not to marry you

Chapter 169

Ning Xuan was stunned, gasped and stood on the spot, let him hold her without moving, and then explained softly: "I just went for a morning run."

Chen Yumo was slightly startled, then gently held her shoulders, made her face him, and said in a hoarse voice, "I don't remember you having the habit of running in the morning~"

Ning Xuan didn't meet his gaze, but lowered her head slightly, her long eyelashes were soaked with sweat and stuck to her eyelids, and she replied softly, "En."

"Don't run around in the future, you know? I'll be worried." The drops of sweat on her pale little face became more transparent, and her bloodless lips were slightly closed, making him look like his heart was blocked by something. Generally, it is almost impossible to breathe.

"En." She still nodded obediently, so well-behaved that she didn't look like herself.

Chen Yumo sighed softly, and then reached out to wipe the sweat off her face. As soon as her fingertips touched her cheek, she subconsciously avoided it.He was startled for a moment, and wanted to continue, but she suddenly walked away: "I'm going to take a shower."

His fingers were hanging in the air, trembling slightly: "Don't go."

She stopped in her footsteps, then turned around and smiled at him: "Is there anything else?"

Her calm and even indifferent attitude made him feel even more uncomfortable, his arms slumped down, he closed his eyes gently, and forced out a sentence: "I'm sorry."

Ning Xuan's body trembled slightly, the corners of her lips twitched a few times, but she still didn't make a sound.Sorry, are you apologizing to her for what happened last night?She is not a fool. When he hugged her just now, she smelled a woman's fragrance on his body, and there were clear hickey marks between his collarbones.

How could she go on deceiving herself any longer?He betrayed her!This fact made her heart ache so much that she could hardly breathe.

"It's okay." A moment later, she suddenly smiled again, very sadly, even if he betrayed her, what right did she have to blame him?Their marriage was originally built on an unequal relationship, but their own efforts were never enough~~
"Ning Xuan, I, you listen to my explanation~" He didn't want to see her sad, let alone see her pretending to be strong. At this moment, he hated himself, and hated himself for being unconscious sometimes.

But she quickly stopped him: "Don't say anything, don't say anything." She didn't want to hear any explanation, and she would rather he didn't explain anything to her.Because she needs time to heal herself, she is afraid that in the next second, she will not be able to help crying, so she wants to run away, running away desperately.

"Don't go." He suddenly hugged her from behind, tightly, without leaving a gap: "Trust me, I will never betray you, never."

She took a deep breath, her heart throbbing again and again, her words were silent, the facts were right in front of her eyes, how do you want me to believe you?Besides, do you trust me? You don't trust me. We don't even have the most basic trust between us. How can we go on?

After a pause, she gently pushed away his big hands that were tightly wrapped around her waist, and ran to the bathroom without looking back.He looked at her fleeing figure in a hurry, and sat down on the sofa weakly.She doesn't believe him?Or just don't care?Ning Xuan, what do you think, can you tell me how we became like this, how come?
He ran to the bathroom and closed the door with a "bang".Sweat covered her body, and her clothes were sticky to her body, which was very uncomfortable. Ning Xuan wiped it off with three or two strokes, and then turned on the water head, letting the warm water fall down, and the pores shrank one after another, just like Like her heart, it shrinks into pain.

She didn't close her eyes all night, didn't eat anything, and went out for a run early in the morning. Naturally, her body couldn't bear it, and she was so weak that she almost couldn't stand still. But now, at this moment, she can't be weak, she needs to be strong, she needs to be weak. Think carefully about their future path and how to go on.

When she came out of the bathroom, she was only wearing a nightgown, her hair was wet, dripping water constantly, her pale face turned red, probably because she was bored for too long.Then I sat in front of the mirror, brushed my hair, dried my hair, put on makeup, changed clothes, and moved mechanically like a wooden man.

Sitting on the sofa, Chen Yumo was also in a very depressed mood, so he lit up a cigarette casually, smoking one after another, until the whole living room was filled with smog, and then smothered it out fiercely.How can I do?He had never hated himself so much as now.

