I'm Mrs.

Chapter 166 I live like a fool

"Bao Si! Bao Si!!"

Pang Pang was frightened, turned off the radio in a hurry and began to support me, "Don't sit on the floor, it's cold."

"Looking back, I'll tell Han Lin that he's sick. I'll order this kind of song for you. He doesn't have any memories of you. It's because he is self-indulgent. Ah, it's okay. It's all over, isn't it? It's all over... ..."

I was so weak from crying that I kept shaking my head to signal her not to touch me, just let me stay like this, just stay like this.

The tip of my nose felt slightly cold, I reached out and touched it, it was very cold...

"Bao Si, it's snowing."

Pang Pang squatted beside me in a daze, "Why did it snow so early this year?"

I stretched out my hand and looked at the little ice crystal in my palm, which was almost invisible. After my brain gradually gained some consciousness, I gently uttered a few words.

"I want to go home."

Pang Pang nodded, "Yes, go home, let's go, I'll take you upstairs and go home now."

I shook my head lightly, "No, I want to go back to my own home... I'm back to my hometown..."

"what?!"

He stood up shaking his arms, the phone was still ringing from time to time, looked up at the dark tube building again, turned around, "Fatty, can you take me to a hotel or hotel tonight, I don't want to back home."

Pang looked at me, then turned to look at the building entrance of my house, then nodded, "Okay, let's find a hotel nearby, otherwise your mother will definitely scold you for seeing you like this, let's go..."

She held my arm, and when I turned around, I heard Pang Pang exclaiming, "Then who..."

I glanced at the figure standing not far away, but I couldn't see it clearly, but I knew it should be Qin Sen.

Before he got close, he turned around and returned to the car, slammed the door without turning on the headlights, and I knew the purpose was to see if I would get home safely.

Should I be moved, I don’t know, I have no strength.

I was very cold, but Pang Pang's body was very warm and warm. She supported me and found a small hotel on the front street of my house. She opened a standard room and took me into the room. Teng Teng Teng ran downstairs.

After a while, he came back out of breath, "Baosi, that person left and said he wanted me to take good care of you. I'm at a loss as to what the hell is going on."

I sat on the corner of the bed with my legs bent, shook my head, and didn't want to say anything.

She looked at me and sighed. Seeing that the phone kept ringing, she picked it up, "Hey, ah, that song..."

Glancing at me, Pang Pang cleared his throat, "I'm not listening, we are rushing home, the signal is not good, and it is difficult to search the phone, Baosi, she is a little sleepy and has been squinting all the time. It's time, we both have to rest, we can't chat with you anymore, well, you can talk about it after she wakes up, okay, let's hang up first."

Putting down the phone, Pang Pang connected again, and his tone changed immediately, "Ah, auntie, I'm with Baosi, don't worry, she didn't wander around, she came to my house, I, my aunt's, yes , Help me study, isn't it because my grades have always been mediocre, so I asked Baosi to make up lessons for me. Don't worry, she's fine, go, go take a shower.

Well, just now I have been studying and the sound is muted, school?What's the matter at school, ah, the teacher said that her academic performance has dropped, it may be because of too much pressure, I turned to her and said, okay, don't worry, hey, I have time to go, okay, auntie, this The thing is that we are wrong, we should not mute, let you worry, auntie, okay, then hang up first, you should go to bed early, okay..."

Putting down the phone, Pang Pang breathed a sigh of relief, wiped his sweat and looked at me, "I was scared to death, your mother was so worried, she thought you lost it."

I sat without moving, and after a long time, I came back to look at her, "Fatty, thank you."

Pang Pang sat next to me and put his arms around my shoulders, "Why don't you see me, how many times have I told you, if you have anything to do, just tell me, I can help you share the burden, see you like this , I feel bad too."

I leaned my head back and smiled softly, "It will be fine in the future, it's all over, I'm still alive, right..."

"Bao Si..."

"I'm tired and want to sleep."

Pang Pang nodded, and pulled the quilt over me, "Then sleep for a while, and you'll feel better when you wake up."

I'm really sleepy.

The body is sleepy and heavy everywhere.

With my eyes closed, I soon felt like I had entered a dream. In the dream, I was seven or eight years old, jumping around in the fields with a smirk, my grandma and grandma were still there, and they stood at the door smiling at me , waved at me all the way, saying Four Treasures, come back...

I smiled and stopped where I was, and said confidently, I won’t go back, I haven’t played enough, I haven’t played enough...

In a hurry, I want to go back.

My consciousness asked me to pull out my own leg in the dream, but I couldn’t pull it out. I shouted loudly, go back, I’ve had enough fun, I have to go home, but the seven or eight-year-old me stood still, she laughed, She just laughed, and I wanted to tear her apart so much that I wanted to die with her in my dream.

