The queen bullies me every day

Chapter 412 Zhao Sijin's Life ([-])

It is rare to find a good listener in the world, and it is even more difficult to find a bosom friend.

Although Gu Chengge couldn't understand the strange things that Zhao Sijin said, he didn't mean to interrupt Zhao Sijin at all.

He stood by his side silently, seeing that she couldn't help crying, he reached out his hand to wipe away the tears very naturally.

Zhao Sijin looked at him with tears in his eyes, and could clearly see the distress in his eyes.This made her feel even more determined that her past choices were not wrong.

After calming down, she sat side by side with Gu Chengge under the water chestnut window, letting the warm night wind brush her cheeks.

You tears were carried away by the wind, and covered Zhao Sijin's face with sparkles.

She stretched out her hand and wiped it, and continued: "Ever since my mother fell ill, she has been inseparable from people. She often runs out of the house by herself, but forgets the way home. I tried to put her Locked at home, but it is useless. She may forget to turn off the gas stove when boiling water and cause a fire, and may swallow an overdose of medicine that endangers her life when she is taking medicine. It seemed absurd, but I didn't find it strange that it happened to her at that time."

"She forgot everything, even who she was. In order to take care of her, I had to quit my job and use the meager savings I saved to barely maintain the life of our mother and daughter. The funny thing is that my mother occasionally wakes up. She often took me to chat with me. She took out the old photo album, pointed at me as a child in it, and said, "This is my daughter, she is beautiful. I often told her that one must be kind and have a heart." Those who have good thoughts, because good will be rewarded'."

"But in this world, is it true that goodness is rewarded with goodness?" Zhao Sijin sneered and shook his head, "Then what did my mother and I do that hurt the heavens and reason to be treated so cruelly by the heavens?"

Her tears overflowed like broken beads, Gu Chengge didn't know what to say to appease Zhao Sijin's emotions, he just gently held her slightly trembling shoulders, giving her warmth within reach.

"During the time I was taking care of my mother at home, my biggest hobby every day was to cover my head with a quilt in the dead of night, isolate myself from the world, and then read novels with my mobile phone in my arms. I only like to read sweet articles, like to read The kind of drama where the heroine has been suppressed for half of her life, or she is reborn and revived, or goes through a counterattack. Although I can guess all the plots of their subsequent development, I just like to watch it. I put myself into the novel, relying on such nothingness To paralyze myself with fantasies and let myself temporarily withdraw from the pain of reality.”

"But I never imagined that one day I would become like the characters in the book and come to this world through inexplicable time travel."

"When I first traveled through time, I was the same as described in all the novels. I couldn't believe my fate. I fell into a mountain stream and was taken away by bandits. They sharpened their knives and rushed at me. I was terrified at that time. Now, just treat it as a dream, close your eyes hard, and hope that when you open them again, you can return to reality."

"But when I opened my eyes again, I saw Jiang Mubai."

At this point, Zhao Sijin's voice was choked with sobs, "He saved me and took me back to Youdu. He was always by my side and made me laugh. He taught me the characters of Youdu and the local customs. , when I was the most vulnerable, he was always with me. After half a year after I traveled to this world, I gradually accepted the reality. I disappeared for so long without any reason, and my mother had no one to take care of me. Locked up. She couldn't find the key, so maybe I've indirectly killed her."

"During that time, I was plagued by nightmares every night. I could always dream that my mother was standing in a small spot of light far away, and she smiled at me. She told me from afar that she wanted me to live in this world. Live with peace of mind. Ask me to have good thoughts in my heart, and ask me to think of it as a fresh start."

"This is a brand new beginning. From the moment I met Jiang Mubai, my fate changed. He not only taught me to read and write, but also taught me a lot of knowledge that is not used in daily life. For example, how to Using a hairpin to kill other people, crushing writing with something to make those words invisible on paper, all these things are countless. He often praised me for being smart, and I only found out after a long time that it was because of my smartness that That's why I became his move to consolidate the imperial power."

"I believe Chu Jin has told you most of what happened later. After I knew that there was such a disgusting relationship between Jiang Mubai and Qiang Li, I told myself that the kindness of people's hearts will only melt away." A nightmare that prevents you from living a good life. Only by throwing it away completely can you truly live for yourself."

"So look at me now." Zhao Sijin stood up suddenly, opened the court dress with candle dragon tattoos embroidered on her body, looked around herself, and smiled wantonly, "Didn't I enjoy all the blessings in the world now? How many jins of silver can that insignificant kindness be exchanged for?"

"I have been kind since I was a child, and kindness has almost become synonymous with me. So my classmates saw that I was weak, and they rushed to bully me one by one. The teacher knew about my dad's drug dealing, and when he taught the word 'hypocrisy' in class, his eyes were on me. They stared at me all the time, causing everyone to laugh. I never hated them. I worked desperately and desperately wanted to change my destiny by myself. However, when everything seemed to be getting better, my mother fell ill, and I Inexplicably, I came to this ghost place through time travel. My mother has been kind all her life, has she ever enjoyed a day of happiness? I have been kind for half my life, and what did I get in the end?"

"Since the sky does not grant me justice, I will rely on my own hands to seek justice for myself!"

Her eyes were tearing apart, she clenched her hands into fists, stared at the boundless sky and cursed: "You heard me clearly! My life will always be in my own hands! You will never try to influence me! If you dare Stop me, I will destroy you as well!"

After all, he smiled unscrupulously.

Gu Chengge watched her quietly, he understood that Zhao Sijin was already crazy at the moment.

She was so crazy that she lamented the injustice of her fate, but she blamed all the crimes on the head of God.

It was as if she had always been a weak victim, who was forced to fight back by the sky.

But among the living people in this world, who is relaxed?

People are born and walk around the world, whether they are poor or rich, they all come to atone for their sins and pay off their debts.

Zhao Sijin is, and so is Gu Chengge.

He got up, stood side by side with Zhao Sijin, and cursed at the sky with her, swearing heartily.

Late at night, they hugged each other to sleep, Zhao Sijin leaned on Gu Chengge's chest.She closed her eyes and asked softly, "Will you stay with me until the end of your life?"

"Yes." Gu Chengge answered Zhao Sijin's words without hesitation. Although Zhao Sijin didn't look at him, his eyes radiated unwavering light, "I will always be with you until the end of my life."

Zhao Sijin smiled peacefully, and fell asleep accompanied by Gu Chengge's even breathing.

(I don’t mean to whitewash Xiao Zhao, but I’m just here to explain her life before time travel. The role of Xiao Zhao is a combination of contradictions and conflicts. Although she is the biggest villain in this book, she is also a real-life The epitome of many in.)
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