Suddenly, he got up and went upstairs to her room, just in time to see her coming out wearing a snow-white off-the-shoulder dress, with a light makeup on her pretty face, smiling at him.

He was stunned for a moment, looking at her suspiciously, especially when he saw the smile on her face, he felt a sharp pain in his heart, and after a while, he asked in a hoarse voice: "Where are you going?"

Her long eyelashes trembled slightly, but she still smiled faintly: "Today is Yonghang's wedding, didn't you want me to go?"

Chen Yumo frowned and clenched her fist unconsciously. He Ningxuan, what do you mean now?punish me?

"Don't go..." Resisting the grief and indignation in his heart, he gently turned his face away, how could he have the courage to gamble now?If he loses the bet, he will lose her forever. If he wins the bet, so what?He has survived for eight years, why can't he wait for her?

It’s because he is too selfish, he feels that getting a little is not enough, and wants more~~
"But I'm all dressed up, do you think I look good in this dress?" She never knew how she could be so calm, it's not like her at all.

"Ning Xuan, what do you want from me?! Can't you believe me?" He stretched out his hand and pulled her arm hard, his tone full of helplessness and pain.

"You hurt me." The more it hurts, the more sober and calm she becomes. She also hates this kind of herself.But he couldn't help but wanted to break free from his big hand.

But he refused to let go, so he held her tightly, no matter how hard she tried, she would not let go.

In the end, she was so angry that she lowered her head and bit his big hand hard, biting him hard with all her strength.There are countless voices shouting in my heart: Chen Yumo, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you to death!Why betray me, why? !

She didn't let go until she bit to relieve her anger and her heartache became numb.

Chen Yumo gasped in pain, but he endured it. He would rather she get angry, beat him, scold him, than see her like that just now, that's the greatest humiliation to him.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Gently with his big hand, he pressed her whole body into his arms, and repeated in a low voice: "Trust me, Ning Xuan, I don't."

She was in his arms, trembling uncontrollably, the long hair she had combed just now was disheveled, fine cold sweat broke out on her forehead, and she asked in a trembling voice: "Who is she?"

Chen Yumo was obviously taken aback, then remained silent, not knowing how to answer.

She raised her head and looked into his eyes: "Don't you dare tell me? Are you guilty?!"

He frowned tightly, and said with difficulty: "I, my ex-girlfriend." He didn't want to tell her, but he didn't want to lie to her even more.

But he didn't know that these words were like a bolt from the blue to Ning Xuan.Ex-girlfriend, the most taboo person among women, she never thought that her inadvertent question that day has now become a reality. Does Chen Yumo want to rekindle his old relationship with his ex-girlfriend?And the speed is so fast, it has reached the point of lingering love.

She really wanted to ask him this, but she didn't ask him in the end, she just froze, exited his embrace, and exited his body full of perfume and tobacco smell.

"I'll go back and touch up my makeup. I'm going to Yonghang's wedding."

Without even asking another word, she turned and went back to the room.

"Wait a minute, do you have anything else to ask?" He was so helpless, his handsome face twisted, he pulled her petite body back, and then locked her in his arms.

She shook her head with a blank expression on her face. What else do you want to ask?What else is there to ask?She knew his character. He would have sex with other women, and he was his ex-girlfriend. That only showed that he still loved that woman.

What else can she ask?Do you have to embarrass yourself so much that you have no way out?She was never that kind of woman.She has her pride, her self-esteem, and her little waywardness.

"Ning Xuan, do you not believe me, or do you not care about me at all?" He placed his hands on her shoulders, trembling uncontrollably, with veins popping out on his arms.

He couldn't understand, couldn't figure out her thoughts, she seemed to deliberately not let him get close, or, she never let him get close.

"Do you dare to say that you didn't touch her last night?" The corners of her lips twitched a few times, and Ning Xuan pulled a bitter smile, agitated a lot: "I'm not a fool, is it interesting for you to lie to me?"

(End of this chapter)