There is a chirping sound in my ears, very crisp, gentle and rhythmic, I listen to it comfortably, but I feel inexplicably anxious in my heart, it is not a rooster crowing, what is that sound?
"go home……"

"go home……"

Open your eyes again, into the white of your eyes.

"Bao Si, you're awake."

On the side of my face, I saw Pang Pang, "What's going on, where is this place?"

The lights were a bit dazzling, I thought, feeling weak.

"This is a hospital."

Pang Pang came to my ear and reminded me in a low voice, "You have been sleeping for two days, and you have a fever and are confused. You are sweating, and you have been talking about something to go home. I am afraid that something will happen to you. You stayed in the hotel for a night and then you will die." Call 120 and call an ambulance to bring you to the hospital. Don't worry, your mother doesn't know about you. Before I called the ambulance, I changed all your clothes for you. She thought you were sick at my aunt's house. , don't let it slip..."

I nodded calmly, "Why didn't you go to school?"

Pang Pang frowned, "How dare I go if you don't wake up, I'm afraid that if you wake up and don't know what's going on, you will accidentally tell what happened that night, then your mother must not beat you."

I still had the strength to laugh, and shook her hand, "Thank you."

"Thank me for what, as long as you are fine, it's nothing if I ask for a few days off."

As he said that, Pang Pang looked at me with a look of doubt in his heart, "Bao Si, has your hair been dyed? Why did you spend one night? When you had a high fever, I looked inside. It has changed color, it scared me so much, when I pulled it away, it was all gray and gray..."

I smiled faintly, "I have the problem of baldness, it's okay, my mother knows it, it's not a big problem."

She let out a breath, "Your mother didn't say how your hair is, but it just gave me a shock, and there is nothing wrong with it."

I held the corner of my mouth, looked at Pang Pang carefully at the door of the ward, and whispered in my ear, "The teacher told your mother about your decline in academic performance, and your mother asked me Have you fallen in love early? I'm afraid that your mother will touch your phone and reset it secretly. Don't blame me, or if your mother touches your phone, I'm afraid she will find out something. "

I hummed, it's time to initialize, whether it's the phone or me, it must be reset to zero.

After chatting for a while, my mother came in, she was relieved when she saw that I woke up, and after saying a few words, she greeted Pang Pang warmly, "Xiao Pang, come and have some food, I will trouble you in the next two days gone."

Pang Pang picked up his schoolbag and put it on his back, "Don't bother Auntie, um, I'm relieved when Baosi wakes up, I'll go back to school first, just call me if you have anything to do."

"Don't, let's go after eating!"

Mom was still giving way, and Pang Pang kept waving his hands, "I really don't need auntie, you can talk to Bao Siduo, but don't talk too much about studying, our third year of high school is really under great pressure, I understand you as parents In the same mood as my parents, they all want us to be admitted to a good university, but the more you talk, the easier it will be for us... to make trouble for ourselves..."

I am lying there, how lucky I am to have such a caring and good friend as Pang Pang.

Mom nodded in response, greeted Pang Pang for a while, and sent Pang Pang out. After walking back to my bed, she still reached out and touched my forehead, "Bao Si, tell mom the truth, where did you go that night?"

"..."

"do not fool me."

Mom sat on the chair next to my bed as if she had come here, "Tell me honestly, have you fallen in love early?"

"Mom, I don't miss you anymore."

Mom was shocked, she didn't expect me to say this suddenly. "If you don't read it, what are you going to do, go to work, what can you do at such a young age, you..."

"I want to go back to my hometown."

I explained my wishes calmly, "Being by my uncle's side, I will do what I want to do and what I should do well. There is a whole room full of books by my uncle, but I have read too few of them these years. I'm not calm, I want to work hard now, and read his book with peace of mind, I want to be a gentleman, so that Xue's family can look good."

Mom's tongue is not working well, "You, you..."

Ignoring my mother's reaction, I said to myself, "You said before that there is no such major as a husband when I go to university. What major should I choose? In school, I have to study professional courses, and I have to look at my uncle. Books are still dual purpose.

I can learn this by myself. I need a lot of time to recharge my batteries, instead of just learning a certain subject. I hope the time is my own. Mom, I want you to promise me. "

I don't want to stay in this place now.

I stuck a lot of my mother's words in my throat. According to common sense, she should immediately veto me, but our family environment is different, the things we come into contact with are different, and my mother's thinking is also contradictory.

Like all parents, she thinks academic qualifications are very important, and because of the influence of her living environment, she also wants me to become a gentleman. It is one aspect to bring honor to the Xue family, and there are many aspects that I will bring after I become a gentleman. convenient.

I have someone to protect. If I were an ordinary girl, then my mother might still be eating cannibal fetuses to keep her youth forever. She wouldn't even have a chance to look back, right?

This is a very realistic thing. I believe that my mother understands these realities better than me.

