Mr. Jin's apex

Chapter 922 Silly girl, stop deceiving yourself

The man retreated weakly, and sat down on the chair next to him. At this moment, he seemed to have lost all the strength in his body, and he couldn't get any strength out.

Looking at the grandma lying on the hospital bed in pain and remorse, she wanted to say many words in her heart, but when the words came to her lips, she finally took them back.

How could he hide his face and blame grandma when he was here?Now the bottom part of his heart is the same as grandma's, why should he portray himself as a person who has done nothing wrong?

Lowering their heads in pain and scratching their hair vigorously, it was the same as how each other could solve the matter.But at this moment, a lot of troubles surround my heart, and there is still no way to relax.

"sorry."

At this moment, a very weak sound of apology came from the quiet ward. Jin Yandong was stunned, and he was so arguing that he looked towards the hospital bed, but he didn't expect that this sentence was really said by his grandmother.

At this moment, lying on the hospital bed, the dying grandma lifted up like this, only to see her upper body facing Xiaoming, but she still didn't have the strength to fall down feebly.

"I'm not sorry for me, you're absolutely not sorry for me, you don't need to blame yourself, all the mistakes are caused by me alone, you don't seem to need to feel guilty in your heart, everything is my fault."

Jin Yandong came forward to say this to his grandma in the lesson of admitting mistakes. He didn't know what to do. Grandma is so self-blame now that she feels like she has done something wrong. She wants to apologize to grandma , but I don't know what to say.

"I'm sorry, it's all because of me. If it weren't for my existence, you two would definitely have a very happy life."

Jin Yandong rushed up to kiss Mo Zuo's grandma's hand, but at this moment, grandma still stubbornly said her own words, like a stubborn person who can no longer listen to other people's opinions, such a painful and remorseful self-blame.

Jin Yandong vigorously shook his head and denied his grandma's statement. The grandma of this subject said it so seriously, as if she really took this matter to the bottom of her heart, and there was no way to be slippery. Jin Yandong only felt that He felt so guilty, it must be himself, those fancy grandmas had such thoughts in their hearts just now, otherwise how could he be so sad?

"It's all my fault, it's all my fault. If I could have persuaded you not to have so many consequences, it wouldn't be like this now."

Grandma was trembling for the test, insisting on it all the time, speaking her own words, this Jin Yandong was very close to him, and could clearly hear what he said, and felt pain in her heart as if being pulled.

"It's not all my fault, grandma. Don't blame yourself. Take a good rest now, and you will be fine."

At this moment, even a man of eight feet could not control his tears completely.Holding grandma's hand tightly in such pain, even if I know that what I said is comforting myself and grandma, after all, even the doctors and nurses are already at a loss, why should I say this? Will things pass safely?
But after all, he didn't want to see grandma in such pain, forgetting the pain and guilt that grandma felt from the bottom of his heart, and actually oppressed his whole being.

"Everything is my own fault. Didn't you persuade me at the beginning? It's just that I didn't listen. Now I have to blame myself. Don't blame yourself, okay?"

Jin Yandong shook his head vigorously, and then clarified this sentence with his grandma.I don't want my grandma to bear all the guilt on me when she dies.That would be too unfair to him. He never had any happy time in his life, and now he still blames himself and feels guilty like this when he dies. Is this really fair?
"No, it's all my fault. I've always been the one who didn't do well. It was the same with you, and the same thing with Yan Zhan's child." Grandma said, and finally choked up here, as if she couldn't control it. My own emotions trembled violently, "I have done too many wrong things in my life, so God will let me encounter such a thing. This is a punishment and lesson for me. This is a warning to me. I finally went, I dare not do wrong things anymore, but now I have no chance, you must take care of yourself after the child. And Song Luoyu Song Luoyu, she is still young now, she has suffered all those hardships... So, no matter what, you have to take care of yourself and him, and don’t care about anything with him no matter what, the two of you should treat each other well.”

