Reborn Totalitarian Queen

Chapter 928 Wishful thinking, the death of the queen mother (5)
Later, every year during the New Year's celebrations and state banquets, she was sitting in the Nuan Pavilion in a graceful and luxurious phoenix robe, and he was in the outer hall. The distance was not far or close, but it seemed that he had never seen clearly again. Her face and the look on her face.

He and she, between the two of them, is really aboveboard, although——

Both of them are well aware of her obscure and forbearing relationship.

If time flies, it will be thirty cold summers in a blink of an eye. The woman in front of me is still as calm and calm as before, but her face is withered and lost the brilliance of that year.

The past 30 years have obviously been a long time, but for him and her, he seemed to feel that it was just a reunion after a while, and under this reunion, he was shocked to find that——

She has changed so much.

The Empress Dowager Song stared at him fixedly, the emotion in her eyes was only strong self-mockery.

Even at this moment, she still tried her best to maintain that relationship as her own thing.

Duanmuxiang looked at her for a while, then sighed, "In the end, I owe you. In the end - I owe you."

sorry?What did he have to do to her?Everything she did was just her own wishful thinking.

Born at the wrong time is born at the wrong time, she has never expected to get his affection in her life, but what is even more unacceptable is such three distinct words——

I am sorry.

She would rather he not show up, and he would rather never hear him say sorry, because she really didn't want to use such a clearly priced way to calculate all the emotions in her life.

The Empress Dowager Song suddenly laughed uncontrollably, "I don't know, I'm just a pawn you use to realize your ambition."

She lowered her head and then raised her head, looking at the man's face again, "Chang Jie, I don't blame you, I know, you were different from my grandfather from the very beginning, when he gave up Nantang, he just wanted to protect himself, you But it was out of necessity.”

What kind of person Song Yi is, as a daughter, she knows best. Although because of the court's suspicion, he has been standing with Duan Muxiang on the united front of Kuangfu's homeland, but there is more or less meaning in it .

When the late emperor announced her into the palace, Song Yi actually hesitated, but at that time she made up her mind——

Anyway, it's a lifetime of love, so just be more magnanimous, go to fulfill him, and do something for him.

She didn't admit it at the time, but in fact she took that step because of him.

And apparently—

He also understands.

"Ajiu..." Duanmuxiang sighed with a complicated expression.

It's just that even though this gaze is complicated in every way, it doesn't show any tenderness in the end.

She was originally disheartened and had never had hope. At this moment, the Empress Dowager Song suddenly felt less reconciled. She suddenly grabbed his arm and asked in a distressed and helpless way: "What happened in the past? I don’t even mention it, since you’re here, then——now I just ask you, have you ever loved me?”

Maybe it has nothing to do with feelings, this kind of questioning is just for a little obsession.

Duanmuxiang pursed the corners of his lips, his face still calm.

"Have you ever loved? Answer me!" The Empress Dowager Song suddenly became flustered when she saw him like this. She grabbed his arm even harder and asked again, "Even if I don't hold as much weight in your heart as you do Take one ten-thousandth of the responsibility, tell me, did you ever have feelings for me? Even if it is a little bit excluded from the edge of being used..."

Know the answer a long time ago, but can't help being so aggressive?
She avoided the question all her life, and finally she couldn't avoid it and asked it.

"Why are you bothering?" Duanmuxiang smiled wryly.

Empress Dowager Song's gaze turned dim at that moment, as if the hysterical woman just before was not her at all.

She let go of her hand slowly, and lowered her head.

The person she had missed for many years, even if she was right in front of her eyes, she no longer looked at him, and just sat there motionless.

Even if you lie to me!
But she still didn't say this sentence in the end.

I have been deceiving myself and others all my life, so there is no need to hear such a lie again.

Song Jiu!you are silly!

Some people have been stupid for a lifetime, there is no cure for it, only you——

The heart is as clear as a mirror, but he is willing to enter the game and ruins his life foolishly, but——

Even so, she still couldn't think of another possibility, what would have happened if she hadn't met him, if she had married and had children against her will.

No regrets, really, never thought of regretting...

The door opened and then closed again, only the momentary cold wind poured in, it seemed that the air in the room was also chilled out of thin air.

