surrogate wife

Chapter 149 Shady
I have never used this kind of attitude and tone to him, so at that moment, Chen Haotian's face was ashen, as if he fell into a place that was incompatible with him at that moment, I thought he would treat him like before. Seeing me get angry, but he didn't, he just twitched the corners of his mouth, smiled wryly, and asked me, "Are you still angry?"

For a moment, I didn't know what expression or words to respond to him. I just felt a tightness in my chest. It wasn't the feeling of drowning, but a hard object was stuffed in my chest cavity, and I just needed to breathe Once squeezed, it hurts.

I sniffed and restrained my emotions. I knew that I couldn't cry at this time. When I cried, I would reveal my emotions. I wanted to pretend that I didn't care, that I could live well without him.

I stood there stiffly, no matter where I put my hands and feet, it didn’t feel right at all, I loosened my fist slightly, and then tried to keep my tone as light as possible, and I said: "I am not angry, and I have no right to be angry, I am going to the competition Alright, let's go first!"

His usual posture, stretching out his hand and grabbing my wrist, I shook it but didn't let it go, then looked up with sorrow in my eyes, my voice was hoarse, and I yelled at him: "I said, what else do you want?"

He didn't seem to hear it, and he didn't seem to understand what I meant by this. He just looked at me a little uncomfortable, and said, "Xinxin, stop making trouble!"

"You still think I'm messing with you up to now? No! Chen Haotian, I'm really tired! I'm very tired! I've had enough! I've had enough of your one-two and three-times, enough of all kinds of things. Guess, all kinds of waiting!"

"Xinxin, I am sincere to you, can't you treat me like this?"

"Chen Haotian! Am I sorry for you? Or are you sorry for me? It's you and Gu Xue who are entangled, not me!"

He was stunned and let go of my hand. I staggered a few steps and finally stood firm. I tried my best to suppress the surging emotions of bitterness and collapse, and swallowed my tears. I said, "Chen Haotian, we That's it, I'm really tired!"

"That's it, Xinxin, I won't allow you to leave me!"

I smiled wryly, the corners of my mouth couldn't move anymore, and I said: "Chen Haotian, being together is a matter for two people, but breaking up is a matter for one person! I am really tired and overdrawn, and I don't have the energy to go on! "

"Xinxin..." He called me, and suddenly hugged me, still with the kind of strength that can't wait to rub you into your bones. I knew I couldn't push him away, so I just let him hug me , After one or two minutes, he said coldly, "Have you hugged enough? If you hugged enough, let me go, I still have a game!"

He obviously felt the trembling of his body, and then withdrew his hand after all. Although his expression was hurt, his words remained unchanged, "Xinxin, you are mine, I will wait for you!"

"Don't wait for me!" I yelled hysterically, the tears that I had finally held back gathered in my eyes again, "Don't wait for me, don't!"

"I know you still love me!"

My mouth was bitter, and I didn't know how to respond when I heard what he said. He said: "If you don't love me, you would have changed your phone number. If you don't love me, why would you come out after receiving the flowers? Xinxin, I know that I made you wronged and suffered, but those are all things in the past, people can't live their whole life thinking about the past, what we want is the future, right?"

"Trust me, I can give you the happy life you want!"

I don't want to listen any more, I feel like my heart is starting to shake. "Stop talking!" interrupted hastily, wanting to get rid of him completely, but when I actually stood in front of him, I realized that all the decisions were not so easy!

Perhaps, you think that "the right person" is a flawless love, but this is not the truth of love. Only the loved one in this world has the right not to be picky.Perfect love is not that you can't see the shortcomings, but that you still don't want to shake your determination when you see the shortcomings. The so-called right person is that you are willing to tolerate his wrongness.

No matter how beautiful a thing is, once there is no result, don’t entangle it anymore. After a long time, you will definitely feel tired and tired. If you are alone, even if you take a long time, if you can’t grasp it, you have to let it go in time. After a long time, you will feel sad , will be heartbroken, and sometimes, giving up is another kind of persistence. If you miss the splendor of summer flowers, you will surely walk into the tranquility of autumn leaves.Anything, anyone, will become a thing of the past, don't get stuck with it, no matter how difficult it is, I know, I have to learn to withdraw.

The two thoughts were entangled, and I lost the courage to continue thinking at all. I went back to the dressing room as if I was fleeing. The staff saw me and immediately pulled me over, "Hurry up, I've been looking for you, get ready to play!" Said Wan Wan glanced at me, frowned slightly, and didn't ask any more questions, just asked the makeup artist to come over and touch up my makeup.

There are four shows in the final. Of course, the first three are knockout rounds. There are 40 people in total. The first is a dress show. disuse.

The second and third rounds are counted together, it is a fashion show. After the two rounds are over, they will be scored together, and then they will still be ranked according to the scores, and half of the people will be eliminated. In this way, only 15 people will enter the finals.

