Paranoid male god depends on me

Chapter 779 I know I shouldn't be forgiven

"Even sometimes, I feel that I am not as good as Ke Yuze, not as good as his feelings for you, at least he has always believed in you, I..."

Jin Chenyu didn't say any more, Xun Yunuo looked at his back, he clearly saw his trembling, and there was even a faint sniffling sound, he couldn't be crying, right?

At some point, Xun Yunuo's eye sockets felt a little warm, and she felt that her eyes were wet, so she blinked a few times, trying to dry up the tears and keep them from falling.

She suddenly remembered that year, when he was only in his teens, but he drank until he lost his mind.

At that time, Han Qin left the Jin family and there was no news of him, but he acted as if nothing happened in front of her, and later he learned about it from Jin Wanning.

Jin Wanning was in a bad mood during that time, so she often accompanied Jin Wanning at that time.

During that time, Jin Chenyu was almost normal in front of them, until one weekend, she and Jin Wanning found that he had disappeared.

After searching, she found him in his bedroom. At that time, he was lying on the ground unconsciously, with a few empty wine bottles beside him. She still remembered the indistinct but repeated words in his mouth, "If you betray, never come back..."

Xun Yunuo knows that when people are young, many things will have a profound impact, and sometimes the impact will last a lifetime, so some people have personality defects.

"I know I don't deserve to be forgiven..."

"I regret treating you that way. I know I was wrong, but you don't love me anymore." After a pause, Jin Chenyu smiled self-deprecatingly, "If it was me, I wouldn't Forgive the one you love for misunderstood yourself..."

Jin Chenyu's voice was filled with deep sadness, which pierced Xun Yunuo's heart.

At this moment, Xun Yunuo's head was in a mess and her heart was beating fast, she didn't dare to breathe out, she was afraid that if her heart beat too loudly, he would find that she was actually awake.

Jin Chenyu stopped muttering to himself, and the bedroom suddenly became quiet, only the faint chirping of insects outside the window came into his ears.

Xun Yunuo closed her eyes, but couldn't fall asleep, her thoughts were racing, and her brows were full of melancholy. Her mood seemed to become extremely dull along with him.

The worry-free and happy time when I was a child, the trough time a few years ago, and his trampling on her a few months ago, and the tender time of the month before they were supposed to get married, alternated in her mind repeatedly, which made her feel a little nervous for a while. I can't bear it, my head hurts.

His doting on her and his indifference to her seemed like a hot flame and a piece of cold ice, the combination of heat and cold made her feel unspeakably miserable in her heart.

At the end of the pain, she suddenly understood that the reason why she was so entangled and uncomfortable was because she still loved him.

During the two years in Heyuan Town, she made up her mind to forget him, but in fact, she never forgot him in her heart.

When they met again a few months ago, they brought back the feelings that had been buried in her heart again. Until now, she really had to admit that she had always loved him, that's why she couldn't hold others in her heart, and couldn't hold Mingming's love for her. Such a good Ke Yuze.

She once told herself that if you suffer from a fall, you will learn a lot of wisdom, and don't be poisoned by love and fall into his trap.

There is also the so-called one who is bitten by a snake once and is afraid of well ropes for ten years.

But think about it carefully, if she really hated him that much, she wouldn't be sleeping beside him right now?

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(End of this chapter)