Paper rose

Chapter 62 Smoke, smoke into your eyes (3)
Lin Feng's eyes were red, he sniffed, and looked out the window quietly, "My husband hired a lover outside, and she just gave birth to a son for him. It's just that the lover is a waiter in a restaurant, and his hometown is in the countryside. My mother-in-law dislikes her a little bit." , Said that as long as I give birth to a son, that lover will never be able to get in the door, and the family property will not be divided. At this time, I must give birth to a son to stand firm."

In the inspection room, there was a dead silence.

After a long time, the director sighed, "Using B-ultrasound to check the gender of the fetus is not allowed in the hospital. If you want to check whether the fetus is healthy, I will help you."

"Thank you Director Lu." Lin Feng held the director's hand and smiled broadly.

Liu Jing looked at Lin Feng sympathetically, and didn't accompany her to the B-ultrasound room, but felt that her heart was in a panic, and she wanted to talk to Bai Yan.

Bai Yan's understanding of everything is always unique, and she is also very good at comforting people.

Liu Jing wanted to talk to her about Simple, Li Zehao, and also about Lin Feng.

Liu Jing dialed several times, but Bai Yan's cell phone was still on the phone.

Who is talking on the phone with Bai Yan?Liu Jing closed the phone sullenly.

The weather is bad and the temperature is low. Bai Yan, who looks like a handicapped person, is a little bored in the house. He doesn't want to watch TV, and his hands are inconvenient to do things.After walking back and forth a few times from the kitchen to the bedroom, she felt that she needed to find something to do.

She called Leng Feng first.

Leng Feng was very busy, and it took him a while to answer the phone, "What's the matter, Bai Yan?"

"There are many patients in the morning?"

"Well, today is an outpatient clinic for specialists. There are a lot of calls, and there are three surgeries in the afternoon. It's a very fulfilling day."

"Oh!" Bai Yan was a little uneasy, feeling that the call was not at the right time.

"Are you in trouble?"

"I originally wanted to ask you out for dinner at night. Liu Jing said that there is a new Hunan restaurant nearby, and the fish head with chopped peppers is very good. You go to work, and we will meet again later."

"No, I have time, but wait for me for a while, I'll pick you up." Leng Feng's heart was not as light as his tone, Bai Yan never took the initiative to ask him out, and even rarely took the initiative to call him.

"I'll wait no matter how late it is, cold front, rainy day, slippery road, drive slowly." Bai Yan reminded.

Leng Feng raised his eyes, looked at the people waiting outside the clinic, and said nothing more.

After closing the line, Bai Yan drank a cup of tea, walked into the bedroom, hugged a big cushion, leaned against the back of the bed, and kept himself in a comfortable lying position, and then dialed Leader Kang's mobile phone in a leisurely manner. harass him during office hours.

"Bored again?" Kang Jian laughed before opening his mouth.

This is Bai Yan's fourth phone call today.In the morning Liu Jing put less water in the porridge, the rice didn't taste like rice, and the porridge didn't look like porridge, so she called to complain.The second call said that the winter rain continued for several days, and the clothes on the balcony could not be dried, and there was almost no clothes to change.On the third call, she didn't know what series she was watching. She muttered for a long time, scolding the scriptwriter for nothing, saying that it was poisoning the nerves of the audience, writing such a childish plot.

He is always listening and laughing, he doesn't need to answer, he can be busy with his own business, just make a noise once in a while.

"Leader, I just called Dr. Leng and made an appointment with him to eat dishes from Chairman Mao's hometown." Bai Yan said.

Kang Jian frowned, put down the pen in his hand, and rubbed the sore corners of his eyes, "Is it raining outside?"

"Because of the rain, there are not too many people in the restaurant, and people are more relaxed, so that they can taste the delicious food."

"Oh! Go ahead and call me when you get home after eating."

"Leader, tell me, did you feel a little sour in your heart just now? Oh, of course not. I'm not your wife, I'm an ex-wife. It's her freedom to go out with anyone. You don't need it, and you don't have the qualifications." Jealous."

