Captain, stay safe

Chapter 182 The First Man 1
"I understand," Li Dongsen nodded painfully. It turns out that there is a kind of person who is futile no matter how hard you try or how well you do.

"Lian Zhen..." Shen Muye walked to the two of them from the entrance of the gallery. His thick black eyes looked at Lian Zhen, then at Li Dongsen, and then nodded calmly, "Mr. Li, long time no see."

Li Dongsen stared at him indifferently, Shen Muye was familiar with this look, just like the anger he showed in the past because the first time he hated Lian Zhen was given to Li Dongsen, it was because of unwillingness, and the relationship between men and life. Inherent strong self-esteem.

"Lian Zhen, can I have a private talk with President Li?" Shen Muye suddenly asked Lian Zhen gently.

She was stunned, looking back and forth between the two men, hesitated for a while before slowly walking aside.

Li Dongsen looked at her silhouette and asked coldly: "What do you want to talk to me about, to show off?"

"You misunderstood," Shen Muye said calmly, "I just don't want to embarrass her. We are not young anymore. Two men who are almost 40 years old should calm down."

Li Dongsen sneered, his eyes sarcastic, but also lonely and sad, "Shen Muye, I didn't lose to you, I just lost to Qiao Lianzhen."

Shen Muye's calm eyebrows gently gathered, Li Dongsen smiled, his expression tired and desolate, "I did one thing wrong, I spent six years waiting for him, and you, have you waited for him in these six years?" Have you ever met her? I don't believe you ever did. To be honest, I have almost given up on waiting for her in the past six years. It's not that I don't love her anymore, it's because I know that I can never wait for her, so Shen Muye, I didn't lose to you, it's not worth losing to you, I lost to Lian Zhen, I'm not as stupid as her, and as persistent as her."

"You're right," Shen Muye felt a little ashamed, "I understand your feelings very well, just like when you told me that Lian Zhen was pregnant with your child before, do you still remember how bad I was at that time? I have to admit that I Luckier than you, the time when I met Lian Zhen was just right, not too early and not too late, I could be among you, to be honest, I used to look down on you, for the sake of profit, you can even use other women to achieve your goals You know, since breaking up with you, Xin Ni seems to be a different person. She doesn't believe in men, and thinks that every man who approaches her is just to take advantage of her. Later, she starts promiscuously with men. My friend, I had an abortion once, became addicted to drugs, and only settled down in the UK to get married two years ago."

"Shen Xinni?" Li Dongsen's lips stiffened for a moment, but then he said with a cruel arc: "You are his cousin, so you should know that she has many problems with her personality. Such a woman is used to living as a princess, yes It is through setbacks that we can grow slowly.”

"Xinni really has many problems, pampered, unreasonable, mean, bitter, anyone can say it, but don't forget that when you had an accident with your leg, she accompanied you to BJ for medical treatment despite the obstruction of your family, she A young lady who guards you and takes care of you all day long is giving her sincerity," Shen Muye frowned when he heard his words, "She should have found someone who could tolerate her and live her life happily , but because of you, she took many detours."

"Why, you want to confront me now because of Shen Xinni," Li Dongsen said coldly, "I don't think your relationship with Shen Xinni is so good."

"I admit that I hated Xin Ni very much for a period of time six years ago, but I regretted seeing her life so depraved later on. As her relatives, I didn't handle the relationship between her and Lian Zhen well. I knew that you were I approached her purposefully, and I didn't try my best to stop it, maybe I also secretly hoped that she would be taught a lesson at that time," Shen Muye smiled wryly, his eyes burning brightly, "Li Dongsen, in fact, you should have expected that when you started dating Xinni At that time, you and Lian Zhen really will never have a chance, even if she breaks up with me, she will not accept a person who uses her feelings to achieve her goal or even use any means."

Li Dongsen narrowed his eyes, his face was dark and livid.

"When we were young, our eyes were blurred by the jealousy in front of us, and we did many wrong things. I was jealous of you too. At least Lian Zhen's best first love, her first time and her most cherished things were given to you. You, Li Dongsen, you can make me think so badly, but I am very jealous of you, and I envy you very much," Shen Muye smiled slightly, "Believe it or not, I used to have the urge to beat you up every time I saw you, because You don't know, no matter how old I will live with her in the future, the first thing she thinks of when she recalls her youth must be you."

Li Dongsen stared at the gentle man in front of him in astonishment, as if seeing him for the first time, he couldn't believe that he would hear such a sentence from his mouth.

