Ji Liangchuan, I have loved you for so many years

Chapter 38 The Story of Du Xiaohang
Many years have passed in the blink of an eye, and the innocent and beautiful time has been frozen in my memory. If possible, I hope that it can be frozen forever in those years when we met.

Falling in love with Shen Meng is not an accident, it seems to be a fate, if this is my destiny, I am willing to accept it, whether she loves me or not, but I know that loving her is a happy feeling.

She has a stubborn and arrogant temperament like a young lady, but unexpectedly, I don't reject her. I really like her unpretentious feeling. Since when did we become good friends who talk about everything and become best friends? Brother, brother, I like to see her heartily laughing at me. After many years, those smiling faces will always appear in different dreams, time and time again.

But, suddenly, she changed, the once kind and reserved girl turned into another appearance, which made me suddenly at a loss, I knew that something happened to her family's company, and I could feel the pain of her parents' divorce Imagine, but I don't believe that she is really so fragile, so fragile that she uses depravity to cover up her wounds, and asked her more than once what happened to her, I am willing to share all the suffering with her, as long as she speaks, I will She can go through fire and water, but every time, she just smiles lightly in an almost frivolous tone, and she says, isn't it just playing with a few men, what's the fuss about.

She didn't know how profound the sense of loss was when I heard this sentence. I would rather believe that I misread her from the beginning to the end, and didn't want her to wander alone in her own pain, wanting to He reached out to pull her, but found that he was powerless.

It wasn't until the appearance of another man that I suddenly became afraid. I was worried that one day she would fall into a deep whirlpool and couldn't extricate herself, and I was even more afraid that that man would hurt her, but what can I do? I had to choose to accompany and protect.

It was an accident to know Hongdou. Hongdou is a petite girl who has a completely different feeling from Shen Meng, but she can also bring warmth to others. The first time I met Hongdou, such a ridiculous thing happened. When I woke up that morning, Hongdou was Zhengxiang was sleeping in my arms, and after waking up, her memory gradually recovered. I actually kissed the girl I just met. When I got up in a panic, she was woken up by me. We didn't talk face to face for a while, I Seeing her blushing, she also felt a little embarrassed. It wasn't until Shen Meng woke up that she suddenly realized that her breathing had finally become normal.

It's not that I don't know that Shen Meng is with Ji Liangchuan, who has a prominent background. I thought they were just playing around, but when she looked at me with firm eyes and said that she was going to marry Ji Liangchuan after graduation, my world collapsed Yes, I know, no matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I fight, we will never be together again in this lifetime.

Walking quietly on the side of the road alone, the surrounding sounds suddenly disappeared, and I could only hear my own heartbeat and heavy footsteps. The feeling of heartache was like dying.

"Hey!"

A familiar voice turned around and saw that it was Hongdou who was catching up. She scratched her cheek with her index finger and ran up to me with some embarrassment: "I invite you to dinner! Others want me to treat you to dinner." I'm not happy yet!"

Before I could refuse, she pulled me forward. We were sitting in a quiet coffee house, and she looked at me with a cup. I was not in the mood to chat at all, so I could only be silent. He said softly, "So you like Shen Meng..."

I smiled lightly, and asked sarcastically, "It's funny, she's about to get married, and I ran over to confess my love to her."

Hong Dou was slightly startled and shook his head, "No, I just didn't expect you to already have someone you like..."

I'm not a fool, looking at her disappointed expression, I suddenly understood everything, but, I know, falling in love with Shen Meng is a sin, a sin that can never be escaped, if I can forget it, I could have forgotten it a few years ago Well, for Hongdou, maybe I can only say sorry.

Time flew by when I didn't care about it, and every day that passed was a deep wound in my heart, until the day of Shen Meng's wedding finally came, I wanted to let go of everything, but in the end at the edge of time, my reason was still It collapsed, even though I knew the result would not change anything, but I went there without hesitation.

When I saw them kissing, I realized that I was really ridiculous. I desperately pursued a love that didn't belong to me, but in the end I got the disdain and ridicule of others.

In the bar, I was drunk, one bottle after another, and my mind was full of them being together. Those illusions eroded me little by little, making me unable to breathe. I felt my body moving little by little. , I vaguely saw a petite figure pulling me forward beside me, there were rumbling noises in my ears, I could vaguely hear someone calling my name, the most ridiculous thing was, I was still wondering if it was Shen Meng Yes, but, think about it carefully, today is her wedding night, how could she come back to me.

I don't know how I got home. I was dragged into the room by a person, and I woke up in a daze, and then I woke up and fell asleep again. When I regained consciousness, I clearly saw that it was Hongdou who took me home.

"Are you awake?" She smiled slightly, but I didn't know what to say.

"You drank too much, I'll help you put away the bath water, you first..."

"Red beans." I stopped her suddenly, she looked into my eyes, that kind of eyes made me understand, in fact, she understands everything, but just like me, she is not willing to give up.

"Thank you for being kind to me, but, you know, my love for Shen Meng..."

"I know, I heard you say you like her that day, how could I not understand? But she is married, do you understand?" She stared at me seriously, her tone serious.

