Wanqingsi

Chapter 177 Confession
After the election of the emperor, there was a sensation throughout the country.In addition to the aristocratic family and officials' daughters who received post-election flower posts, there were also many commoner women who were selected as show girls, and they were escorted to Beijing from all over the country continuously.The Yun family also received a flower post. It was Yun Zheng's cousin, Yun Xiangrong, the granddaughter of his cousin Yun Chongling, who had already left Cangdu for the journey.Maybe the cousin didn't recognize Mo Xiuqi's marriage in the past, maybe that was the idea all along?

But Ji Pingan still didn't get the news of entering the palace.I informed Ji Jingyun and asked him to pay more attention to Ping An. I haven't heard anything special about Ji's family recently. I thought Ping An was just a child's temper, and the insistence that day was just out of my mouth. I didn't expect that the child was moving Really, after only a few days, someone from Ji Mansion came to invite me, saying that Ping An was seriously ill and wanted to see me.

I sighed, asked Ning'er to help me change my clothes, and prepared to go to Ji Mansion to see the safety.Xiaohong helped me out, and in the yard I saw Jin Sha and her children laughing and laughing around Ming Yan, not knowing what they were doing.Going forward, An Sheng saw me and ran over with a smile: "Sister Ye, brother Ming Yan just showed us a trick, it was fun."

Because An Sheng knew Ming Yan in Cangdu, he has always been close to him.The children gathered around, and Ming Yan was now the little leader of the children, smiling at me triumphantly.I shook my head with a smile, this kid is smelly all day long.Ming Yan saw that I had changed clothes: "Sister is going out?"

"I'm going to General Ji's Mansion." I touched An Sheng's head and saw a small sachet hanging on his chest, which was given to Ming Yan by the red leaves a few days ago, and said with a smile: "This thing..."

"Does it look good?" An Sheng said happily, "I think it smells so good, brother Ming Yan gave it to me."

"Nice." I smiled.Ming Yan's face flushed slightly, and said uncomfortably: "It's useless for me to hold it, I'll give it to An Sheng if he likes it..."

"I understand." I smiled, explaining why, could it be that you really took that little sachet as a token of engagement?Seeing that I didn't mean to blame him, Mingyan laughed: "Sister, let me go out with you."

"No need, you play with the children, and also, take good care of Nuo'er for me." After I made it clear, I felt relieved to go out with Xiaohong.General Ji's Mansion, I haven't been here for two years. Although my vision is blurred, I can still see that there is no big change from the mansion I went to two years ago.Ji Jingyun came out to meet me, and smiled wryly when he saw me: "Mrs. Yun, please run this trip, Jingyun is really sorry."

"You're too polite, General." I smiled, "What's wrong with Ping An?"

"That girl..." Ji Jingyun frowned, "Oh...she won't eat for a few days, I'll take Madam in first."

Following Ji Jingyun into the safe boudoir, Ji Jingyun signaled everyone to go out and walk to the bed.Xiaohong helped me to sit on the edge of the bed, I looked at Ping An lying on the bed, but I haven't seen her for a few days, this girl has lost so much weight, her little face is pale and haggard, her eyes are staring blankly at the top of the bed.I sighed and gently held her hand: "Peace..."

Her hand moved slightly, and her eyes gradually turned to my face. After a while, she said with difficulty: "Sister Ye..."

"Ping'an, what exactly do you want?" Ji Jingyun was angry and anxious at the side, "Except for entering the palace, the other second uncles will agree to you."

Ping'an turned his face away, staring blankly at the top of the bed, I turned my head to look at Ji Jingyun, and said softly: "General, let me chat with Ping'an alone, is that okay?"

Ji Jingyun looked at me helplessly, I could feel his anxious and pleading eyes, and smiled firmly at him.He sighed heavily, turned and walked out of the room.I turned to look at Ping An, and said softly, "Ping An, what exactly do you want?"

She remained silent for a long time before she said in a hoarse voice, "You know, sister."

