I'm Mrs.

Chapter 363 Covering

Thick smoke was billowing, and the fire was burning more and more alarmingly at a distance of more than ten meters in front of my eyes.

The feeling of roasting and smoking is very clear, the eyes are very hot, and the tears are flowing all the time. I have always been afraid of fire, especially the big fire. In the past, even if I watched it on TV, I would tremble all over my body and my spine Chill.

But this time, I suddenly lost the feeling of fear, and my ears seemed to be deaf. I just stared blankly, in vain, and wanted to search for that white figure from the thick smoke and fire in front of me, but unfortunately, All I saw was a piece of red that seemed to ignite the sky...

It's very strange, I actually saw the beauty in it, a very hazy beauty, I feel that the light of the fire in the distance is like a burning cloud in the setting sun, the smoke, how much like the smoke from the chimneys on the roofs of every house after sunset...

My body is very hot, very hot, as if being roasted on a fire far away, I feel that I am being lifted up, but I want to lift my feet and walk towards the sea of ​​fire in front of me, my thoughts are a little vague Uncontrollable, at that moment, I couldn't analyze my own psychology, I just felt that when she was there, the thing that once brought me the most fear suddenly became beautiful.

There is no despair anymore, the fire did not make the person I love the most leave me, but let me see the person I most want to see when I come back.

how happy i am.

There are stones under my feet, I am walking staggeringly, the corners of my mouth are even pulled strangely, I think, I am laughing, I saw it, I saw my mother, my real mother, she even rushed into my body Here, she called my name, and I wanted to ask her if she heard me when I said it, Mom.

"Bao Si!! Bao Si, what are you doing! Come back!!!"

The body staggered suddenly, I heard a buzzing sound in my ears, and my disconnected thoughts seemed to connect instantly, I turned my head blankly, and saw the distorted facial features of the second aunt in the firelight, "Don't go forward! It’s on fire! It’s dangerous over there!!!”

My hearing recovered at the same time. In a blink of an eye, I saw many villagers holding torches and shouting loudly at the burning sea of ​​flowers in the distance. Everyone's face was bright and they were very excited. look.

There is a strong burnt smell in my nose, and the sound of 'cracking' is like the sound of beans bouncing. I am unresponsive, and my body is very hot. It's wet, it's uncomfortable...

"Bao Si! What's wrong with you! How stupid!!"

The second aunt was still yelling at me, her hands were fixed on my shoulders and kept shaking, so that my head had to swing back and forth with her strength, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, the wound on my body began to feel pain , like a needle being pricked, and at the same time it was hot, so hot that I couldn't breathe.

"Baosi! Speak up, Baosi! Don't scare me!!!"

"Four treasures are afraid of fire!"

I saw the second uncle from the night illuminated by the torch. He was carried by Xiao Liu and stepped on the stone under his feet. His face was sweating profusely, "Mingyue, quickly cover Sibao's eyes, she is afraid of fire!!"

It's so noisy, I had some difficulty listening to the second uncle's voice, the "slap" in front of my eyes was blocked by a slap, and at the same time I was plunged into darkness, I heard the second aunt say, "This child is sweating too much, are you please?" Xian'er is too powerful, this body can't stand it!!"

"I don't know, pull the four treasures to this side and keep away from the fire. The sweating may be caused by the fire. I'm sweating too, it's hot!!"

The second aunt covered my eyes and began to pull my arm with one hand. Seeing that I was standing still, she was a little anxious, "Bao Si, it's okay, we..."

"I'm not afraid."

I slowly pushed away the second aunt's hand blocking my eyes, wiped my face with it, sweat was really profuse, mixed with tears all over my face, "I'm not afraid of fire anymore..."

His voice was hoarse, probably because of the smoke, and it took a lot of effort to speak out.

"Aren't you afraid?"

The second aunt was stunned for a moment, "I remember the first time you cried when you were a child was when you saw your grandma at the crematorium..."

"I'm really not afraid anymore."

My eyes are still tearing, but I am grateful for the thick smoke and sweat at this moment, which makes the tears not so abrupt. The corner of my mouth is pulled, and I look at my second uncle, "I used to be afraid because I felt that the fire would take away the person I love the most. Now, I'm not afraid anymore."

It was fire that made me see the person I least expected to see.

"what does it mean."

The second aunt didn't understand, she stared blankly at the second uncle and asked, "Ruowen, what's wrong with this kid."

The second uncle didn't understand either. He leaned on Xiaoliu's back and looked at me with worried eyes, "Sibao, you just now..."

