timeless

Chapter 26 Termination (2)
There will not be any boy who will act inexplicably ambiguously towards a girl for no reason, and treat her well for no reason.

Everything he did for her, those intimate moves, those tender moments.Everything is just because he likes her.

In fact, I have always understood.

One second he could show such a cold expression to other girls, but the next second he saw me with another usual smile.

Your hesitant expression and gentle eyes have always been there, but I have been deliberately unwilling to believe it.

"It may be that I have been escaping from reality subconsciously, or I can't believe it... In fact, I am a very cowardly and inferior person. You treat me well, and I never think that it is because I am in your heart. Especially... I just think it's because you're a nice person, a playful, unserious person like you would be like this to every girl..." His face was getting redder and redder, It continued to spread to the ears, and the intermittent sobbing was buried under the palm of the hand. The girl said, "I have never believed it...but I know the real reason subconsciously, but I just can't confirm it...because I'm worried, everything It's all my own self-indulgence...

"I'm really a very greedy person... Even I know it myself. I'd rather be so ambiguous with you and continue this relationship that can't tell whether it's friendship or love, and I don't want to pierce this relationship... ...Because I'm worried that once I say it clearly, it will disappear...

"I'm not kind at all, and I'm downright selfish... Seeing you tease other girls, I'm so jealous...

"But even so... I still..."

I have been close to the truth countless times, but always turn away when I am about to touch the reality behind the fog.

Everything is like the time in a dream, which has become a fleeting time that passes by in a hurry.

There have also been fragments of dreams.The rain of sweet-scented osmanthus blown up by the wind is like a scene in a fairy tale, enveloping the two people in the sweet and deadly aroma.Then they were put into drawing paper together and preserved completely.

Such a dream-like world is real and has existed.

"I am still……"

Jiang Wei felt the scorching body temperature cover his wrist again.With just a little force, Yu Xinye pulled the girl's hand covering her face, revealing a flushed face covered with tears.

"I am frivolous and willful, and I don't understand what you need most like Qi Xian. Maybe you still think I am a fool and a scum. But, I think at least I can't leave you alone." Yu Xinye smiled Laughing, the pupils are as clear as distilled water in a test tube, with a gentle radiance flowing, "Even if you speak so badly of yourself... But, I can't hate you."

That scorching grip became a little more intense.With a little force, Yu Xinye pulled the girl into his arms.

The voice is so gentle that it can melt the whole dream:
"I'm Yu Xinye from Class A of Senior Three. I'm 17 years old. I'm about to cross the stage. I'm a Libra. I'm on the school basketball team. I have blood type O. I like racing cars and playing games. May I ask Jiang Wei from Class B of Senior Two, would you like to be with me?" dating?"

In this way, you can feel my love, right?

One month later, on Christmas Eve, Yu Xinye stayed because it was his turn to be on duty, while Jiang Wei and Jing Yonghui went home together.By the time Yu Xinye packed up his things and went home, it was already dark.

It seems that because of Christmas Eve, the streets are very lively tonight.A rare snowflake fell in the sky, and Yu Xinye quickened his pace.It gets dark early in the winter evening, and there are more pedestrians on Christmas Eve than on Christmas Eve.Yesterday I made an appointment with Jiang Wei at the entrance of the cafe, and now there is still some distance from the cafe.

Children on the street sang "Merry Christmas", and the singing was particularly moving in the noisy night market.

Yu Xinye was looking at his watch as he was on his way, when he accidentally bumped into Zhao Mengfan.

Zhao Mengfan was also slightly taken aback when he saw him, and then smiled as if he understood something: "Are you going on a date with Jiang Wei?"

"En." Seeing that Zhao Mengfan didn't overreact, Yu Xinye nodded.

"Where are you going?"

"ZAMMO, that cafe."

"Just on the way." Zhao Mengfan laughed, "Let's go together."

"Row."

Classes were divided in the third year of high school, and Yu Xinye and Zhao Mengfan were no longer in the same class.Usually, they don't have much time to meet each other at school. Since the two of them had a little conflict about Jiang Wei and Xia Shuo before, they basically didn't say hello when they met.It was only because of the relationship between Yu Xinye and Xie Yayi that the relationship between the two gradually eased, but at most they just met and nodded. In addition, Yu Xinye and Xie Yayi broke up, so there was no reason for them to get acquainted.

This time we met on the way, it was purely accidental, it was beyond the boy's expectation.Originally thought that a young lady like Zhao Mengfan would scold herself because of Xie Yayi's incident, but to her surprise she didn't do so.