He suddenly recalled the first time he wanted Lian Zhen, it was his 20th birthday, they dated for a year, he drank some wine, and pulled her away, then she sent him to the hotel, then At night, the two of them were lying on the same bed together, their hearts beating wildly, and he somehow pressed her under him, she resisted in fear, her eyes were like deer, he kept coaxing her and kissing her , After finally entering, her face turned pale from the pain, but for him, she endured it all the time, and she didn't complain of pain, but shed tears silently. After the incident, she hugged him and whispered: "Dong Sen, I gave you the first time, from now on you must treat me well, marry me, and love me."

He still remembers her appearance until now, pitifully, when he recalled it, he felt as if his heart was being pricked by a needle. He glanced at Lian Zhen, who was standing not far away. The 31-year-old was wearing a gray The windbreaker, but it can't hide the delicate beauty between the brows.

A helpless smile suddenly appeared on the corner of his lips, "Yes, at least I was his first man," he could only think and comfort himself.

In fact, he was tired a long time ago. When he began to know that it was not Shen Muye but Qiao Lianzhen's heart that he had to defeat from the beginning to the end, he began to feel that he had no chance to win.

Lian Zhen also looked back at him, his eyes seemed to tighten her cerebral cortex, making her feel a little sad.

After looking at each other for a while, Li Dongsen turned and left, his back was tall but lonely.

Lian Zhen stood for a while, walked up to Shen Muye and asked, "What did you tell him?"

"Speaking of things about Xinni, and... I said that I envy him very much, because your first time was given to him," Shen Muye said, looking deeply into her eyes.

Lian Zhen lowered her head in embarrassment, then quickly raised her head and said, "You didn't give me your first time, you still have so much experience."

Shen Muye smiled lightly, stretched his arms and pulled her into his arms, "I'm just envious, not jealous. Although I admit that I was jealous, every time I saw Li Dongsen, I felt like seeing flies in my heart. In fact, I probably felt that I was in his It's the same in my eyes, Lian Zhen, Li Dongsen actually loves you very much."

"I'm very moved, but it's just moved." Lian Zhen explained cautiously, fearing that he might misunderstand, "I didn't expect him to be there, and I wanted to avoid him."

"I guessed it. You had a strange look not long after you got out of the car, didn't you because you saw Li Dongsen's car?" Shen Muye pointed to the empty parking space, "Just now I saw Li Dongsen get into that Mercedes. "

"Well," Lian Zhen nodded, and said frankly: "I don't want to meet him, I always feel quite guilty. In the past few years, whenever my family encountered any difficulties, he always took the initiative to help. Sometimes when I was on a business trip, he Will come to see me too."

"He is sincere to you," Shen Muye felt envious in his heart.

"Perhaps, but I think his heart is more unwilling. Dongsen is also a very proud person in his heart. Not long after he left, he married you and conceived a child, and finally fell in love with you. Yes It must be very uncomfortable for him. If he just loves me purely, I don't think he will continue to use Shen Xinni to get close to the Shen family after I made it clear to him at the beginning. By the way, what happened to Shen Xinni as you mentioned just now ?" Lian Zhen asked curiously: "Although I don't like her very much, she is sincere to Dong Sen."

"I heard that Li Dongsen broke up with her not long after I left," Shen Muye frowned and sighed, "She poured all her anger on you at that time, and even found someone to teach you a lesson. After saying hello, people in the underworld ignored her, and then my second uncle sent her back to Europe. She played in France for a few years, and she was infected with smoking, drugs and drinking. Later, she became pregnant with a child. Who, it is said that she got drunk and accidentally provoked her in a bar. The second uncle was furious when he found out about this, and then sent her to England. After that incident, she really grew up and is now married. , and life is finally on the right track.”

"I didn't expect her to go through so many things," Lian Zhen took a deep breath, feeling guilty, "In the end, I also have some responsibility."

"It has nothing to do with you. In fact, the place where Xin Ni grew up may be quite similar to me. We are all spoiled by our family members. We have never suffered, learned lessons, and are very confident in ourselves. We can't see our shortcomings. I always thought that people and the world should revolve around us," Shen Muye shrugged with a wry smile, "So Li Dongsen's use and abandonment at the beginning was a big blow to her, she couldn't bear it, slowly Slowly, she went to extremes, but she is not hopeless, it's just that everyone has a transition period, and after that stage, she will grow up slowly."

The two unknowingly walked to the front of the car, Lian Zhen got on, and whispered: "When we first went to a French town for our honeymoon, I could feel it. At that time, you and Xin Ni had a pretty good relationship..."

"It was Ye Yaru who was sowing discord behind her back," Shen Muye stared at her and explained, "Xinni had a pure and extreme personality at that time, and she would trust her wholeheartedly in whoever treated her well, so she was easily deceived by others. Take advantage, I was too irritable at that time, and I would swear at people when I was angry, and sometimes I would hit people by mistake. If I had a better temper at that time, I would patiently explain to her and induce her to be right and wrong. It might not be used by Li Dongsen either."

(End of this chapter)