"I am fine."

I took a deep breath, turned around, and faced the direction of the sea of ​​flames, my heart was full of soreness but happiness, I couldn't describe it, I felt that I was unfortunate, but I was the happiest...

"Bao Si!!"

Uncle Li shouted my name loudly in the crowd, and ran over with his feet in a mess, "Your Grandpa Li, um, you're getting old and sweating, isn't it normal!!"

The one who came with him was Uncle Feng, whose eyes were also smoked and weeping non-stop, coughing in his mouth, "Bao Si, my father is also, why are you sweating so much! Alas, Ruowen, you're sweating too...and Baosi..."

There was a slight tingling in the palm of my hand, I looked down by the firelight, the wet sweat on the palm was extremely crystal clear against the background of the fire, but the wound that was almost bitten through the entire palm by the teeth of the louse was actually on the ground. Shrinking rapidly under the sweat, shrinking again...

No blood came out, just faintly, and the hole outside the wound could be seen slowly changing from a hole to a needle hole, and even there was only a faint red spot.

The profuse sweat on my body was still flowing like a sauna. I looked at Uncle Li and Uncle Feng and explained in a blink of an eye, "I said that when the fire comes, the disease will be cured. This sweat is detoxification. When the poison comes out, the disease will be cured." It's almost over..."

Uncle Li and Uncle Feng were happy, and they quickly ran back to share the joy with Uncle Zhao and the others. After a while, the village chief came to check with me again, whether these lice were completely burned to death by the fire!

I still nodded, so the village chief also left in a relaxed manner. Not long after, he heard the village chief announce with a loudspeaker, "Comrades! From now on, there will be no post No. [-] in our village! From now on Peace will be completely restored!!”

A lot of people from the village gathered around me, those who knew me and those I didn’t know very well. They cheered enthusiastically around me, as if I had conquered the century-old doubt in the village. Terrified!

Even if I didn't want to, I was still lifted up by many people with many arms. They threw me high, as if this was the only way to express their inner joy at the moment.

My body was in mid-air, looking at the sporadic fires by the river, I suddenly felt that everything was still, as if I was about to reach a high point within reach, but the next second, my body began to fall rapidly ——

"Oh, oh~~!"

I don't know how many times I was thrown back and forth, but I kept rising and sinking, the expression on my face was dull, my body was here, but my thoughts had already drifted away with that white shadow.

The people in the village were really excited. Those who didn’t know it thought that our village held some kind of bonfire party by the river. Everyone praised me as the protagonist. Finally, when the fire was completely extinguished, Uncle Li and the others went to collect the ashes. Tut tut wondered, "Is Baosi an ordinary person? Isn't Baosi! Didn't you see how he jumped out of the fire! So old! Have you read Journey to the West? I remembered that the stone monkey was born!!"

The second aunt was very happy at first, but when I heard that I was described as a monkey, I was a little unhappy, "What the hell! My Baosi is not for you! Can you talk!!"

No one dared to complain that the second aunt's attitude was not good. It was inevitable that she would touch the minefield again, but she kept saying that I was amazing, bullish and other poor words were the only words I could think of at that time.

I didn't react too much. Looking at the scorched land by the river, I felt neither sad nor happy, only complicated.

Naturally, the corpses of the lice could not be found. During the burning process, the big ones that hadn't had time to shrink made a crisp sound, and they were all gone like ants afterward.

Although my injury was severe, it was controlled by hand. There was neither time for the wound to swell nor time for the wound to rot. The poison was released with the sweat, except for some shallow The eye of the needle, bystanders can't imagine how brutal I was bitten at that time.

Therefore, I don't need to apply some follow-up herbal medicine on the wound that reduces swelling and shrinks like the second uncle and Grandpa Chen Li. All I have to do is rest.

On the way home, there were still many villagers who gave us warm greetings. The head of the village, the speaker never left his mouth, "Baosi, you must rest well tonight. Tomorrow afternoon, the village will take care of you." At the opening commendation meeting, I personally paid for it, so I must reward you well, you have made a lot of contributions in this matter!!"

I lowered my eyes and didn't speak, the village chief patted my arm when he saw this, "Look, how low-key Baosi is, young man, it's not easy to be so calm after doing such a big thing, Baosi is our Bai The pride of the mountain village! Do you think so!!"

"Yes! Bao Si's childhood is to have a great future!"

"It's a pity, her grandma left early, otherwise Aunt Xue's face would be full of glory! You are so talented!!"

