The Edge of Love and Pain: My Double Husband

Chapter 177 He is not a tumor

He curled his lips, noncommittal: "Recklessly showing kindness."

He likes to say whatever he wants, anyway, I don’t want him to eat it: “What do you think if someone wants to eat your child? It’s not like there’s nothing left to eat.”

"Can I have a rabbit?"

"Some temperaments are exactly the same as rabbits." Because survival is not easy, the way for rabbits to ensure their extinction is to be able to come anytime and anywhere, which is exactly the same as Fanyin.

"Speaking of this..." He leaned his head back, his expression slightly vague: "If you can get out alive, remember to help me relieve the symptoms..."

"Then go for it." I said, "Fight, hero."

He gave a smirk, opened the backpack, groped inside for a while, took out a syringe and half a carton of milk, handed them over, and said to the little rabbit, "Hey, hey, I'll really eat it if I die."

The little rabbit is still sucking the mother rabbit’s Mimi, maybe there was milk at the beginning, but now the mother rabbit is cold, so there must be no milk.I didn't expect Fanyin to be quite careful, so I asked while sucking milk into the needle, "Why don't you get sausage when you can get milk?"

"The milk is on the table." Fanyin said, "Maybe I forgot to put it back after drinking the coffee."

The fire below burned for almost an hour before it completely dimmed. It was already past one o'clock in the morning, and I felt a little tired, and the wind began to be unbearably hard.

The sky fell into darkness again, and Fanyin and I got up together to find the place where the wind was blown.There is a small cave not too far from us, the mouth is blocked a little by a small waterfall, and it is surrounded by streams, so it is very humid inside.But other caves are too far away, and the waterfall can give us safe lighting, so this is the best choice at present.

We got into the cave and put the little rabbit down too.

Fanyin opened the backpack, first took out a bright flashlight, got some gunpowder, gasoline or something like that, lit a torch, and put a stone in the middle, it was temporarily bright.

The fire didn't last too long, so we disposed of the rabbit first, planning to roast it and eat it tomorrow while fleeing for our lives. Fan Yin also brought out a bottle of salt and pepper.I am very impressed by this: "Have you encountered this kind of thing before?" Most people don't think so thoroughly.

"Too much."

"Was there ever been a more dangerous situation than today?"

"Have."

"Did you let your teammates run away too?"

"No."

"Then why did you let me run?"

I thought he would say something like "Because you are my wife", but he never did what I wanted: "The former teammates are not pigs."

I couldn't help but glared at him, he laughed, turned the rabbit with the stick in his hand, and said: "The former teammates didn't dare to run, because when they wanted to run, I usually found out, and then I ended up killing them." .”

I asked, "Because you think that's betraying you?"

"No, people who run away usually steal supplies." Fanyin said: "Since I have this idea, I will try again even if it fails once. It is better to kill and save some supplies than this."

"That's it."

"Yeah." Fanyin asked, "Are you tired?"

"Not tired." Even if you are tired, you can't sleep. It's a little better for us to act at night.

"Then take it." He handed over the wooden stick: "I'll take a look at the map now, let's try to find the sniper and get his equipment."

I took the stick and said, "It feels like I'm playing a game. Beat the boss and turn off the equipment."

He also smiled: "You are in a good mood."

"It's all like this anyway, there's no point in worrying." I saw him unfold the map and asked, "Can I stop talking to you?"

"Yes." He lit the fire, painstakingly studying the map full of advertisements, marking it with a pen.

But I couldn't find a topic for a while, so I fell silent.

He looked at it for a while and asked, "What's wrong?"

"I don't know what to say."

He looked at me and said, "Sleep if you're sleepy, it's safe here. If it's cold..." He seemed to have suddenly remembered that he was about to take off his hoodie by pulling up his skirt.

I quickly pressed him down: "I'm not sleepy, and I'm not cold. Besides, if I fall asleep now, I won't wake up from the earthquake."

He glanced at me, seemingly dissatisfied, but looked down at the map again.

I thought of the topic: "You said before that they didn't catch Britney. But with your body, they shouldn't have tied you up. Have you thought about it?"

"That idiot has always thought that the Lin family is his relative." Fan Yin said, "They must know that too."

"But he can transform." I said, "The driver has been undercover here for so many years, how could he not know? He knows when he will become uncontrollable, so why didn't he tie you up?"

