Raising a Wise Husband: A Lovely Wife and a Husband

Chapter 271 Forgiving myself is the hardest

The treasurer of the Jin family is also surnamed Jin, and he is a member of the Jin family.

People from a scholarly family don't like to be tainted with the smell of copper, but they can't live without gold, silver and copper: therefore, the shops and Zhuangzi in Beifu are all managed by trustworthy people.

In fact, there are not many things that the shopkeeper of Jinda can master. The old lady in Beifu is a very shrewd person; but he is a very stable person, and he has been trusted by Haishi for many years.

But today the shopkeeper was not at all steady, he ran out of breath, his clothes were a little disheveled, and he didn't even lift up to take a closer look when he bumped into someone: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm in a hurry to find Madam and Seventh Lord, turn around and make amends."

After he finished speaking, he was about to rush into the courtyard gate. When Jin Chengye heard that he was looking for him, he only had time to say: "I'll come as soon as I go. The ladies are in the hall, you go first."

Hearing Jin Chengye's voice, the big shopkeeper came to his senses and realized that the person he bumped into was Lord Qi; but before he could speak, Jin Chengye ran away, stomping his feet and turned around to catch up.

"What are you looking for with Lord Qi?" Shu Yuan didn't have any impression of the shopkeeper, but she knew him: "If you don't wait for the master to come back, you can tell the wives as soon as possible."

She held the girl's hand and walked quickly, how did that step look like a person with two bodies?The big shopkeeper was terrified when he saw it: "Young Mistress, is there something wrong in the house?"

He just found out that the third master and the old lady were gone together—what was Jin Chengye doing in such a hurry if he didn't deal with the affairs of the elders?Moreover, the young mistress ran all the way with her big belly, which really made him feel nervous.

"Let's go to the second lady's place, and we'll talk about it when we come back." Shu Yuan didn't have time to explain to him in detail, so she didn't stop when she was talking.If Xiaolu, the big shopkeeper, hadn't followed up, she would have left the big shopkeeper behind.

The big shopkeeper frowned when he heard that: "Well, can you ask the young mistress and master what happened to the second lady? Because I am also for the second lady's business..."

Shuyuan's pace finally slowed down a bit: "What's the matter with the second lady?!"

The big shopkeeper and Shuyuan were talking, so naturally his feet slowed down, and Jin Chengye's shadow was not seen for a long time;

Entering Wang's courtyard, he was surprised to see all the maids in the corridor: "Where is Madam?" He asked and stood outside the hall door.

After all, it was a place for the elders, and Wang was a widow. A nephew of his could not rush in rashly: no matter how urgent he was, he couldn't just go in alone.

After he finished asking, he said without waiting for the girls to answer: "Go back to Madam, just say that I have something very important to discuss with Madam."

The girl didn't dare to say any more when she heard the words, she knew from Jin Chengye's appearance that it was a big deal, so she turned around and raised the curtain and entered the room; Jin Chengye also entered the room after her.

The girl went to the back room to answer the question. Jin Chengye stood in the hall waiting for Mrs. Wang to come out, but his heart was inexplicably nervous.

"Ah——" the girl's scream made Jin Chengye rush over in two steps, pushed the girl who was holding on to the door away, and saw Wang Shi before entering the room.

Sitting on the ground and leaning on the bed, Wang's body was covered with blood: she was biting a wooden comb to apply medicine to herself, trying hard to wrap up the bleeding place, but she couldn't do it with one hand—her other One arm was hanging by his side without moving, and the blood was coming from the motionless arm.

Jin Chengye rushed forward, trying to hold Wang's wound, but he didn't know where it was, because half of Wang's body was covered in blood, and his entire sleeve was soaked in blood, so he couldn't tell where the bleeding was.

"Doctor, a traumatized doctor." Jin Chengye yelled and told the maids to report to the doctor. At the same time, he also saw the blood-stained dagger beside Wang.

The short sword belonged to the general, and was placed in the house by Wang as a tool to ward off evil spirits.

"Auntie, you, why are you doing this?!" Jin Chengye knelt on the ground, "I'm offended, Auntie." He reached out to grab Wang's sleeve, only to see Wang's face turn pale with pain, and a groan came out of his nose. Humph.

It seemed that Mrs. Wang was seriously injured, so Jin Chengye had no choice but to give up, looked left and right to take out the dagger from the ground: "Auntie, a sword in your hand can hurt yourself, but in my hand it can heal."

After he finished speaking, he cut open Wang's sleeve with his sword, only to see a deep wound on his upper arm: the exposed white was not sure whether it was flesh or bone, and Jin Chengye didn't see it clearly.

Wang's body was sweating in pain but she didn't cry out, allowing Jin Chengye to tie a cloth strip on her arm to stop the bleeding: "What I did wrong is irreparable." Because there was still a comb in her mouth, her words were vague clear.

Jin Chengye said anxiously: "No one blames you."