Grandma's wrinkled face was flooded with tears, and Jin Yandong only felt the pain in his heart. He kept shaking his head, wanting to reject what grandma said.But at this moment, grandma held his hand firmly, as if silently asking for help.

"Grandma has taken many measures, but there is no way to make up for it. Even if you are Song Luoyu or Yan Zhan... you three are children who suffer because of me. I can't make up for it in this life. In the next life, I have to make up for what I owe you all my life."

"You don't want to talk stupid anymore?"

After all, Jin Yandong couldn't control his emotions, and roared out loudly. At this moment, seeing his grandma blaming him like this, he only felt that he was in more pain and discomfort than ever.

After all, he couldn't figure out what he did wrong, why God was punishing him, why the whole Qianqian couldn't forgive what he had done, and now even the grandma had to leave him. The one who should be punished the most!
But now grandma can't listen to it at all. He takes all the blame on himself, and it is obvious that he will bear all the blame on himself until he dies.

"Son, don't blame me, and don't blame Song Luoyu. Many things in this world are unfair. Blind cognition and blind shock will only harm your life in the end. So let go of all the pain, To get back what you wanted to hold on to in the first place..."

Grandma seemed to have exhausted her last bit of power to say these words. At that moment, her whole body seemed to have no strength after all.Even he completely let go of Jin Yandong's hand.All of a sudden, he fell to the side of the bed, and the whole person seemed to be completely out of breath, with his eyes still open.

"grandmother……"

Jin Yandong understood, his whole body was shaking constantly, as if he couldn't believe the emotions he saw.same as empty.

At this moment, the man seemed to be crazy.

The tall body stood up at once, threw herself on the hospital bed, grabbed grandma's arm forcefully, then shook, calling out loudly.

"You're fine, you'll be fine, wake up, don't fall asleep now, don't fall asleep now, you'll be fine."

Even though she felt that grandma's body was getting cold gradually, and there was no way to close her eyes at this moment, she knew exactly what was going on in her heart, but she was still unwilling to accept this fact.

Turning his head angrily, he yelled at the doctors and nurses who were already sluggishly standing in place: "Isn't it your responsibility to wear clothes? Now that the root cause of the disease is shown in front of you, why don't you rush to the rescue? You can all What are you doing there? Let me tell you, I will hold you accountable if something goes wrong. Why don’t you hurry up and see how my grandma is doing?”

The man's shirt is very popular. At this moment, even though the doctors and nurses knew that it was too late to give first aid to the situation, they still stepped forward to do the last work.

It's like a drama that you know it's acting but you know it won't end.These actors can only do their duties to the extreme, doing emergency first aid operations that they do almost every day, but they understand in their hearts that no matter how hard they try to save the drowned old lady on the hospital bed, they will not be able to recover. Will wake up again.

"Sir, I'm sorry, we have tried our best, but the old lady is out of breath and has no vital signs now. She has been declared dead."

The doctor frowned and turned around to say this. At this moment, there was a bit of forbearance in his gaze, as if there was no way to calm it down no matter what.

"How is it possible? My grandma was still talking to me a few minutes ago. You are all lying to me, aren't you? You are all colluding with grandma to perform a play. Talk to me, right?"

The man fell down and sat on the ground next to him as if he was in pain. At this moment, he raised his hand and grabbed his hair, and kept his head down with the other hand, hoping that he would wake up completely. It's all a dream.Grandma must still wake up.

"Sir, things in this world are unpredictable. Life and death are fate. Everyone has no way to stop something. What's more, the old lady is old and has underlying diseases. Now she has encountered those things. There is a chance of survival Very low."

The nurse also seemed to be unable to see, or she just said a word, and then another doctor in charge pulled her sleeve.He signaled her not to continue talking.

"I don't believe in your nonsense, you are all lying, you are all deceiving people here, who doesn't know what your purpose is, you just want to make me forget all the decisions, and there is no way to make this matter Solved? I know. I know what to do."

