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Chapter 27 He Is Your Eye

I started to go to the classroom for self-study with my textbooks.I get up early every day and stay in the classroom for a whole day. Sometimes I even forget to eat and just sit quietly.I can often sit alone like this for four hours, or even longer, with the brilliance of the setting sun covering me unobstructed, and then shifting a little bit, abandoning me a little bit, what is left of me There was only the gradually dimming sky, until the night completely blocked my sight, I hung my head exhausted and played with my hands.

I don't want to go home, I don't want to face the empty room and the desolation of being alone, I don't want to be tortured thinking of Tang Qiming, thinking of the lotus seed porridge he cooked for me at night.So, I can always sit in the classroom very late.Because the exam is approaching, the classroom will never be empty.People came in one after another, and people went out one after another, and the steel door would only make a creaking sound.I began to get used to this sound, and when it sounded, I used to look up and look out, seeing the people coming and going in this world, and my own loneliness.

When I had to go back, I called Yang Shanshan and asked her if she had time and would like to stay with me for a while.But every time, her answer would be the same, "Jiang Hui, are you okay? I have to work overtime."

Everyone is busy and everyone has their own things to do.So, overall, the whole world is busy except me.

So, in the end, it's often the classroom administrator who reminds me, "Student, I'm going to lock the door."

I had to stand up from my seat, pack up my textbooks and go home.The air outside is cool and pleasant.I try to walk as slowly as possible, even counting my steps.That way, I don't come home too soon and face the emptiness and panic of being alone too soon.Although, I also know that I will have to face it sooner or later, but every second that can be lost counts as a second.That's what I think.

When I walked downstairs in the community, the whole world became empty again, and there were hardly any pedestrians on the road.I can clearly hear the crackling sound of shoes falling on the ground.

The stairway is very dark.I don't want to stomp on the voice-activated lights.So, I fumbled and climbed rocks little by little.I walked very slowly, and each step seemed to take half my life.At this time, I saw the flickering cigarette butt, flickering in the dark space.

I thought it was Tang Qiming who came back, so I happily called out his name.The voice-activated lights also instantly lit up the dark corridor.

It's Xiao Jiayi.

I forgot, Tang Qiming does not smoke, he has never smoked, and there is no trace of tobacco smell on him.

"Jiang Hui, it's me." He said, crushing out the cigarette butt.

I woke up like a dream, "Oh."

"Jiang Hui, I've been waiting for a long time." He said, "Can you open the door first and get me something to eat? I'm about to starve to death."

I hurried upstairs, took out the key and opened the door.He followed into the house.

I opened the refrigerator, and the dark yellow light reflected the true colors of the refrigerator. It was empty, except for three or two eggs, there was no food.

"It looks like I can only eat instant noodles." I said.

"Eating instant noodles is considered happiness." He smiled.

I turned on the gas to cook noodles for him, and he sat on the sofa watching TV.I don't know if he was too tired or the TV series was too boring. When I came out with instant noodles, I found him lying on the sofa and fell asleep.

I called him, "Xiao Jiayi, go to bed after eating."

He sat up with sleepy eyes and resentment, and it didn't take long for him to regain his energy, and he ate with a bowl, as if he hadn't eaten for a long time.

"Eat slowly," I said, "Don't burn it."

He ignored me and just ate the noodles with his head down.Not long after, he ate up the big bowl of noodles. He leaned on the sofa contentedly and burped.

"It's good," he said, "to have a full meal at last."

"Where have you been these days?" I asked.

"Wandering." He grinned, and I noticed he was tanned. "Alone with a bag, I headed north. I didn't have a lot of money with me, so I could only spend as little as possible. This was really a complete wandering. Dependent friends, some are just one difficult climb after another. Take the cheapest train, sleep on the sound of rattling all night and watch the scenery outside the window, although most of the time all I can see is the dark night, A sporadic light will make me happy." He breathed a sigh of relief and began to recall, "I have traveled to many places and seen many scenery that I have never seen before. I live in cheap hotels, eat street food, and some Sometimes I will talk to the residents of the place. Soon, I will pack my bags and go to another place. At that time, I will always reflect on my life and the meaning of my life. Now, I finally understand that everyone, If you want to be happy, you should not pursue things that do not belong to you. Too much pursuit will only make us forget the purpose when we set sail, and too much pursuit will also make us forget that life itself is actually very simple, just to enjoy Be happy and live well."