Fanyin was silent for a while, raised his eyelids and looked at me, and asked after a while, "Does he have such a high IQ?"

"I'll tell you the truth." I said, "Xiao Tiantian has always been very smart. He learned how to cook and mastered it as soon as he learned it. He also knows a lot of skills about washing clothes and tidying up the house." I saw disdain on his face , quickly added: "Housework is also a very profound art, don't think it's easy."

He smiled, and didn't continue the bickering topic: "If it is true that he persuaded the other party not to tie him up, then he must have realized the danger and would not have appeared at a critical moment."

"Yeah." What I'm most worried about right now is that Fanyin suddenly turns into Xiao Tiantian, trembling and crying while killing someone.Even though he has gone mad, he will hurt me like that.

After that, Fanyin didn't speak again, and after a long while, she suddenly laughed to herself.

I asked, "Why are you laughing all of a sudden?"

"I feel like he's grown up." He said, "Do you still remember a time a few years ago, when I tried desperately to figure it out, he desperately disagreed, dragged me for a long time, and almost killed us."

"Yeah." At that time, I also urged him to come.

"I don't know if it's good or bad." He whispered, "Sometimes I really want to see him."

"Have you tried to communicate with him?" I said, "By writing."

"Only a few times, and he always got the questions wrong, and complained that my tone was too bad." Fan Yin frowned, his tone a little depressed.

I didn't speak.

After a while, Fanyin raised his eyelids again: "What?"

"I would like to ask you a question."

"Ah."

"What do you think is wrong with Xiao Tiantian?"

"idiot."

"Specific examples." I said, "Didn't he seldom hurt you before?"

He retorted fiercely: "If you have a tumor, what do you think is wrong with it?"

"I'm asking seriously." I became serious. "Do you feel disgusted as soon as you think of him, or did you not feel it at first, and then slowly started to hate him because he disturbed your life?"

He lowered his head again, stared at the map for a long time, and then said: "At first, he was only in my mind, as if I suddenly had a very bad friend. He was voicing bitterness to me every day, as if People all over the world are bullying him. He also likes toys and cartoons, and I am very reluctant in my heart, but I always fulfill his wish unconsciously."

"At that time, in your heart, were you and him one?"

"I thought it was the needs and desires deep in my heart." His eyes began to be blank: "But what kind of process was it that made me separate from him and become two people, I can't remember at all. "

"Then do you know how much memory you lost? Do you know the exact dates?"

"I don't know, it's a complete mess." Fanyin explained patiently, he must know that I didn't understand: "You know I have a good memory, I hardly need to use the calendar for work, it's totally fine Remember. Until now, I can still think of a certain month and day ten years ago. I arranged to kill a person of what identity, what method was used, and how much was the bounty on that list. It also includes what skills I learned, exams How many points I got, what questions I did. However, many memories about myself are a mess. Just like Amelie, I can remember how I met you, what I did after I met you, and sometimes I can recall The feeling at the time, but for her, I just know that I love her, she gave birth to me, I even think she is perfect. But what we have been through together, what happened, even what she looks like, I feel that I remember , but I can't tell you exactly what to say. Same to that idiot."

I asked, "What about the other women?"

"Only she is like this. I can't remember anything else, but at least I can remember it when we meet." He stopped suddenly when he said this, and looked at me: "Aren't you angry?"

"what?"

"Those are my true feelings, which may help you communicate with him, so I can't lie because I don't want to make you angry." He said with a good attitude: "Don't be angry."

I really didn't feel angry: "Actually, when I mentioned this topic just now, I wanted to ask you, if you forgot your stepmother and thought Amelie was perfect, it was because those imperfect and cruel ones were You forgot. In other words, it was thrown to No. [-]. Without him, you would be very painful, because they are the closest people to you, and you don't want to accept the fact that they did hurt you at all. That day you said that you heard your own voice crying, we all thought it was Britney, maybe it was really him, because it was too painful, so whenever you think of it, he cries, but he You don’t want to come out, so only you can hear it. But it’s also because he’s another you, so even if you don’t want to, you are forced to empathize with it, and you feel the pain. If so, then he is not a tumor.”

He seemed to be lost in thought. After a long time, he whispered, "I don't think I'm so fragile."

"That……"

"Okay." He looked up at me and said, "It's time for your little rabbit to nurse."

(End of this chapter)