The favored imperial concubine

Chapter 286

Although she successfully obtained Kangxi's trust and promise, Nian Xilan was not only not half happy, but gradually fell into a deep loathing of herself.Nian Xilan recalled how she used and deceived Kangxi from the beginning of her rebirth until now, and suddenly realized that she had become the kind of woman she hated the most.Only talk about the purpose, no sincerity, no truth.In order to achieve his own goals, he can deceive everyone, even himself, by all means.

Nian Xilan knew that even though she made an appearance of complete trust and dependence on Kangxi on the surface, in her heart she still couldn't break through the layers of high walls she had built over the years.If she trusted Kangxi, she would not bury her troubles deep in her heart, and never mentioned a word to Kangxi.No matter how painful and hesitant she is, she will suffer alone and silently.Because, in her heart, she always thought that the one she could really rely on was never the emperor of the Qing Dynasty, nor the husband who cared for her, but only herself.

However, even though she deceived herself and hinted that this is the life she wanted, Nian Xilan was still very unhappy and even felt unprecedented frustration.Whenever she looks at Kangxi's doting eyes, Nian Xilan's heart seems to be split in two by a sharp sword. On the one hand, she is extremely happy, and she can't wait to throw herself into Kangxi's arms to express her heartfelt love to him; Not far away, don't believe in any ridiculous love again, and lose the life of yourself and your children.

Nian Xilan knew that she had a heart disease, and she was still seriously ill.Even though she lived in the Rehe Palace and looked at the picturesque scenery every day, Nian Xilan still lost weight rapidly.She knew she had to see the children as soon as possible.As long as she sees three treasures who love her life and are precious, she can regain the direction of her life, get rid of those charming thoughts she shouldn't have, and walk the path she should walk wholeheartedly.

Nian Xilan finally couldn't bear the longing and strong desire in her heart, told Kangxi how she missed Yinxi, Yue Ning and Yinhu, and begged Kangxi to take her back to the Forbidden City to visit the children.However, Kangxi, who has always loved Nian Xilan so much, did not agree to Nian Xilan's request this time. Instead, he used Mulan Qiuwei as an excuse to tell Nian Xilan that he could only drive back to the palace after Qiuwei.

Nian Xilan was very disappointed in her heart, but she also knew that Mulan Qiuwei was a major national event. Kangxi often used Mulan Qiuwei to summon the princes of Mongolia, which played a role in the stability of the Qing Dynasty that cannot be ignored. Then cancel.

With the construction of the summer resort, Kangxi often spent about half a year in Chengde every year, and many important military and political affairs, ethnic diplomacy and other government affairs were handled here.Therefore, Kangxi ordered her to live in Qiuwei before returning to the Forbidden City with her car.

Nian Xilan suddenly realized that she seemed to be trapped in a terrible trap, and could not find the way back, so she could only grope forward in the dark in an unknown direction.

Kangxi has always been very concerned about Nian Xilan, even though Nian Xilan concealed it well, Kangxi still saw the flaw.He was surprised to find that besides the joy and gratitude in Nian Xilan's clear eyes, there was also a hint of guilt and anxiety in the face of the great favor he had given him.This discovery made Kangxi's heart seem to be tightly pinched by an invisible hand. Although there was no severe pain, it was as sad as suffocation.

After retreating from the imperial court, the distraught Kangxi sat alone on the dragon chair of the Danbo Jingcheng Hall, frowning, staring uncertainly at the sapphire blue of the Yougu Zhilan pattern embroidered by Nian Xilan himself. Jinpa thought carefully about all the past events that had happened since he met Nian Xilan, and after a long while, he let out a foul breath.

Kangxi stroked his forehead, shook his head and said with a light smile: "What a powerful little girl, she knows better than me how to play tricks and pretend to be true. She obviously remembered everything, and she clearly missed the children so much, but she would rather continue Pretending to be ignorant and amnesiac to deal with me, but also unwilling to tell the truth. It seems that Lan'er still doesn't believe me..."

(End of this chapter)