let me look at you

Chapter 105 (2)
Han Shu suddenly laughed treacherously, "That depends on what you can give me? Do you know what I want?"

Ju Nian's face turned from red to white, she could understand Han Shu's hint, he was so close, so close that she seemed to be able to hear his rapid heartbeat again, just like that night.

She held down Tang Ye who was so angry that he was about to fight.

"Then you'll let us go?"

The medicine becomes a blue sea, and it is difficult to run away. Does that sign of fate foretell the present?She met him, at every turn and intersection.

"Yes."

Han Shu lowered his head, and in front of Tang Ye, gently pressed his lips to Ju Nian.

Then he smiled like a child to the dazed Ju Nian, "I've never kissed you before."

He has had the most intimate contact with her in the world, entwined body to body, breath and smell, but he has never kissed her mouth.

"I'm scaring you. I've resigned. I'm nothing now. These things have nothing to do with me. You can go wherever you want." Han Shu sat back on the bamboo chair unexpectedly.

that's it?
"Go, I let you go. But I don't know if others will let him go."

He lay down and closed his eyes as if he had been like this from the beginning and nothing happened.

Tang Ye grabbed Ju Nian's hand tightly.

Follow him, what are you waiting for?She has nothing, her small world is in her heart, besides that, what else is worth taking away?

The future is like a time tunnel that only exists for a moment and suddenly opens. Ju Nian looks back at this small courtyard full of the past. She wants to capture her memories, just like Zhou Xingchi's "Fighting Tiger Tonight" in the movie caught her in front of the time tunnel. Spring hands.Her memory is already red and white.

Under the guidance of Tang Ye, she finally ran towards the unknown future.

Hearing the sound of footsteps fading away, Han Shu still didn't open his eyes, the wind was blowing on his face, this was his favorite weather.It seems that one day when there was also a gentle breeze, he graduated from the third year of junior high and made an appointment to play badminton with Chen Jiejie. They were riding a bicycle and were knocked down by a pair of peers who ran recklessly. The Ju Nian took the white boy's hand and ran past him, then she turned around with the brightest smile on her face.He watched them disappear from sight, brushing the dust off his trouser legs.

Regarding the stories of these few people, he had imagined the ending countless times, but only now did he realize that perhaps it should stop here the most.

fair enough.Han Shu saw himself in the mirror in his heart.He said to his mirror: I'm fine, I'll be fine.

Then he started weeping in vain, he thought, and take it as relief.

Ju Nian followed Tang Ye into an unfamiliar car that had been waiting in the dark for a long time, and drove all the way through the whole city, finally stopping at a deserted port.

Except for the fishing lamp on the only dark boat docked on the shore, the surrounding area was completely dark.Then, Ju Nian saw that apart from them and the driver who didn't get off, there was a woman on the shore.

The woman who had been turning her back to them turned around and looked at Tang Ye and Ju Nian who he had been holding.

The woman was about the same age as Ju Nian, and her long hair was tied up in a casual bun at the back of her head. The existence of Ju Nian was obviously not what she expected, but she just raised her eyebrows.It is easy for her to give people the feeling that no matter how many changes there are, nothing can make her lose her footing.

Even Tang Ye, whose heartbeat was racing because of an uncertain escape, and together with Ju Nian, made up his mind in front of this woman.He believed in this woman as he believed in another person, and she would send him to a safe place.

"Come?" The woman laughed, her eyes were crescent-like, like a smiling fox.

Tang Ye said: "Mr. Xiang, I have a heartless request..."

The woman understood, "You want to take her with you?"

Tang Ye nodded.

"Why didn't you ask me why he didn't come?"

Ju Nian felt Tang Ye grab her hand, and was slightly shocked by this simple question.He paused, and there was a sense of desolation in his words.

"Is he dead? From the time you let me go, I knew he couldn't come back."

Ju Nian didn't know what happened, but she could think, could the "he" Tang Ye was referring to be that gentle and cold man wearing tortoiseshell glasses?And the woman in front of him is the mastermind behind the scenes that allowed him to escape to a foreign country.

"Believe it or not, he also told me the same thing. He said that if you hadn't seen him, you would know where he went." The woman raised her head and looked at the bright moon that had risen into the sky , she was not in a hurry, as if what was in front of her was not an escape, but an idle farewell among friends. "Do you like the moon? Today is the fourteenth, and tomorrow will be the full moon, but I like today's one better, because the next day of the full moon will be incomplete, but the fourteenth moon can still wait for tomorrow."

Her questions don't seem to need answers, she has always been a person who gives her own answers.

"Let's go, have a good trip, I have taken care of everything for you, get off the boat, someone will take you to where you want to go, oh, it should say 'you'. Don't come back."

Tang Ye stood beside the boat.

"Thank you, Mr. Xiang." He said sincerely.

The woman said: "No need, I'm not doing it for you, I will definitely do what I promised Teng Yun, he deserves it."

After she finished speaking, she got into the car that Tang Ye and the others had come in. The car didn't drive away immediately, as if she was waiting for the ship to set sail.

