i didn't know i would love you

Chapter 124 My Love Is Only About You

As Gu Zihao's condition gradually stabilized, Su Qing's morning sickness became more and more serious. She often stayed in the bathroom for half an hour, her face turned pale when she vomited, and even bile came out.

And because of this incident, her appetite was not as good as before, she lost weight quickly, and her face was frighteningly pale, like a malnourished patient.

Gu Zihao saw it in his eyes and was anxious in his heart. He wanted to let her go home to rest several times, but he was worried that she would leave his sight. He was even more anxious about his recovery, and he came to change his medicine every day. Doctors are clamoring when they will be cured.

He has just experienced such a life-and-death catastrophe, not to mention the damage to his body functions, and it is quite difficult to eat, so he has lost a lot of weight, but he puts all his heart and soul on Su Qing and Su Qing's stomach, not at all. Aware of their own wrong.

Su Qing took his worry into her eyes and didn't say much, but she would eat as much as possible every day according to the doctor's instructions, so as to strengthen her resistance.

On this day, when Su Qing came out of the bathroom with a pale complexion again, Gu Zihao finally couldn't help it, and reached out to her with distressed eyes: "Let Zheng Yan come over later, you Rest well at home for a few days and don't come to the hospital again."

"Forget it, I'm just here for a while, and it won't be like this after a while."

Su Qing shrunk her body into a ball with some discomfort, and fell down beside Gu Zihao's bed, bent her body so as not to touch his leg that was in plaster, her voice was also weak, as if she was about to faint at any time.

It has been nearly a week since the operation ended, and Gu Zihao has been able to slowly sit up and lean on the bed with the help of external forces. Although he still can't make much movement, it is much better than the previous few days.

He looked down at the very thin Su Qing who was curled up beside him, and his heart was full of distress. He raised his hand to stroke her hair, and couldn't help but whisper: "Be obedient, go back and stay for a few days, I will I will let my aunt at home take care of me."

Thinking that she was worried about being alone in the hospital, Gu Zihao made a promise in a deep voice.

Su Qing's head moved slightly, and after hearing Gu Zihao's almost coaxing voice, she paused for a while before finally saying, "I'm not worried about you, I just don't want to go back."

Gu Zihao was slightly surprised by her muffled voice, and frowned: "Why don't you want to go back?"

Su Qing is not that kind of willful personality, nor can she clearly see that her health is the most important thing right now, she must have her own reasons for being like this now.

Slowly propping up her body, the discomfort just now has been eliminated a lot, Su Qing raised her head slightly, looked at Gu Zihao, her tone was flat, but what she said was completely opposite: "The last child died when she was about ten weeks old. , I am ten weeks now, I am very afraid..."

Her voice was very soft, but to Gu Zihao's ears, it sounded like a heavy hammer had hit his chest, making him breathless for a while.

Su Qing didn't get a response, she raised her eyes to look at Gu Zihao, but met his complex pupils, she was taken aback, and suddenly realized that what she just said might have made him think too much, so she chuckled lightly: "Don't be nervous , I don't mean to blame you, everything is over, I'm just a little worried about my own body—"

"Why did you agree to my remarriage?"

Before Su Qing finished explaining, Gu Zihao suddenly opened his mouth and asked a very abrupt question that he had always wanted to ask.

Since waking up, he can see the change of Su Qing's attitude towards him almost every day. Different from the rejection and resistance before the car accident, he can see that she is trying to accept herself and forget the pain of the past.

But he also understands that many things cannot be resolved by escaping like this. If he has to face the past sooner or later, then he would rather let all the things that may affect the relationship between them in the future surface in advance, and solve it now. Much better than planting this ticking time bomb.

Su Qing's expression remained unchanged, and she looked sideways at the people around her: "Why do you think I agreed?"

"for the kids."

For this hard-won and very unexpected child, for him to be born in a sound family without any lack of family affection or regret, this is Gu Zihao's idea.

Su Qing smiled, and slowly stroked her hand to her lower abdomen: "You are right, I am indeed for the child, no matter how happy a single life is, there is no way to make up for the lack of family affection, I cannot deprive him from birth. The right to live with my own father."

Gu Zihao's chest felt tight, and an untraceable sense of loss quickly surged up from all directions, surrounding him, and he even found it difficult to breathe: "It's just—is it because of this?"

Apart from the child's thought, does she have any other reason to want to come back to him?
Su Qing understood what Gu Zihao wanted to ask, so she twitched the corners of her mouth, not looking at his reaction, and continued: "Maybe, I always thought that only by leaving you completely can I live my life again, so I want to I was brave once, but when I saw you lying there without a sound, I suddenly felt that there is nothing more important than being alive."

