Gong Fei Ji

Chapter 275

In Ganquan Palace.

There was silence all around, and the whole room was pitch black.

Bichi hit the flint and wanted to light the candlestick, but a voice suddenly came: "Don't light the lamp!"

Bichi thought for a while, and finally put the flint down.Then he groped and walked over, and called softly: "Your Majesty."

Concubine Xian stood up from the ground, walked to the window by feeling, and pushed the window open forcefully.The starlight outside is dim, the shadows of the trees are hidden in the darkness, only a few lanterns emit dim yellow candlelight.

She suddenly thought of what her stepmother Liu Shi said to herself: "...for so many years, I never felt that I owed you sisters, nor did I feel that I owed your mother. The only thing I owe is my pair of children. Willfulness makes them have a father who doesn’t love them enough. Your father loves your mother, he would rather let himself bear the blame, let me bear the blame, but also protect your mother’s reputation, love you sisters forever more than Mu’er And Tongniang's love...I don't care what your father loves, but my children don't owe you anything, so why let them sacrifice for you. If you still have a conscience, after knowing the truth of the year, you should know, You are not qualified to make the Xue family sacrifice so much for you..."

Tears slowly merged into teardrops, and then slid down from the eye sockets.

After a while, she suddenly said in a hoarse voice: "My life seems to be a joke, which is ridiculous and lamentable."

Everything she had thought was not like this at all.

Many things that she didn't pay attention to when she was a child, suddenly all appeared in her memory at this moment.

When I was young, on the Zhuangzi in Yiyang, the big pagoda tree in front of the Zhuangzi, the mother who was in good and bad spirits, often stood outside the Zhuangzi to secretly visit their father, and his sad and lonely voice, and when the mother went crazy. Watching her tell her not to be afraid of her sister.

She can't remember when she lived in Zhuangzi when she was young, it seems that she has been living there since she can remember, but she has no memory of living in Xue's mansion.At that time, although they lived in Zhuangzi, except that they could not go out, they were not treated badly in their lives, and even some embarrassing requests of theirs were met by someone who could try their best to satisfy them.

Mother has probably gone crazy since she moved to Zhuangzi.When they are in good spirits, they will be gentle to them, teach them piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and say that they will become talented women, and then let them marry a husband who is musical and harmonious.When the spirit is not good, I will make some children's clothes in a daze, and then touch my stomach and say happily: "This is for your younger brother. In a few months, mother will give birth to a younger brother for you." No, you guys are not happy. From now on, Qingniang and Su Niang must protect my younger brother!"

Sometimes my temper would become very bad, and I would push her and my sister away, look at her and my sister with resentment, and beat and scold at the same time: "... Get out, get out, your father killed you!" killed my son, your father killed him, you are all my enemies..."

Every time this happened, a nanny would come and take them away, and then drug the mother.The nanny would whisper in front of them in a sympathetic tone: "...What a crime, how can there be such a mother in the world, who beat and scolded her child after she was divorced because of her injustice."

At that time, she thought that the "he" her mother said was the younger brother or sister who was not born in time, so she became more and more resentful towards her father.She thought that her father not only abandoned them, but also forced her mother to drink the soup to kill her own child.

(End of this chapter)