I like you more than yesterday, slightly lacking the Ming Dynasty

Chapter 24

After a long time, Ji Yi turned around. His whole body seemed to be surrounded by icy winter snow, and his eyes were like a cold pool covered by thick snow, frozen three feet.He looked at Bi Xia and said expressionlessly, "No."

Bi Xia was suffocated in his heart, only felt a "boom", as if his whole body was struck by lightning, unable to move.

Her eyes were instantly hot and sore, Bi Xia's eyes were red, and her heart suddenly seemed to be swept away by a tsunami, and she fell into the abyss.

Under the dark night sky, without looking at himself again, he turned around and got into the car, and drove the car.

The car sped away.

The silvery white cold moon hangs obliquely above the treetops, and the faint moonlight shines on the wide and quiet neighborhood, making the surroundings seem more open and quiet.

Bi Xia didn't know how long he had stood under the streetlight next to him.

I just felt like a fool, my heart was empty, my face was chilly from the evening wind, and I wiped it with my hand, and it was full of tears.

So, it's a confession of failure.

After living for so many years, I am used to every time I lose, and I will clear my mind every time, and wipe out all the traces of the other party's existence, but I am reluctant to leave the most beautiful memories quietly; I think I will redecorate my heart once , making it look flawless, but the bottom look still proves how he has been loved and hurt.

Some people like to drink when they are in a bad mood, but I am quite selfish. I don't like doing things that hurt my body, so I plan to play games to numb myself.

Turning on the player inadvertently, Jin Minqi's song "Goodbye, Hello" sounded:

"I can finally stop loving you, and I finally decided to let myself go. The corners of my mouth that I laughed, the corners of my eyes that I cried. Time stood still at this moment, saying goodbye and hello—"

Bi Xia finally couldn't bear it anymore and cried loudly.

Later, even after a long time, I couldn't forget that night. I was so sad that I felt terminally ill, and even my breathing hurt.

……

Played League of Legends all night.

After waking up until dawn, Bi Xia felt that he was not so uncomfortable anymore, and instead breathed a sigh of relief.

The words "I like you" have been pressed heavily in my heart for a long time, rather than hiding this love, it is better to say it happily.Because, she finally didn't have to lie to herself anymore.

Although I expected to fail a long time ago, just like an exam, I finally failed, so I don't have to worry anymore...

Some things are done, just to die.It is also a relief to shoot a hard shot in the heart and no longer leave room for myself.

But at night, when I was tossing and turning, I remembered watching "The Deer and Cauldron" when I was young, and I remembered Hu Yizhi saying: "In the past 23 years, I only said 39 sentences to her, but she said 55 sentences to me."

Then feel sad.

After taking a week's leave, Bi Xia left Shanghai and came to an unknown ancient town.

In the ancient town, there are pavilions with green tile roofs, carved beams and painted buildings, double eaves alternated, and ancient buildings of Ming and Qing Dynasties are densely intertwined.Long ancient rhyme, antique.

Probably not because of the holidays, there are very few tourists in the ancient town, and because it has been raining, it seems like an empty city.

Dark clouds and haze gathered in the sky, pattering rain dripped from the corners of the eaves, and the misty water vapor seemed to cover the whole world, patches of confused white.

Bi Xia held up an umbrella alone, and walked alone in the lonely Qingshiban alley in the smoky mist.The brick walls are mottled, the mountains are cold, and Zhu Ruisuo is lonely, making her miserable.

After eating and sleeping here, sleeping and eating, wandering around in a daze, after spending five days, she realized a truth: since ancient times, confessions are all confessions.

Why torture yourself for someone who doesn't like you?There is a saying that the green hills are far away, the east wind is frenzied, and everything in the world is false.

When the sun goes down, I still get up tomorrow morning. Is it because I am broken in love? Tomorrow I will still be a female man, living the same life.

In this world, if you have any kind of love, go away, drink in a big bowl and eat a big piece of meat, that's the serious thing.

So, after thinking about it this way, I figured it out, Bi Xia felt that his emotional injury was almost healed.