The Empress Dowager Song kept such a slumped posture, sitting there for a long time.

Song Chuxi walked over and helped her to lie down.

Empress Dowager Song suddenly remembered something, and a trace of panic flashed in her eyes, and she grabbed her hand hastily.

"Chu Xi—" She was begging, and she was about to say something, but seeing the expression on Song Chuxi's face that was also more sorrowful than heartbroken, the words stuck in her throat, and she swallowed with difficulty .

She knew that she could no longer influence this girl's decision, because what was in front of her was not only her private affairs with Duan Muxiang, Song Chuxi was also involved in it, and in this whole matter, this child also had to make choices and The full force of the decision.

"Auntie! Is it worth it? You are doing this for him, at all costs. Is it really worth it?" Song Chuxi knew what she was thinking, but she just pretended not to see the panic and intolerance in her eyes. I asked once, but was ambiguous by the Queen Mother Song, and now I asked again, but the tone could not conceal the anger.

"Chuxi, it's about feelings, so there's no point in talking about whether it's worth it or not. Everything I do is voluntary. I only hate that in this life, I will always be a hopeless loser. Being rejected by him, you can't get him to treat you wholeheartedly." The Empress Dowager Song's tone was still calm, but there was too much powerlessness and helplessness under that calmness.

Song Chuxi looked at her face reflected in the light, and listened to the words slowly uttered from her pale and weak lips, "Chuxi, you are not me, you won't understand, I—— just feel unwilling! 36 Years, from the first time I saw him at the age of 16, a full 36 years, until today, I still have to admit that I have paid the wrong money in my life!"

She never expected him to abandon his wife to marry her. No one could do anything about the regret of being born at an untimely time, but she never thought that it was only her wishful thinking all along, even at the last moment. He didn't even want to tell a lie to deceive her.

"Aunt..." Song Chuxi felt extremely sour in her heart.

The Empress Dowager Song turned to look at her, but smiled slowly, and she said, "Xi'er, it's over, it's finally over."

For that man, she had waited her whole life, from the blooming and lush years to the end of the white head with a calm heart, and finally had to admit that what she had been acting was a one-man show all along.

She had always known that he only had the responsibility of being a husband to Yue Shi, but it turned out that he didn't just treat Yue Shi calmly, but he treated all women the same, right?
That man, that man—

Empress Dowager Song closed her eyes, Zhuang Nanny couldn't bear it because she would cry, she knelt down, and held her hand, but in the end her lips only showed a bleak smile.

Song Chuxi opened the door and came out of the room. As dawn approached, the sky began to snow again unscrupulously.

She raised her face, pretending that she couldn't hear Zhuang Nanny's more and more mournful cries in the room behind her.

Yin Zhan closed the cloak for her from behind.

Although he didn't speak, Song Chuxi tried his best to give him a consoling smile, "I'm fine."

Yin Zhan only stroked the hair on the back of her head, and said lightly: "This is the best, there are some truths, she—"

As he spoke, he looked back at the closed door behind his eyes with emotion, and then continued: "He Duanmuxiang, it's good to be kept in the dark."

Love hurts people, no matter how cruel it is, sometimes it is far inferior to the cruelty of the truth. They have already suffered a love trauma, and there is really no need to make it worse and be hit by the so-called truth again.

Yin Zhan seemed to be expressing his words, but Song Chuxi couldn't help but joked, "Are you looking for an excuse to kill someone for me?"

Yin Zhan didn't smile, but looked into her eyes very seriously and said, "I just think I'm selfish because I don't want you to make any mistakes, so the only thing I can do right now is to accompany you to uncover these cruel things. of the truth."

Although the so-called truth was cruel to the Empress Dowager Song and Duan Muxiang, the weight in Song Chuxi's heart would definitely not be less than the harm to them.

Those two people can still use death to cover up and get relief, but he can't let go, and he can't let her die to escape completely.

The smile on Song Chuxi's face froze instantly.

"Let's go!" Yin Zhan shook her hand and led her into the snow, "No matter how difficult it is, I will walk with you. Yin Shao has never appeared, and he must be waiting to reap the benefits of the fisherman." Then, we can only do it ourselves according to the original plan."

(End of this chapter)