timeless

Chapter 16 Ambiguous (3)
"Hey, you..." The tone became flustered and softened.Yu Xinye stiffened his shoulders, his voice hesitated.

Jiang Wei raised his hand, wiping away the tears that seemed to be unable to stop no matter what, standing on the side of the road like a robot with a power failure, only repeating this action.

"Don't..." with a cry.

don't...

Stop messing around with so many girls, you can't figure out the relationship anymore.

Don't talk to me in such a gentle tone again.

Don't reach out to me again.

Don't make me so sad anymore.

Don't give me so much illusion anymore.

Stop jumping around and saying "no, it's not".

no no no!It turns out that there are so many "don'ts" to say.

All thinking has been monopolized in an instant, and the other party will not know how desperate she is.

"If you……"

The already fragmented discourse is incoherent and out of order.

If you really just treat me like those ordinary girls, please, stop doing so many meaningless things.

Yu Xinye looked at her, hesitated for a moment, and finally he took a step forward and held the girl's arm, his tone still softened: "Don't cry..."

The scorching body temperature transmitted to the arms through a layer of clothes, I couldn't get rid of it.

Jiang Wei finally burst into low sobs, and the inexplicable tears flowed into his mouth, and the bitter feeling spread to the root of his tongue.She pushed away Yu Xinye's hand, and cried inarticulately as she walked forward, "You are really annoying!"

The boy who was held in place by her words and actions eventually lost all expression.

The wet hair stuck to her face in embarrassment.Jiang Wei wiped away the unstoppable tears, and walked forward with the remaining strength.

No one caught up again.

With such a girl by your side——

You can talk to her in a light-hearted, cynical way, make fun of her, and use the usual girl tricks on her.

You can give up active small group activities just because she's going to be lonely and awkward by herself.

You can pour water for her, do hard work for her, invite her to drink her favorite milk tea, and resolve her embarrassment.

You can look at her with a delicate attitude, surround her with meticulous care, and let her know that everything should be shared or shared with others, instead of always carrying it alone.

You can appear beside her like a light, and treat ambiguous words and actions as jokes.

You take her back to your house, eat her cooking, and let her use your towel.You buy her dessert.You said to her: "Wouldn't it be better to smile more?"

You ask her if she likes someone, and you answer "no" when she asks you "do you treat everyone like this", you will seriously ask her: "What do you think of me?"

You called her in the middle of the night just to talk to her, you took her to see the sweet-scented osmanthus forest, even if your voice is broken, you still talk to her in a hoarse voice.

You did so much and so much to her beyond friendship.

And behind all the things you do for her, there is not a single reason why she is special in your heart, or because you like her?
The mood after returning home was unexpectedly calm.

Xun Jiu sat on the sofa and watched TV.Jiang Wei closed the door and put on his slippers.When I passed the dining table and saw the leftovers from the meal, I felt a headache for a moment: "Why don't you wash the dishes?"

The boy turned around: "You wash it."

Jiang Wei couldn't help getting angry: "I wash? I'm not your mother, why don't you clean up after eating? Why do you wait for me to wash? I have to go to class every day and cook for you. Everything is waiting for me Do it?"

The boy was stunned for a moment, and stared at her blankly.

"I have to do everything... I'm under a lot of pressure, and I'm also very annoying... It's not that you can do whatever you want. I will be annoying too, don't you think about my feelings? ?” I lost control of my emotions.

"Sister..." Xun Jiu looked at Jiang Wei hesitantly, as if he was intimidated by girls who rarely looked like this.

Jiang Wei changed his posture and stood by the dining table, his eyebrows were tightly frowned, and his eyes were still a little red.She forced herself to calm down, not letting herself vent her anger, sighed, and picked up the leftovers on the table: "Forget it."

From Jiang Wei's eyes, the relationship between himself and everyone seems to have stopped at a subtle angle, maintaining the same stiff and awkward posture.

He and Yu Xinye had a complete falling out.This time, he was indeed reduced to the level of a single person.

I thought about why I would take the initiative to talk to him, but then I thought about why he casually dated other girls alone, isn't it too much?So he endured it again, stubbornly strangling his neck.

Are these all self-inflicted?

So did Yu Xinye, and so did Zhao Mengfan.