"Jiang Wei, I've known her since elementary school." Unexpectedly, when the other party mentioned this name suddenly, Yu Xinye's nerves tensed up, but seeing the girl's peaceful expression, he couldn't help but relax again.The girl didn't seem to notice his vigilance, and continued, "We've always been good friends... She always acted like she didn't care about anything, as if everything had nothing to do with her. But, she stood in the crowd , when you glance over inadvertently, you will suddenly feel that she is actually very lonely. So, this always makes me can't help but get close to her, and then close to her, so that she will not be so lonely anymore. "

Yep, that's it.

Yu Xinye agreed in his heart.

"For a long time I don't understand why she and I are so close... Her cold temper and stubbornness, I always force her to do some things, borrow homework for me to copy, accompany me to go shopping, see me Let's play at home. Although she doesn't want to, she never refuses me, and she always looks so gentle."

Mmmm, that's right.

"Until later, I fell out with her because of Xia Shuo. Actually, I really didn't want to be angry with her or quarrel with her. I just couldn't accept it for a while. She even liked Xia Shuo, but she never told me But, so, I kept mentioning Xia Shuo in front of her before, as if she was watching me directing and acting by myself as a bystander... This feeling made me feel very annoyed. I felt that I was pulling I don't want to lose face, that's why I did this...

"Actually, I really regret it... I am very small-minded, especially at that time when you helped her, so many people watched, no one stood by my side to speak for me, I felt really shameless. But as soon as the quarrel with her was over, I immediately regretted it. I have never had such a fierce argument with her. This time, I may really be making trouble for no reason. However, I was unwilling to apologize to her... so I kept procrastinating, As a result, we became what we are now.”

Zhao Mengfan smiled and repeated: "I really regret it."

Small flakes of snow swirled and fell in front of her.

Yu Xinye looked at the girl's beautiful side face in the night, was stunned for a moment, and then suddenly laughed out loud: "Hey, actually, I thought you would beat me up because of Xie Yayi."

"How come... But I admit that when you were with Xie Yayi and left Jiang Wei aside, I really wanted to beat you up." The girl also laughed, but then her expression became serious again, "You If you don't treat Jiang Wei well, and you continue to be promiscuous, I will definitely make you lose the rest of your life!"

"Yes yes yes, I obey, Queen Zhao." Yu Xinye made a "forgiving" expression.The originally lonely snowy night seemed to be filled with happiness because of the warmth of the hustle and bustle, "I think... if Jiang Wei knew, she would laugh until she cried."

When they reached an intersection not far from the cafe, Yu Xinye and Zhao Mengfan stopped suddenly.

The intersection ahead was crowded with onlookers, blocking the road completely.Many cars kept honking their horns.The snow fell harder.

"What's wrong?" Yu Xinye looked into the crowd suspiciously.

"It might be a traffic accident." Zhao Mengfan said, "Do you want to go and have a look?"

Yu Xinye hesitated for a while: "Well, let's go and have a look."

Squeezing into the front of the crowd, the scene of the car accident was not as bloody as imagined, but a long bloodstain was drawn under the wheel.The perpetrator panicked and explained: "It's not me, it's her who doesn't look at the road!"

Still enthusiastic onlookers grabbed him to prevent him from escaping, called the police and called an ambulance.

Zhao Mengfan looked at it for a while, and suddenly screamed in extreme panic, and his whole body collapsed on the ground.

The girl's hysterical scream was like a pair of sharp scissors, stabbing a wound in the dark night sky and Yu Xinye's heart.

Yu Xinye's legs went limp, and his knees hit the hard concrete floor.

The original appearance of the blood-stained white scarf that was caught under the wheel was vaguely recognizable.

Zhao Mengfan's hysterical cry seemed to tear Yu Xinye's entire 17-year-old into pieces.

Whose dream is so real, with a soft and cold floating light.With a hint of sweet-scented osmanthus fragrance that can hardly be smelled, with the attitude of the end of the play, it stranded leisurely on the bank of the long river of youth.

One week after the end of the college entrance examination, the school organized the senior three students to participate in the graduation tour, and the location was set on the mountain where the autumn tour was held in the first year of senior high school.

Although many people complained "Why go to that place every year", almost no one was absent.After all, this is the last group activity before graduation.After that, it's time to go our separate ways.

This time, because there were only third graders in high school, there were fewer people, so I went by bus.

Zhao Mengfan's class had too many people, so some of them had to ride in the same car with students from other classes.

Zhao Mengfan boarded another bus with students from other classes. After finding a seat by the window and sitting down, he put his eyes out of the window and watched the other people under the bus who were still waiting in line to get on the bus. .