For no reason, my face was pasted with layers of gold borders, and the past that I didn't want to look back on was just so carelessly buried by the brilliance.

Everyone praised me without hesitation, even the thing about poking chicken coops when I was a child became innocent, and even the fact that I said that people marry a wife is raw rice and cooked rice has become true temperament, I It was as if I had finally pursued what I wanted to achieve the most before.

Maybe the way grandma wants to see the most, if I get addicted to it a little bit, maybe I will forget how dirty the road I used to get out of the mountain and get a foothold in the village.

I don't know what's wrong with me, I seem to understand that I have been taking shortcuts, and I almost died just now...

Life, how can there be so many flukes.

I can't talk about whether I am disappointed with myself, but in my heart, I can't really feel happy.

Both body and mind were exhausted and close to exhaustion. I just waited for my second aunt to send the village head and some villagers away. I staggered and went back to my own house. I didn’t say anything to my second uncle. I was too tired and lay down on the kang He fell asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow.

I had a dream naturally. I seemed to go back to my childhood. I dreamed of the night when I had a ghost encounter with Lu Pei. Uncle Shen went crazy. The crying woman who watched us...

At that time, I thought she was Meng Yi, Uncle Shen's girlfriend, and I found her tears streaming on the glass in the second aunt's back room that night.

Everything is so clear, these long-lost memories seem to be repeated in a dream, I told my grandma that I had a dream, I walked in the dream for a long time, there were grass everywhere, I heard a woman crying, she Ask me, how can I forget her!

Then, my grandma led me to the grave, and I reluctantly followed behind, with biscuits stuffed in my mouth. I seemed to see a miniature version of myself again, and asked my grandma inexplicably, why should I go? Going to the grave, do you want me to apologize to this second aunt I have never met, saying that I didn't kill her and her child on purpose?
No matter what you think, it has nothing to do with me.

On the grave, I also showed off my cleverness. I looked at the unburnable paper and told my grandma, this second aunt didn't mean to harm Uncle Shen, she actually came to help us!
I didn't understand why she came to help us. At that time, I just thought that this second aunt might be a good person.

Why is she crying? Because of grievance, grievance, because the second uncle married a new wife.

I listened to my grandma talking about Beixianer on the grave, and I didn’t understand why my grandma would talk about it on that occasion, but I still listened to it, that is, since then, I have never dreamed of this No. [-] and No. [-] Aunt...

His eyes were opened wide, but his cheeks were still wet.

Many things are clear.

Why did she hug that child to help Uncle Shen...

The tears that flowed on the windows...

And her eyes in my dream, those inexplicable grievances, and sourness, it's not just, it's just because my second uncle married another.

It was because of me that she saved Uncle Shen.

It was because of me that she shed tears on the window.

However, what she feels most wronged is that I only gave her a code name, No. [-] and No. [-] Aunt.

Even when I went to the grave, I never stopped in front of her grave. Apart from a little sympathy, I was so strange and alienated from the original her.

The sun was shining in the room, I checked the time on my phone, it was one o'clock in the afternoon, I got up from the kang, I didn't see Xiaoliu and the second aunt, they should be in the back room, sniffed, I went directly to take a shower in the simple bathroom separated from the kitchen of my house.

The coat has been taken off, it must have been taken off by my second aunt last night, my face in the mirror is still dirty, my hair is dry, and my eyes are a little swollen, I washed it very carefully, and even used it after washing my hair Conditioner again.

The wound is not very visible, but the skin is too white, and there will be some small red spots, but thinking about the consequences that should have been caused, this is hardly worth mentioning.

After taking a shower, I rummaged through my closet to find some more formal clothes, dressed seriously, every process, even being a little too careful, I looked at my face in the mirror while combing my hair, and the action scene I just stopped, I was said to look like my second uncle since I was a child, like my current mother...

So where is it that looks like her?

Carefully recalling the face in her dream, her face is round, and her facial features are indeed plain, but, my face shape is like hers, even if the facial features can't be searched, at least, I can see it Looking up, it always makes people feel that the young face is somewhat similar to her.

I don't know what I'm excited about. Looking at myself in the mirror, I smirk inexplicably, as if I suddenly discovered some surprise, but I smiled and laughed, but I couldn't cry.

Neuropathic general reaction.

I looked at my facial features twitching in the mirror, and kept saying to myself, don’t be like this, don’t be so ugly, no one likes to see you who are so ugly.

When I was ready, I went out with a big bag. As soon as I walked into the yard, I heard Xiao Liu's pleasantly surprised voice behind me, "Oh my god, Fourth Sister! You're awake!"