"Auntie blames herself." Shu Yuan came in, and she was relieved to see Wang's blood all over her body - it was much better than she expected; at least, she was still alive.

Wang's temperament is just like the general said, soft on the outside but strong on the inside. It is not uncommon for her to be deceived by others, but it is really unforgivable for her to admit the wrong husband.

No one blames her, but she blames herself, and she can't forgive herself; therefore, she has to punish herself: not only to give an explanation to the Jin family, to the husband who has not returned home, but also to herself explain.

Mrs. Wang spat out her comb: "I should apologise with death for my mistake, otherwise how can I be worthy of the master? I, I can actually mistake others for the master..."

Shuyuan looked into her eyes: "You are not mistaken, you are afraid. After waiting for three years, more than 1000 hope when the sun rises, and more than 1000 disappointments when the sun sets, you are afraid while waiting, I'm afraid you won't be able to wait for Second Uncle again."

"Even if you meet each other every day, even if you tell yourself every day that the second uncle is still alive, he will definitely come back, but you are still getting more and more afraid every day. At this time, someone appears, whose appearance is almost the same as the second uncle. Assume he is."

"You were not deceived by a liar, you were deceived by yourself and your own fear. You are afraid, and you can't face the real death of the second uncle, so there is such a person who appears, you Caught him right away, like a drowning man at a straw."

Wang's tears flowed out again: "He won't come back? He won't come back, is he really going to come back?"

Jin Chengye couldn't answer her words, and Shu Yuan couldn't answer either: that answer was too cruel, and Wang Shi, who was seriously injured, couldn't bear it at all.

"No, he will come back!" Wang Shi suddenly wiped away the tears on his face: "He promised me, and I can feel that he has not passed away, so he will definitely come back."

Shuyuan originally wanted to use this to make Wang's accept the fact that the general was really dead, as long as she didn't know how the general died; but she didn't expect that Wang went around and finally believed that the general was still alive.

Perhaps, it is easier to live with a thought.Shuyuan thought of Zhao's words, and before she could give Wang a new thought, Shuyuan could only let Wang continue to wait.

Waiting for a person who will never come back may wait until Wang's hair turns gray: at that time, will Wang figure it out, or will he be obsessed with it and keep fighting with face every day?
Shu Yuan didn't know, Shu Yuan didn't dare to think about it any more.

"I did something wrong, I'm sorry master. But I haven't seen my master come back safely for a day, and I haven't bought him another bowl of his favorite Yangchun noodles, how can I just leave like this?" Wang said slowly, she It is for Jin Chengye and Shuyuan to hear, and it is also for myself and God.

She needed a reason to live: not because she was afraid of death, but because she was unwilling to die like this and couldn't rest in peace—if the general was safe as before, she wouldn't hesitate to die now.

I'm sorry, General, how could she still spare her life.

"I think he will want to see me, and I want to see him, so I can rest assured that he is all right. But if I live in the world, I can't forgive myself, so I think I should teach myself a lesson and give the master an explanation. "

an arm.

She will use an arm to atone for her sins.But she is just a woman, it is one thing not to be afraid of death or pain, but it is another matter whether she has enough strength.

Also, the sword is not a sharp weapon for chopping things. If it is a knife, well, the general's knife must be very good. It is hard to say whether the arm will really be chopped off.

stupid?Wang doesn't think she is stupid.She knew very well that if she didn't do this, she would feel ashamed in her heart and couldn't let go of herself in the days to come. Even if General Jin came back, she would have no face to see him again.

Only in this way, at least she can see him again, get him another bowl of noodles, listen to him talk, and tell him how she misses him these years: if he is well, she can go there with peace of mind. to atone for all her sins today.

Jin Chengye didn't know what to do when he heard this, so he punched the ground with a fist: "Second Aunt, if Second Uncle is here, he will be so distressed to death, do you know that? How can you be blamed for those things?"

"Money belongs to people outside of you after all. Don't say it's just a few Zhuangzi, a few shops, thousands of taels of silver, even if you give all your belongings to others, so what? Is the money really heavier than your aunt's arm——" Does uncle really care about the money and not you, auntie?" Shu Yuan knew more than Jin Chengye.

The big shopkeeper told Shuyuan everything, so Shuyuan knew that the crime Wang wanted to atone for was not just being cheated.

It is extremely difficult for ordinary people to forgive others, but it is easy to forgive themselves; but for an extremely crazy person like Wang, it is easier for her to forgive others, but it is very difficult to forgive herself.

To untie the bell, one needs to tie the bell. If Wang's heart knot is really to be untied, there is only one general.Otherwise, Wang may not be able to face herself in the future: Do you regret it when you think about it, and once you regret it, you will stab yourself with a sword?
"He doesn't care, just because I know, so I, I can't forgive myself, and I will never forgive myself." Wang looked up at Shuyuan, with tears but no cry.

(End of this chapter)