"You think I'm jealous?" Kang Jian asked calmly.

"I don't want to, but I haven't seen you jealous, so I'm a little curious."

"Bai Yan, I won't be so childish. I believe in you."

"I don't quite believe you." Bai Yan smiled and challenged her, "You promised me to call me in the morning and evening, did you do it?"

Kang Jian sighed, he didn't have this chance.Because she always called before him.

Kang Jian is also restraining himself, don't think too much about Bai Yan.

In the past few days, all kinds of rumors have been raging in the city hall, and the wind and rain are about to come.After the Song Bureau of the Urban Construction Bureau was double-regulated, the director of the bidding office and the bosses of several construction companies were also sacked one by one. Everyone was discussing in private that Kang Jian, who was in charge of urban construction, would be the next one.

Kang Jian, who was in the center of the whirlwind, was still working as usual, and was still rushing to issue orders in all the work areas he was in charge of.

He knows there are a lot of eyes staring at him, so it's all the more about acting normal.Shuanggui things are very weird, and the battle is the mind.If there is no evidence, it will not do.The problem is to be able to hold your breath and not mess up your hands and feet first.

However, Kang Jian knew very well that this was the biggest hurdle he had encountered since he entered politics.Father had just retired to the second line, and without that protective umbrella on his body, the enemy couldn't hold back.

He didn't really care about Kang Yunlin's protection, what he cared about was that Bai Yan was injured at this time, he couldn't stay by her side, he had to restrain his concern.

Bai Yan divorced him, if he had something to do, he couldn't bring Bai Yan in.

"Leader, I'm so bored. It would be great if I could go out shopping at night, hold popcorn and watch a movie together!"

Kang Jian's heart felt sour, he understood Bai Yan's hint, but he couldn't respond.

"After your hands are ready, let Liu Jing accompany you to go shopping and see enough." He said weakly.

"Liu Jing is a cheapskate, always looking at my wallet, asking me to treat me. I want someone to treat me."

He wants to say, don't use "please" between us, I will go shopping with you, buy you good clothes, buy delicious food, watch movies, buy snacks, and buy as much as you want.

He didn't say anything, just laughed a few times.

"Leader, are you still listening?"

"Here I am."

"Actually, I'm just saying, I know the leader is busy with work, and when you're done, you'll accompany me well, right?"

"Hmm!" Kang Jian nodded with a sore nose.

"Leader, for some reason, I miss you a little bit!" Bai Yan exhaled softly, whispering softly.

The night is fading, the lights are just coming on, the cold rain is silent, and it is still falling.

Leng Feng parked the car, took the umbrella, jumped out of the car, ran to the other side, carefully helped Bai Yan down, and the two walked into the Hunan restaurant hand in hand.

The aroma of spicy peppers and the smell of braised pork float in the lobby.

"You have a bad stomach, and I can't take spicy food too much, don't order fish head with chopped pepper!" Leng Feng looked at the menu and asked Bai Yan.

"Okay!" Bai Yan didn't care, and obeyed the wishes of the guest.

The two ordered grilled shrimp, fish-flavored shredded pork, braised crucian carp, jade tofu, and wild vegetable cakes and steamed pumpkin for dessert.

The waitress in charge of ordering food grinned as she wrote, feeling very angry in her heart: These two people are really weird. They came to Hunan restaurant to order a bunch of southern dishes. What are they doing here?

Leng Feng smiled and closed the menu.

"Miss is angry, the special dishes are not recommended, and the commission is gone tonight." Bai Yan watched the young lady's beautiful figure, and said casually.

The restaurant provides the guests with Mongolian tea, which tastes good, and Bai Yan drank two bowls of it.

Leng Feng nodded, "When we go out to eat, sometimes it's not just for the taste, but also for the sake of feeling. In two days, the stitches should be removed!"

Bai Yan untied the gauze, showed it to him, her beautiful eyes were like stars, "Look, I'm doing well! I haven't moved around for the past two days, and the wound has healed well."