I was afraid that if I stayed here any longer, I would not be far from being disillusioned, so I planned to return to Shanghai tomorrow.

In the evening, she had just packed her luggage when she received a call from Liu An.

"where did you go?"

Bi Xia replied, "I'll be back tomorrow."

Liu An was silent for a while on the other side of the phone, and asked cautiously: "I just... just heard Rou Rou talk about your confession to Ji Yi, are you... all right?"

"What's the matter? I'm fine." Bi Xia pretended to be stupid.

Liu An sighed: "I told you why you are so stupid, I told you not to confess your love, but you didn't listen to me."

"Yeah, I'm just stupid," Bi Xia felt sad, "In order not to let myself be so stupid again, so I woke up."

Liu An was silent for a while, then asked: "Then what are you going to do with Ji Yi?"

"What else can I do?" Bi Xia sneered, "He doesn't like me, and I can't force others to be difficult."

"Don't be sad, it's nothing..." Liu An said solemnly, "Maybe we will change the combat strategy next."

Bi Xia knew that he was just comforting himself, so he sighed and said with a smile: "Forget it, I have given up."

Liu An was taken aback, and asked in a deep voice: "Are you giving up now? Didn't Ji Yi say nothing after you confessed? He didn't refuse or agree either."

"Is this different from refusal?" Bi Xia said shyly.

Liu An said: "Of course there is a difference, and it doesn't fit his personality. If he doesn't like you, he will reject you directly. He won't waste everyone's time. Obviously he is hesitating."

Bi Xia's heart twitched, and hope was ignited again, but he still said in disbelief: "If you hesitate, it means you don't like it."

Liu An was speechless: "I'll go! I didn't realize that you are so single-minded! Ji Yi is a very slow-heating type. If you slowly capture him, he will pay special attention to you in the future."

"You know again." Bi Xia said lightly while holding a teacup.

"You don't even believe me?" Liu An said seriously, "Really, based on what I've known about him over the years, he is just such a person, and he absolutely likes you."

Bi Xia's heart trembled, he sprayed the water he just drank all over the table, coughed a few times, but still didn't believe it.But she didn't care much anymore in her heart, like playing a game of poker, she knew in advance that she would lose, so even if she got Wang Zha, her heart was calm.I can only treat a dead horse as a living horse doctor, and asked: "Okay, what should I do?"

Liu An thought about it for a while, and said, "Anyway, Ji Yi already knows that you like him, so there's nothing wrong with it, and then you'll be ashamed, or do you want to promise him with your body?"

Bi Xia listened carefully to his advice to him, but he didn't expect this person to be as unruly as usual, so he scolded coldly: "Get out!"

……

Bi Xia originally thought that Ji Yi would not care about him anymore.But I didn't expect that he came to the company to find her when she got off work in the evening on the second day after she returned to Shanghai.

At that time, seeing him standing under the gray-green Virginia cedar, Bi Xia felt very embarrassed and a little timid, let alone seeing him.She covered her face with her bag and walked cautiously to the other side, praying that he would not find her.

Unexpectedly, as soon as she passed a flower bed, someone grabbed her arm. When Bi Xia turned her head, she saw Ji Yi, staring at him motionless.

What could be more miserable than the embarrassment of seeing the other party after failing to confess?

Bi Xia really wanted to dig a hole and bury it in the ground.But she could only pretend to be calm, looked at Ji Yi with a smile on her face, and asked, "What's the matter?"

Ji Yi stared at her with bottomless eyes: "I have something to tell you, shall we have dinner together?"

What does this mean, you have rejected them all, and now you are here to issue a good person card?Bi Xia turned pale, and said sadly: "I don't want to eat."

After finishing speaking, she turned and left.

Originally slowed down his pace, but he didn't wait for Ji Yi to say anything, and he didn't keep up.

Bi Xia left with some disappointment.

What else can I say?Bi Xia couldn't help feeling disappointed.

Maybe Ji Yi took the initiative to invite himself to dinner today, because he regarded himself as his younger sister, or maybe he cared about the relationship between his father and his father, and didn't want to get into trouble with him, so he came to make up, and there was no extra emotion That's all.