Looking back, Xiao Liu happily ran over with a smile, "You look like a white-collar worker, where are you going? The commendation meeting is at three o'clock in the afternoon! The village chief is calling you!"

As he spoke, he looked at me up and down, "I didn't mean it, Fourth Sister, isn't it too plain to wear this outfit to the commendation meeting? White shirt, black trousers, clean and neat, but no matter how you look at it, it doesn't matter. Very suitable for more festive occasions..."

"you are annoying."

I interrupted him impatiently, "How is the second uncle?"

"My dad is fine, his feet don't hurt anymore, and my mom is still chatting with him, why don't you go and see."

I glanced in the direction of the backyard. "I'm not going, I'm going out to do some errands, and I'll be back later." After I finished speaking, I added, "Don't follow me."

Xiao Liu stood there puzzled, "No, Fourth Sister, what are you going to do, what are you doing! Fourth Sister!"

I don’t have time to talk to him about this, and I don’t want to talk about it. I went all the way to my grandma’s tomb. It should be said that I benefited from my second aunt who opened a small shop. The warehouse at home has everything, and I took it. Liquor, joss sticks and burning paper are just other offerings. I brought apples. I vaguely remember that grandma said that she loves apples...

For the first time, I felt a little nervous, as if I was going to meet an elder I had never met with a cautious heart. I was afraid that my hair would be messed up, my clothes would be dirty, and that there might be something wrong with her, which would make her feel impolite.

I want her to see the best of me and appreciate her respecting her me.

From far away, I saw the graves of my grandma and the others. The wind passed by gently, and my heart was inexplicably gripped. I used to go straight to my grandma when I went to the grave, but this time, I put my bag away. Arrived in front of the short soil bag of 'Aunt No. [-] and No. [-]'.

There are still necessary steps. Whoever goes to the grave must first burn a few pieces of paper for the elders. I burned it all the way from my grandma. I didn't say much, and I didn't want to say anything. The ancestors have passed away, so no matter how many questions What's the use.

When I burned the paper for my grandma, the flames were a little hot, and I twitched the corners of my mouth, "Grandma, I just wanted to see her today. Although I can't fully understand your original intentions, I know that you all treat me sincerely." , I won't bother about anything, don't worry."

It's just three sheets of paper, and it burns quickly.

I didn't want to add up, so I squatted down in front of the short grave bag in a few steps, first placed the contents of the bag near the mouth of the relative, then placed candles, burnt incense, and burned paper...

The smoke was lingering, and I knelt in front of the grave with burning paper, and opened my mouth slightly, "This is the first time I came to see you, and I don't know what to bring you. I heard that you like apples, so I will give you apples." I brought some, I don’t know anything else, just send some money, you can buy whatever you like..."

The wind is getting louder, whooping...

Are you crying?

My nose also started to feel sore, but I looked at the low grave through the smoke with a smile on my face, "I'm sorry, I haven't come here to give you a grave for so many years. By the way, don't be angry with me, because I didn't know at that time, I didn't know that you were me..."

Couldn't hold it back, the tears still came out.

I tugged at the corners of my mouth, but there was a laughing sound in my mouth, "I understand my family very well. I know that grandma must have difficulties. I am not angry because I am not qualified. I have been very happy since I was a child. Don't be angry with me." Grandma is angry, they are really kind to me, I never knew that I actually, actually... all the love, I have never gotten less than others, but, I have wronged you... I have wronged you..."

Kowtowing my head, I seemed to hear the cry of a whining woman again. I stretched my arms and raised my face. I vaguely saw a person through the firelight, a person standing behind the dirt bag. I tasted my mouth. I don't know if it's my hallucination, because it's too vague, but my heart is surging, and in an instant, there is only collapse.

I looked at the figure, my heart twitched, "Thank you, thank you...Mom..."

She was still standing there, I couldn't see her face clearly, she seemed to be looking at each other, but I only had tears in my eyes, "I'm sorry, I really didn't know before, I really didn't know...Mom..."

"Baosi..."

Through the burning smoke, it seemed as if a hand was stretched out. I closed my eyes, crying uncontrollably, "It's me, Mom, I'm here to see you..."

"Baosi..."

She called my name loudly, she was very close to the burning paper, but the coolness on her cheeks was like nine winters.

"Mother……"

She yelled, I responded, felt her hands move away from my face, I tried in vain to reach out and grab her, "Don't go!"

When I opened my eyes, it was as if I was in a dream.