"What is there to brag about? If you really perform well, you have to use your brains. Is it worth it to suffer so much for 300 yuan?" Leng Feng looked at her from above his eyes, bringing up the old story again.

Bai Yan twisted his mouth, tied the gauze again, and said, "That's because you don't know me at all, so you said that."

Leng Feng laughed, "Are you complicated?"

"Compared with others, I am very complicated. Leng Feng, do you know that I don't have a father?" Bai Yan blinked and looked at Leng Feng calmly.

Leng Feng was taken aback and didn't answer for a while.

Bai Yan continued: "It's not just that I don't have a father, but I don't know who my father is at all. My mother is a drama actress, and she is considered a famous actress in the province! If you like Yue opera, then you must be familiar with her .”

Leng Feng couldn't help sitting upright, his expression became serious.

"Are you scared?" Bai Yan raised her eyebrows and smiled faintly, "Not many people in the hospital knew about it. Liu Jing also met my mother when I got married. She thought my father died young, but she didn't know about me. It’s my father. I have a hunch that the man who gave me life must still be alive in this world, but I don’t know him, and he may not know my existence. In fact, I don’t have a little bit of him. I have lost my curiosity, and I have no expectations. Listen to me, can you imagine what kind of vision I grew up in?"

Leng Feng didn't smile, it can be said that his brain couldn't turn the corner for a while.He always thought that Bai Yan was the kind of girl from an average family but very spoiled, with a lively, cheerful personality, well-behaved, and sensible.

The waiter brought the plate and brought the food.

"Please take your time, both of you." On a rainy day, there were not many customers, and the dishes were served quickly.

Bai Yan was not surprised by Leng Feng's astonishment, "Tomorrow was the only friend I had when I was young and young, and the only person who really treated me well."

Leng Feng held his breath, then let it out slowly.He now understands a little bit about where the pity and helplessness when he talked about the sister next door tomorrow came from.

Bai Yan specially ordered a bottle of Huadiao, which was boiled with brown sugar and ginger, and the smell was intoxicating.She drank two sips, her small face was shining like a peach blossom under the light.

"He's also someone I cherish all my life." After drinking, Bai Yan summoned up his courage and confessed everything in one breath.For Leng Feng, she should be honest and respectful, "No one can take his place in my heart, but it is impossible for me and him to combine."

Leng Feng took a sip of Hua Diao, feeling as if he had drunk a ball of fire in his heart.The date that Bai Yan proposed on his own initiative was indeed a grand appointment.

He didn't answer, guessing there was something else Bai Yan was talking about behind him.

"We agreed that although we can't be together, we will try our best to live a good life, return the love to each other to the other person who cherishes us, and minimize the regret. You see, I am married and have a girlfriend tomorrow. We Don't let the other party worry. Doctor Leng, are you curious why I chose to marry Kang Jian?"

Leng Feng bumped his heart heavily, he was a little dazed, looked up at Bai Yan, under the light, the pear nest was shining, the still so pretty little girl, the emotion in her eyes floated like water.

Is that what tonight is about?The clever Bai Yan confessed herself in front of him, so that he could see clearly, and also let him know where her heart was leaning!

Can he refuse to know?
"Before I met him, I went on blind dates and met a few nice men, but for some reason, I couldn't feel in love with them, and I had a premonition that they couldn't accept my complicated family background, so I Before it started, I said goodbye. Kang Jian and I are people from two completely different worlds. When he pursued me, I also rejected his status, his birth, and his prominent background, but looking at him , he has a certain temperament, which makes me very familiar and kind. Later, I realized that we are the same kind of people, and we also hold our tails tightly, pretending to be strong and happy in front of others, but in fact Very weak, very low self-esteem, and a person who yearns for his family like hunger and thirst. It's just that he doesn't live happily and happily without me, because I have a tomorrow."

"But you... are divorced..." Leng Feng asked, his voice was very low, almost drowned by the noisy voices in the hall, but Bai Yan still heard it.