After a while, there was a rustling sound.Zhao Mengfan felt someone stop beside him, and then his side sank, as if someone sat down.She subconsciously turned her head to look, and Xia Shuo's clean and gentle profile appeared gently in her field of vision.

Feeling the girl's surprise, Xia Shuo turned to look at her, his eyes were as cold and soft as ever: "Can I sit here?"

"Ah...you sit down." Although he felt a little uncomfortable, Zhao Mengfan soon realized that this car belonged to Xia Shuo's class, so there was no reason to refuse him.So she had no choice but to look out of the window to hide her bewilderment and bewilderment.

Xia Shuo didn't talk to her again.

In this way, the awkward atmosphere continued until the car started.

"Do you know, in fact, there is a osmanthus forest in the mountain we have been to many times." The boy said suddenly.

Zhao Mengfan froze for a moment, then turned to look at him.The boy didn't look at her, but just looked at the road ahead indifferently, without any superfluous expression on his face.

"I don't know, I've never heard of it."

"I didn't know at first, Yu Xinye told me." After realizing what he said, Xia Shuo was silent for a while, but soon switched to another topic, "He said that the forest is called ' Osmanthus forest'."

"Osmanthus osmanthus forest?" Zhao Mengfan repeated, "Why?"

"'Osmanthus fragrans' means sweet-scented osmanthus."

"So...then, have you ever been to the Osmanthus osmanthus Forest?"

"I haven't been there." Xia Shuo smiled and shook his head, "But, do you want to look for it with me?"

The sound of feet stepping on the thick fallen leaves is very clear in the silent woods.

Zhao Mengfan and Xia Shuo walked side by side in the woods, the rustling sound came from their feet.

Also in the early autumn of a year, another boy held another girl's wrist, ran along the same path covered with fallen leaves, passed through thickets, and crushed countless dead branches and fallen trees under his feet. Joy paved this little-known path.

More and more intense aromas scrambled into the nostrils, and the sweet happiness seemed to be soaring that it was about to drip out of the air.

When Xia Shuo pushed aside the bushes in front of him, Zhao Mengfan was stunned.

Countless small sweet-scented osmanthus flowers, following the direction of the wind, like snow, are swirling and falling out of thin air.

On the treetops, on the branches and leaves, clusters of white flowers are tightly packed together, as if covering the entire sky.

The ground under the feet is covered with fine white, layer after layer, covering the long road in front of you.

The sun shines through the gaps between the leaves, and the light dust floats slowly in the warm beams.

The tiny white petals like catkins seemed to be scattered from the sky, gently spinning in mid-air, spinning, and finally fell silently to the ground at the feet.

Zhao Mengfan held her breath and did not dare to turn her eyes away for a moment. Even if some flower petals were blown onto her face by the wind, the girl just sniffed the sweet smell in the air greedily.

However, such a beautiful rain of osmanthus flowers makes people feel a depressing and melancholy atmosphere from the beginning to the end. People look at it and don't know why there is a kind of sadness that wants to cry.

The wind is getting stronger and stronger, wrinkling the whole area of ​​flowers and rain, but here there is a kind of silence after heavy snow covers the mountains.

Zhao Mengfan closed his eyes and breathed carefully.

Xia Shuo's voice came from next to my ear: "This place is beautiful, right? But, I feel...very sad."

The girl sniffed and didn't answer.

"Where did you fill in your college entrance examination application?" Xia Shuo asked suddenly.

"The first choice is Xiamen...how about you?"

"Shanghai." Xia Shuo suddenly smiled.That pair of cold but gentle eyes stared tenderly at Zhao Mengfan's eyes like many times before.As if he was still a 17-year-old boy, wearing a light gray jumper, standing under the streetlight on the street opposite the school, looking at her with soft eyes, "Maybe, this is the last time we meet."

Zhao Mengfan rubbed his wet eye sockets and smiled: "Well, maybe."

Such a long and lonely adolescence, here, finally all over.

Behind them, there is a tall sweet-scented osmanthus tree standing quietly and alone.Once a person came here alone, and on the back of this tree, he carved two names with a knife.

Jiang Wei.

Yu Xinye.

The two names overlapped in the sea of ​​time seem to have never appeared before, but they really exist.With the look of the end of the play, every gesture stretched out to the end of the year, with the memory, waiting silently forever in the sea of ​​flowers in this Osmanthus osmanthus forest.

Even if you can't see it.

"That was the youth I never dared to dream of again."

"It is also the sweetest and saddest dream that I have been refusing to wake up." The flashy desolation in the corner of your eyes or the quiet tenderness.
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