He didn't have enough weight to support himself, but he still insisted on trying to save face and suffer, and he couldn't be weakened in the slightest.

This can be seen from the expressionless pass by Yu Xinye who was hesitant to speak these days.This time, he was really angry and refused to give the other party, or even himself, even a little room for maneuver.

I don't know who is angry with.

It is said that Scorpio people are awkward, even if they really care, they will act as if they don't care.Obviously the one who wants to talk and apologize the most, but he just hangs his neck and doesn't want to show weakness, so it gives people who don't understand a feeling that "Scorpio people are very cold-blooded".

In fact, I care more than anyone else.

A few days later, Jiang Wei ran into Qi Xian again while standing on the platform waiting for the bus after the evening self-study was over.This time Jiang Wei took the initiative to say hello to him: "You don't often take the bus?"

"I sent someone home these few days." Qi Xian nodded at her.

"Girlfriend?" Jiang Wei smiled.

Qi Xian smiled and shook his head: "It's a girl, but a good friend of childhood sweetheart."

In fact, when we are together with Qi Xian, we have more common topics.

Although I am not very familiar with each other, the relationship is not even a friend, it is just the relationship between a senior and a junior, but it is probably because the two of them are both learning to paint, and they can't help but have an inexplicable "resonance", so they can talk about the topic More.Jiang Wei originally thought that the other party was one or two years older than himself, and there would be no intersection, but in the end he found that Qi Xian was actually more approachable than he imagined.

"It turns out there really are childhood sweethearts."

"Well, she just transferred here."

"It's such a good relationship."

"I can't help it. I'm worried about her and always get into trouble. It seems that no one can control her except me."

The girl smiled: "Is it Senior Sister?"

"Well, you're in the same class as me now."

"But why don't you take her home tonight?"

"She has a boyfriend to send."

"Oh……"

The low moan was suppressed in the throat and could not be broken out.

Qi Xian looked at his watch, then at the empty road: "It seems that there are no buses."

"Ah, no way..." Jiang Wei frowned.

"I have no choice but to walk back." Qi Xian carried his schoolbag, "Let's go."

Since it is on the way.

that……

Let's go.

"Didn't there be a painting competition last semester...the result hasn't come out yet?"

"At least half a year later."

"Well, really irresponsible."

"Did you participate too?"

"Yeah, I don't know if I can win the prize." The boy's face was blurred under the street lamp, "I heard that you are good at drawing, maybe you can win the first prize?"

"Heh... It's a painting method I've figured out on my own, and it won't be much better if I agree. I've stopped taking art classes a long time ago, and whether I can win an award is still another matter."

"I haven't seen your paintings, let me have a look."

"Okay, when?"

"Hmm..." The boy pondered for a while, "When are you free?"

"This...anything is fine."

"Okay, I'll come to you tomorrow between classes."

"Well, you can also bring your painting and show me."

"Okay." He said as if remembering something, "What do you paint?"

"Sketch and light color." Jiang Wei looked at the long shadow under his feet, "What about you?"

"Let's draw a little bit of everything..." The shadow of the boy beside him was stretched a bit longer than himself, "It's mainly sketches and oil paintings."

"The painting is really good!" This is Qi Xian's evaluation when he saw the painting brought by Jiang Wei the next day, as if he was a little shocked, "Yesterday, he used some words that he didn't have art class to fool me , let me underestimate the enemy."

"It's true, I figured it out on my own." Holding the stack of paintings handed over by the other party, Jiang Wei was also taken aback.Although I knew that the other party would get the same award as myself, the level would not be bad, and the other party was studying professional courses, so I was already mentally prepared.But when I actually saw the other party's paintings, I couldn't stop admiring, "You draw much better than me."

"If you have learned like me, don't you think you can draw better than me?" Qi Xian flipped through her drawing, tapping the paper with her slender fingertips, "A complete rival."

Jiang Wei didn't expect that Qi Xian came to her class directly to find her, and the classmates who still had an impression of the "love letter incident" couldn't help joking in amazement: "Sure enough, there is something wrong, it was a mistake. Love letter?"

"What!"

"Have you had an affair? Such a handsome senior Qi Xian, you two are really a perfect match!"

"Don't joke around."