"How can we not get a divorce? At that time, we were both hurt. There was a dangerous peak in front of us, and a canyon in the back. If we didn't leave, the stalemate would last forever. As long as we separate, calm down, heal our wounds, and let go of the pain in our hearts." Only by going out of a place can we see each other clearly and clear our minds."

"Is he worth it?" Leng Feng was heartbroken.

"Leng Feng, you can't care about life. In the past, I cared about God's cruelty. Why can't I have parents who love me like others? Why can't I and Mingming love each other but we can't get together? In the end, nothing matters. Any change. This is the reality, you can only face it. If you like someone, you will care about who pays more and who pays less? No, there are 50 billion people in the world, and there are thousands of people who meet you. You know hundreds of people, but you only like one person. Are you willing to care about it? Why do you feel that life is precious because it takes too long to die. I am 24 years old now, so I have lived a very long life, eight Ten is over, and the rest is only 56 years. During these 56 years, I haven’t got married, haven’t had children, I haven’t been to many places I like, and I haven’t done many things I want to do. I want to be a grandmother or It's grandma... I don't have time to worry about so much, the most important thing is to grasp what is in front of me."

"But aren't you afraid that he will hurt you again?"

Bai Yan smiled, "I think he should be worried that I might hurt him! He has tried his best. I know his destiny, but he doesn't know mine. It is said that men are like As a child, I can't just accept his extraordinary maturity when he is mature, but reject his naughty and rebellious youth. The beginning of our marriage was a bad relationship. He married me with a purpose, and I also observed him with a defensive heart , I can always put myself in an invincible position if there is a slight disturbance. The failure of the marriage is not entirely his responsibility, but mine. "

"When did you figure all this out?"

"When a high-ranking man puts down all his dignity in front of you, lowers himself into the dust, and exposes himself without any cover; when a man is in the worst situation, he still uses all means, even stealing , to arrange the best life for you, but he chooses to withdraw from your life. You don’t need too nasty words, your heart will tremble naturally.”

Leng Feng closed his eyes, a little regretful, a little lamented, a little sad.

Bai Yan told him with her subtlety and frankness that they would pass by each other eventually.

Meeting at a late hour meant that everything between them was destined to be late—he didn't know who to blame and what to blame?The relationship is the most unclear.For example, he just fell in love with her after hearing what he said tomorrow.After chasing after Binjiang, she learned that she was married, but still confessed to her.It's morally wrong, but it's out of the heart.

In his eyes, Kang Jian was an extremely irresponsible bastard, but Bai Yan fell in love with him.However, Leng Feng had to think, if he knew Bai Yan's background at the beginning, and Bai Yan loved another man in his heart, would he still be moved by her like now?
No matter what the answer is, it is meaningless now.

Bai Yan talked for too long, his mouth was a little dry, he poured a bowl full of tea, gurgled, raised his neck, and drank it clean.

"Are you going to remarry?" Leng Feng asked bitterly.

"Pfft", Bai Yan let out a mouthful of tea and laughed. "Is there anyone who treats marriage like a joke?"

Leng Feng raised his eyebrows.

"I'm just telling you how I feel, but marriage is not about two people, it's about two families. There are still peaks and valleys between us, and there may be other unexpected people, unexpected things Happened. Now we are in a hurry to get married, and the result may be the same as before. I'd better live a free single life for a while."

She is single, and she will not give any man a chance.

Leng Feng picked up the wine glass, the Hua Diao tasted bitter after cooling down.

"I'll come, I'll come..." After eating, Bai Yan rushed to the cashier to pay the bill.

Leng Feng was stunned, and then smiled.If Bai Yan really wanted to reject someone, it might prevent the needle from being inserted.

I'm glad that she didn't say "I'm sorry, I really can't accept your love" to him coldly.Although the result is the same, this way is very considerate, sincere, and thoughtful.

The two walked towards the gate through the corridor, and Li Zehao walked towards him with three drunken faces.

Bai Yan looked up, saw him, and guessed that he brought Yi Tongtong to have fun again, and couldn't help feeling a little bit angry.

(End of this chapter)