supernatural peasant girl

Chapter 221
Who am I and where do I come from?What will I do again?
Xiangru often asks herself recently.

These questions are rarely thought of after she gets busy, because she has always believed that her own destiny is in her own hands, and no one can change it.

So, she lived so hard, when she had no food and clothing, she was afraid and helpless in her heart, but she never showed it. The family already had Ophiopogon japonicus and lotus pods, and the comfrey back then was also in a hurry Because of his temperament, the third child doesn't care about this matter.

She can only be slow, slow to make her reaction slower, so she won't feel that there is anything wrong with such a day, and she will go forward with all her energy.

Building a house to sell lo-mei, leaping carp to the spring river, and medicinal materials from the mountains. From digging Gastrodia elata for Ophiopogon japonicus, she knew that God had taken pity on her, and it gave her a feeling that no one else had.

In the previous days, she was also a delicate girl who couldn't do many things, but groped her way through such a world.

She believed so much that by herself, she would definitely be able to live the life she wanted, and all the hardships she had suffered and the tears shed in secret would all have a perfect ending.

However, she found that she was wrong.

Somewhat wrong.

If it is as I imagined, then Mrs. Zhang will not appear, Huang Jianren will not still have the intention to make trouble, and Huang Jianchun, such ghosts are lingering, only myself, and in the end it seems that only myself can't bear it. Then some mistakes.

Why, it's so unfair.

And that Zhu Da is so capable, he doesn't even need to do it himself, and he wants to rescue Huang Jianchun as well, so what they did before, is it all a joke?

The head started to hurt again. Recently, this kind of pain has been frequent.

The pain made her feel as if she was another person, and the pain was so painful that she couldn't control her thoughts.

Confidence is a very strange thing.

All of a sudden, Xiangru felt that she was too fragile to be vulnerable to a single blow. This feeling was very bad, and the more she tried her best to block this feeling, the more painful her head would be.

Just let yourself go, don't think about anything, and look around.

The big shed next to the lotus pond is still filled with the fragrance of lo mei. In the lotus pond, lotus flowers are already budding, hidden among the green lotus leaves. If you look carefully, you can hear fish swimming and stirring the water in the green shadows. Xiangru stared at the water surface of the lotus pond quietly for a while, and there was a figure reflected in it.

Standing behind her with her hands behind her back, there were tiny ripples on the water surface, which made her look a bit ferocious, but the ferocity quickly calmed down, revealing strange eyes... It turned out to be Zhu Da.

Must be hallucinating.

Xiangru hurriedly backed up, and bumped into a body firmly, and then she backed up quickly, making herself panic and unaware that she was standing on the edge of the lotus pond, so if she backed up like this, she would definitely fall into the water.

Xiangru also retreated too quickly, and when her body was suspended in the air, she even closed her eyes. For some reason, she still had some anticipation. Maybe she didn't have to think so much when she fell into the water.

Naturally, she didn't fall into the water, a strong and slender hand grabbed her body, pulled her hard, and she crashed into a warm embrace.

Fu Dongchen was in a trance for two seconds, and he let out a sigh of relief or fear. Seeing Xiangru, his eyes were still closed, his eyelashes flickered, he was flustered like never before, and the look of pity in his eyes became more and more intense.

Xiang Ru turned her head until she stood firm, and seeing the person behind her, Fu Dongchen who was completely different from the figure on the water, she finally breathed a sigh of relief, "Are you here?"

This sound seemed to cross thousands of mountains and rivers.

Fu Dongchen looked at her fixedly, not letting go of the slightest bit of her astonishment, but he didn't ask, if she didn't want to say it, there was naturally a reason for her not to say it.

Xiangru has already decided to speak, but she doesn't know where to start. What will happen in the past?

She was actually very timid.

Fu Dongchen looked at her and said softly, "If you have anything, you can tell me."

It was such a simple sentence, which seemed to be able to soothe people's hearts. Xiangru became calmer, as if there was a wound, which she always deliberately didn't touch, but the wound festered and affected her life.

She had to face it, and after thinking about it, she began to talk leisurely. She had never said these words to anyone.

"I'm from the west."

After finishing speaking, she waited for Fu Dongchen's response. He would know where the west side was. It was bitter cold and desolate, where there were occasional wars and turmoil, where many people were displaced and starved of food.In her opinion, he would at least be shocked.

But Fu Dongchen nodded lightly, encouraging her to continue, "I know."

