queen i love you

Chapter 98 I'm afraid I won't meet someone I like so much again (3)
I'm afraid that if I let go now, I won't be able to meet such a woman I like again, so I still want to struggle in such pain.When I met you, my brain started to fail.Yes, rape and murder, how could I put my life in your hands at such a risk, I can't find any good lawyer, but I just trust you.You said that I caused you trouble, the accident had nothing to do with me, and the hidden danger was cleared up for you tomorrow morning, but I still don't want to tell you, I just want to cling to you, clinging to you logically.

Jiangnan, you can spit on me, trample on me, bully me, that is your right.But you don't care. I am willing to be spurned by you, trampled on by you, bullied by you, want to marry you, love you, love you dearly, that is my human right.If you don't want to, we can never matter.But how much I like you in my heart, you really don't care. "

Jiang Nan choked so badly that he couldn't breathe well.My heart is in a mess, but I still understand that he has been blowing the wind all night by the river.

"That's why you have a cold, isn't it?"

Bo Nanfeng's eyes seemed to be worth a thousand gold, and he barely opened a gap, and they fell down in a moment.

"Who said I had a cold, nonsense! I was abandoned by you and got depression." His half-smiling voice became weaker and weaker, and the ending was completely silent.

Jiang Nan looked at him quietly for a while, making sure he was asleep.One hand was still held in his palm, and it was getting warmer and warmer, as if trying to melt her away.

He appeared in her dreams more than once, all kinds of him, evil, domineering, crying, smiling, but not so sick and crooked, Jiangnan doesn't like such a spiritless person the most Thin south wind.

"You need to get well soon."

After sitting for a long time, it was not until the phone rang that I suddenly came back to my senses.Pulling out her hand to answer the phone, Jiang's mother heard that she had dinner with Ji's mother tonight, and asked her how she felt.

I still felt it before, whether it was the laughter at the dinner table or the emptiness after returning, I felt quite rich.After being disturbed by the matter of Bo Nanfeng, I found that I didn't have any feelings, and I almost forgot about the meal together before.

Jiang Nan sat on the bench in the hospital and said a few perfunctory words.

"How can I feel it? I was nervous at the beginning, but Ji Mengxi's mother is very talkative, and she is still happy after eating a meal. Mom, why are you asking these questions in such a hurry, I will tell you when I go back."

Jiang's mother thought she was working, and promised, "That's fine. We'll talk about it when you come home for dinner someday."

Jiang Nan hummed and hung up the phone.

I didn't go back immediately, my mind was very confused, and my breathing was also very difficult, so I sat on the bench to breathe.Now this is not the result she wants to see. She thinks that after that day, only she will be in pain, and he will still live comfortably. Even if he is sad, it is very slight. After sleeping, it may be over in a few days.He never felt that Bo Nanfeng valued her so much, so he was restless, wanting to be together, afraid of being together, just like that.Tonight, I heard him say that while half asleep and half awake: "I'm afraid that if I let go now, I won't be able to meet such a woman I like again." It turned out that he liked her like this, but she never knew it.

Jiang Nan felt that it was okay to be sad, but Bo Nanfeng was also so sad, everything was in chaos.

The phone rang again.

It was Bo Nanfeng's voice that Jiang Nan went to pick it up in a daze. Her back stiffened and she straightened her body.

"What? Is there any discomfort? I'll go back right away." Jiang Nan stood up and was about to go back.

Bo Nanfeng took it easy: "No, it's very comfortable everywhere, but you feel uncomfortable and you refuse to come in."

Jiang Nan froze on the spot.

He seems to have regained some energy, his speech is stronger than before, he is no longer eccentric, and his voice is deep: "Jiangnan, have you heard me sing?"

Jiang Nan shook his head, and for some reason burst into tears.Thinking of not standing in front of him at this moment, he couldn't see it at all.He choked for a moment and said, "I haven't heard of it."

"I'll sing it to you." Bo Nanfeng almost said with a smile.

His voice was clean and magnetic, and it was pleasant to hear when he spoke, but he did not expect to have such a complete set of five notes, and he could hear it pleasantly when he opened his mouth.

The voice was close to her ears, as if he was singing to her when she was lying on her neck.

Afraid of loneliness

I'm also afraid that you will leave me

if you love me please tell me

say don't let me be lonely
never heard me say it

I feel that even I am afraid of being lonely

Whenever the night falls quietly

a person can be sad indeed
The mobile phone is on but it doesn't ring

often alone until dawn

Who knows that there are people who are lonely in the downtown
say you won't leave me

say no regrets

Only you can dispel my loneliness

I feel like I really miss you

always in every lonely night

missing You

but dare not tell you
how i wish you were like me

I have forgiven yesterday's regret

don't want to struggle anymore
in the emotional world
thinking tomorrow is me
inadvertently think of sadness
so stubborn and brave

Such lingering sounds can be heard endlessly, but Jiangnan can hear choked up silence.Growing up so big has never been so sad, including when Ji Mengxi left many years ago, she stood alone on the empty road at midnight, watered and washed by the cold heavy rain, her heartache did not reach the point where she could not breathe.

She was speechless and felt that she had done something wrong.I can only call out his name over and over again: "Nanfeng... Nanfeng..."

Bo Nanfeng's breath also broke, and he continued singing without stopping.Said that he was afraid of being lonely, said that he missed her very much, and only found out that it was really sad to wait for her at night alone...

Jiang Nan turned and went back to the ward, with big and hasty steps, a song in the receiver had already been sung.

Bo Nanfeng's voice was low and hoarse, as if he had finally decided not to tease her anymore, but his seriousness made people feel sad.

"Jiangnan, I feel sad seeing you like this. Since you don't want to see me so much, I'd better disappear."

Jiang Nan cried so hard that his throat was filled with broken "whimpers" and he couldn't make a sound at all.I want to say, Bo Nanfeng, don't go.Before she could say anything, the phone hung up.

She quickly ran back to the ward and pushed open the door vigorously. There was no one on the bed, and there was still unfinished infusion in the infusion bottle.He really left, exactly as Jiang Nan guessed.

Jiangnan held the phone with trembling fingers, turned around and circled the long corridors of the hospital like a headless chicken. A person who had no sense of direction at all, now couldn't tell the difference between southeast and north, and didn't know which way to go. Walk to find him.Jiang Nan was so anxious that he was about to cry, just like Cinderella who was forced to leave when the clock struck midnight, but she didn't know who was the prince.The originally neat and orderly hospital building became a maze, and Jiang Nan was deeply trapped in it, unable to find his way out, and was heartbroken with anxiety.No one answered Bo Nanfeng's phone calls, and the little nurse passing by only said that he didn't know when he left.

(End of this chapter)