In the last round, the ranking is determined by the judges' scores and audience votes. A total of five awards will be selected, first, second, third, and two excellence awards. Before I even played, the ones in front of me That girl swears that she must be the champion, and there are girls chattering around. There is a girl who has chatted with me a few times before, and her name is Lu Qian. When she saw me standing here alone, she walked over. To say hello, she kindly took my hand and asked me what day I was playing.

I showed her the number plate pinned to my waist, and said with a smile, "Go up, the eighth!"

She said "Oh!" and showed me hers. She said, "I'm lucky. I got the second one, No. 37. I'm nervous right now. Give me some time to take it easy!" He shook my hand and said "Come on!"

I nodded my thanks and said softly, "Lv Qian, thank you! You too!"

Before going on stage, we had to arrange our belongings by ourselves. We wore dresses and naturally had no place to put our phones, so we all locked them up together. When the staff asked who hadn’t handed in their phones, the girl standing in front of me suddenly shouted: "Me! "After finishing speaking, he added, "Wait a minute, my godfather hasn't called yet!"

As soon as the words were finished, whispers began to spread around. In 08, the godfathers in the model circle were not exposed as wantonly as they are now, but people in the circle can naturally guess a little bit. This girl Her name is Lulu, and she usually likes to have the upper hand, and she speaks forcefully everywhere. When she shouts like this, no one dares to say anything.

Lu Qian pulled my arm and pulled me to the side, with a disdainful and sneering arc on the corner of her mouth, as if she was dissatisfied, but she didn't dare to publicize it, so she could only hold me and suppress her voice Said: "Look at her, she is really shameless, she calls her godfather every day, but she is closer than her own father. I heard people say that his father is an ordinary worker. Look at her, on weekdays They are picked up by a luxury car, and the clothes and bags are all famous brands, I think, nine out of ten of them were bought by the godfather she talks about!" After finishing speaking, she gave Lulu a gouged look, and said sharply: "She doesn't either. She was ashamed, and said it in front of us every day, lest people would not know, and said that she was the number one, I think, in all likelihood, his rich godfather gave her money!"

"Stuffing money?" I was a little confused, not knowing what she was talking about!
"You don't even know that?" She stared at me with monster eyes, as if she was surprised that I would ask such a question.I shook my head, still with this expression, she sighed, and said slowly: "You are so pure, these are all open secrets in the circle, either it is unspoken rules, or it is money, do you think this competition is really Those who are capable win the championship?"

After she finished speaking, she glanced at a woman in a white dress at the left rear, and then whispered: "Look at her, apart from her figure, she will definitely not be the best in our place in terms of appearance, but she and this The planner of the show is very good, we heard that they are boyfriend and girlfriend, we all guessed that either she or Lulu will take the first place."

I took a closer look at the girl. In fact, I had met with her before, but I didn't know each other very well. What Lu Qian said was quite right, her facial features were indeed quite ordinary.

I still couldn't believe it, and I said, "If it's as you said, wouldn't this game be all shady!"

She rolled her eyes, as if she was used to it, and then said lightly: "It's a shady scene, without money and power, it is impossible to get a ranking!" After she finished speaking, she glanced at me again, and said bluntly: "I speak from a conscience. , with your looks, if the competition is regular, you will definitely be the top model among this group of models, but to put it bluntly, it doesn't matter to you, don't wishful thinking about getting a ranking or something!"

I felt a lump in my heart, and murmured: "Then what's the point of competing like this!"

Most of the girls who come here to participate in the competition are here for the ranking, because they feel that if they have a ranking, they will attract more attention and have more opportunities. Now that she talks about it like this, they suddenly feel physically and mentally hurt. That feeling is that you have worked hard for a long time Suddenly being told that it is useless, not only disappointment, but also a lot of powerlessness against this reality.

In fact, the real suffering has only just begun, and I have just experienced the dark side of society, and what I can touch is only a small part. The real cruelty and unfairness are not what I can encounter now.

Lu Qian must have been wronged in her heart, but she may have experienced a lot, so she sees it more lightly than me. She said: "When I first found out, I had the same expression as you, and now I'm used to it!" After she finished speaking, she took me to the curtain He pointed to the place on the right side under the stage and told me: "Everyone in the circle knows that not all the best candidates are selected in such competitions, so some modeling agencies and film and television companies will come to see them in person. In fact, as long as you work hard, There is still a chance to be spotted by them, but I don't know how big the chance is!"

All the preparations have been made, and some staff members have come to let us stand in order. I feel uncomfortable and depressed, and the feeling of powerlessness all over my body makes me unable to breathe.

The curtain opened, the lights flickered, and familiar music played. We went on stage one by one in order. Every girl was full of dreams, but how many girls could really go out on this stage?

(End of this chapter)