It turns out that he already knew about it a long time ago, and even after knowing it...

At this moment, Xiangru felt that there is one thing that is far more precious and rare than love and friendship, and that is trust.

She lowered her head and thought for a while, didn't what Fu Dongchen told her before was because of trust, it took courage to casually tell another person about his past.

As for Xiangru herself, she felt that she was always deliberately hiding the past, and in the final analysis, she still lacked a sense of security.

"I was ill, seriously ill, and when I woke up again, I found many things that I couldn't remember." Xiang Ru said slowly.

Fu Dongchen was a little distressed, and even wanted to stop her from continuing, because her memories made her so sad, but he didn't, his hands were clenched into fists, and the backs of his hands turned slightly white. He was also trying his best to restrain himself, but it was because he knew, This time, if she doesn't speak out, it will be herself who is forcing her, so she just needs to be quietly aside.

Xiangru fell into the memory, "I forgot who I am, and I don't want to find it. It's a strange place. One day, someone used a stick to pound clothes and was pulled across the brocade. However, I didn't feel any pain, just a little He was heavy, it was Mai Dong who rushed up, when he was a four-year-old child, he was thinner and smaller than now."

Fu Dongchen's fist moved, and the killing intent flashed in his eyes.

"Then, I realized that what I remember and what I don't remember is not that important. Mai Dong is my only family member, and I am also his only family member. In the place where we are, the one who decides is an outsider. She said Her voice is very gentle, she has a good reputation over there, she is simply a living Bodhisattva."

When talking about the three words "Living Bodhisattva", Xiangru's voice was a little heavy, and she didn't even notice it. This was the first time she mentioned that person to anyone. She is not stupid. If she hadn't indulged her, Mai Dong How could it become like that, how could the evil servant have such courage, no matter how many tears she shed, it was just an appearance.

But for someone who just came to this place, Xiangru thought that she didn't have the ability to turn everything over, she could only save herself and Maidong first, so they pretended to be grateful and told her that they were afraid in front of her, but behind their backs, Even what you put in your mouth and the incense, you have to be more careful.

"Later, I came out with Mai Dong, but I was discovered again. I almost... Fortunately, I met the third brother. At that time, there happened to be another accident over there. There were people on the road, and then I met the second sister and the fourth sister. Sister, sixth brother, little eight..."

Fu Dongchen let out a breath, and roughly understood, "That's why you took root in this place. When you first saw me, you pretended to be a silly village girl, just to avoid people's eyes and ears?"

Xiang Ru smiled wryly and nodded, "I also want to hit back directly, but I have no choice..." He must feel that he is useless.

"Xiangru, you don't even know how powerful you are. In such a situation, you... know nothing. No matter what, it's hard to survive."

What Xiangru said was just the beginning. She always felt that things were buried and moldy, so she didn’t need to bring them up again, but now she could smell a breath, “I saw Zhu Da in Laibin Building that day, and he called me four. Mother, I actually felt a little familiar, and then my head started to hurt, but I couldn't remember it. "

It turned out that the root of the disease was here, and Fu Dongchen's face changed.

Si Niang, he used to pay attention to these things, so it was a thread anyway.

Xiang Ru said something else, scratching her hair, a little manic.

Fu Dongchen quickly grabbed her hand, and slowly increased the strength. Xiangru struggled a bit, and her head began to ache again. She didn't know where the pain came from, and she was completely helpless about it, just like this. She was terrified, but Fu Dongchen's dry and strong hand gradually brought her warmth, which made her calm down slowly.

I heard him say leisurely, "You are in so much pain, it's just that you haven't accepted your former self."

A wake-up call.

Isn't it, Xiangru reflected, since she came here, after she escaped from that place, she never wanted to think about it, but she felt that her strength was not enough, but her heart was changing day by day, with the boss and the others. She has become a family, and about Mai Dong's matter, she often thinks it is Mai Dong's matter, even if she is in it, she is just an insignificant person.

But it is impossible for her to think this way about the body owner. What kind of person she was before, why she was seriously ill, why she didn't want to think about the past, everything is still a mystery.Listening to these words, Xiang Ru suddenly realized, isn't it just that the more you obstruct, the more painful it will be?
So, what about trying to be inclusive and integrated?

Things are often not so difficult to accept from another angle.

Alone, I almost got into a dead end.

Fu Dongchen watched her calm down, and then he breathed a sigh of relief, "Don't worry, just live like this, I will go and find your past for you."

(End of this chapter)