I shook my head, and the sinking intoxication made me a little upset: "You don't care about me anymore, I can't accept other women, and never will."

She was stunned, and suddenly stood up and looked at me angrily: "You are considered a man like this, because a woman can't get up after a setback. Could it be that you, Du Xiaohang, can't live without Shen Meng? Don't you just look at others more, and take care of me?" Take a closer look?"

I looked at her calmly and said, "I will return the same words to you verbatim."

"you!"

I thought I must be crazy, only a lunatic would trample on someone's sincerity, Hongdou threw the towel aside and left angrily.

My head hurts sharply. If love can be chosen, it would be great. I also hope that I can always enjoy the love that others give me instead of chasing after it.

After a few days of precipitation, my life returned to normal, but Hongdou never came again. I knew she must still be angry. I should have said sorry, but in the end I said such irresponsible words and hurt myself. pain brought to others.

I took out my mobile phone and dialed Hongdou's number. It rang a lot before I got through. I could understand her hesitation in her heart. She was still angry but she was afraid that I would call her for something urgent. She is a kind girl and it was me. have always known.

"What are you doing! I don't have that much time to talk on the phone, so talk quickly!" Hongdou's dexterous voice came from the other end of the phone.

"Niuzi, don't be angry, I was wrong."

"What are you calling me? I have a name and a surname!"

"Okay, sister Hongdou, I was wrong, come out and treat you to a meal."

Hongdou was silent for a while, then shouted fiercely on the phone: "I want to eat the most expensive one!"

I chuckled and suddenly felt much better.

Seeing the red beans gobbled up in the restaurant, I was shocked: "Have you not eaten for a few days?"

Red Dou peeked out two small eyes from the rice bowl and blinked at me: "I'm so angry with you that I can't eat it!"

"Oh, I have such an important position in your life..." I rubbed my chin and looked at her.

Sure enough, she blushed and raised her hand: "Waiter, have another bowl!"

"Ah! I didn't bring my wallet!"

Hongdou was taken aback for a moment, and her face turned pale.

I laughed: "Just kidding, let's eat."

She gave me a hard look, and continued to gobble it up. After a long time, I asked her, "What do you like about me?"

Hongdou threw down the bowl, blushed and said angrily, "Why are you so direct in your speech, you can't be more tactful!"

"What's the matter, it's not a TV series." I didn't care at all, and said lazily.

Hongdou took out a tissue and wiped the corners of her mouth, then looked at me with a ruddy face: "You stole my first kiss..."

I was stunned and went through the events of that day in my mind. Before I could react, Hongdou glanced at me again and said, "However, that's not important, anyway... Anyway, I think you are very kind and loyal. , very generous..."

I smiled: "Go on, I'm cute to hear others praise me."

"Du Xiaohang! You have a thick skin!"

Time flies by, Hongdou and I dare not touch this sensitive issue again, let time decide what will happen in the end, Shen Meng is getting farther and farther away from my world, I know it's time to awake.

Not long after she came back from her honeymoon trip, I actually saw her drunk in the midnight flower alone, that expression was not happy at all, whether I said it or not, I thought we had hinted to each other in our hearts , We must work hard to make each other happy and stop worrying about each other, so that we can feel at ease with each other and go far away until we are strangers.

But, seeing her like this, I can't ignore her. I don't like to see her laughing in front of a group of men, and ran over angrily and pulled her out of Midnight Flower. For a moment, she was like a girl who lost her sense of security. Like a child, he hugged my waist tightly, crying hoarsely, my heart shook slightly, and the sorrowful emotions came like a tide.

The cold wind was howling outside, and my mind gradually became clear. When Shen Meng looked at me, I will never forget the look of despair. That look hurt me deeply, and then she exhausted all her strength and screamed in the wind. Tell me she fell in love with that man.

My heart calmed down, and the great grief and indignation were peace. I thought that I could forget her, live again, and feel the warmth and touch of another girl again, but her words hurt me so deeply, That real feeling reminded me once again that first love is an emotion that a person will never forget in his life.

It turned out that I didn't like red beans 100%, which was my most painful helplessness.

It was another cold night with bright moonlight. Hongdou was standing at the entrance of my house, leaning against the street lamp, his figure looked so lonely.

When she saw me coming back, she still ran forward with a bright smile and looked at me with bright eyes: "Are you back?"

I nodded and smiled at her.

"I brought you something delicious, do you want it?"

For a moment, the air was so thin that it was hard to breathe, and there was the sound of wind blowing around, I watched her widen her eyes, and looked at me in disbelief, yes, I kissed her, and there was a light touch on the corner of her lips Peck, after that, I leaned against her cheek and whispered softly, I was afraid of scaring her, so I could only say to her quietly and carefully: "Hongdou, besides Shen Meng, you are my favorite girl, but , as long as she is here, I will not give you my whole heart, because it is you, so if I cannot give you all my love, I would rather give up all my future happiness."

"That's it, I hope you can be happy and find someone who can love you wholeheartedly."

When I turned around and left, my only wish in this life was that the girl named Hongdou could understand my heart. In a vague relationship, the most untestable thing is promise and waiting, so I will not give it, because I can't afford it.

How nice it would be if you could understand...

(End of this chapter)