The little wife of the demon president

Chapter 1148 Don't read the past

He caressed my face distressedly: "Xiaomi, don't ask about it, but it's okay, I'm willing to let you go. Even if I lose everything."

Why is it like this, I slumped in a chair in vain, unwilling to tell me everything, I thought you would tell me, but even you didn't want to.

He covered his face with his hands, letting the tears slide down.

He knelt down and gently hugged me into his arms, the smell of alcohol coming out of his body.

"Drink a lot, but it's really good to see you. I'm so happy that you can come to me, Xiaomi."

I raised my head and saw him grinning, and said softly: "I thought that it would be impossible to see such a gentle you again. I thought that you would hate me for the rest of my life, but I figured it out. I would rather You have hated me for the rest of your life. I came here just to say goodbye to our past, our deep relationship. I listened to songs and drank wine all afternoon, Xiaomi, but the biggest gain is, I actually saw you coming to me, I really don't know whether to be happy or painful."

"Xia Ziye, how could I be sorry for you, why?" I asked him crying.

Really, I really can't figure it out, he is my life, I would be sorry for him, but I can't remember that important part.

"You're not wrong, Xiaomi, I don't blame you."

"But I blame me."

He hugged me: "Xiaomi, it's getting late, let's go, don't think about anything, don't ask anything, just walk quietly like this, maybe slowly, we will all calm down."

That's right, he checked out and went out, and I walked beside him, and I clearly saw his hands tightly clenched into fists, how much he wanted to hold my hand, didn't he, it was so close, but he controlled it.

It was past ten o'clock but there were still a lot of people. When I crossed a small bridge, I was so crowded that I almost fell to one side. Xia Ziye finally couldn't help it, and reached out to grab my arm.

His palms were wet, sweaty, and hot. I looked back at him, and he forced a smile: "Be careful, don't fall."

"Ah."

Just walking so slowly, walking into an unknown alley, there are a lot fewer people, and you can smell the fragrance of flowers.

"There is a cherry blossom here, which is very beautiful." He said.

"Did you come here to see the cherry blossoms in the morning?" I know that there is only one cherry blossom in this alley, and it is behind the inn where I live.

When I opened the window, I could just see it. I looked at the cherry blossoms and asked the inn. The boss let me live in that room after adding a little more money.

He nodded: "Yes."

"I live in the inn behind the cherry blossoms."

He was stunned: "Did you see me this morning?"

"Yes." It must be true fate, among thousands of people, I can still see him.

He sighed and said: "We said before that when we have time in the future, we will come here to see flowers, but we have never been here."

Looking at each other, they felt speechless.

Thousands of words, I don't know what to say. For the first time, I feel a kind of pain and discomfort. Every point I face with him is an emotion that is hard to let go, but it is too complicated to understand.

After standing under the flower tree for a long time, he sighed and said: "The wind is cold, Xiaomi, you will catch cold."

Who cares, if you catch a cold, you catch a cold.

"Xiaomi." He called my name, but then he didn't know what to say.

My cell phone rang, breaking the current silence, it was Pei Feng calling.

I watched, wanting to press the phone.

But Xia Ziye said: "Go and answer the phone, it's getting late, it's cold here at night, you wear too little, Xiaomi, don't blow the cold wind, you are not in good health."

"But." But I'm afraid that if I go back, maybe I won't be able to find you again. In fact, I also know that he said it very clearly. Some things will make me feel more uncomfortable if I know them. Then how can I make up for it? What should I do? How to choose is a painful decision.

"I know you live here, that's fine." He smiled, then turned around abruptly, and strode away, as if fleeing.

Seeing him like that, I almost wanted to shed tears again, the phone was still ringing persistently, I took the phone into the inn in a sense of loss.

Sitting on the swing of a maple tree, he answered Pei Feng's call.

He seemed to breathe a sigh of relief: "I sent you a few messages but didn't reply, Xiaomi, I'm worried about you, and I miss you very much."

I bit my lip, not knowing how to answer his words. I kept looking for Xia Ziye all afternoon, and never checked whether there was any message on my phone.

"Xiaomi, have you returned to the inn?"

"Well, back."

"At this time, it must be cold there. You should wear more clothes. You haven't packed your luggage. I bought some clothes for you today and sent them over. For some things, shopping over there is not as convenient as shopping here. Tomorrow One can go to Lijiang, if it’s convenient for you, just go and pick it up, if it’s not convenient for you, just leave it there.”

Why do you treat me so well, Pei Feng, I haven't figured out what happened to me before, I now feel that I have betrayed Xia Ziye, I don't know if I will betray you again, why are you treating me like this yes.

"Have you eaten today? Don't eat anything too stimulating. If your stomach feels uncomfortable, drink some warm water first..."

I couldn't bear to listen to him, so I interrupted him: "Pei Feng, I'm going to bed, so let's go first, okay?"

After being quiet for a while, he said softly, "Okay, then you have to take care of yourself. When you come back, just tell me."

"OK, all right."

It's so quiet, I can hear the sound of his breathing, the wind blows on my face, but it can't calm my mind now.

Then he hung up the phone, I closed my eyes, I really wanted to be like Xia Ziye, drunk.

Maybe everyone thinks it's for my own good and doesn't want me to know, so I don't want to know, even Xia Ziye thinks the same way, I've already betrayed him.

In the past, don’t forget about it, I comfort myself so much, but I still can’t let it go.

My head started to hurt very badly again, so I went to the proprietress: "Do you have any spirits here, I want a bottle."

I want to get myself a little drunk so that my mind can think less and it won't hurt so much.

Open the window and drink one cup after another in front of the cherry blossoms. The night is getting deeper and deeper, and the bustle has gradually become quieter. Very pure, in the dark night, I feel someone is watching me.

It was late at night, the wine was cold, and the half-smoked feeling finally relaxed. I fell on the bed, looked up and could see the stars from the glass, and looked at me coldly.

Some things, I think no one can help me, only I can help myself.

(End of this chapter)