The growth of a sweet wife

Chapter 112

I never thought that I would meet Xiaohe again, I thought it was impossible for me to meet her in my life, but I met her in XZ?
In order to thank me for saving his little granddaughter, the patriarch even specially held a bonfire party for me. I haven't been this happy for a long time.

How immature it is to run away from home, but I still chose to do it.I know I'm not qualified to blame Qiqi, He Cheng used to be her lover, her husband, now that something happened to him, Qiqi should help take care of him, but I'm angry why she kept it from me, He Cheng is also my brother, Shall I turn my back on my own brother?
She scolded angrily: "What about you? There are photos of Xiaohe at home..." Yes, I have been reluctant to throw away Xiaohe's photos. I even took them to the photo studio to enlarge them. Xiaohe and I After so many years of relationship, how could I forget her?How I wished that my illness would be cured miraculously, how I wished that the child in Xiaohe's womb would be mine, but God is so cruel to me.Xiaohe wanted a child so much, but I couldn't make it happen for her.If I had accepted this child, how happy would Xiaohe and I be?Xiaohe will never know that I have azoospermia, and I can have my own children.

But I can't accept Xiaohe's betrayal to me, how can she betray me, how can she find another man?I hit her, but I knew that I should hit her. Every punch on her body was like a knife stabbing my heart.

There was a man who accompanied her to the maternity examination, and a man treated her to a meal of [-] yuan. I don't know who he is, but there is such a person.

I hate myself, I must be not good enough, that's why she wants to escape.

I'm not Du Xiao, I have a solid family background, I'm not He Cheng who owns a house in Shanghai, I have nothing, and I still borrow the money for the mortgage from Du Xiao.I even have to think about buying snacks for her. I seldom take her out for dinner. At most, I take her to Tianya Yifang to dance every week. This is our favorite activity. Our birthdays have never been outside. , We make our own cakes and eat them by ourselves. She always says it's romantic. She doesn't know that sometimes I don't have a dollar on me.

All her salary is handed over to me. When she is hungry, she tells her she wants to eat. When she is thirsty, she tells me that she is thirsty. She never spends money recklessly. Every time she buys clothes, she goes to street stalls or wholesale malls. Swear I won't let her wear those cheap clothes again.I quit smoking and drinking just to buy her a dress.

How could I be willing to beat a woman I love so deeply?She was gone, just gone, didn't say a word, even the phone was off, I thought she was just going back to her mother.I thought she would come back in a few days, but I didn't expect that she would never come back.

Her mother never liked me, but she never changed for me because of this, even for me, she rarely went home, her mother would not let him in, she just stood at the door and said a few words, I could feel it, her mother She doesn't hate me that much, maybe she is just helping her daughter assess her son-in-law!

When I found out that she was missing, I lost all hope. Only then did I know that Tong Jiali and Qiqi took her to have an abortion. She must have thought it was my idea!She must hate me very much!
I don't know if my behavior is looking for her. I am in a trance every day. I can't work with peace of mind. Only alcohol can confuse me. I think everyone is her, and I feel that there are thousands of her in the world. But I can't see it.

He Cheng and Qiqi divorced, and the speed was surprising. Qiqi found out the infertility caused by too many abortions. He Cheng's parents are old-fashioned people. Grandson, Qiqi can't give birth, how can they bear it?He Cheng disagreed, but he couldn't resist the threat of death from his parents.

It was only a week from the inspection to the divorce. Qiqi was kicked out. He Cheng originally wanted to stabilize his parents first, but he didn't expect that I would be with Qiqi. At that moment, our brotherhood was over. Broken, even Du Xiao scolded me for nothing.

Haha, there is no way to explain the things in this world, the same experience will naturally have the same feeling, I understand Qiqi's pain, I can't bear to see her fall before my eyes.

She said: "You told me not to fall, what about you? After Xiaohe left, what did you do?" Yes, I lay in the bathtub at home and cut my wrist with a razor blade. I really wish I could If I die like this, I will turn into a ghost, and maybe I can find Xiaohe. When I open my eyes, I am Xiaohe. When I close my eyes, I am still Xiaohe. One is what I can touch.

I feel like I'm going crazy, I dare not go into that room, I dare not imagine how I beat her at that time, her cries, shouts, screams, the sound entered my ears, and turned into the voice of a ghost Incoming my eardrums strangling my throat, that feeling is worse than death.