Her slightly emotional voice came to Gu Zihao's ears with her usual soft tone. Although so many days have passed, that scene can still clearly appear in his mind.

He reached out to pull Su Qing's wrist, held her hand in his own, and said in a hoarse voice: "Come here."

Su Qing stood up and walked to the place closest to his body. Before she could sit still, she was hugged by Gu Zihao. The wound soon felt pain through her bones because of his big movements, and Gu Zihao groaned , but didn't intend to let go of Su Qing at all.

The temperature in the room was very high, and Su Qing felt a little uncomfortable being hugged like this. She was just about to struggle to get rid of Gu Zihao's movements when she heard his low voice: "Qingqing, do you still love me?" ?”

The air was so quiet that only the breathing of the two could be heard. Su Qing suddenly felt that she had some difficulty breathing. She raised her hand to push Gu Zihao's chest, but the other party didn't move at all, but hugged her even tighter.

"answer me."

Gu Zihao asked eagerly. The silence and struggle of the person in his arms made him feel inexplicably uneasy. He wanted to know the answer, but he was afraid that the answer would be the one he could not accept, so he was very entangled.

After an unknown amount of time, Su Qing seemed to have finally figured out how to speak. She leaned slightly sideways and rested her head in this hug that she hadn't felt for a long time, and said slowly:
"I don't know if I still love you, but all the love in my life is only related to you from the beginning to the end."

Originally, those feelings that she thought she could never explain clearly and those hurts that she thought she would never forgive again gave the best explanation and cognition in the face of life and death. love it.

In her not-so-long life of more than twenty years, she has only loved this one man. Even in those days when she thought she could gradually forget it, this love has not deteriorated. Luckily or Su Qing is too unlucky, no one can answer clearly.

Gu Zihao raised his hand to hug her even tighter, and his tone no longer had the harshness and arrogance of the past, but only deep affection: "I will never make you sad again, I promise."

"Cough cough..."

Before Su Qing could figure out how to answer Gu Zihao's embarrassing words, she heard a light cough from behind. She was startled, and stood up abruptly, but bumped into Gu Zihao's head because of her too much movement. The wound, he gasped and leaned back straight.

Su Qing was about to cry, so she hurried forward to check nervously: "How is it, is it a wound, do you want me to call the doctor?"

Seeing this, Gu Ruyun at the door also walked over quickly, put the thermos cup in his hand aside, and complained a little funny: "I'm not an outsider, why are you so excited?"

Gu Zihao endured the pain, raised his eyes and glanced at Su Qing with a smile: "Yes, Mom won't laugh at you, why are you so anxious!"

Su Qing was a little flustered, she raised her hand and rolled her hair, her face flushed slightly: "I didn't do it on purpose, who told you to be so dishonest!"

Seeing that she was a little shy, Gu Zihao immediately gave up: "Okay, okay, my fault, my fault!"

Gu Ruyun smiled slightly at the corner of his mouth, seeing his son's change in his eyes. He never had such a cheerful expression in front of her before. It seems that this accident is not all bad, but also has a good side.

She stepped forward to open the thermos cup she had just brought, poured the steaming chicken soup into the bowl and handed it to Su Qing: "Come on, Qingqing, this is the chicken soup specially made for you by the aunt at home, you are weak now , drink more."

Su Qing wanted to pick it up, but just as her eyes fell on the bowl of soup, her stomach felt nauseated again. She turned her head slightly and frowned tightly: "Mom, put it aside first, I'll drink it later." .”

Gu Ruyun also saw that his daughter-in-law was uncomfortable, put the bowl aside and sighed softly: "It's not an option to go on like this, or you can stay at home for a few days and take care of yourself, after all, there is still a small baby in your stomach. Yes, nutrition must keep up."

Gu Zihao also nodded when he heard the words, and raised his hand to pull her again: "Mom is right, you don't come here again tomorrow, take a good rest for a few days."

Su Qing still wanted to say something, but seeing her mother-in-law's distressed eyes, she finally nodded: "Okay."

Gu Ruyun was finally relieved, paused for a moment and then glared at his son: "When a wife is pregnant and a husband runs around to wait on you, it's good for you, you have to be taken care of by someone else when you're injured like this, I really don't know What should I say about you?"

Gu Zihao, who was already guilty, felt even more uncomfortable when he heard his mother say that, and he held Su Qing's hand even tighter.

(End of this chapter)