The Edge of Love and Pain: My Double Husband

Chapter 594 I'm not honest enough
I said, "If it's her, would you like me to take her away?"

He didn't seem surprised, just asked: "How do you want to deal with it?"

"Maybe kill her," I hate when people treat me like this, especially after knowing that it is such a little bastard, the anger in my heart is even stronger: "Or other extreme means to retaliate."

He didn't speak.

I asked, "Is there anything else? If nothing else, I'm going to see Yin Yin."

He remained silent.

I walked towards the door, and he said, "Lingyu."

I stood still, and for no reason, my heart began to pound wildly.

He opened his mouth: "Are you lying to your father with those words just now, or...Really?"

I think it doesn't matter whether it is true or not, the important thing is that I want it to be true or false.

Before I met old man Fan that day, I hoped it was false, but at this moment, I hope it is true.

After hesitating for a long time, I turned around: "Jian Cong, I might really..."

"Okay," he interrupted me: "Let me confess first."

He looks calm.

I shut my mouth.

"Qing Lan called me that day. She was sick and needed help," he said, "Otherwise, I would have to pick you up that day."

I said, "Is it worth flying ten hours just to be sick?"

"You know her situation. She is a wanted criminal, and she messed up everything." His tone was natural, as if Qinglan was his family: "If I don't go, no one will care about her at all."

I asked, "Didn't she befriend your cousin?"

"She fell out with him," he said.

I continued to ask, "Don't you really hate her?"

He stopped talking again.

I said: "I really don't understand your logic. Since you hate her, how can her matter have anything to do with you? Even if you are a kind person by nature, there is no need to go there yourself. Isn't it tiring to fly for so long? Your The health is not good."

He showed a tired face: "I won't do it in the future."

I asked, "Do you like her?"

He replied quickly: "I don't like her kind of person."

"I'm talking about her," I emphasized the word "one": "If you like her, you like it. Why hide it? If you like her, then I'm unlucky in this matter. As long as she confesses the chief envoy, I will Don't seek her bad luck."

He was silent for a moment, looked at me and said, "Can you answer my question first?"

I knew what he was referring to, and I said, "No, I want to listen to you first."

He didn't speak, still looking at me.

I continued: "Last time I suspected that there was something wrong with the two of you, Jian Cong, you are younger than me, you have no children, no pressure, although your health is not very good, but you still have a lot of retreats, if you can, choose yourself The one you love can only be happy in the second half of your life. Otherwise, what is the use of saving your life? Do you live in pain and wait to wither?"

He asked, "Do you feel happier before than now?"

I didn't speak.

He said, "Come on, let's have another drink."

I don't live in this house often, but because there is a small bar, the few bottles of wine are just for the bar's appearance.I sent someone to buy peanuts, and sat in the bar with Meng Jiancong. In fact, I saw it early in the morning. Since today, he has been preoccupied.

None of us mentioned these things at first, drinking together and talking about simple, innocuous things about mutual friends.

I drank until I was a little dizzy, and he must have become less rational, so I asked, "When will you talk about serious things?"

Sure enough, he was a little confused: "What serious business?"

"Before you gave the house to your father, you at least took her to live in it? Otherwise, how could she have the key?"

"I placed her there before sending her to America." Holding his glass, he whispered, "Let me ask you a question."

"Just ask."

"If in the future, you meet a man who is the same type as your ex-husband, do you think you will be attracted to him again?"

"No," I said, "I'm not a masochist."

"Lie." He whispered, "You will. I also only recently realized that people are always attracted to the same type."

I said, "So you like her."

He shook his head, leaned back on the sofa, and said, "You said just now that I still have a way out, but I don't have legs. What's the use of having a way?"

I asked, "Are they all the same type?"

"Ah."

"Maybe it's different," I said, "everyone is different."

He looked at me and smiled: "You really don't feel anything about me."

"No." I said, "I'm very angry with you. If you like her, why lie to me, why lie to her. My father just lost his temper with me, saying that I have no self-respect."

"Sorry, but I don't think she is the mastermind," he said.

I heard the words and looked at him: "You already knew it was her, didn't you?"

He didn't speak.

"Meng Jiancong," I was really angry this time, "Since you know, why didn't you tell me? Why do you keep asking me if I still love him? You even put the blame on him?"

