sadomasochism double

Chapter 73

"I'm chasing my wife back."

In a word, my eyes turned red, as if tears were about to fall.

Sniffing, I smiled to ease my emotions, "Don't say you fell in love with me after the divorce... This is too ridiculous... I thought you always loved Sister An Ran..."

When it comes to An Ran, Zhuo Yang is a little unnatural.But soon, he returned to normal and shook his head: "I grew up with An Ran, we are each other's first love, but we are not so much love as we are close relatives...especially..."

The most beautiful first love, the rare first time in my life...

I laughed, very bluntly.

I have to admit, at this moment, I still mind.

This is different from other people, even if it is Hu Ling, I can slap him and tell this bitch San to get lost wherever he came from, but An Ran is different...

i can't forget...

It turned out that it was these two people who were together.

"You don't need to say it... I don't want to know the good memories between you and her..."

I interrupted Zhuo Yang, who looked at me in astonishment, then seemed to understand something, hooked the corner of his lips, "Do you mind? Are you jealous?"

Mind your sister!Be jealous!
I threw away the wrapped hand, and became angry, "Let go! I'm leaving!"

The mangy dog ​​Zhuo Yang refused to let go, instead he held my hand and laughed stupidly.

I was blushed by his smile, I couldn't bear it anymore, and greeted him with a palm.

"Have you laughed enough?!"

Zhuo Yang's reaction ability is first-class, seeing me waving my palm, his god-like reaction ability allowed him to avoid my clutches in time.

It seems that seeing me becoming angry, his machismo was extremely satisfied. Before I gave the ultimatum, he continued to say in a good mood: "I can't admit it... I have felt guilty and apologetic all my life... But An Yue...you have to understand, the woman who has been with me for seven years is me...the person who was with me during my hardest time was also you...An Ran...she has already passed away..."

My mind went blank.

"You...what do you want to say?"

I suddenly don't understand.

Zhuo Yang...

Is he serious?

Or, is this just another scam on his part?

"No. It's nothing..." Zhuo Yang suddenly raised his hand, grabbed me and leaned against his chest, "An Yue, don't you understand? You got... what you always wanted...you I got it a long time ago..."

I'm not extremely stupid, of course I know what Zhuo Yang means.

only--

I didn't expect that what I had been chasing for seven years would come back to me so easily.

Are you happy?It seems to be a little bit, but not as much as imagined.

I think it's more of a melancholy.

Zhuo Yang hugged me with one hand, "I'm sorry... I've bullied you for so many years... I always thought I couldn't pass that test... But I didn't expect... What I can't stand is your departure... very Sorry...sorry to my wife...my family..."

Zhuo Yang whispered a lot in my ear.He seemed very excited. It turns out that when an extremely boring person vents, his energy is boundless.

Finally, he kissed my lips and made a soft promise.

"Anyue, are you willing to come back? Come back and continue to be with me...to be my wife...I will not promise that I am a perfect husband...but I promise that in the future, I will listen to you and do my best to make you happy. You don't cry anymore...don't...cry behind my back..."

Zhuo Yang rarely talked so much.

Still love talk.

A normal woman will be moved to tears when such a man who has loved you for so many years expresses all kinds of affection to you.

I am a normal woman, and when Zhuo Yang confided his thoughts to me, I was naturally very moved.

but--

seven years.

not seven months...

Not even seven days...

Not even seven hours!

Those were the most precious seven years of my life...

How many seven years can there be in a person's life? I gave this man my most beautiful life, but what did he give me?harm?Suspect?indifferent……

When it's all over...he tells me he loves me...

long ago...

Just don't know?Just can't beat that hurdle?Just don't know?

I can imagine the confusion and hesitation of an arrogant person when he falls in love with a woman who is equivalent to an enemy, and I can also understand the heart of a person like Zhuo Yang who has always been slow in this regard, yes, I can understand ...

but--

No matter how deep the love is, it can't stand the time.

I think……

I am satisfied.

Zhuo Yang didn't know what he was thinking, his expression was very cheerful, and he held my hand slightly harder, as if he was full of expectations for the future. He probably thought that as long as he apologized, I would return to his palm obediently.

"You like a small house, we can change to a small house, you like to travel, we will travel every year, by the way, you like children... we can also have a child... these years, I have not been so relaxed for a long time ..."

I know that Zhuo Yang has never been so relaxed.Since he came out of his own company, these years have actually been very hard.

but--

No matter how much I can't bear it, no matter how much I feel distressed...

Nor can I deceive him.

Like he lied to me.

I slowly got up from his chest, tears crawled all over my face, and I wiped the tears from my eyes.

I want to face up to this man I've loved for so long.

"Zhuo Yang, I love you. Always loved...in the hardest years of my mother's death...you never know...you are the only light in my dark life...I love you...respect you... ...your existence is like my god...you humiliate me...you hurt me...I tell myself...it doesn't matter...it's enough for me to love you..."

I thought that for the long years, no matter how much hurt, no matter how much suffering, as long as I love him, as long as I am happy with him, it is enough.

but--

I shook my head, tears streaming down my face.

"I'm sorry. I changed my mind...I found that I don't love you that much anymore...I don't want to wait for you here...Maybe, we were wrong from the beginning...We have always been people in two worlds... "

Because our world is too far apart, even if you turn around and come back now...

I am no longer in the world you imagined.

My mother said that life is too short, it is important to love someone deeply, but don't forget to look back when you are suffering.

do not forget……

love yourself.

Zhuo Yang's hand tried to grab me, but I pushed it away gently.

"Actually... I never thought that you would like me...I never thought that you would look back...that...it seemed like a dream...but now you have turned back...you stopped...come and hold me hand . . . but I found . . . "

I found that I didn't have the surprise I imagined, and love can't stand the time.

"Perhaps this is the punishment of fate. God punished me for not coming to An's house, for not saving An Ran at the most critical moment, for not falling in love with you...so in the end, we couldn't be together...and You...you disregard a woman's love...use marriage as a weapon of revenge...this is God's punishment for you..."

We are not good people after all, and we will never be happy after all.

"I'm living alone now." Sniffing, I reiterated: "I'm not joking...I mean it, I once thought that I would live like a year without your world, but I didn't expect Yes... I actually feel a sense of relief..."

It's like breaking free halfway from the shackles of darkness for a long time. Although I got rid of the iron chains that entangled me, the price was cruel, and the feeling of being torn from flesh and blood was not good.

However, these pains are different from the chronic pain that has been silent in the dark. Such wounds will heal slowly, not like before...

I can only let myself stay in the dark...

Let the wound slowly rot...

And I can never get up.

"Sorry...Zhuo Yang...you are too late...you are really too late..."

After finishing speaking, I moved away Zhuo Yang's entwined hand, "Let me go...Let's all let each other go..."

Don't have this deformed bond anymore, let's start a new life with each other.

"Is this what you think?" Zhuo Yang entangled him repeatedly when I repeatedly pulled his hand away, "That's how you view the seven years between us...I hurt you and you...you can't Bear it...even if I turn around, I will make up my mind not to look at me again...not enough..."

(End of this chapter)