The queen bullies me every day

Chapter 499 [Si Jin Fan [-]] I only hope that your heart is like mine

(The inscription is excerpted from "Bu Suanzi I Live at the Head of the Yangtze River")
I met an interesting person.

He saved my life when we first met.He and Chu Jin are old friends, and because he is greedy for money, I can use him to securely control the state affairs of Youdu.

He has a nice and artistic name called Chengge.

This name does not quite match his suave and vulgar personality.I think he is very interesting, so I have some inexplicable affection for him.

After mastering the power of Youdu, while handling the state affairs, I have to take care of the glory of Jiang Mubai after his death, so as not to lose words in others' mouths.

He and that bitch He Lanshan were buried together on Xiaoxi Mountain, and the first thing I should do is to decorate the mausoleum grandly and drive away those peasant households entrenched on Xiaoxi Mountain.

Those farmers gave some money and used force, and most of them were willing to move away.

Only a family surnamed Long on the mountainside refused to leave Xiaoxishan Youyan. The leader came and reported to me several times. I was annoyed and ordered them to kill him.

Later, the leader brought back a hand account, which he said was searched from Long Weng's house, and brought back with the hand account, and 10 taels of silver bills.

I recognize that bank note, I gave it to Cheng Ge before, why did it fall into their hands?

I flipped through the handbook and found out an unbelievable secret.

I discovered Xuan Jue's identity, and it has become a hidden story of swallowing gentian to renew his life.

So, in order to avenge my dead child, I started to use Cheng Ge.

I seduced him with my beautiful skin. I know that few men in this world can refuse the temptation from this skin.

I was with him logically, pretending to be cute and charming, and told him my suffering.

He promised me to avenge me, promised me to trap Xuan Jue, promised me that he would protect me for the rest of his life.

But there was only one thing that he didn't want to accept.

Just don't allow me to play Chu Jin's idea.

At first, I thought his treatment of Chu Jin was nothing more than a childhood friendship, an ordinary brother-sister relationship.

Gradually, I found that Chu Jin's position in his heart was insurmountable. He said he loved me, but he knew who he loved in his heart.

I know it too, but I don't say it, and I don't care.

After all, I have never given my sincerity to him, so why should I ask the bottom line?

After Xuanjue was trapped for a long time, Haisheng took the throne of Emperor Zhao.Seeing that I am about to realize my grand plan and take the world of Dazhao as my own.

But at this time, Concubine Zhang and Murong Xuanping, who have been ignored by me all the time, set up an uprising, and together with the troops of the 72nd Department of Outer Borders, they were about to turn against Haisheng.

The incident was revealed, and the Zhao army under Haisheng's command was already doomed.The matter was exposed, if Youdu remained in the territory of Dazhao, I am afraid that after the 72 foreign forces captured Zhaodu, they would attack Youdu.

Together with Cheng Ge, I went to Yunjianjing, the new site of Youdu that I had chosen before, and I was going to settle down temporarily to find another plan.

During this period, I have a deeper understanding of the efficacy of gentian.

Taking gentian, although it will cause dragon poison, but as long as you take it continuously for ten years, you will live forever and have thaumaturgy.

Power can no longer satisfy my endless desires.The wish that the First Emperor failed to fulfill back then is now within my reach, how can I let it go?

Cheng Ge cared about my feelings very much. After I begged hard, he finally agreed to let me take gentian and take me to practice.

I also learned from him how to deal with real dragons.

To live forever, to rule the world, to be honored as the emperor, this kind of life is what the heart desires.

The way of heaven is unfair, it owes me, and I naturally have a way to get it back with my own hands.

Everything went very smoothly, the only thing that surprised me was that I actually fell in love with Cheng Ge.

Can't tell when it started.

It may be that every piece of clothing he added to me, every chopsticks and dishes he picked up, and every sentence of his instructions were stacked together, which made me feel a slight change in his feelings.

I started to care about his feelings and got used to his company. I would feel flustered if I didn't see him for a day.

I don't want to entrust myself to a man anymore, I dare not trust anyone anymore.

So I chose to escape, and I tried my best to prevent this feeling from taking root in my heart.

But useless.

Love is like crazy grass, it doesn't need any nutrients at all and can spread to every corner of the body.

Why bother?
Why do I bother to earn so many seemingly decent but useless pleasures?
From the beginning to the end, I just wanted to find someone to accompany me and live a simple and ordinary life for ordinary people.

The poisonous chicken soup in this world always says that the sense of security is not given by others, but given by oneself.

Yeah?Then why do I have everything, but I am more and more afraid to close my eyes every lonely night?
I haven't had a single day of peace since my father was shot.I even forgot what it feels like to close my eyes and sleep until dawn.

But Chengge can be given to me.

Every night he was with me, I slept very peacefully.

These things that even Jiang Mubai never gave me, he gave me without reservation.

I was shaken, I no longer wanted to take revenge, and I no longer wanted to fight for those unnecessary powers.

I have already used up the gentian, I can be an immortal couple with Cheng Ge, I should be satisfied.

I thought about spending the rest of my life with him, but he stopped me and told me to avenge my child. He said that he would not allow anyone to bully me.

I'm touched, but I'm not stupid.

He thought he was hiding it very well, but I could still see the clues from the details.

Even he himself didn't know, I got him drunk early in the morning, hypnotized him with thaumaturgy, and made him tell the truth about the so-called Dragon Slayer Formation.

I knew early on that I could have killed him and made him pay for his stupidity.

But in the end, the stupid one was me.

Just like I promised Jiang Mubai to enter Zhaodu as a spy, I handed over my life to him.

I'm so tired, I don't want to struggle anymore.

To my relief, in the end, he still fell in love with me after all.

When I went to the land of fireflies with him, I knew this was my last time, and I also saw the medicine he dropped in the kettle.

I drank the water and lay in his arms. I asked him if he loved me, and he answered firmly that I had.

That's enough.

I closed my eyes and lay in his arms, breathing evenly.

Maybe it didn't end well, but I never regret it.

The day I married him, the day I put on the wedding dress, was the happiest moment in my life.

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Not every encounter will have consequences, but every encounter will have meaning.

Thank you so much for appearing in my life.

(Emm, Xiao Zhao may not be a good person, but I have always liked her.)
(End of this chapter)