My mother sat there thinking for a long time, and after a long time, she threw me a sentence, "I will think about it."

"it is good."

I smiled lightly and closed my eyes, it will be as I wish.

To my surprise, my father came over.

The day he came, I was about to be discharged from the hospital. When I was packing my bag, I looked up and saw my father standing at the door of the ward looking at me. I stopped what I was doing and called out with a light smile, "Dad."

Dad came back to his senses and shook his head helplessly, "Sometimes you are very similar to your mother, but you are not like you."

I pursed my lips and smiled, "Why are you here?"

"I heard from your teacher that you are going to drop out of school. I want to ask you what's going on."

I didn't look at him, and continued to pack things in the bookcase, "I just want to go back to my hometown and do what I love."

After tidying up, I pulled the chair and looked at my father and smiled, "Sit down, Dad, my mother will be back after completing the discharge procedures."

Dad didn't sit down, looked at me and sighed, "I won't stop your decision, but I think it's better to study more."

I nodded, with a big smile on the corner of my mouth. When I have strength, what I would like to do most is this expression.

"I know, do you want to study hard? I will, but I just go back to my hometown to study, it's all the same!"

"Then you won't come back?"

I was stunned for a moment, and then became heartless again, "I don't know, let's talk about it, but I think I will have to run around the country in the future, and I can't stay here all the time."

Dad nodded, looked at me with a deep breath, and said, "You really broke your mother's beautiful body?"

I smiled and didn't answer. I looked up and saw my mother coming in. When she saw my father, her face changed, and she said stiffly, "Why are you here, aren't you busy?"

Dad looked at his mother with hurt eyes, "Ruojun, can you speak well."

Mom waved her hands impatiently, "I don't want to say anything, I've said everything I need to say, let me go, Baosi and I are going back."

I watched all this calmly. After seeing this pattern between them, I got used to it. What needs to be clear is that I will do what I can, and I cannot change the rest.

I don’t need to go to school, so I have enough time. I first called my hometown and told my second uncle that I was going back. I didn’t expect that it was my second aunt who answered the phone. As soon as I finished speaking, I exploded. Why don't you read it? If you say Xiao Liu can't get it, you can expect me to get a college diploma back!
In the end, I had no choice but to give my mother the phone and let my mother communicate with my second aunt. I heard my mother talk for a long time, and I heard the last sentence very clearly. She said, second sister-in-law, I know you and my second brother Thoughts, but now that the school is over, the child will walk the road by himself, let's respect Baosi's decision.

Bao Si's decision, yes, is my decision.

I didn't rush the time too fast. I went to see Miss Chaoyang first, and went to the orphanage with her to see the children. When I was working, I told her that if I wanted to go abroad, I should go as soon as possible. I always felt that her forehead was red. That mole delayed things.

She was surprised that I was leaving, and didn't understand why I didn't read back to my hometown at this juncture. I didn't explain too much, and said with a smile that I didn't like to read. It's the same with my grades. It's the same whether you have a degree or not.

Write down her phone number in the notebook, and I'm going to throw away the phone card when I go back to my hometown. My uncle's phone is useless and there will be no signal, so it's safer to write down the phone number.

After tidying up, I dressed and went back to class. After three years of junior high school, my popularity is not bad. Some people said I was relieved, and some people felt sorry for me. Pang Pang cried the most. Behind her back, she said why What's the point of going back home? !
I don't want to cry anymore, it feels bad, Pang Pang skipped class when she packed up her books and left, she said how many classes she skipped and the teacher didn't ask any more questions, anyway, she was just waiting to go to a junior college, we The two held hands and went to the beach. It was very cold and the wind was very strong. When the waves came towards us, our clothes would be blown through.

Pang Pang asked me why I came here. It was okay in summer, but I came to the beach in winter to suffer.

I said that I was a child who grew up at the foot of the mountain, and it was rare to see the sea.

What I like most about this city is the sea.

Swinging my arms, I vigorously threw a glass bottle containing a transparent liquid into the sea. Pang Pang asked me what it was, and I squinted my smiling eyes and looked at her and replied loudly, "Useless stuff!!"

Pang Pangyuan's face was a bit complicated, "Baosi, it's not so easy to forget, in fact, I think you still like each other, right?"

I hugged her shoulders, and looked towards the direction of the sea, "Fatty, the only request I have for you is that you don't mention him again, don't mention a single word, okay?"

Pang Pang didn't answer, looked at me, but nodded.

I laughed, my heart was sour, I made a fuss, I lost people, I lived like a fool.

However, I still want to say from the bottom of my heart, thank you, Lu Pei, thank you for helping me make a decision, thank you for allowing me to make a happy choice for my confused life.

If at any moment in the future, you unfortunately think of me, then I wish you, forever, no, happiness, happiness.

(End of this chapter)