The boat swayed gently in the shallow water, Tang Ye boarded the boat first, and then pulled Ju Nian.

Ju Nian stood still on the shore, she slowly broke away from Tang Ye's hand.

"I'm here to see you off, Tang Ye."

The moon was half hidden in the clouds, and the wind was strong in the open place, blowing Ju Nian's short hair, and also the sparkling waves on the water.Her face was very peaceful in the half-bright moonlight.

Tang Ye was shocked. The boatman walked towards the cable and was already reminding, "Sir, it's time for the boat to set off."

"Why?" Tang Ye asked.

"The person who should go with you is not me. Although you can't wait for him, that position is not mine either."

Tang Ye suppressed his sadness when he mentioned that person, "Ju Nian, I really like you too."

Ju Nian said: "Yes, I know, you like me because I'm a good person; but you love him, even if he's a wrong person...even if he won't come back."

"Is there anything worth staying here? Come with me, even if we don't have to be together, at least we have a new life."

The boatman let go of the rein and asked, "Miss, are you really not coming up?"

Ju Nian shook his head, as if the loosened boat would drift far away in a second.

Tang Ye stood on the edge of the boat, and he did not give up persuading Ju Nian.

Ju Nian hugged him gently when she could still touch him, and she felt Tang Ye's tightened hands.Then she broke away, "Go where you want to go, don't look back. I won't say goodbye, take care, Tang Ye."

When Ju Nian returned to her small courtyard, it was already dawn.Han Shu was still lying on that bamboo chair, he fell asleep, and his clothes were wetted by the dew overnight.Ju Nian sat beside him on a small low stool next to him, and quietly found out from his pocket a watercolor pen drawing that Chen Jiejie gave her when she came back from the hospital yesterday.

It was painted by Feiming herself. Before entering the operating room, she told her mother to give the painting to her aunt.Chen Jiejie also said that Feiming might never wake up again.

Feiming's drawing was still so bad, Ju Nian wanted to laugh, this kid never had the talent for drawing.I can only vaguely see that there are four people in the painting, two girls and two boys, the girls are all wearing ponytails, one is showing teeth, and the other is smiling. Among the boys, one has a bald head and the other has short hair.

The old photo from 12 years ago was sent to her by Ju Nian among the things that are not commonly used by Ming. This may be the only picture that records her father and mother at the same time.Feiming really saw it, and described it in his own way.The difference from the photo is that the four boys and girls are holding hands together.At the bottom of the painting, a few words that were originally on the back of the photo were written crookedly: Allow me to look at you.

This is a child's most beautiful conception of a past that she may not yet understand.

A drop of dew fell from the eaves of the porch and dripped on Han Shu's neck. He raised his hand and rubbed his itchy neck, as if he had woken up.

Ju Nian said before he opened his eyes, "Don't move."

He really froze there immediately, motionless, with his hands still resting on his neck, only his eyelashes were disobedient and trembling slightly.

"Shh...pretend you're dead, don't move, don't talk."

In the past, Han Shu would have jumped up and "poohed" her crow's mouth, but he didn't, he "died" obediently, the posture of "death" was a bit strange, but very peaceful, with the corners of his mouth slightly raised.Ju Nian thought, could this be the legendary Mixiao Jiuquan?

Han Shu kept that posture for a long time until there was no sound around him, his neck and hands were so sore, so he secretly opened his eyes to take a look in violation of the rules. Fortunately, the light in the morning was not dazzling, causing him to pretend to be dead The man from a long time ago was sitting on a low stool with his head slanted against the side of the bamboo chair, and his eyes were also closed.

"Hey, hello." Han Shu was very upset, he asked the people around him, "Are you dead too?"

She replied, "Don't make noise, I haven't slept all night."

He lay down again, waiting for her.

Ju Nian fell asleep for a while, straightened his back, and turned to ask Han Shu, "Are you awake?"

Han Shu said, "I woke up early."

They sat foolishly on a fine morning, but one was in a good mood and happy.

"Hey, I said, will your loquat tree bear fruit?" The happy man asked a boring topic.

"Yes." Ju Nian replied.When the tree grows, it will bear fruit.It's just that the person who planted the tree and the person who picked the fruit may not be the same.

"Han Shu, do you believe in fate?" She asked with narrowed eyes facing the direction of the rising sun.

Han Shu shook his head, "I don't believe it. I only did superstitious things once in my life. I was unlucky that day and I was knocked down by someone, and then I went to a nearby messy temple to ask for a fortune stick."

"What does the sign say?"

"How do I know." Han Shu said a little aggrieved, "The person who released the lottery in the temple is also very inexplicable. The sign I asked for was torn from the signboard. Damn, there is still a stolen lottery people!"

Ju Nian smiled and kicked a leaf that floated in from the wall, and at the same time did not forget to slap the other hand that was trying to fish in troubled waters to hold her. She secretly spread her palm and looked at the pattern of fate again.

(End of this chapter)