queen i love you

Chapter 74

Sun Qing just couldn't figure it out: "Why can't you be with Bo Nanfeng? Is it because he is younger than you? You really don't like him at all?" Sun Qing didn't believe it, she understood Jiangnan's character , Emotionally, she is not a casual woman.If he really didn't feel anything about Bo Nanfeng, let alone vowing to die, his eyes would not be slightly intoxicated when he talked about his feelings at that time later.

Jiang Nan has rarely felt so tired, as if he almost lost the strength to breathe.Putting down the cup and laying down on the sofa, already very thin, only a small ball remained when retracted into the sofa.

She hasn't gained weight in these years. The profession of lawyer seems to be beautiful, but she knows all too much the hardships and hardships.But no matter how tired and fragile she is, there is still an unquenchable light in her eyes, very bright, making her look indomitable and strong.That's why when others look at her, they will say that she is living a prosperous life in the south of the Yangtze River. If she is not doing happily, it is difficult to have that kind of spirit.

But at this moment, Sun Qing found that her vision was dim, and even the tenacity of gnashing her teeth in the past was gone, and she was as soft as a cloud of fog.I vaguely remember that when I broke up with Ji Mengxi five years ago, Jiangnan looked like this, as if his bones were taken out, his heart and eyes were full of emptiness.Now she reminds Sun Qing of five years ago...

"Jiangnan, are you broken in love?"

Jiang Nan raised his eyes and smiled: "What are you talking about, Ji Mengxi and I haven't broken up yet."

But what is the difference between Jiangnan's current state, like embracing hands or getting it, and letting go reluctantly?There must be something precious, if you can't get it or have to lose it, there will be such a powerless Jiangnan!
"You like Bo Nanfeng, right?"

Jiangnan Bingba's legs were bent like a thin shrimp, and he subconsciously hugged himself tightly with his palms reaching his knees.During the time when he was in love on the bed, Bo Nanfeng disliked her for being too thin, and it made his bones hurt if he didn't squeeze too hard, and he was even more afraid that he would break her if he tried too hard.Holding her waist and abdomen with big palms, gnashing her teeth and breaking her heart...Jiangnan really likes such a pure man, with bravery and integrity in every line, why didn't they have the vigor and vitality like him when they were young?Jiang Nan couldn't figure it out!
The corners of the eyes are slightly hooked into a smile, just like the spring breeze blowing up.Said softly, as if sighing to himself: "I like it, why don't I like it. Even I can't believe it. I thought that I would never like someone so much after being injured five years ago, but I never thought that I can still like Bo so much. Nanfeng, I feel like I've never liked anyone so much before. The feelings for Ji Mengxi have been exhausted back then, but when I met Bo Nanfeng, even my soul trembled, that person was as bright as a ball of fire, Being too close to him, I felt that I would turn into a moth, and wanted to be desperate. There are some feelings that I have never had in Ji Mengxi except him. I am really crazy!"

She glanced at Sun Qing, and then said: "You know, when I saw him for the first time in the detention center, I felt like a ray of light entered my life, warm and scorching. I don't want to talk about it all these years In love, I can’t find anyone to marry. I feel that my heart is so cold. A man is like a piece of ice, which makes me unable to arouse my interest. I always feel that it’s better to use that thought on work. You say , what in this world is not more reliable than a man? Back then, I thought Ji Mengxi was the best man in the world. Reason, he left in the end. The pain in my heart back then was like a thousand cuts, Sun Qing, you can say that I was worthless, but I really felt that it was not easy to survive at that time. The saddest time even My breathing is blocked, my chest hurts from suffocation, I want to be alone when I eat, I want to be alone when I walk, I want to be alone when I sleep... That kind of feeling is not good, it can be said to be desolate." Such pain is heartbreaking, and now When I think about it, I am still very scared, and I seem to be shivering, so I don't want to go through it again.

"I used to like Ji Mengxi so much, and I was so desperate for him. I really didn't feel sorry for him. Even if he broke up with me because I shared the bed with Bo Nanfeng, I still feel that everything is fine. I don't feel guilty or can't." Accept. What I can’t accept is Bo Nanfeng! He’s so nice, I’m afraid to be with him! Once bitten by a snake, I’m afraid of well ropes for ten years. That’s how I feel now. When Nian Mengxi left, I Even if life is worse than death, what should I do if Bo Nanfeng leaves me? I like him so much now, I'm afraid that if time goes by and I get closer to him, this love will reach the point where I can't extricate myself. I'm afraid Destroy yourself, plunge yourself into such a passive abyss, is there any room for turning around in the future? But if you are not with him from the beginning, you will never lose that day, and the incalculable pain will never be used Bear."

Sun Qing was terrified by what she said, as if the texture of the heart was already very soft, and at this moment someone cut it with a sharp weapon.Having seen the flames of that year's war raging and blood dripping, I was really afraid that the smoke of gunpowder would be misty again.She understands the kind of fear that Jiangnan mentioned. Back then, Jiangnan narrowly escaped death, and anyone would be afraid that if he experienced it again, he would be doomed again, and the only thing he could do was die.

Sitting directly on the floor, he took her hand and found that Jiangnan's hand was so cold that it was like lumps of ice. He pulled a thin blanket to cover her.

"Jiangnan, don't you feel too insecure like this? Who said that Bo Nanfeng would leave you? Has he ever said that he loves you?"

I said it, but what about that?How credible is what a man says in bed?Even if he said the truth at the time, who can guarantee that he will not change his mind in the future?After all, he is too young and has only seen so many women. It is not an exaggeration to say that he is unstable.Jiangnan is like this, not because he is demanding on men, he is like a soldier, and he is not allowed to change his mind.Even if she will face the risk of being abandoned when she is with other men in the future, she is not afraid.As long as it's not Bo Nanfeng, she doesn't care about others.Now she can be a virtuous woman, wave her hand and leave with all the heartless people in the world.

She drew back her hand and stroked the corners of her eyes, feeling that she was really too old for the first time.

"Bo Nanfeng is still so young, and I have even the wrinkles around my eyes. He can still play in the world for many years, but I can't, I don't have any extra youth to squander. Besides, I have a family, how could I not Looking forward and backward. I really dare not be with him, so I can't be together."

I couldn't continue, and started to feel sleepy.She was physically exhausted before, and Bo Nanfeng tossed her up all night. She barely got up from the bed at noon, and was woken up by Jiang's mother's phone call.Jiang Nan was about to leave, and he made up his mind to hide outside for a few days and not go home.But she felt pity for him and didn't look at him: "You don't have the key to my house, there is a card in the bedside table, the password is the last few digits of my mobile phone number... ah..."

(End of this chapter)