"Because I want to persuade her to tell me the mastermind first, and when we let you know together, I can intercede for her." He said helplessly: "I am also very angry about her participation in this matter, but she also did it for me. .”

"What is she for you?" Putting a cuckold on him or for him?What logic?

It took him a long time to say: "I also saw that video."

I felt annoyed like being stripped naked and humiliated, and couldn't help clenching my teeth.

He continued: "She said she didn't want me to spend my whole life with a woman who didn't love me at all."

I opened my mouth, "Then why do you ask me if I'm lying to my father?"

He said: "I only have one leg left, and I don't want to lose it again. You escaped from that quagmire, and I know you don't want to go back. But it is undeniable that you and I seem to fall in love with dangerous people easily. But People can't just take risks in life. You have to take care of your children and get married to meet your business needs. I don't want to worry my family anymore. I like you very much, and I think you are a very suitable marriage partner, but for each other, you and I are too much Stable, not adventurous enough, no passion, there is no passion between you and me, I can see that you are very afraid of not getting married, and I am also very afraid, because both you and I are afraid that we will be tempted again and return to that quagmire. "

I said, "Is this the truth?"

"Well," he said, looking at me, "sorry, I wasn't honest enough earlier."

I didn't speak.

I understood what he meant, and he guessed me right.

I don't know if I will be attracted again if I meet another man of the same type as Fanyin, but I still haven't forgotten him.

I wanted to forget him very much, so I kept hurting him, which cut off my own way out.I thought that in this way, I could live in the sunshine and be happy, just like a "normal person".

But in fact, I am even more unhappy, and I have no energy to manage my current life, even if it looks glamorous.I can't integrate into this happy world in my father's eyes, and I can't fall in love with Meng Jiancong, a good man in his eyes.I know that my father guards against me showing signs of still loving Fanyin like a drug addict. I don’t think there is anything wrong with him, but I don’t think he regards me as a “normal person”.

I gradually regained the loneliness of my childhood with no one to talk to, the loneliness without conflict and pain but without warmth.

I think I am different from Meng Jiancong, he is obsessed with the feeling of adventure, but I am obsessed with Fanyin who keeps making trouble for me.

But I can't go back, just like what Meng Jiancong said, it's a close call.

For ten minutes, neither Meng Jiancong nor I spoke.I think he, like me, is somewhat at a loss about the current situation.

Until Meng Jiancong said: "After listening to what I said, are you afraid to register with me?"

I looked at his smiling face and said nothing.

He said: "My mother is not a problem. Until now, she hasn't told my father about it. She can't hold me back."

I said, "Forget it."

He didn't seem surprised, he didn't insist like last time.

I don't want to hide my feelings: "In the past few years, I have been pretending that I don't feel indebted to him, and I feel that divorcing him is a desertion, and I think I like you very much. I feel that time flies so fast that I can do this Live the rest of my life. So I really want to kill the person who did this, she really humiliated me and broke the peace I had so hard to build."

He didn't say anything, just looked at me uneasily.

"I found out a few days ago, and I have been hesitating whether to tell you." I looked at him, "Whether there is a mastermind or not, and who the mastermind is, I would make her disappear. But since you have confessed to this point today, I I decided to give you face."

He smiled: "Lingyu, I admit that I am attracted to her, but that's not love..."

"Go and fix your mother, let's have a wedding." I didn't want to listen to him go on, I'm not a fool, "I want to ask her to be a bridesmaid."

The smile froze on his face.

I asked: "How is it?"

"You..." He said after a long time, "You know why she did this."

"Jian Cong, don't think that I don't know what you're thinking. You said you were forgiving me and asked to continue the wedding, but you know that you can't hide this matter after all. You want to forgive me first so that you can find it out in front of me in the future. Plead for her." I said, "I was indeed deceived by you, and I was still touched for a few days."

He said: "You are wrong, I..."

"I'm not wrong. I feel stable with me, but I can't help but be attracted to her. I believe that you are still restrained until now, and you may really like me a little bit." I said, "It's not because I You just decided to treat her like this, in fact, I didn't intend to tell you, in this case, you don't even have the option to make me angry with her. "

(End of this chapter)