"Peace, don't be willful." I held her hand and sighed softly, "Do you think that once you enter the palace, you will be able to accompany the emperor? Are you willing to spend the rest of your life in a prison with golden walls and splendid walls?" , lose your freedom? Would you like to share a man with a group of women, thinking that he will come to your room to see you every day, but you don’t see him coming every day, watching him flirt with other women, but you can’t Do you have any complaints? Are you willing to wear a mask all your life and not be able to show your true nature? Ping An, you have to deal with the complicated personnel affairs in the harem, and you are willing to live a life full of calculations, without a friend, and lonely Are you willing to bury your innocence, enthusiasm, and youth in the intrigue and struggle of the palace, and become a walking dead?"

"I am willing." Ping An's eyes turned to my face, and he said firmly, "Sister, I am willing."

"Peace..." I shook my head with a smile, "You can't do it. You just heard that the emperor went to Baihualou, so you were so impulsive and reckless. Did you know that this kind of thing happened once in the harem? You may be lost forever."

She was silent, I held her hand and said softly: "Ping An, there are not so many perfect things in life, if you love someone, he may not love you; if someone loves you, you may not love him; Or the two of you love each other, but you can't be together in the end for various reasons; and the person who ends up with you, maybe you don't love him, and he doesn't love you either. You were too well protected by General Ji since childhood, and everyone in the family Everyone loves and spoils you, but those things are not taken for granted. Life is not as simple as one plus one equals two. There are many ways to love someone. It doesn’t have to be by his side, it is the most perfect way .Some people, you can love, protect, and do a lot of stupid things for him in your heart, but you don't have to stay with him. Do you understand?"

"I don't understand, I just want to enter the palace..." Tears flowed from the corners of Ping'an's eyes, "I just know that I can't see him, and my heart is very bitter. I want to be closer to him and accompany him..."

"Ping An, you are only thinking about yourself, but you haven't thought about it from his standpoint." I sighed softly, and my patience gradually faded away, "You only want to love him, so how does he feel about you? Do you know?"

Ping An remained silent, and I continued: "Have you expressed your heart to him? Has he ever confessed that he is interested in you? If not, even if you get the flower post and enter the palace, the emperor doesn't ask you to stay, you just Can you be sent home, have you thought about it?"

She suddenly opened her eyes wide and turned to look at me fixedly, with a hint of bewilderment in her eyes.I sighed, peace, peace, how can you make people feel at ease like this.She said in a daze: "Sister, I should first express my heart to the emperor, right?"

I took a deep breath, and felt a heavy sense of powerlessness in my heart: "I mean, whether you can enter the palace or not, the decision rests with the emperor, not what you do, or what General Ji wants to stop, or what I can ask for a flower post for you and it will go smoothly."

Ping An's eyes lit up slightly, and I frowned, did this girl understand what I said?Just about to speak, Ji Jingyun opened the door and came in, glanced at Ping An, and pursed his lips: "Ping An, Mr. Yu is here."

I was slightly startled, and quickly stood up. Since I was confined at home last year, I have never seen the emperor, and I didn't expect to meet him in the general's mansion today.Ping'an's face was happy, and before he could make a sound, the emperor had already stepped into the room.Xiaohong had never met the emperor, and hearing Ji Jingyun's tone, it was not easy to reveal his identity, so she had to bow her head: "Young Master Yu is polite."

"Uncle Yu..." Ping An stared at him blankly, tears already streaming down his face.The emperor looked at me, but I couldn't see his expression clearly, I just heard him say: "There is no need to be polite, sit down." Then he turned to Ping An and said with a smile, "Ping girl, I heard that you are sick, but you still refuse to eat. thing?"

Ping An stared at him bewilderedly, tears streaming down his face.The emperor took out a silk scarf to wipe away the tears on her face, and said with a smile, "What a little girl, she still cries when she is sick..."

"I'm not a little girl." Ping An grabbed the emperor's hand that wiped her tears, his eyes glowing with heat, "Uncle Yu, I have something to tell you."