Thinking of this, she couldn't help but sigh again.

As a person like myself, I can't keep the people and things I like the most.

Maybe you blame yourself. If you have the ability to like others, you don't have the ability to make others like you.

After more than half a month like this, Ji Yi didn't come to see him again.

Bi Xia was relieved.

In fact, she is quite emotional, because a little thing will affect her mood, she was still hahaha one minute ago, and she might be wiping tears in the next minute.Extremely emotional, with low laughs and tears, easy to be irritable and soft-hearted.

Therefore, the self-healing ability is very strong, and after a period of depression, it will be lively again.

But when she thought of him occasionally, she still felt uncomfortable.

One night after get off work, Bi Xia was cleaning the room, and accidentally found a book in the drawer, which was the material she bought online to learn "Morse Code".Because of a bet with Ji Yi before, she made up her mind to learn Morse code, so she spends an hour learning it every night.

Unexpectedly, he only learned half of it, and now he and Ji Yi are no strangers to each other.Hey, time is such a scary thing.

I can't help but feel sad, and I can't think about it anymore.

Bi Xia finally didn't care about Ji Yi a little bit, and thought that he would have nothing to do with him, but God sometimes deliberately tricks people.

Friday.

Although it is early autumn and the weather is not so hot, the temperature difference between day and night is large, and the temperature of the air conditioner in the office is a bit low, so many colleagues catch a cold and cough all the time.

During the meeting, the boss cared about everyone and said: "The weather has changed a lot recently, and there are too many people who have caught a cold. Even my son Ji Yi has a cold and a fever, and he has been lying at home for several days. So I asked the HR department to prepare Cold medicine, if any of you are infected, you should go get the medicine quickly."

Hearing this, Bi Xia's heart skipped a beat.

Ji Yi, he has a cold?
Although he wanted to ask the boss if he was serious, Bi Xia held back.He is the boss's son, so many people put him on top of his heart, naturally someone lined up to take care of him, no matter how hard it was his turn.

Now, everything about him has nothing to do with him, so why bother to be mean again.

At dusk in the evening, the sun sets to the west.The black evening mist came secretly from the sky, like the mouth of a python, slowly devouring the afterglow of the setting sun.

As soon as Bi Xia stepped out of the company, she received a call from her mother.

"Xia Xia, are you free tonight?"

Bi Xia walked towards the subway entrance and asked, "I just got off work and am going home, what's wrong?"

"If you have nothing to do at night, go buy some fruit and go see Ji Yi for us."

Upon hearing this name, Bi Xia's heart trembled.

The voice on the phone continued to ring in our ears: "Your dad and I heard that Ji Yi had a bad cold, and he still hasn't recovered from the infusion for several days. Go and see him for us."

Bi Xia was a little dizzy, thinking of his current relationship with him, he couldn't calm down and pretend nothing happened, so he hesitated and made excuses: "Oh, but I have something to do at night, let's talk about it in a few days. "

When her mother heard this, she immediately scolded Bi Xia: "You child, why are you so ignorant, why don't you talk about it in a few days? Is there anything more important to you than Ji Yi's illness? Your father and your uncle Ji The relationship is so good, you are still working in their company, and you are always causing trouble for their family, and now Ji Yi is sick, you have to represent our whole family to say hello, why don’t you know anything about the world?!”

The scolding on the phone was too harsh, Bi Xia hurriedly put the phone away, rubbed her ears, frowned and said impatiently: "Okay, okay, I understand, don't scold me, can I go?"

Bi Xia originally wanted to rant: Ji Yi is sick, you think I don't want to see him, but my confession was rejected!And the current relationship is so embarrassing, how can I meet him!

It's a pity that she doesn't dare to tell her mother about this, isn't she courting death?

Therefore, Bi Xia had no choice but dared not resist her mother's orders, hung up the phone, and rushed to Ji Yi's house.

The sky was getting darker, and the twilight was getting darker.The subway took seven turns and eight turns, and when they arrived at Ji Yi's house, the sky was already as dark as ink.

