My princess Lu Ziye

Chapter 185 186 I have harmed our children.

Shangguan Yanwan didn't have any traces of emotion on her face, and her voice was very flat.

"Whether you did something wrong is not for us outsiders to judge.

This is a matter between the two of you, and others have no right to ask whether it is right or wrong, as long as you have a steelyard in your heart. "

Qing Ying was a little dazed, she turned her head to look at her, tears were still hanging on her long eyelashes.

After watching for a while, he turned his head and opened his mouth slowly.

"My husband and I were introduced to each other. Before we married him, my father was always nagging.

It is said that he is well educated, has poetry and books in his belly, is humble and treats others with humility.

He also looks like a jade tree facing the wind, gentle and elegant, and is a good husband candidate who can't be found in ten miles and eight villages even with lanterns.

Later, Dad didn't know what method he used to get his post, and the two exchanged birthday horoscopes, and the rest of the matter came naturally.

I just met the husband on the day we got married. When I saw it for the first time, I thought of what my father had said. He really is a rare husband.

My husband is outstanding in appearance, and he is also considerate to me. Although he is busy studying every day, he has never neglected me.

The days when we first got married were the happiest days.

When he reads, I play the fan for him; when he writes, I grind ink for him. The so-called red sleeves add fragrance, that's it.

I remember one time, I was a little homesick, but I just said that I wanted to eat wontons sold in Qingping Town, and he took it to heart.

When I got up the next day, I was shocked when I didn't see him. I searched for a long time, but there was no sign of him.

I sat on the stone pier at the door and wept. From a distance, I saw him running home with a bag.

When he got closer, he realized that he was sweating profusely, and he didn't know how long he had traveled.

I was startled, and hurried forward to wipe his sweat off.

He just smiled and said, 'Look, lady, this is your favorite wonton, I bought it for you. '

I got up early in the morning, took a car from one town to another, and had to walk a long way back and forth, just to buy me a bowl of wontons.

Seeing his silly appearance, I cried, crying like a child, and my heart was touched and distressed. "

Speaking of this, as if recalling the good and happy days in the past, Qingying smiled and tapped Lin Xiucai's face with her fingertips.

"While wiping his sweat with distress, I called him a fool and a nerd.

But I was thinking in my heart, maybe he is the only one with such a husband in heaven and earth.

Even if you give me gold and silver, I will not change it.

Maybe it was because I did good things in my previous life that I was allowed to marry this man, the man who put me on top of my heart.

Don't look at him as a scholar, in fact, he doesn't talk much on weekdays.

Sometimes when you act like a fool, it warms your heart.

I felt that I had never been so happy, and a strong thought came to my mind.

I want to give him a baby, a fat boy like him.

It's a pity that we have been married for three months, but there is still no movement. The more anxious we are, the more we will fail.

Later, I heard from people in the town that the Avalokitesvara in Qingquan Temple is very spiritual, and many people line up to offer incense every day.

Ever since I heard the news, I have been fascinated and have been looking for an opportunity to go with my husband.

My husband saw that I was depressed every day, so he guessed what was on my mind. After asking, he took me to Qingquan Temple without saying a word.

But whatever I want to do, he will always support unconditionally, never asking why.

I don't know if it's because of the wonderful Avalokitesvara, or the hard work of the two of us, but not long after I came back, I was diagnosed with pregnancy.

After pregnancy, my husband and I were really happy and thought about fulfilling our wish.

Originally, it was a good thing to go to Shangxiang to fulfill our wish. We went there with the best and most sincere intentions, but we didn't expect that that trip to the far door would become a farewell.

If I knew what would happen next, I wouldn't go out even if I was killed!
At the beginning, I didn't even go to incense. When the child should come, it will always come.

Even if I am not pregnant with a child, I would rather wait for a few more years and stay by my husband's side every day than say goodbye to him forever!
Until now, I still can't forgive myself, all of this was destroyed by my own hands!
I harmed my husband, I harmed our children, and ruined our happiness! "

(End of this chapter)