kind of life I want. Lin Xie can't give it to me. I think I can create it myself. So I gritted my teeth and won the chance to come to Heaven ...I want to seek an opportunity to get rid of them completely. I don't think I can afford to provoke them, but I can hide.

"Facts have proved that God's will is God's will. No matter how much you want to go in the direction of goodness, you can't avoid this disaster in the end."

He poured himself wine and drank another glass.

Mu Jiu felt guilty, and said, "The man in Tsing Yi's original intention was not to lure you into a demon."

"No." Lin Jianru looked up, "Do you think I blamed the man in Tsing Yi? No."

Mu Jiu was silent.

"I don't hate people in Tsing Yi. I only hate human nature." Lin Jianru looked forward, "If their prejudices were not deeply rooted, they would not persevere in oppressing me. Even if I became a heavenly soldier, they would not think highly of me Half-eyed. What really made me a demon was their distorted human nature. They thought they were superior, but I was humble and inferior.

"From the beginning to the end, all I want is freedom and equality. If they let me go down the mountain after my mother died, and stop raising me for fame, I won't be in the situation I am today. So far. Liang Qiuchan once said that Ming Yuan and Lin Xie had the kindness of nurturing me, so I can't be ungrateful.

"However, what right does she have to say that about me? What right do people in Mingyuan have to pose like a benefactor so domineeringly? I didn't choose to give birth to me. As for me growing up in Mingyuan, the so-called grace of nurturing It's not what I want. They force me to stay here and treat me harshly. It's true that I have food, clothing, and immortality on the mountain. Ordinary people don't have such treatment.

"However, the spiritual damage is deeper than the physical damage. For so many years, all they have done is tirelessly want me to admit that I am inferior and can be ridiculed at will, but I never gave up The most important thing is to fight against them. I always tell myself not to bow my head, not to accept my fate.

"Because once I admit my fate, it's really over.

"You say I'm persistent, yes, it's because I let myself be so persistent. I persistently believe that there is a good side in this world, such as my mother. I don't have many days with her. But if even she If she didn't have a kind heart, she wouldn't have withstood so much pressure to give birth to me.

"When I was young, I often thought that instead of living such a life, it would be better for her to kill me. But after all, I didn't. When I grew up and found that I was still alive, I never thought about it again .I am like a firefly, seeking for a little light persistently, all my forbearance and uselessness are just to finally get what I want.

"When I was invited back to Mingyuan by Huaqing, I really had some bad thoughts. I also want to see those people who used to crawl on my head to abuse me, and finally crawl under my feet like a dog Next. So I followed Huaqing's will and lied that I was Lu Ya's empress. I also knew that this would not last long. But I didn't seem to care.

"I admit, I'm a little crazy in my bones.

"The humiliation they have inflicted on me for many years has distorted my mentality to some extent. But if Ji Minjun didn't want to harm me again, I would not kill her. Ji Minjun's actions are the one that crushed my line of defense straw.

"So, it wasn't the people in Tsing Yi who made me a demon, it was Ming Yuan's gang of hypocrites who made me harm."

He poured the wine himself and sipped it himself.

Mu Jiu withdrew her gaze and took a slow breath.

She did not expect that at this time he still had such a clear mind. He was not born lowly, nor was he born evil. It is not so easy to see the essence of things and have a bright heart.

She recalled his afterlife she saw in the Lingbi.

The small wooden house in the East Kunlun cave and the few vegetable fields in front of the house still floated in front of her eyes. She remembered that when he talked about growing vegetables, he was serious and focused when he erected the fence. , must have done such a thing countless times.

(End of this chapter)