Bi Xia stood outside Ji Yi's house, rehearsed it hundreds of times in his mind, saw what he was going to say, and the expression he was going to do, struggled for a long time, cheered himself up, and finally rang the doorbell.

But after ringing the doorbell for a long time, there was no response?
Bi Xia called him, but no one answered.

What's happening here?Could it be that Ji Yi is not at home, doesn't it mean that he is very sick, did he go to the hospital?
Then she called the boss. Unexpectedly, the boss said that the medicine Ji Yi took had a hypnotic effect, and she might have slept too deeply, so she asked her to slam the door hard.

Bi Xia was speechless, and with all her strength, she smashed and kicked the door, and after a while, the door opened.

The light in front of her eyes was instantly blocked, and with the sound of opening the door, Bi Xia raised her head, and Ji Yi, who was wearing white soft pajamas, stood in front of her.

In addition to the fierce and aggressive heroism in his deep brows, there was also some surprise.A blue beard grows on the sharp chin, and the whole person seems to be thinner than before, showing that his brow bones are higher, and the eye sockets under the long and narrow eyebrows are deeper.The light from the crystal lamp above his head surrounds him, making his skin white and shiny, and his whole body seems to contain a forest-like atmosphere. This kind of morbidly handsome looks like a vampire.

With such a haggard and sick appearance, Bi Xia felt a little distressed, as if his heart was crumpled into a ball.

"Why are you here?" Ji Yi's face was pale, like snow on a lake.

Bi Xia's brain froze for a moment, and suddenly remembered that he was here to see him, so he waved the fruit in his hand to him, cleared his throat, and said calmly: "Well... I heard that you are sick, I Mom asked me to come and see you." I could only come up with this reason.

"Oh, come in." Ji Yi's voice was low and full of magnetism, his eyes were lowered, and the light illuminated his eyelashes long and thick, like the curly whiskers of a white-bearded hawkmoth in a silent canyon.

Bi Xia followed behind him and walked all the way into his room.

The air conditioner was fully turned on, Ji Yi lay weakly on the bed, wrapped his tall body in a snow-white cashmere quilt, only his head was exposed, his brows were curled up, and he sank into the center of the bed, looking very tired .

Bi Xia put the fruit in his hand on the table beside him, and asked in a low voice, "Have you taken the medicine? Is your health better? Why do you turn the air conditioner down so low when you have a cold?"

Ji Yi had a pale and thin face, but his amber eyes had a hint of a smile at the moment: "There are so many questions, which one do you want me to answer first?"

His captivating smile made Bi Xia slightly startled. She lowered her head and looked at him with some embarrassment. Finally, she averted her gaze, chose a question, and repeated, "Have you taken your medicine?"

"Eat." Ji Yi's voice was a little low, like the sound of a butterfly flapping its wings after being wet by rain.

Bi Xia stabilized his mind and said, "Have you eaten yet? I also bought some porridge."

Upon hearing the food, Ji Yi frowned, and closed his eyes with some discomfort: "I don't want to eat."

Just after entering the door, Bi Xia saw a lot of food on the table in the dining room, which should have been brought by Ji Yi's mother, but all the food has not been touched, and Ji Yi may not have eaten at all.

She opened the steaming porridge, walked over to sit next to Ji Yi, and said to him worriedly: "How can you do without eating, you have to eat to get better."

For a long while, Ji Ye, who closed his eyes tightly, didn't say a word, his expression was extremely indifferent, his whole body seemed to have no temperature, as if covered with a layer of thin ice for a thousand years, like the perennial cold air permeating the gloomy forest.

Bi Xia saw that he was not eating and seemed to be falling asleep, so he pushed him and asked in a low voice: "Are you feeling uncomfortable and don't want to move? How about I feed you?"

Ji Yi opened his eyes, raised his eyebrows feebly and said, "Put it aside, I'll eat it later."

With such a weak appearance, Bi Xia saw that his face seemed to be a little red, didn't think too much, and suddenly put his hand on his forehead, touched it, and it didn't feel hot, so he said: "I don't think you have a fever, do you?"

(End of this chapter)