Wanli 1592

Chapter 1275 The Weeping Chen Longzheng
Chen Long is rushing back to Xi'an, six days later.

With a restless heart, Chen Longzheng returned to Xi'an and the locust control office. When he arrived, it was time for lunch. The main course at noon today should also be meat. Meaty smell.

The Xiao Qin Empire treated its courtiers at least in terms of benefits much better than those of the previous Ming Dynasty, whether it was salaries or daily benefits, especially when central officials left the capital to work in other places, there were additional subsidies and business trip bonuses, etc., and the most Humanized, in Chen Longzheng's view, it is a lunch for work at noon.

The old saying goes well, the emperor does not send hungry soldiers. As an emperor, Xiao Ruxun is very concerned about the food of his courtiers. Officials at all levels have different meal subsidies, and the best paid are the central officials who go out to work.

When Chen Longzheng came back, it happened to be meal time, and the officials he met were rushing to eat, and when they saw Chen Longzheng came back, they all said hello.

Chen Long is the deputy of Xu Guangqi, the governor of locust control, and the old man who followed His Majesty when he was still in Myanmar. Xu Guangqi is regarded as the successor of the imperial chief minister, so Chen Longzheng is also regarded as Xu Guangqi's successor.

There are quite a few people who want to have a good relationship with Chen Longzheng.

However, seeing Chen Longzheng's complexion was not very good, these people did not go up to hang around in front of Chen Longzheng directly, but avoided decisively after saying hello, and at the same time exchanged their opinions in a low voice.

Chen Long returned to his office in a panic, closed the door, sat down, panting continuously.

When walking all the way back, his heart was full of fear and panic, he almost had no time to think about what he had done, but when he arrived in Xi'an, when he smelled the familiar smell of meat, a strong sense of guilt suddenly flooded him heart.

I……

Betrayed my teacher?

I……

Broke your own promise?

I……

Abandoning my ideals and my personality as a person all along?

What the hell did I do?
Chen Long stretched out his hand to cover his face, he just felt extremely painful in his heart, like a knife was twisted in his heart, as if he had lost something important and could never get it again.

He recalled Yuan Huang's earnest teachings to him when he was young, recalled the scene of stealing food with Yuan Yan when he was young, recalled the intimacy and lofty ambitions of the past.

But now he realizes that all of this has gone away from him and will never come back.

Betrayed his teacher and friends, betrayed his promise, this kind of self is no longer the familiar self, he feels that the current self he doesn't even know himself, is a very strange existence.

Why was he so decisive when he left the capital? Why was he so flustered?
why?
Chen Long was in deep pain.

Suddenly, there was a slight knock on the door.

"Tilong? I heard that you are back, why don't you come to me?"

Xu Guangqi's voice sounded outside the door, and Chen Longzheng was taken aback for a moment, then immediately reacted, stood up, walked to the door, and opened the door of his office.

"Tilong, what's wrong with you?"

Xu Guangqi was shocked when he saw Chen Longzheng with red eye circles as if he had just shed tears.

"I……"

Before Chen Longzheng had time to speak, Xu Guangqi quickly looked around and saw no one around, so he pushed Chen Longzheng into the room: "Go in and talk."

After entering, Xu Guangqi closed the door and looked back at Chen Longzheng with red eye circles.

"Tilong, you...couldn't something happen at home? Something happened to your relatives and friends? Is it sick or injured?"

Chen Long was looking at Xu Guangqi's concerned eyes, hesitated for a long time, and told Xu Guangqi what happened in the capital. He felt that if he didn't find someone to talk to, he would go crazy.

Following Chen Longzheng's narration, Xu Guangqi also gradually knew the whole picture of this matter.

"...I don't know how I left the capital. I feel like I've reached the border of Shanxi as soon as I regain my senses, but I don't even have the guts to look back at the way I came from. I always feel that there is something behind me. Chase me, stop and I will die.

I didn't want to die, so I kept going fast, but when I was about to arrive in Xi'an, I suddenly remembered that I seemed to have betrayed my teacher, I abandoned my mentor, I abandoned him, and I also abandoned my childhood. Friends from time to time, I ditched them all.

I was scared, I was really scared, when the governor, Chen Chong told me that I would be implicated, I was about to be frightened silly, I sat in the restaurant for a long time, then I stood up and went Running outside, I don't want to stop at all.

When I was running away, I didn't think about the teacher and Ruosi at all, and when I just sat down, I realized that I had done such a shameful thing, governor, I... what did I do..."

Chen Long was crying right in front of Xu Guangqi, crying very softly, as if even crying made him feel ashamed.

Xu Guangqi looked at Chen Longzheng who was crying, and suddenly remembered himself who was moved by Xiao Ruxun's letter and ran to Datong to find Xiao Ruxun despite the danger.

At that time, would you think of today?
In the vicissitudes of life, things are different and people are different, why since ancient times everyone said that being with a king is like being with a tiger, he understood.

As long as you sit in that position, no matter who you are, you will never be the same as before.

Xiao Ruxun is still the same Xiao Ruxun, but not the same Xiao Ruxun. Chen Longzheng is too idealistic. When getting along with him, Xu Guangqi even feels like reading the Book of Songs, free and easy, romantic, elegant and beautiful.

But now, this romantic person is crying like a child in front of him.

Maybe after crying, that romantic Chen Longzheng will not exist anymore.

My lord, you are too cruel.

Xu Guangqi closed his eyes in pain.

Although he knew that this moment would come sooner or later from the day Xiao Ruxun proclaimed himself emperor, he never expected that it would start with Yuan Huang.

I remember that in the past, people in the officialdom of the Ming Dynasty said that it was more difficult to be an official in the Ming Dynasty than in the previous dynasties, but now it seems that the official in the Qin Dynasty seems to be a little more difficult than the officials in the Ming Dynasty.

At least the officialdom of the Ming Dynasty can tolerate some stunned youths and romantic guys, but the Great Qin Dynasty seems to be unable to tolerate them.

Are you a Legalist?Are you a Mohist?Are you Confucian?Are you a Taoist?
Xu Guangqi didn't know which theory Xiao Ruxun used to govern the Great Qin Dynasty, and what orthodox official thinking the Great Qin Dynasty had. The Great Qin Dynasty seemed to be different from the previous dynasties, but the Great Qin Dynasty seemed to be the same as the previous dynasties.

Xiao Ruxun seems to be different from the emperors of all dynasties, but after a closer look, it seems that there is no difference.

(End of this chapter)