Those two points stretched his head and said this sentence, but at this moment, he didn't feel any courage in the whole sentence, because he already knew what this matter was, and he also understood whether it was true or not. Ways to change the facts too.

It's just that I have a way to accept it in my heart. The person who used to be so alive in front of me now just walks away like that. If it were anyone, I'm afraid there is no way to accept it easily.
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The news of Mrs. Jin's death quickly spread throughout the capital. At this moment, Shen Ran, who was in college in Kyoto, heard the news, hesitated for a moment, and still dialed the phone number of her friend.

When the phone was connected, the number of girls on the opposite side was still doing something outside, and the other party's voice sounded a bit noisy.Shen Ran hesitated for a moment, but still asked cautiously.

"Luo Yu, I am now documenting something more important. Telling you may hurt you a little bit. Can I tell you now?"

All along, the relationship between Shen Ran and Song Luoyu has been very relaxed and pleasant, but Song Luoyu seldom hears Shen Ran's serious paintings. At this moment, the emotion on his face can't help but become Xia , I always feel that there is a bad premonition that is getting clearer and clearer in my heart.

After hesitating for a moment, he looked at the surrounding environment, walked to a nearby stone bench and sat down, as if taking a deep breath, then raised his eyes and looked in the direction in front of him.

Then he opened his mouth and said softly to the friend on the other end of the phone, "Well, I can say that I can listen to what you say in my current environment."

Shen Ran didn't hesitate after hearing Song Luoyu say this.He lowered his head and kicked the stone under his feet, feeling a little depressed in his heart, always feeling that the situation was a bit shocking.

"That's right, do you still remember your grandma?"

Shen Ran hesitated to speak, but just halfway through her words, Song Luoyu interrupted her words as if she had thought of something.

"Grandma...what's wrong with grandma? Has she been found? How is she doing now?"

Song Luoyu originally thought that he would not care about the situation of that family anymore, but for some reason, when he heard Shen Ran's hesitant words at this moment, you and the grandma who was mentioned, his whole heart still trembled after all. There is no way to be completely calm.

She still remembered that before she left, grandma hadn't come back, because grandma said she was going to climb the mountain in order to find a Chinese medicine doctor for herself.But grandma didn't show up until he left. At that time, Jin Yandong seemed to be sending someone to find grandma, saying that something might happen.

I myself was in a state of confusion at the time, thinking only about escaping from the illness, and left without waiting for news from my grandma.And what is the situation of grandma now, I have always been puzzled in my heart, has anyone told her,
When Shen Ran said those words, she always felt a bad premonition that surrounded her.Seeing that Shen Ran seemed to have misheard, she still took the initiative to ask.

"It doesn't matter, he is already very old. It is understandable that sometimes something goes wrong and something happens. You just say it directly. Don't be afraid that I can't bear it. I am mentally prepared."

After all, Song Luoyu thought that grandma just had a little accident, at best, she fell somewhere, but he didn't expect it to be so serious...

"She passed away."

After all, Shen Ran said these four words in silence, and said nothing more in the future.I wanted to think that I had an auditory hallucination when I heard it, and I froze on the spot for a long time. I forgot to finish it for a while, as if I couldn't accept this thing, and said helplessly to the girl on the other end of the phone: "You Be serious, don't make a joke, this kind of joke is not funny at all, or maybe I heard it wrong just now, and you haven't answered my question at all. "

Shen Ran seemed to have expected Song Luoyu's reaction a long time ago. At this moment, he felt as if his heart had been ripped apart, and the pain was excruciating. He lowered his head, and after all, he stopped and looked not far away. vehicles traveling.

"I said, your grandma passed away. Did you hear me clearly? You heard me right. When a person dies, he dies, and there is no way to change it."

Shen Ran seemed to never want to see Song Luoyu deceiving herself like that again, and at this moment she roared vigorously, but Song Luoyu finally remained in place, feeling that the pain in his heart had suppressed him to the bottom of the dust.

(End of this chapter)