Qiqi lived in that house, and I can finally see people other than Xiaohe, but I still can't help but think of Qiqi as Xiaohe, she doesn't like to talk, she just stays quietly, sometimes sitting on the sofa sometimes sitting on the carpet, sometimes cleaning, and sometimes cooking in the kitchen, but no matter what she does, I can see the shadow of Xiaohe on her body.

We had a relationship, and we knew very well that I regarded her as Xiaohe, and she regarded me as He Cheng, and we cherish each other because we will never have a child of our own.

Day after day, I had to go to work for my livelihood. After work that day, Xiaohe stood in front of me. I thought I was wrong, but when I called out "Xiaohe" softly, she rushed When she came to hug me, when I felt her body temperature, I really knew that Xiaohe was back, my beloved Xiaohe really came back!She asked me, "The child is not yours, who will it belong to?" At that moment, I really seemed to keep her, and I really wanted to tell her that I don't mind anything, and it doesn't matter who the child belongs to.

But when she asked "Do you love Qiqi?", I already knew that we would never go back. She already knew about Qiqi's existence, so she must have already returned home.

"Xiaohe, in the next life, let me book you, for the whole life, for the whole life, not less than a day..." I hugged her, "Let me find your roses." It's a tattoo, how did she know that I can admire the tattoo on other people's body, but I only have heartache when the tattoo is on her body.

A guy punched me and he said, "You fuck you bastard, he's pregnant with your baby and you dump her, are you a man, and you stop her card, you know those days, How did she live? She went to work as a waiter with a big belly..." I stopped her card to get her back, all her money is with me, without money, she can't go anywhere, hear her It hurts my heart to go to be a waiter with a big belly, I took her hand and said, "Xiaohe, I really love you..."

"Go home! Qiqi is waiting for you at home..." Then she walked with the man, watching their backs supporting each other and leaving, I felt hundreds of ants devouring my heart.And when I saw them strolling along the country winding lanes one after the other, I thought it was providence.

Qiqi and I got a marriage certificate, and at that moment, it meant that the brotherhood between me and He Cheng was completely broken, and Xiaohe and I were also completely over.

Qiqi knows that I have Xiaohe in my heart, so she can bear that I often call the wrong name, but every time I see her secretly wiping tears, I feel guilty. Maybe I don’t love Qiqi, but I think we are together Fittingly, none of us can have children, we are equals.

I was very excited when I received Xiaohe’s call. She asked me when I left when I proposed for the eighth time. I could hear a slight change in her. She asked me to call Qiqi, and she said that she and Qiqi would always be together. It's a good friend. If I'm not wrong, it should be the accident that night.Am I wrong about her?Did she take someone else for me?I couldn't sleep that night.

I received her call again at two o'clock in the morning. I didn't change the number on purpose. I thought that one day I could receive her call, but it was too long. Occasionally my phone would ring. It was BJ's strange number, but it never Didn't even speak, how I wish those calls were all from her?She cried, she cried and asked me Du Xiao's phone number.

I think this matter should have something to do with Du Xiao, since I got married with Qi Qi, Du Xiao seldom pays attention to me, he thinks that I broke the friendship between brothers.But he still told me truthfully that Xiaohe was with a college classmate of his, and that her new girlfriend turned out to be that person's ex-girlfriend, she died, she committed suicide, and that person hugged her and disappeared, Xiaohe must be in pain!

When I called Xiaohe, she was supposed to be breastfeeding the baby. I could hear the baby squeaking. It was that child, that child. It would be great if I had accepted that child. Her name is "Ke Xin", what a beautiful name?And I'll never have kids.

When I met her again, I felt overwhelmed, how could she appear here alone?Did you run away from home too?
Qiqi asked me why there was still a picture of Xiaohe at home, and I shouted: "This is Xiaohe's home..." Yes, that was Xiaohe's home, Qiqi ran out in anger, and I But I didn't pursue it. I couldn't live this kind of life anymore. I wanted to travel, so I came to XZ.

She was also surprised when she saw me. She told me everything, and only then did I know that she had a father and an elder brother.She never mentioned it in front of me, I thought her father was dead?Didn't expect her to suffer so much?

The patriarch made us dance.We danced a tango together. I didn't expect that we could cooperate so tacitly. It seemed like we were back in the past. I really wanted to continue like this. I really wanted time to stop at this moment. Xiaohe, I I want to hold you like this forever and be with you forever.

We lived in XZ together, and she said: "You know what? I had altitude sickness at the previous station and almost died. It was a kind girl who saved me. She told me that everyone lives in this Everyone in the world has their own responsibilities and obligations, as well as the value and meaning of existence. Have you found it?"