"Jiang Hui, you will never know the meaning that this wandering has taught me." He leaned on the sofa with infinite satisfaction, the light in his eyes was far beyond my reach, "It was also this wandering that made me understand that some Things belong only to the past. Really. They belong only to the past."

I nodded in default.

He turned sideways to touch the phone, and then turned it on, "I haven't used my phone these days." He said, "So, I'm sorry, I didn't know that my leaving without saying a word worried you so much." He He put the phone on the table again, and at this moment, his phone flickered.

"Go ahead," I said, "tell them they're safe."

He nodded and pressed the answer button.

The room was very quiet, I could clearly hear the voice coming from the phone, it was a crying female voice, I thought it was Tao Wanyi, so I stood up and prepared to go to the kitchen to wash the dishes.At this time, I clearly heard the cry on the phone:
"Xiao Jiayi, is that you? You finally turned on the phone. Where are you now, can you come to the hospital? Tao Wanyi is dying. She has taken too many sleeping pills and is being rescued. Can you come over? Can you?"

I was stunned, the bowl and chopsticks fell out of my hands and fell to the floor with a bang.

Fortunately, it didn't break and was intact.

Xiao Jiayi asked the hospital clearly, and said repeatedly: "Okay, I'll go right away."

He hung up the phone and ran outside, and only remembered to say goodbye to me when he reached the door, "Jiang Hui, I'm leaving first." He said, before I could respond, he had already run down the stairs and disappeared into the black world inside.

Tao Wanyi still didn't wake up in the end.

When I went to the hospital to see her, she had an oxygen tube inserted in her nostrils, as if she was in a deep sleep.

Several times, I thought she would open her eyes, sit up in bed, and greet me.She's always been so polite, so pretty, so envious of me.But now, all I can see is her unconscious state.The doctor said that she had taken too many sleeping pills, and she was on the verge of dying when she was sent here. It was a blessing from God to save her life.

In the hospital, I met Tao Wanyi's parents for the first time.Mother Tao cried very sadly, and blamed herself while crying, "It's all my fault, it's all my fault. I shouldn't have given her any sleeping pills. She can't sleep all the time. I should be with her and shouldn't have given her any sleeping pills." Papa Tao held her in his arms. From the beginning to the end, her eyes never left Tao Wanyi on the hospital bed. "It will get better. Our daughter has a big life. Maybe God will open her eyes and wake her up one day." He comforted Mama Tao, and I could clearly see his eye sockets were wet.

Xiao Jiayi pulled me outside the ward, he took out a cigarette, put it in his mouth, and put it back into the cigarette case.

"She's so stupid." He sighed, squatted in the corridor, buried his head in his arms, and soon, I heard his weeping, "I killed her. I shouldn't turn off the phone, I shouldn't let her worry me like this, even let her suffer from insomnia all night long, and finally rely on sleeping pills to fall asleep. How can she be so stupid? After taking one pill, she can't fall asleep, and she has to take the second pill, the third pill or even She finished a whole bottle of sleeping pills. How could she be so stupid?!"

I put my hand on his shoulder and said, "Xiao Jiayi, Tao Wanyi will wake up."

He cried even more sadly.This is the second time I have seen him shed tears, the second time I have shed tears since I was a child.The first time was for his grandmother who died of illness, and the second time was for Tao Wanyi.

I thought, if Tao Wanyi knew all this, she would no longer have to beg me again and again, begging me to let Xiao Jiayi go.

She will never again.

Tao Wanyi, look, you don't have to be afraid that I will snatch Xiao Jiayi away, I can't compare to you, I can't compare to you in anything, I just envy you, I envy you for getting the love you dream of, and envy that you can grow old with Xiao Jiayi together.

So, in the end, you still win.

I just hope that you can wake up soon, and take my blessings to be with Xiao Jiayi well. I don't ask for nothing, but I want to hold my hand and grow old together.

Tao Wanyi, you will, right?You can't live up to those beloved moments, can you?You won't let Xiao Jiayi down, right?You will not live up to my wishes for you, will you?

I closed my eyes, tears streaming down silently.

(End of this chapter)