Love for a limited time

Chapter 157
The doctor told me that my mother's situation is quite special. She is quite quiet when she doesn't see me, but she will go crazy when she sees me. He told me to be careful when I came to visit her, so as not to be discovered, which is more beneficial to the condition. !
I walked out of the hospital step by step, my legs felt like lead was poured, and I felt heartache every step I took.

I went to the suburbs by car to see my father. I knelt in front of my father. How I wish I could see him again, even if it was just his soul.

Doesn't it mean that people have souls after death?Why didn't Dad even once, his soul never appeared, even in a dream, is he blaming me?
I know I was wrong, but I can never get my father's life back, and I can never wake up my mother's sobriety.

What do I need to do?What should I do, is it wrong to love someone?Why punish me like this.

When I got home, the landlord was waiting for me at the door, and when he saw me, he immediately asked, "Is your house still rented? It's time to pay the rent!"

"No more renting, I will move out immediately!"

"Your rent has exceeded half a month, move out quickly, I have someone waiting to rent!" The landlord probably heard about our family's situation, and his words were extremely unpleasant.

"Oh, I said you are a girl who doesn't study well, but now you are fine, you killed your father, and your mother was also driven crazy by you. It is really a crime. You should move out tomorrow, and it will be bad luck to see you!" The landlord disgusted He glanced at me and walked away.

I stood in the room and looked at the place where I lived for a year. This was our first home in City A. On the day we moved here, our family cooked a lot of delicious food and celebrated here.

We finally have a home of our own, and we are finally urbanites, but we never thought that it would be like this in just one year.

Broken, messy, helpless, wandering.

I went back to my room to tidy up my things. I opened that little box that I treasured. Inside were all gifts from Junxi, the necklace whose price I don’t know, the little silver ring, which Li Lan and I bought a pair of. Couple cup, I hugged the box and cried for a long time.

Junxi, I'm sorry, I can't keep our agreement, I have to leave you, I have to leave.

The previous Xia Xia was not worthy of you, and the future Xia Xia is even more unworthy of you. I will only drag you and my parents down.

I know that I will be punished if I don't abide by the agreement like this, but now in this world, I only have two relatives, you and my mother, and I can't let any of you get hurt.

I want you all to have a good life. If you are well, I am willing to never see you again in this life.

I put those things away and put them in the suitcase. When I got to my parents' room, I put away my mother's clothes separately. The hospital's change of clothes always had to be delivered.

Some things cannot be taken away, forget it, the most difficult thing to bring is the TV, I still remember that my dad bought it specially during the Chinese New Year last year, our family sat under the TV together, making dumplings, watching TV, but only down me.

I had already called Teacher Ma a few days ago, and it was better to withdraw from school automatically than to be expelled, because I did not read it myself.

Teacher Ma persuaded me for a long time, but still respected my decision. I asked Meijuan to pack up the things in my dormitory and pick them up when I was free.

It was nearly three o'clock when I packed everything up, and I had to find a house tomorrow, since I was the only one living anyway, so I wanted to find a cheaper house.

Just after dawn, I went out to look for a house. The houses nearby are already the cheapest in this city. Where should I go? If I continue to live here, according to Junxi’s temper, he will come whenever he has the chance Find me here, since I decided not to see him again, I can't leave her any thoughts, only in this way, he will accept the arrangement at home, only if he forgets me, he will have a better future.

I have already hurt my parents, I can't hurt him anymore, I can't just watch the people who love me die and go crazy.

I want him to live a good life, so that I will feel better. If I am destined not to be happy in this life, then I only hope that he can live a happy life. I left him first, and I did not abide by those agreements. I alone bear all the sins.

The money in the passbook is for my mother’s medical treatment. I can’t talk nonsense. I can only rent the cheapest house. I asked people if there is any cheaper house. Someone told me that it is two stops away from here. There is also a house there, but it is a little far from the city center, called Qingyuan Town.

I decided to go back to my hometown to find my aunt and the others after I moved home. My parents have worked so hard for so many years and have so little hard-earned money left. I can't be cheated by her like this.

I rented a small single room. The landlord is a grandmother in her 60s. Her son and grandson are all in City A. They have a house there and rarely come back. She lives alone and mainly wants to find a companion.

After experiencing the warmth and coldness of the world for so long, this old lady finally gave me some comfort.

The kind look reminded me of my grandma. The moment she said that the rent was cheaper for me, I almost burst into tears.

I finally went to the house over there to hand over the keys to the landlord. Moreover, when my parents were renting the house, I saw the agreement when I was sorting things out, and I paid a deposit of 3000 yuan.

I didn't expect to see her, Han Xiaoya, when I was most embarrassed.

She was still so elegant and noble, standing at the door waiting for me, obviously waiting for a long time, her face was flushed with cold.

"Xia Xia!"

I looked up at her and wanted to try to give her a smile, to prove that I was not overwhelmed by these difficulties.

It's a pity that it was so cold that the corners of my lips were almost frozen, I must be so stupid!

"Are you okay?" Han Xiaoya walked towards me, like an angel, reaching out to pull me.

I dodged a little cautiously, but the smile on Han Xiaoya's face remained the same, her beauty remained the same.

I envy her very much, why I have never been so beautiful with a smile!

"Xia Xia, I know that you have encountered difficulties. If you have any troubles, you can tell me. I will help you. Junxi is locked in the room by his uncle and aunt. He has someone guarding him. He can't get out. He is very worried. You, let me come and see you, Xia Xia, are you still here, okay?"

Han Xiaoya hesitated when she said the word "okay". It's obvious that I'm not doing well, very badly.

The clothes on her body were dirty because of moving, and it was too late to change, her hair was messed up, her face hadn't been washed for several days, and she couldn't be more embarrassed.

"Xia Xia, I'm here to help you. Junxi asked me to come. You haven't eaten yet. I'll take you to eat first!" Han Xiaoya came over to hold my hand again.

I hurriedly took a step back to avoid her, tilted my head and looked into the distance, not looking into her eyes: "Dirty, I mean my hands are dirty, it will stain your clothes!"

(End of this chapter)