The Edge of Love and Pain: My Double Husband

Chapter 337 Conversion
"Okay." I said, "but I still hope you can adjust as soon as possible. I know that Michelle's incident has shocked you a lot, because until now, we haven't found out anything wrong with her background, which makes her You can no longer trust our investigation methods. However, this also proves that we rely too much on investigations and have lost our own judgment. When your father established this team, he did not have the investigation capabilities he has today. How did he rely on his knowledge? people?"

He laughed, a little willingly: "But he can control me."

"So you don't have the confidence to control someone stronger than you, do you?"

He was still smiling, but because he was cornered by me and had nothing to say, he seemed a little helpless.

"I don't want to disturb you." I said, "I hope I can provide you with an angle of consideration."

He was silent for a while, and then a little sluggish: "I have never believed in my own judgment, because I always feel that people's hearts are fickle and sometimes very scary. But you are right, everyone in me now, including Ah Chang, it's not because of their clean background that I trust them, but because of my understanding of them."

"Ah."

"I will consider it, provided that he is not interested in my wife." He stretched out his hand and said, "Come here and hug her."

I leaned over and hugged him, and asked, "Is it really uncomfortable?"

He shook his head.

He is already like this, and I can't make him more comfortable by nagging, and I can't transfer the alcohol to me for him. It can only satisfy my selfish "I care about him", so even if I really want to say something, I still kept my mouth shut, stood up, saw him looking at me, and explained, "I'll get a towel to wipe it for you."

He let go.

When I got the towel, he was fast asleep, his eyes half-closed like a lounging sloth.

I helped him wipe his face and other exposed parts, and at one point I felt like I had traveled 50 years in the future—wondering if we would all still be alive by then.

He suddenly made a sound: "Lingling..."

"Ok?"

"You have changed a lot." He still closed his eyes.

"I'm getting old." Although I haven't developed fine lines at the corners of my eyes, it's because of the cosmetics. I can feel that my heart has begun to age.It feels kind of sad, but I don't want to admit it, so I always tell myself I'm just mature.

"No." He said, "Grow up."

He is entitled to say that because he is much older than me.I asked, "Do you feel bad?"

He shook his head, eyes still closed: "When I first saw you, I thought you were very cute and pure. Although I didn't fall in love with you, that feeling was very beautiful."

I didn't speak.

Of course I know that innocence is good, cuteness is also good, everything that is pure is beautiful, and everything that is beautiful is good.But it is also perishable.I can't keep it, so I can't fit into the world without being ugly.

Then he was silent for a long time, opened his eyes, and looked at me.

I still didn't speak, avoided his gaze, and helped him cover the quilt.

I heard him speak: "Lingling..."

"Ok?"

"I'm both happy and guilty," he said. "The happy thing is that you're stupid not because you're really stupid, but because you're young. Now you're older and smarter and not reckless. The guilty thing is that, You grew up not because I was taking care of you, but because I made you suffer a lot."

I shook my head, even now, I'm still being stupid because I didn't leave him.

I said, "You told me before that you like smart women."

"Yeah." He said with a smile.

"In comparison, do you like the me now or the me before?"

"Now." He is still smiling: "I didn't like you before."

"You are straightforward." I was speechless.

He smiled for a while, and slowly closed his smile: "Actually, I just wanted to say at first, no matter what you become, I will love you. But think about it, I am not qualified to say such things in front of you." I don’t like or hate your current changes, but it doesn’t affect my love for you.” He sighed again when he said this: “I have no right to say that. "

From a certain point of view, he is indeed not qualified.Because I have never given him the same test as he gave me, and he really can't prove that he can love me at any time-Sweetie doesn't love me.

Sometimes I also think that my whole life is to prove that love may not be as beautiful and powerful as it is said to be.Anyway, if I had to do it all over again, I would definitely not enter into this marriage with him again, and I would rather not know him.Even if I still have to grow up in the end, I still have to become a philistine, ugly, calculating, old-fashioned... I don't want to take on such a challenge again.

But I said, "According to Britney's theory, you have always loved me, but sometimes it shows on him and sometimes on you. You also always hate me, sometimes on him, sometimes on you. This kind of hatred is manifested in you again. But for other people, when they love, the hate falls asleep, and when they hate, the love disappears. Thinking about it this way, things between you and me are not too bad. "

He looked at me, lost in thought.