Looking at it suspiciously, the door in front of me is very familiar, it is the door of my house, but the color of the paint back then is still different from now, even the door god and the pair, there is a strong atmosphere of the times.

Like my home, but not my home now, where is this?

Looking up, the sky was overcast, and it was raining lightly, and there was a damp smell everywhere in the air. Some raindrops fell on my shoulders, but there was no trace left. I stretched out my hand, and the raindrops were thin, directly Passed through the palm of my hand and melted into the wet soil.

Cover the eye?

I suddenly realized that she was covering my eyes, but what did she want me to see?
I looked around blankly. The location of Li Xue’s house, no matter the gate or the house, has changed. It feels very simple. I only heard a "squeak" and the gate opened. I was even more surprised by the person who came out. He is... ...Old Cui?

This person died when I was seven or eight years old. He died of drinking. After he died, the house was bought by Li Xue's family. How can he still come out of the door with a wine bottle now!
"Grandpa Cui!"

I dared to shout out, the situation is no less than when you suddenly see a dead man jumping out of the grave!
He ignored me, alone, staggered along the dirt road and walked away.

I looked at his back and was still in a daze, yeah, cover my eyes, he won't know I'm there.

The layout of the village has not changed, but many houses here are quite different from what I remember. It is quiet everywhere, only the sound of rustling rain. Looking around inexplicably, I suddenly heard a woman's voice coming from the gate in front of me. ,"ah……!"

There was another shock on his body, and he screamed in a miserable manner.

Do you want to go in, just lifted your feet, turned your face, and saw two acquaintances again, "Grandpa Chen and Grandpa Li!!"

Knowing that they couldn't hear them, they still yelled uncontrollably. The two of them didn't hold an umbrella, and walked to the door of my house with each other's arms. Their shoulders and hair were slightly wet from the light rain. I thought they were Will pass me by, unexpectedly, the footsteps of the two stopped outside my door.

"Old Li, did you hear that, I don't know whose child came out first, and delivered two at the same time, enough for Fengnian to drink a pot."

Grandpa Chen turned his face to the side, and suddenly opened his mouth to Grandpa Li, but the corner of Grandpa Li's mouth raised a smile, "Fengnian is a well-known midwife in ten miles and eight villages, she can't be worse..."

I looked at these two grandpas, but my whole body was inexplicably shocked. I have heard this story before. Grandpa Chen told me several times when I was young!

Mu Mu turned his face, almost without hesitation, and ran in through the gate. It was very smooth, and the gate seemed like nothing to me!
My house has not changed, and the front yard is still the same as when I was a child, but there is no King Kong. When I heard the sound of talking, I ran to the backyard quickly, and the second uncle was still standing at the door. The young and spirited second uncle, at this moment, is rubbing his hands, pacing back and forth in a daze.

"Ah... ah!!"

The voice of the woman in the room was still heard from time to time, I didn't have time to think too much, I bowed and rushed in.

"My lord... my lord..."

There are two big rooms in the house in the backyard, the room on the left is the voice of the grandma, I went in ignorantly, and saw the young woman lying on the kang with her eyes closed. There was a red basin of blood or some kind of water.

That woman, of course I know, is the mother I will call for more than 20 years in the future.

"Jun'er, don't scare your little aunt, open your eyes, open your eyes... Oh my god... Feng Nian, why didn't you respond..."

Grandma kept patting Xue Ruojun's face, "Wake up, wake up..."

"She's fine."

I followed my grandma's eyes and looked at the grandma beside me. She was still slightly fat back then, holding a child with a serious face, "If you are fine, it's just that this child is stillborn..."

"What?!!"

Grandma's eyes widened, and she took a 'sudden' breath. "Didn't you read it before and say it's all right!"

The muscles on the grandma's face were stiff, and she casually took a sheet and wrapped the child up, "It's not like you don't know how much you want this child, if I tell her that the child died in her stomach, she will hang herself, what do you think?" Collect her body."

The grandma sat there trembling, obviously out of ideas, "What's the matter, now Ruojun is in pain, if you wake up and know that the child is gone, you should hang yourself or not, your elder brother said it all , if you only have one child in your life, she will die early without a child, Xue Fengnian! Think of a way!"

"Take one step at a time, and when the time comes, there will be no other way..."

"Ah... ah!!"

Another woman's cry came from the next room, and the grandmother suddenly got up from the kang without thinking about it, and ran to another room, "Tweet! Tweet...Fengnian! Come quickly! Tweet! I'm going to give birth!!"

(End of this chapter)