Standing at the door of the classroom with Qi Xian flipping through each other's paintings, Jiang Wei listened to Qi Xian's comments and frowned slightly as he pointed out the shortcomings of the paintings with his fingers.

It doesn't matter if there are girls pointing around from a distance, anyway, she doesn't care about such boring public opinion at all.

It doesn't matter if it reaches Yu Xinye's ears.

Since he doesn't feel anything, it doesn't matter.

"Qi Xian..." After hesitating for a long time, Jiang Wei finally opened his mouth and sent out an invitation, "If you have time... I mean if, can you teach me how to draw?"

Qi Xian looked at her, turned his face slightly so that his eyes could fall on her face more accurately: "Okay."

"Well, that's good." After hearing the other party's confirmed answer, Jiang Wei heaved a sigh of relief, "Then..."

The sound stopped suddenly.

Qi Xian was wondering why she didn't continue talking, and finally saw her eyes fall elsewhere, and followed her gaze.

Yu Xinye stopped two or three steps away.

He looked at Jiang Wei standing at the door of the classroom, then at Qi Xian who was holding a stack of paintings beside Jiang Wei, and finally laughed.

"So it is."

After borrowing his painting from Qi Xian, Jiang Wei planned to take it home and learn his brushwork.Boys' lines are not as slender and gentle as girls', but are more powerful in comparison.

On the side of the road, I saw the fried ham sausage stall that I used to eat with Zhao Mengfan. I thought to myself, no wonder I haven’t seen it for so long. It turned out that the place has changed.I wanted to walk over to buy two to go home, but suddenly turned around after walking a few steps.

Think about it or forget it.

In fact, it is not wrong to say that the streets and alleys from school to home are full of memories of myself and Zhao Mengfan, but now I can't come back.Even if I have long been used to going home alone, going to the toilet alone, and going to the canteen to buy water alone, it is ridiculous that I still wishfully think about the past.

But once in a while, when I relax and think about it, I feel that shopping alone is not bad.

At least the noise was gone.

So much time has passed in a blink of an eye, winter is coming soon, and the upcoming 16th birthday also indicates that the 17th birthday is not far away.

A year passed in a blink of an eye.

That is, in such a short year, I have tasted all kinds of ups and downs, and all kinds of sadness.Everything can be summed up in terms of right and wrong.

Come to think of it, don't you just come here?
In fact, what hurdles can we not overcome?
Jiang Wei didn't notice the weird atmosphere until he stepped into the house, but saw Jiang Wei's mother sitting on the sofa with her two acquaintances, so she said hello while changing her shoes: "Mom, Aunt Chang, Aunt Li. "

Jiang Wei's mother didn't reply, but the two aunts raised their heads to look at her with unnatural expressions: "Ah, Jiang Wei, you are back."

Only then did Jiang Wei notice that his mother was absent-minded, her face was pale, and she seemed to be haggard a lot.She suddenly panicked: "Mom, what's wrong?"

Mom looked up at her as if she had lost her soul, as if she had aged a lot in an instant.Jiang Wei didn't know what happened, he stood there blankly looking at her, feeling that something had happened.

"Jiang Wei..." Mom looked at her in despair, her voice trembling uncontrollably.Her face was pale, her eyes were dull, and her face was ashen.

Jiang Wei's sense of panic became stronger and stronger, his heart sank suddenly, as if he had fallen into a dark and bottomless abyss: "Mom?"

Mom's lips were also wrinkled dry, and she muttered: "The lawsuit, our family's lawsuit...lost."

wow-

A stack of paintings in Jiang Wei's hand fell to the ground and spread out one by one without any rules. The lead gray sketches of human heads raised the corners of their mouths coldly, as if looking mockingly at the world through the drawing paper.

More desperate and sad than at any time in memory, even more tragic and desperate than when she and Zhao Mengfan had a falling out about Xia Shuo a long time ago.And all the best memories and dreams of girls about puberty ended at that time.

She thought of that scene today that also made her feel ashamed.

Jiang Wei looked at Yu Xinye in front of him with a pale face, and the boy also looked at her, without the usual relaxed and cynical expression on his face, and he couldn't see anything.

Qi Xian stood aside and looked at the two of them, sensibly silent.

In the end, Jiang Wei's misty light-colored pupils took on a sad color.

She even smiled: "Yeah, that's it."

(End of this chapter)