"So don't say you are not qualified." I said, "For so many years, you have always loved me, which is already rare for you."

This matter can't tell which is right and which is wrong. The conclusion is that we are still together.

No matter what it is for, I must be with him.

In the afternoon, Dr. Li called and said he had finished reading the diary.I invited him to the study.

He came with a copy of the diary. After we exchanged pleasantries, I first apologized for Fanyin. He said: "He has already apologized to me, and I can fully understand him. He is very scared now because this personality is Strong, the source of his self-confidence is his strong rationality, so he is very afraid, when he loses his rationality, you will all leave him. At this time, any slight disturbance is enough to make him react aggressively."

I nodded and said, "It's good that you understand."

"I understand, and I already have a judgment." He said with a smile: "This diary has given me new speculation."

His speculations are quite accurate, not just from the perspective of medicine itself.

Last time he completely covered Fan Yin's situation, so I hurriedly asked, "What kind of speculation?"

"In the diary, the two personalities have undergone two reorganizations." He said: "The first time was the front, when it was the neatly written personality, that is, the second personality is now the master personality, because the second personality at that time offended Therefore, the main character "punished" him, but it can be analyzed from the back, it is reorganization. The second time is actually the last page. Analysis, I think it was after this that the main character at that time gave up his status, reorganized his personality, and assigned an important component that determines who is the main personality—memory, to the main personality. Therefore, the subsequent situation is The strong personality completely became the No.1 personality, because the original No.1 personality planned to give up everything and kill himself."

"Yes." I kept thinking, is that what the words on the last page meant?After all, almost all speculations about this point before, and the diary proves its authenticity, that is to say, this speculation is not just a guess now, it has been confirmed, and this can be used as an important information for treatment .Of course I was very happy, and quickly asked: "Then what speculation do you have?"

"For so many years, the strong personality has always been the master personality, and he has always mastered most of the resources, while the second personality, the former master personality, has always been the weak side, but judging from his avoidance of treatment, He has always wanted to regain his position." He said: "I think all the actions of the second personality now will revolve around this. Therefore, my guess is that to reorganize the personality, the current main personality must be in charge, and All the actions of the second personality are trying to force the main personality to reorganize."

That's right, I said, "But he's been making trouble for the family."

"It depends on the character weaknesses of the current master personality." He said: "The second personality is quite aware of the master personality's character weaknesses, but if he wants to be sure that nothing will go wrong, he has to take it slowly. But at least there is one thing that can Rest assured, that is, their strengths and weaknesses will change, but their personalities will not.”

"Memory will change too?"

"Memory is one of the important factors that determine strength." He said: "Therefore, No.1 can rest assured that the initiative is in his hands."

I seemed to understand what happened yesterday, so I talked about what happened yesterday and said: "So, what the second personality said before is actually an illusion, and he has not become stronger in essence. And he yesterday The reason for this is because he hopes to make No. 1 lose confidence through the failure of his children and career?"

"I think this is the starting point, and he will definitely think of a more careful method." Dr. Li said, "But there is no evidence for my speculation. We need to find evidence."

"It's okay." I said, "Honestly, you've figured out a lot of things, and I really trust your speculations. Do you have any suggestions?"

He pursed his lips and said nothing.

"You say whatever you want." I said, "I won't be angry."

"It should be clear that both of their personalities are him, so who is the main personality is not the most important thing."

"Ah."

"The most important thing is that they have the possibility of fusion."

"Ah."

"Traditional methods believe that both sides must have the willingness to merge." He said: "No. Personality may no longer be able to build trust in me."

I didn't speak.

"So first, I need to build trust with the second personality." He hesitated. "I think the switch is a good opportunity."

I still didn't speak.

"When the two personality statuses switch, information will start to exchange. This process must not be completed in a day. You can take the opportunity to negotiate during this period." He also knows that his idea is too weird, so he is very careful: "If this does not succeed , After the conversion is successful, I also have the opportunity to fully negotiate with the second personality, so that he has the desire to merge."

(End of this chapter)