I was slightly startled, Ping An didn't want to show his heart to the emperor, did he?Ji Jingyun was also startled, just as he was about to speak, the emperor had already said: "What are you talking about, just say it."

"Second Uncle, Elder Sister Ye, can you go out first?" Ping An stared at the emperor fixedly, not leaving for a moment, but said to Ji Jingyun and me, "I want to talk to Uncle Yu alone."

"Peace..." I frowned.The emperor turned to look at me and said, "Go out."

I glanced at Ji Jingyun and saw that he was also full of worry, sighed in my heart, stood up, Xiaohong helped me to go out, Ji Jingyun stepped out after him, and closed the door. "Mrs. Yun, Ping An was okay just now..." Ji Jingyun frowned.I smiled wryly and said, "I'm sorry, I don't seem to be able to persuade her, safe her, too firm..."

"Nonsense." Ji Jingyun roared in a low voice, his thick eyebrows twisted into the shape of earthworms.

"Will Ping'an say something stupid?" I worriedly looked at the closed door, if Ping'an really wanted to confide in the emperor, this matter would not end well.With the friendship between the emperor and Ji Jingyun, if Ji Jingyun refused to let Ping An enter the palace, the emperor would definitely refuse Ping An, how could Ping An stand it.

"Jingyun will stay here, Mrs. Yun, please go to the side room to rest for a while, don't worry too much." Ji Jingyun recovered and calmed down, it seems that he is sure of the emperor's mind.I shook my head and said softly, "I'll stay here too, I'm not at ease."

While talking, there were several "clank" sounds of silk and bamboo in the safe room. Ji Jingyun and I were stunned for a moment, and we couldn't help but approached the door, only to hear the faint sound of instrumental music coming from inside. After a while, the sound When I got louder, I was startled, but it was the sound of a guitar.Ping An playing the piano at home?Listening carefully, the music is neither urgent nor slow, smooth and clear. It seems that Ping An has not stopped practicing piano this year.The music turned suddenly, and Ping An played a familiar prelude, and my body shook slightly.Will Ping An sing this song for the emperor?She practiced this song for a long time and was going to sing it on the emperor's birthday last year but failed to sing it. Now she plays it to him. It seems that Ping An has made up her mind and confessed her love to him.Just distracted, I heard the singing of peace coming from the house:
What doubts do you have,
How else do you want to escape?

Don't you only know how to protect yourself,
No more courage.

Love is so mysterious,
I see traces of it all the time.

So I don't know how to protect myself,

So easy to give up.

Please look into my eyes and know,
Feelings have no escape.

Please listen to the restless heartbeat,
Please don't say you can't hear.

Can't you really hear it.

Ping An sang very well. She has practiced this song for more than a year, and her fingering skills are extremely proficient. It is sung softly and flawlessly.

Even Ji Jingyun was stunned, with a complicated expression on his face.Ping An sang this song over and over again in the house, and he didn't know how many times he sang it.Ping An, in fact, was originally a smart woman, and she actually knew her waywardness.So she chose to express her heart song with singing, rather than expressing it directly in words, even if she was rejected, it would not make the scene too embarrassing.

That afternoon, Ping An played the song "Please Look into My Eyes" over and over again, and sang it over and over again. She used her singing to express her love, admiration and bitterness for the emperor.I can even imagine that she was playing the guitar while singing a gentle and mournful song, looking at the emperor's expression with those affectionate eyes.That kind of loving someone wholeheartedly, pouring out one's heart with all one's heart, should be able to impress anyone, right?After a long time, the singing and piano sound in the room stopped, and it seemed a long time later that the door opened.The emperor came out of the room with no expression on his face. When he saw Ji Jingyun, he said calmly, "Ping An fell asleep." Then he walked forward, and said in a deep voice as he walked, "Mrs. Ronghua, you and I Come."

I looked at the back of him walking forward in a daze, and when I turned my head to see Ji Jingyun, I was also a little dazed, bit my lip, and asked Xiaohong to help me follow up.

——2007, September, 3
Please look into my eyes:

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