"No..." In fact, I really wanted to tell her that I found it, but I threw it away again, so I have nothing now.

"Me neither..." Then she laughed, "Actually, I'm very happy..." I was taken aback, I thought he was saying that being with me was very happy.

Although we don't live together, we are as close as before. It's a beautiful feeling like love but not love. She has changed. She used to like to sleep late. Now she gets up early. She didn't like to do housework before. Now She can not only do housework, but also grow flowers. She tidied up the house beautifully. She used to cook, but she didn’t do it. She walks around in high heels every day. How can I bear her to go into the kitchen after get off work? ?But she now tells me that cooking is a kind of enjoyment.

"Do you know what to do every day?"

"What do you do every day?" I asked.

"Thinking...thinking...thinking!" She said three words "thinking".

She used to be very impulsive, but now she is very calm, she just smiles quietly in everything she does, and I often go to the residents here as guests with her, they always think we are a couple, and they love to joke about us : "Why don't you hold your wedding here!"

I haven't refused yet, she just said lightly: "We've already been married...haha".I like her calmness and composure. What does she write while sitting quietly at night?I asked her, she just said lightly: "Nothing!"

One time, I accidentally opened the notebook she often wrote, and it said: Today, I went to LS’s house as a guest, and his little daughter is very cute, about the same age as our Kexin. Look at my heart....After reading this line, I can't stand it anymore. I know that she has fallen in love with her husband completely, and I have become his past.Although she also ran away from home, she missed them all the time.

"Thinking...thinking...thinking!" I finally understood the meaning of these three words, and she thought about them every day.

Qiqi's sudden arrival surprised me. I don't know how she found this place. She saw me and Xiaohe together. She left without saying anything. I went to chase her. She said with tears : "You belong to Xiaohe... I wish you all..." She left, and I looked at her back, although I felt uncomfortable, but it was also a kind of relief.

I can finally guard my Xiaohe, no matter where she is, no matter where her heart is, I know that I can guard my Xiaohe without complaints or regrets.

During dinner, she asked me: "Will you go back with Kiki?" I was happy, but was she worried that I would go back?Does she want me to go back?
"No..." I replied affirmatively, she laughed, she also cried, and leaned on my arms and said, "Why did you stay with Qiqi in the first place..."

The past is vivid in my mind, I eagerly dig out our past, longing for these memories to lock her to stay with me, but I was wrong, she is no longer the Xiaohe of the past, I know she has something in her heart Her husband and child are afraid of hurting me again, she is in trouble.

"Xiaohe, I'm sorry..." Let me do it, let me help her choose! "I think, I'm really in love with Kiki, I don't think I can leave her..."

She cried, she also smiled, leaned in my arms and said: "You must treat Qiqi well?" I nodded, Xiaohe, do you know the heartache at this time, how can I let go again You, how I wish I could hold you like this forever?

"Xiaohe, I think I know why we still miss each other..."

"why?"

"Because we haven't broken up formally?" I suppressed the pain, I didn't want her to have any psychological burden, I let her love freely and don't take me into consideration.She should be happy.

"Oh?" She expressed doubt, frowning.

"Let's dance a breakup dance!" I suggested, the happiest days in my life are the days when I was with Xiao He, and I will never forget it.

Her dancing posture is still as beautiful. Under the moonlight, I lit a bonfire in front of the cabin where we lived, and our shadows were projected on the ground, so beautiful!
"Are you going back tomorrow?" she asked.I know she is a little scared, she is afraid of being alone there and "thinking about it", just like when I missed her at home, it feels like the whole world is her, but no one can catch her.

"I'm afraid that Qiqi will get lost just like you..." I didn't mean it again. How much I wanted to stay with her, but I knew that if I continued to stay with her, she would only be in a dilemma.

I looked up and saw a person, it was him, the one who beat me, I think he should be her husband, the bonfire elongated his shadow, I couldn't see what he was doing, but I could see his shadow clearly , He took something from his hand and put it on the small wooden chair in front of the house.

"He's here..." I whispered in Xiaohe's ear.

"Who?"

"He's gone..." The man turned and left after putting down his things. I think he must have misunderstood. "I'll help you get it back..." I think she already knew who was coming.

"No, it's good..." She cried, holding the ring that the man left behind and crying hard.

"He shouldn't have gone far..."

"No need, I'll go back to BJ tomorrow..." My heart seems to have fallen to the bottom, Xiaohe, you can't understand my heart now, because you really don't love me anymore.That person must be worthy of your love!
(End of this chapter)