Love for a limited time

Chapter 160
Coming out of the hospital, I suddenly felt like I didn't know where to go.

When I went back to the rental house, it was deserted and alone, but I didn't know where to go if I didn't go back there.

During the winter vacation, everyone is on holiday, and there are people everywhere.

Suddenly I want to treat myself to a movie.

Unknowingly, I walked to the movie theater. The movie theater on the commercial street was the longest when Song Junxi and I didn't know the movie theater near my hotel.

It's full of our fondest memories!
I remember that the movie that day was Infernal Affairs 3, and I watched the first two with Song Joon Hee, but San hadn't had time to watch it yet.

The movie was released on December 12. At that time, there was no shopping event on Double 12. We made an appointment to watch that movie together, but we still haven’t waited for that day.

I stood at the door and hesitated for a long time. I was reluctant to give up the 39 yuan movie ticket. It was enough for me to eat several meals. I can’t be so extravagant. Every penny in my pocket has its use.

I hold the living expenses of 100 yuan left in my pocket. I plan to spend this [-] yuan in the next year. If I watch a movie today, it will definitely not be enough.

I stood there in a daze, and the lady at the cash register urged me, "Do you want to buy it or not?"

I took out the money that I had pinched out of shape in my pocket. This was the last time, really the last time. I wanted to say goodbye to the past. It was really the last time.

The time had already passed, and I hesitated for so long. When I entered, the movie had already started, and I was sitting in the corner of the last row.

In fact, I like to sit in the corner, and I don't like people around me, and I don't like others prying into my thoughts.

Many people say that compared with the first two movies, the ending of Infernal Affairs is not good-looking, and it feels like a dog's tail.

But I feel that this one really expresses the meaning of Infernal Affairs.

Wujian, this hell is one of the eight great hells in the Buddhist scriptures, and it is also the most bitter one among the eight great hells, just like the bottom layer of the eighteen hells we said.

It is said that those who are sent to the Infernal Hell are all sinners.In the endless hell, they will never have any hope of liberation, and they will never feel other than suffering.

Birth and death, reincarnation of cause and effect, the sins of the previous life will be paid after death, I killed my father, drove my mother crazy, and affected my children. After my death, I will be thrown into this endless hell!

It seems that all evils come to an end here, but those lives that have passed away in vain never come back.

Chen Yongren, played by Tony Leung, went from being a police fanatic to sacrificing his life at the end. Has he regretted it?

Until the sad music without lyrics sounds, the end of life is like the curtain call of this movie, and everyone returns after the end.

Later, I learned that this song without lyrics was called Three Years and Three Years, which fit the occasion very well, just like Tony Leung's never-ending undercover for three years and three years.

I don't know how many three years there are in my life, and I don't know what else I will experience. What I am doing now is just to redeem my sins.

When I meet my dad somewhere one day, tell him that I take good care of my mom.

I walked out of the theater with the crowd, and vaguely heard someone calling my name, but when I turned around, there was a lot of traffic, and there were unfamiliar faces.

It seems that I was hallucinating.

I quickly followed the crowd into the underground passage and took the bus home, where I should be staying.

I sat on the bed and picked up the materials I bought for preparation for the fourth level, but I didn't even go into the examination room.

I was suffering, desperate, and wanted to completely forget the past, but those things happened to be as clear as yesterday.

I called Luo Meijuan to deliver these books for me.

Since Song Junxi and I had an accident, the only person I have been in contact with is Luo Meijuan. Although I have known her not long ago, perhaps because of Li Lan's relationship, she is the one I trust the most.

She later asked me to meet again, saying that Song Junxi was looking for me like crazy at school.

When he said that he waited for me to appear downstairs all day and night in the dormitory, he couldn't help but choked up.

My tears had already flowed into a river in my heart, but I didn't want to cry in front of her, I didn't want her to worry about me, so I pretended to be calm and drank water: "It's all over!"

"Did you really forget?"

"I forgot!" I drank my saliva and looked at the snowflakes outside the window.

Just like the night we ran away from home!
"I heard that he is going abroad. Maybe if you don't see him now, you won't see him for the rest of your life!" Meijuan took my arm: "If you want to see him, I'll ask Wu Gang to contact him!"

I shook my head desperately: "Meijuan, I have already forgotten him, really! I have already forgotten him!"

"I heard from Wu Gang that even the Song family will go abroad this time, and they are no longer in City A. It will be really difficult for you to meet again in the future!"

"It's better this way, isn't it?" I couldn't help but drop a tear into the cup.

I picked up the cup and drank it, but my throat was tight and it was hard to swallow!
"Xia Xia, don't lie to yourself. Why can't people who really love each other be together? Sister Lanlan is dead, and Wu Gang is walking dead. I thought you and Junxi could be happy, but I didn't expect it to be like this. I began to doubt that this world If you fall in love, there will be no good end!"

Luo Meijuan held my hand and wept endlessly. She is not the kind of person who sheds tears easily, unless it is extremely hurt, otherwise she will not do so.

Even when Wu Gang heard Ma Li's words that day and hugged Ma Li out of control, I didn't see her cry.

I don't want others to sympathize with me like this, and I don't want anyone to shed tears for me anymore. This will make my sin even more serious.

"I'm leaving, don't tell anyone you've seen me!" I stumbled away.

I heard Meijuan crying and calling my name behind me: "Xiaxia, where are you going, will you contact me in the future?"

I paused, and finally became ruthless and didn't look back!

The New Year’s bell was ringing, and I stood alone in front of the window, listening to the noisy firecrackers and fireworks all over the sky. I held a hot water cup in both hands, hoping to warm my heart, but I still felt terrible cold.

My heart is cold, no amount of hot water can keep me warm!

The old grandma's son and his family came back to spend the New Year with the old man and asked me to come over for dinner, but I refused.

Grandma didn't insist any longer, and she was moved by the scene. The scene of such a family reunion reminded me that when our family was together, I was afraid that I would cry.

That would be too unsightly and I don't want to spoil their good time as a family.

The song Unforgettable sounded tonight, the Spring Festival Gala was over, I got up and turned off the TV.There are still sporadic firecrackers outside.

I turned off the light, closed my eyes, and said to myself, Xia Xia, happy new year!

(End of this chapter)